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A Fan's Notes (Vintage Contemporaries) [Kindle Edition]

Frederick Exley
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Book Description

This fictional memoir, the first of an autobiographical trilogy, traces a self professed failure's nightmarish decent into the underside of American life and his resurrection to the wisdom that emerges from despair.

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Editorial Reviews Review

Frederick Exley recounts his life as the son of a hero-worshipped high school athlete who is doomed to be a spectator not only of sports, but of life. From irresponsible drifter, to dreamer of impossible dreams, to drunkard, to frequent patient at an insane asylum, Exley carried baggage from his childhood through much of his adult life, never feeling he could escape the dark cloud of expectation that hung over him. When Frank Gifford, former New York Giants backfield star, is injured, Exley is jolted into painful realizations about his life, and a confession.


"A Fan's Notes is one man's life written with brilliance and insight. No one should have had Exley's life, and no one who has read it can forget it" -- James Dickey "Writers of every kind of aesthetic and cultural persuasion talk about it and press it on their friends. When I urge it on a friend who asks what it is about or what it is like, I say read it, just read it" -- Geoffrey Wolff "Astonishing... It is visceral and intimate. Self-absorbed, it is also searingly perceptive about what happens between fathers and sons, men and women" Independent

Product Details

  • File Size: 547 KB
  • Print Length: 401 pages
  • Page Numbers Source ISBN: 0679720766
  • Publisher: Vintage (December 15, 2010)
  • Sold by: Random House LLC
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B004EBT5FM
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #177,383 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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157 of 162 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Frank Gifford and the Meaning of Life March 31, 2001
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A buddy of mine used to give a Christmas party every year that everyone eagerly looked forward to. The reason was that he, more than anyone else, would get outrageously drunk. Standing next to the keg in the garage, tipping back and forth, he would insult everyone who came near him in the vilest, most obscene terms. The rest of us stood out there laughing until our bellies hurt. The beauty of these parties was that the host's getting crazy allowed everyone else to feel a little freer to cut loose themselves. The parties ended up getting very wild and were huge fun.

I thought of this while reading A Fan's Notes, not just because the author is an unabashed, morbid alcoholic (although he is), but because he is so many other horrible things as well. In and out of insane asylums; watching soap-operas for days on end while lying on his mother's davenport, eating oreos and masturbating; tormenting his father-in-law; abandoning his wife--that this loser, this crawling degenerate, was able to put together this magnificent, hilarious, scathing piece of literature . . . well, it should give even the most unworthy of us hope that we might be able to do the same. No matter how drunk you got at the Christmas party, the host was always drunker. No matter how irrelevant you may think your life is, Mr. Exley's was way more so.

It is a fictionalized memoir, which means that basically he wrote about his life and gave himself the liberty to stretch things here and there. Don't look for a straight-forward, page-turning, sequenced plot here. It is the kind of a book where the author starts to talk about something, which reminds him of something else, which then requires him to go into a lengthy background explanation.
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31 of 34 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars More relevant than ever May 5, 2000
In these ridiculous '' times, when the making of money has somehow assumed a hip cachet among the young, this fantastic novel is more important than ever. Exley's struggle to simply live, get by, in a family, society and world in which he feels like such a stranger, in which his values alienate him from peers and colleagues, is fascinating, funny and painful. The narrative is simply gripping, and there is never the sentimental solace of 'lessons learned' or personal transformation. This is one man's view of himself and the world, a view never seen on TV, in the movies, or heard on the radio. And his voice is needed more than ever. Hopefully, this book will be kept in print perpetually.
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10 of 10 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A Wild Ride April 24, 2000
Exley died of alcoholism in 1992 at the age of 63. Most of his life had been spent living with friends and family members. The only job he apparently ever held was as a high school English teacher for a couple of years. He was an utter failure, an utter misfit in mainstream American life. In fact a recent biography of him by Jonathan Yardley is entitled "Misfit." He wrote this novel as well as fictional memoirs, "Pages from a Cold Island" and "Last Notes from Home." He won several prizes for non-fictional short pieces and journalistic bits, too.
This novel is regarded as a cult classic and consists of a picaresque account of Exley's drunken wanderings in and out of a mental institution along with great portrayals of the strange characters he had encountered in his life. He is tortured by the memory of his father, a football hero who died when Exley was a teenager. Unlike his father, Exley is an abysmal failure at everything in life. He is a football fan, fixated on the New York Giants and most particularly, Frank Gifford. In fact therein lies the heart of his big epiphany at the end of the novel. Just as importantly, he has wonderful insights into the torture of becoming a writer and what he went through to get there. The book is just brutally, unbelievably honest.
It is most certainly a book for only a small number of readers--those who have something of the misfit in themselves. If you have a bit of that in you, it is an hilarious and rollicking read.
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21 of 24 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Now THIS is a good book!! January 30, 2003
A Fan's Notes is one of the best books I have ever read. This guy is amazing. Keep a dictionary handy--it's well worth it. Some say this book is more sad than funny. I disagree wholeheartedly. A conventional life is what's sad. Mr. Exley-- drunken sot or not, is beyond eloquent. The writing is beautiful and the story is thought provoking. When I read the last sentence I felt a tangle of strong emotions that I still have not, nor do I care to, unravel. Thank God for people like Frederick Exley. Get rid of what you think you know about living a successful life and just enjoy.
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7 of 7 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars How idealism and self-pity destroys man. April 8, 2006
As I went through A Fan's Notes I couldn't stop thinking of it as a sequel to J.D. Salinger's famous coming of age novel The Catcher in the Rye. From the utter lack of direction to his search for the ideal and deeper meaning to life, Fred Exley is every bit the Holden Caulfield. Exley details his life of alcoholism, his dreams of making it big on Madison Avenue and marrying the perfect girl with the golden thighs, his numerous trips to his mother's davenport, the mental asylum and back again, his mindless endeavors with the mysterious Mr. Blue, the Counselor and anyone else he can hit up for money, and of course his infatuation with the inimitable Frank Gifford.

