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Alex [Kindle Edition]

Adam J Nicolai
4.6 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (951 customer reviews)

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Book Description

Ian Colmes fears he's going mad.

His son, Alex, was killed six months ago. The boy was only five years old. In the wake of his death, Ian drove his wife away and nearly lost his job. Now, alone in an empty house, Ian is seeing his son again.

Every vision is a repeat of something Alex said or did in life: aching memories replaying themselves for Ian's eyes alone. Are these images of Alex real? Has he found a way back, to forgive or condemn his father?

Or has Ian's sorrow quickened into psychosis?

With a masterful hand, bestselling Kindle Horror author Adam J Nicolai paints a picture of grief, madness, and the furious strength of a father's love for his son.



Amazon readers are saying:

"Mr. Nicolai maintains a sense of creeping disquiet and uncertainty throughout the narrative; I was unsure whether Ian was haunted by his son or slowly going crazy until the last few pages of the novel."
- Uncle Progress - 5 stars

"I ... found myself marveling at how well-crafted many sentences are. I would find myself stopping and re-reading them, just so I could savor their beauty a little longer."
- Basil Owen - 5 stars

"Mr. Nicolai uses language beautifully. He paints very vivid images in very few words and he does so brilliantly." - Tifainé N. Highly - 5 stars

"Mr. Nicolai's brutally straightforward prose and clear love for his characters... combine into something vital and hungry (like the early works of - dare I speak his name? - Stephen King)."
- Ryan J. Holthaus - 5 stars

"[O]ften it is easy to see why any given writer had to self publish (and often seemingly without any editor). That is definitely not the case here. The writing was intense, compelling and intelligent."
- Beth C - 4 stars

"[T]he ending was nailed perfectly."
- Jason Plowman - 5 stars

"For anyone who has been near people in the depths of horrific and insatiable grief, Ian's hundred mile an hour flight into emotional and physical self-destruction rings true."
- Shawna B. - 5 stars

"During the climax of the story my 1.5 year old daughter read my emotions and instinctively curled up in my arms and remained there [for the] rest of the book. This was not just a story for me - it was an experience."
- Ben - 5 stars

"If Alex [is] a sign of things to come, keep your eyes on this author. You will not regret it."
- Grace McDonough - 5 stars

Alex, by Adam J Nicolai. You will not sleep tonight.

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From the Author

Hi. My name is Adam J Nicolai. 

I write novels that come from the fear I feel everyday, the wild hopes that drive me, and the things I wish were true. My writing may have swearing. It may deal with uncomfortable topics. It may go to places none of us want to visit. The problem is, in our nightmares and daydreams, while driving or showering or sleeping, we all visit these places anyway. 

I write so we don't have to visit them alone.

About the Author

Adam J Nicolai lives near Minneapolis, MN with his wife, Joy, and their two children, Isaac and Rydia. He is a life-long nerd, game lover, author, Star Wars fan, Dungeon Master, and amateur game designer, as well as a former project manager and policy debate coach.  

He has written three novels: Alex, Rebecca, and Children of a Broken Sky.  All are available in both e-book and paperback.

Product Details

  • File Size: 1378 KB
  • Print Length: 305 pages
  • Publisher: Lone Road Publishing, LLC; 2nd edition (November 25, 2011)
  • Sold by: Amazon Digital Services, Inc.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B006FA7Z8E
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #27,061 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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67 of 72 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A heart-wrenching, mind-bending ride November 29, 2011
Format:Kindle Edition
I read this book in two sittings within about 12 hours of each other. This is rare for me. Most books I like to put down after 20 or 30 pages, but I was compelled to keep reading this one in a way that seldom happens for me. Although it was gripping and a fast read, it was really hard to read, too: the first third or so was just so heart-wrenching, and then Ian (the main character) started doing crazy things, which was a bit uncomfortable to read at times. This isn't a criticism, though, because I take it that's what the author was going for. I'm not a parent myself, but the way Ian's reaction to losing his son was described hit me hard. That said, sometimes Ian's reactions seemed a little over-the-top in the jerkish direction, but in the end you will care about him nonetheless.

My favorite theme of the book was what I would call "Really Crazy vs. Real Haunting?" This stuff was awesome. As a real-life curmudgeonly skeptic about ghosts and anything paranormal, I have to admit I found myself rooting for "Really Crazy" the whole time. I actually think the whole book is compatible with my interpretation, although I imagine many readers will think "Real Haunting" won out in the end. I'm not sure about the author's intentions were, and that makes this a good novel. You'll have to decide for yourself!

