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Acidexia [Kindle Edition]

Rachel Haywire
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Book Description

"Acidexia" is a book of writings by Rachel Haywire that first appeared in her Acidexia online journal between 2001 and 2004.

At the turn of the millennium, an institutionalized "mentally ill" teenage girl is kicked out of her home to live life on the streets. She embarks upon an odyssey through underground subcultures and cyberspace while endlessly crisscrossing the country by bus and hitchhiking. Reinventing herself as Acidexia, a poetic terrorist and radical deconstructionist, she unleashes a torrid maelstrom of rants, diatribes and mindfuck prose in her online journal. Acidexia inspires a devoted cult following online and offline as she intentionally blurs the lines between "virtual reality" and "real life" in her provocative communiqués to the universe.

Acidexia is an authentic, highly personal coming of age autobiography and a cultural artifact documenting the fringes of culture at the dawn of the Information Age. It's an artful literary collage of journal entries, travelogue, revolting manifestos, street poetry, sci-fi riffs, Dadaist experiments and cultural critique that rips apart and reassembles every fragment of culture the author confronts: youth counterculture, music scenes, Discordianism, anarchy, transhumanism, insanity, and more.

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About the Author

Rachel Haywire is the founder of the Extreme Futurist Festival and a leading voice in digital media. She is known as an author, music producer, model, performance artist, and cultural engineer. Credited for bringing DIY Transhumanism into the mainstream, she has established a new futurist subculture with the goal of making the artistic world more intelligent and the intelligent world more artistic.

 Somewhat of a cult icon and agent provocateur, Rachel spends her time meeting with the most interesting minds of her generation so she can redefine the human species and makes no apologies for her attitude of total evolution.

 Rachel currently lives in Los Angeles, California.

Product Details

  • File Size: 278 KB
  • Print Length: 266 pages
  • Publisher: Everything-Permitted (June 25, 2012)
  • Sold by: Amazon Digital Services, Inc.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B008EQR5ZK
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13 of 17 people found the following review helpful
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I knew a bit about the author before reading Acidexia, so I was prepared for the wild stories of acid trips and punk rock squats and so forth, as well as for the artful mixture of transhumanist and agitprop themes -- but I wasn't prepared for the deeply moving, heartfelt nature of this memoir. Wow.

Rachel Haywire has succeeded here in a big way: she has done what most artists only aspire to, and created something that is both intensely personal and powerfully universal. While her life and mind are very different than mine, as I read her story I could empathize with almost everything she wrote -- because it was written in such a profoundly honest way.

By "honest" I don't mean that the book is necessarily wholly accurate as a memoir, though it is written in that format -- I have no idea the extent to which the details are real vs. embroidered -- but rather that it has a rare sort of "higher honesty", which comprises conceptual/spiritual truth regardless of the details. Sometimes this sort of truth can be truer than the empirical consensus-reality facts anyway.

The prose veers from the casual to the literary, and from the traditionally diaristic to the prose-poetic and occasionally verse-poetic. Some real linguistic gems are sprinkled quasi-randomly throughout.

William Burroughs and Henry Miller come to mind, as do Kate Braverman and Kathy Acker. If those guys had novelized their LiveJournals during their early years, they might have come up with works in the same genre as Acidexia.

Has the feel of being an early work of a genius writer. Curious to see what the author produces as her life progresses.

Definitely recommended for those who enjoy deep thinking, strong emotions, and informal, occasionally hallucinogenically poetic prose....
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8 of 12 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Honest, confronting and painfully familiar. July 2, 2012
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I had awaited Acidexia for a long while now, and wasn't too sure what to expect. After reading the entire book in one sitting, I can safely say I didn't waste my time.

It starts off unhinged, uncaring..A relentless diary of damage and a well painted picture of what it is like for some people growing up in those situations. It almost plays out like a story, taking us on this journey and letting us writhe and burn in the bad while embracing the more subtle self-empowerment messages.

Nothing is held back in Acidexia either. It is definitely not your parents Memoir. So many issues in Acidexia are just as relevant now as they were when written back in the early 2000's. I found myself relating to a large majority of these situations, having been institutionalized at an early age also. Rachel Haywire writes with an honesty not often found. she doesn't attempt to make herself look like a saint nor does she attempt to sugar-coat anything that happened. she gives it to us raw which makes it all the more relatable.