Though it may read like one man's rant about a wasted life and lost opportunities, A Fan's Notes is a reflection of people's universal albeit often doomed quest to escape anonymity, and ultimately matter in this world. Exley's insatiable desire for fame and not so subtle rebellion against society are his ways of attempting to be "more than a mere fan in this life." Oppressed by the shadows of his father and his fellow USC grad Frank Gifford, Exley is consumed by his need to escape. However, he is also haunted by the harrowing superficiality and phoniness of the reality. Unable to reconcile his pursuit of purpose and his ideal vision of the world, Exley sinks into depression and finds himself sustained only by alcohol and football.

By his own admission, Exley is stuck in the past or rather past-present, utterly incapacitated by the continuous wave of change. This book should serve as a warning to people's indulgence in self-pity and constant comparison with false heroes. Indeed it was only after Frank Gifford's debilitating injury that Exley was able to come to terms with his life and accomplish the one act that now defines his life- writing A Fan's Notes.
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3.0 out of 5 stars Written a bit tediously but with a flair of language that is unique...
A fascinating story of the travails and passages of a man's life. Written a bit tediously but with a flair of language that is unique and even,at times, challenging.
Published 1 month ago by Paul S. Timpanelli
4.0 out of 5 stars It is a puzzle how I missed this years ago ...
It is a puzzle how I missed this years ago. It is a compelling if, at times, a self-indulgent and disturbing read. Read more
Published 1 month ago by R. B. Scott
5.0 out of 5 stars A Great Book!
Well, OK, maybe not great in the sense of War and Peace, but a book which resonates in our lives in the 20th and 21st centuries. A book that holds nothing back, warts and all. Read more
Published 5 months ago by J. D. Barrett
5.0 out of 5 stars The man can write...
This is the story of a mentally unbalanced individual who shares his insight and motivations in vivid detail. It is gut wrenching and heart breaking, yet it is not without hope. Read more
Published 5 months ago by Goodman B
2.0 out of 5 stars Working the Angles
I am a fan of Charles Bukowski, and was sold on the book "A Fan's Notes" when I heard that author Frederick Exley was a kind of East Coast Bukowski. Read more
Published 8 months ago by D. Scott
4.0 out of 5 stars Notes of a fan
I have long had a soft spot in my heart for Fred Exley and A Fan's Notes. It is not just about a guy who is a Frank Gifford groupie, although that is how it was first pitched to... Read more
Published 11 months ago by tony covatta
4.0 out of 5 stars A Fan's Notes
Actually I bought it for a relative who read it several years ago and wanted to read it again. I skimmed it and found it interesting. He thoroughly enjoyed re-reading it.
Published 12 months ago by floro
4.0 out of 5 stars A Lost Life
The penny finally drops on Ex when he realizes the roar of the crowd will never be for him and he can join the crowd or forever remain trapped in himself. Read more
Published 18 months ago by Sean J O'Neill
5.0 out of 5 stars A must read with many dog-eared pages
I just finished reading this book and could not recommend it soon enough. So many laugh-out-loud moments and fantastic phrases and words I hadn't seen used before. Read more
Published 21 months ago by nate
5.0 out of 5 stars A Writer with One Great Story to Tell
Though it would be nearly impossible to categorize "A Fan's Notes", it is after all a "Fictional Memoir", it does fall squarely into 2 distinct groups.

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Published 21 months ago by Literary Larry
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