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Alice I Have Been: A Novel [Deckle Edge] [Hardcover]

Melanie Benjamin
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January 12, 2010
Few works of literature are as universally beloved as Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland. Now, in this spellbinding historical novel, we meet the young girl whose bright spirit sent her on an unforgettable trip down the rabbit hole–and the grown woman whose story is no less enthralling.


But oh my dear, I am tired of being Alice in Wonderland. Does it sound ungrateful?

Alice Liddell Hargreaves’s life has been a richly woven tapestry: As a young woman, wife, mother, and widow, she’s experienced intense passion, great privilege, and greater tragedy. But as she nears her eighty-first birthday, she knows that, to the world around her, she is and will always be only “Alice.” Her life was permanently dog-eared at one fateful moment in her tenth year–the golden summer day she urged a grown-up friend to write down one of his fanciful stories.

That story, a wild tale of rabbits, queens, and a precocious young child, becomes a sensation the world over. Its author, a shy, stuttering Oxford professor, does more than immortalize Alice–he changes her life forever. But even he cannot stop time, as much as he might like to. And as Alice’s childhood slips away, a peacetime of glittering balls and royal romances gives way to the urgent tide of war. 

For Alice, the stakes could not be higher, for she is the mother of three grown sons, soldiers all. Yet even as she stands to lose everything she treasures, one part of her will always be the determined, undaunted Alice of the story, who discovered that life beyond the rabbit hole was an astonishing journey.

A love story and a literary mystery, Alice I Have Been brilliantly blends fact and fiction to capture the passionate spirit of a woman who was truly worthy of her fictional alter ego, in a world as captivating as the Wonderland only she could inspire.


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Melanie Benjamin on Alice I Have Been

For an author--at least, for an author like me--the single most important factor when writing a book is the protagonist’s voice. Who is she, what does she sound like, is she strong or weak? Headstrong or passive? If an author doesn’t have a clear vision in her head, writing a novel centering around this person is going to be very, very difficult.

Fortunately for me, I had a clear vision; so clear I could actually see it and read it myself. I was inspired to write Alice I Have Been after unexpectedly viewing a photographic exhibit called "Dreaming in Pictures: The Photography of Lewis Carroll." Among the many photographs there, all taken by the man who wrote Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass, one stood out to me. It was of a young girl clad only in rags, but with an expression on her face that stopped me in my tracks. She was so adult, so frank, so worldly, as she gazed at the man behind the camera.

She was 7-year-old Alice Liddell, the daughter of Dean Henry Liddell of Christ Church, Oxford. It was to her that Lewis Carroll--or Charles Dodgson, as she knew him--told the story of a little girl who tumbled down a rabbit hole. She was the one who begged him to write it down.

I wondered what happened to her after she grew up; I wondered what happened between the two of them to result in such a startling photograph.

I wondered so much that I decided to write about it, write her story in her own "words"--although of course, with historical fiction, I got to make those words up. But she was my protagonist, and immediately the most important factor in writing this novel was known to me. For the girl in the photograph, and the girl in the classic books, were one and the same; they were my Alice, and I knew her voice, I knew who she was because of them. The wise yet wary face in the photograph, the unflappable voice of the girl in the books--all I had to do was capture it on the page.

My task, then, was to show that voice, that personality, maturing naturally through the years as she continued to try to leave Wonderland behind. But the difficult work was done for me, I truly believe, all because of the collaboration between two remarkable people--Alice Liddell and Lewis Carroll. What happened between the two of them 150 years ago continues to fascinate and inspire. It gave the world Wonderland, after all--

And it gave me my heroine. Sometimes all you have to do is open your eyes and look around you for inspiration; look at a photograph, read a book. I’m so very glad that I did.--Melanie Benjamin


Alice Liddell Through the Years

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"Alice as a Beggar Girl." "Alice Liddell, as a Young Woman" "Alice Pleasance Liddell Hargreaves, 1932."

From Publishers Weekly

Starred Review. Benjamin draws on one of the most enduring relationships in children's literature in her excellent debut, spinning out the heartbreaking story of Alice from Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. Her research into the lives of Charles Dodgson (aka Lewis Carroll) and the family of Alice Liddell is apparent as she takes circumstances shrouded in mystery and colors in the spaces to reveal a vibrant and passionate Alice. Born into a Victorian family of privilege, free-spirited Alice catches the attention of family friend Dodgson and serves as the muse for both his photography and writing. Their bond, however, is misunderstood by Alice's family, and though she is forced to sever their friendship, she is forever haunted by their connection as her life becomes something of a chain of heartbreaks. As an adult, Alice tries to escape her past, but it is only when she finally embraces it that she truly finds the happiness that eluded her. Focusing on three eras in Alice's life, Benjamin offers a finely wrought portrait of Alice that seamlessly blends fact with fiction. This is book club gold. (Jan.)
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Product Details

  • Hardcover: 368 pages
  • Publisher: Delacorte Press; First Edition edition (January 12, 2010)
  • Language: English
  • ISBN-10: 0385344139
  • ISBN-13: 978-0385344135
  • Product Dimensions: 6 x 1.2 x 8.4 inches
  • Shipping Weight: 1 pounds
  • Average Customer Review: 4.1 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (160 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #210,202 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)

More About the Author

Melanie Benjamin was born in Indianapolis, Indiana. An avid reader all her life--as a child, she was the proud winner, several years running, of the summer reading program at her local library--she still firmly believes that a lifetime of reading is the best education a writer can have.