This was a great, memorable book. It took me awhile to recover from its emotional thrashing, but it was all worth it for compelling characters, plot twists, and the intellectual fun of playing with multiple interpretations of what's going on. Highly recommended!
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26 of 27 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Hard subject matter handled well, imo June 15, 2012
Format:Paperback|Verified Purchase
Bought this on Kindle based on some reviews here about the psychological question as to whether the father Ian is truly going insane with grief over the death of his son, Alex - or if his son *is* haunting him. I'm not a parent, and I wouldn't recommend it to some friends who are as it deals with a sensitive subject and every parent's worst nightmare, (child raped and murdered by a pedophile)- some scenes could be rough on the heart strings when Alex visits Ian having known what happened to him- but I thought it was handled well and not gratuitous nor glorifying the scum sucking pig who deserved worse than he got. The plot flowed well, the pacing bogged down a little in the middle- not too much - mostly with Ian and his work place, and the relationship with his wife (who had no idea this was going on, and why Ian couldn't tell her and blame it Ian's grief and work it out "psychologically" was something that bugged me a bit)
I also wasn't quite sure *how* certain areas of ghostly interactions merged with his real life experiences when it turned towards physical manifestations from Alex's killer showing up as well (who ofc, was dead and I like how that happened) - but that may be intentional on the author's half.
It can be a straight up ghost story - or it could be a "all in your head" with heavy coincidences in the character's life kind of story. It pulls off both. I really enjoyed it and read it in one sitting. It plays with your head a bit and ponders how the mind can drum up physical apparitions that could seriously hurt you. The parts with the toy stuffed elephant and cat (Mr. Tuskers and Mowsalot) acting as a kind of physical shield of power for mental/emotional and spiritual stress and support was credible without being corny. At least to me. :-)
I recommend this one, if you're not extremely sensitive to this kind of subject matter.
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69 of 80 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Excellent Read November 29, 2011
Format:Kindle Edition
I downloaded this short novel on the recommendation of a friend, and like the previous reviewer finished it in one sitting. I was pleasantly surprised by both the quality of the writing and the pacing of the story. The protagonist, Ian, is initially a rather unsympathetic figure, but one soon sees a very interesting character arc developing. Mr. Nicolai maintains a sense of creeping disquiet and uncertainty throughout the narrative; I was unsure whether Ian was haunted by his son or slowly going crazy until the last few pages of the novel. A surprise twist and an explosive conclusion provide a very satisfying end to the story. Mr Nicolai trips up on several technical issues (his grasp of how firearms look, sound and work is noticeably weak), but this did not significantly detract from my enjoyment of the novel and will probably only bother the seriously geeky.

The quality of the novel is especially impressive considering this is a self-published work by a first-time author; it reminds me a bit of early Stephen King (clearly one of Mr. Nicolai's influences). Wholeheartedly recommended, especially for fans of horror or suspense novels. I hope to see more from Mr. Nicolai soon!
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28 of 31 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Disturbing in a Good way January 3, 2012
By Beth C
Format:Kindle Edition|Verified Purchase
I tend to be skeptical anymore about self-published writers, which is unfair in a global sense, I know. But often it is easy to see why any given writer *had* to self publish (and often seemingly without any editor). That is definitely not the case here. The writing was intense, compelling and intelligent. The emotional bonds were deep and believable and Ian's bewilderment and fear are palpable. I look forward to more from this author.
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27 of 33 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Devastating, Intense, Brilliant June 28, 2012
Format:Paperback
This book had me hooked from the first moment I started reading. Any person, even if you don't have children, can easily slip into the shoes of the main character and experience his anguish while he tries to come to terms with his child's murder, and the horror he feels at reliving his memories of Alex. It is absolutely brutal in the best kind of way. You want him to find answers, to know for sure if he's losing his mind, or if all of this is happening for a reason.

Because deep down, we all want to believe that things happen for a reason. Even the worst of things.

Will be recommending this heartily to everyone I know! Should not be missed!
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Most Recent Customer Reviews
5.0 out of 5 stars Loved this book!!!
Fast moving, suspenseful, and heart wrenching all in one! At times I couldn't turn the pages fast enough. I highly recommend this book...can't wait to start Rebecca...
Published 11 hours ago by Wendy Thompson
5.0 out of 5 stars NOT for the faint of heart!
If you're looking for a light read, where no one suffers and everything is wrapped up at the end in a nice bow ... you've come to the wrong place. Read more
Published 1 day ago by Ray Anselmo
5.0 out of 5 stars Moving
Great book, so moving I could not put it down. Can't imagine living through something like this, but he was guided by his love for his son.
Published 3 days ago by nanyfay
4.0 out of 5 stars Little overboard
Good book, but sometimes gets a little unbelievable.Ian solving this whole crime gets almost like Superman and nothing can put him down. Some scenes are just too overdramatic.
Published 5 days ago by Fausiebird
5.0 out of 5 stars Alex
Great book. Some folks don't believe this could happen but I do. Great ending but I saw the twist coming.
Published 7 days ago by S. Floyd
5.0 out of 5 stars Great Book!
Great book with very interesting characters and great story line. I recommend it.
Published 9 days ago by GRZ
5.0 out of 5 stars ... book and i thought it was well written and amazing. I loved how it...
i literally just finished this book and i thought it was well written and amazing. I loved how it kept me wanting to continue never feeling bored or ready to hurry and finish this... Read more
Published 12 days ago by Lina
5.0 out of 5 stars Awesome Book!
I really enjoyed this book! So much suspense right until the end (and I love the fact that he's from my hometown, Minneapolis!). I will definitely read more from this author!
Published 13 days ago by Debbie G.
5.0 out of 5 stars Had me from the start
I was involved in this book from the beginning. I felt like I was letting "Ian" down if I didn't read this book every chance I got. Read more
Published 15 days ago by Jill Worley
1.0 out of 5 stars Boring and repetitive
Not sure why so many positive reviews. This book was extremely boring and repetitive. If you read the first few chapters and then the last, you'll have the whole story.
Published 16 days ago by Graysky13
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Hi. My name is Adam J Nicolai.

I write novels that come from the fear I feel everyday, the wild hopes that drive me, and the things I wish were true. My writing may have swearing. It may deal with uncomfortable topics. It may go to places none of us want to visit. The problem is, in our nightmares and daydreams, while driving or showering or sleeping, we all visit these places anyway.

I write so we don't have to visit them alone.


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