I found myself laughing, frowning and reminiscing through some of the entries in Acidexia. Some of the writings may be hard for a lot to understand, and Acidexia is definitely not a "pickup and read" book. But for the people who read it and understand it, there is an absolute gem here to be found in Acidexia.

It didn't take me long to be hooked. the way it was written was almost colloquial, which definitely made it all the more real. A lot of what was said made me think afterwards and i will definitely come back to it.

Acidexia brings light into the dark, and dark into the light in a lot of ways.

I thoroughly enjoyed every second of Acidexia, and would love to one day own it in paperback form.
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7 of 11 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars On the Way to Transhumanism July 1, 2012
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ACIDEXIA is an initiation story rather than a mere diary. It is an obstacle race full of anger and tenacity. Even when the heroine is running away she displays an amazing sense of purpose. She wants to escape her suburban Florida and the psychiatric hospital where she had been interned and to triumph in the cyber world. Not any cyber space. Rachel Haywire yearns for transhumanism which is, if my understanding is correct, one step or more beyond Ray Kurzweil's Singularity (The Singularity Is Near: When Humans Transcend Biology).

Don't look for philosophy in ACIDEXIA; it is an existential firework where it is difficult to distinguish between life and style. Think about a mix of Jack Kerouak's On the Road for the plot (Rachel Haywire is always moving from one city to another) and Hubert Selby's Last Exit to Brooklyn for the style, and you will have an approximation of this new meteor that crashed in our literary environment.

Contrary to her illustrious predecessors, Rachel Haywire knows what she wants. Not only she is a pure rebel (not a revolutionary, mind you, in a revolution there is always an overtone of constraint), but she wants to participate to the advent of a transhuman community based on the Internet and advanced genetics.

However it is music, not the Internet which constitutes the thread that crosses the modern society chaos. Rachel vibes with any type of industrial music: Einstürzende Neubauten (
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Most Recent Customer Reviews
5.0 out of 5 stars A powerful and unforgettable book
For those familiar with Rachel Haywire's current writing for Futurist-oriented websites and other forums, or for her recent "I am not a woman in tech" article for Medium,... Read more
Published 15 months ago by Amazon Customer
4.0 out of 5 stars An autobiographical wild ride
Acidexia turns the "quest story" genre inside-out and upside-down, with the more-or-less-true adventures of a young woman running both away (from an abusive institution) and... Read more
Published 23 months ago by Ace Lightning
5.0 out of 5 stars I loved it.
Millennial shotgun blasts from the blogging edge of cool.

A pageturner epistolary narrative of cybercultural and magickal self-discovery in perfect postmodern... Read more
Published on January 10, 2013 by R. Myers
5.0 out of 5 stars Searching for Cassidy
Rachel (Acidexia) Haywire isn't Kerouac. She wasn't on the road in the shadow of someone else, reporting on what she wanted to be but never was. Read more
Published on August 17, 2012 by RobtClements
4.0 out of 5 stars A masterwork of social engineering.
This was an interesting read that made me reconsider an internal personal description:

Previously I described myself as Violently Misanthropic. Read more
Published on August 3, 2012 by The Shelterer of Cats.
5.0 out of 5 stars Intriguing, funny and disturbing
Rachel Haywire writes in a unique fashion I'll admit it's a bit hard to adjust to how she wrote it because she doesn't write this novel in the traditional approach but the book is... Read more
Published on July 3, 2012 by S. Hasse
4.0 out of 5 stars post modern memoir of the counterculture
This book reads like a hallucinogenic diary. It reminds me at times of the first time I read Chuck Palahniuk. A memoir of a mutant trying to find others like her. Read more
Published on July 2, 2012 by mthead
5.0 out of 5 stars Haunting memoir - hard to put down
Having grown up in Florida this memoir hits close to home and reminds me why I left too. Easy to read, hard to stop. Highly recommend this book.
Published on July 2, 2012 by Kate Kligman
1.0 out of 5 stars far from Kerouac, far from intelligible English!
This "book" is a pile of rambling and childish nonsense, and to compare it to Rimbaud in any way is an idiocy of monstrous proportion. Read more
Published on July 2, 2012 by Timothy O'Leary
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