While attending Indiana University--Purdue University at Indianapolis, Melanie performed in many community theater productions before meeting her husband, moving to the Chicago area and raising two sons. Writing was always beckoning, however, and soon she began writing for local magazines and newspapers before venturing into her first love, fiction.

By combining her passion for history and biography, she has found her niche writing historical fiction, concentrating on the "stories behind the stories." ALICE I HAVE BEEN, a national bestseller, was her first historical novel, followed by the THE AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF MRS. TOM THUMB. Her next historical, THE AVIATOR'S WIFE, a novel about Anne Morrow Lindbergh, will be published in 2013.

She and her family still live in the Chicago area; when she's not writing, she's gardening, taking long walks, rooting for the Cubs--

And reading, of course.

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136 of 143 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Amazing work of literary fiction December 13, 2009
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Summary:

Alice Liddell Hargreaves is an lonely old woman now, but once she was full of passion, fire, and true love. As a child, she was the muse of Mr. Dodgson, a professor at Oxford who used the pen name Lewis Carroll, and inspired the seminal classic that has been read and loved by millions. What Alice doesn't realize, though, is that her life will be both illuminated and shrouded by just one day in her life, a day when, at eleven years old, her life changes forever.

Review:

Alice I Have Been is a beautiful and incredibly written book that is difficult to describe. It's hard to pinpoint why it is so wonderful because there isn't just one reason; the book as a whole is expertly crafted. Melanie Benjamin's writing is simply sublime; it is the thread that holds the entire narrative together. It is fluid, poetic, and entirely alluring, drawing the reader into Alice's story and making sure they stay there until the book is over.

The depiction of Charles Dodgson (Lewis Carroll) is both fascinating and disturbing. While he isn't explicitly portrayed as a pedophile, he definitely has an inappropriate relationship with Alice. There is an emotional connection between the two that is very difficult to comprehend and entirely disquieting. Benjamin manages to show it with dignity and grace, something that is very difficult to do with such a perturbing subject. By showing the friendship through the innocent eyes of Alice, Benjamin manages to turn something sinister into a childhood affection, without removing its disturbing quality.

Alice herself is an incredibly interesting character that is expertly written. She is naive and innocent at times, but also incredibly aware of how the world works. She lives her entire life in the shadow of a book that features her, yet sometimes seems to be not about her at all. It's up to Alice to rediscover the girl inside her, especially in the face of tragedy and despair.

I also appreciated how closely Melanie Benjamin stuck to Alice Liddell's real history in Alice I Have Been. Though this isn't exactly a historical novel, she has a long Author's Note at the back of the book in which she explains what is fact, what is fiction, and what parts of the book blur the lines between the two. It's very gratifying that Benjamin chose to stick that close to true events; it's clear that she undertook a lot of research before embarking on the journey that was Alice I Have Been.

Alice I Have Been is an incredible story that literary fiction fans won't want to miss. It's not necessary to have an intimate knowledge of Lewis Carroll's books in order to understand the book, though I'm sure it's helpful in appreciating its subtlety. Some background on Carroll/Dodgson is helpful, though a quick perusal of he section about Alice on his Wikipedia page is all the information you really need. It's an incredibly creative and well-written book that I can't recommend highly enough.
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31 of 34 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars An exquisite, tragic bio-novel December 11, 2009
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This was a wonderful, poignant, heart-breaking book that will surely mean something to anyone who read Lewis Carroll's works in their youth. The "real" story, largely documented, of Alice Pleasance Liddell Hargreaves unfolds in a first-person perspective, targeting three significant moments in her long life--her childhood encounters with C.L. Dodgson (Carroll) at ages 7 to 11, her young adulthood and ill-fated royal romance, and her later years of great strength and personal tragedy during and after World War I. While the decades-long narrative jumps may seem jarring at first, Benjamin provides plenty of flashbacks to flesh out the narrative. This approach provides the reader with plenty of tantalizing mini-mysteries that are resolved as the story moves forward, piece by piece.

And what emerges is a beautiful, tragic portrait of a literary inspiration and her enigmatic creator. Dodgson, so often judged by modern moral standards, comes across quite well in this novel, and I was very pleased to see that, by focusing solely on Alice's recollections, he remains shrouded in mystery, at least until a partial revelation in the novel's final pages. Naturally, of course, a large portion of the novel is devoted to the genuine question of his feelings towards Alice, made even more difficult to interpret today thanks to missing pages in Dodgson's famous diary (though this is not mentioned in the novel). All in all, I greatly enjoyed this story and highly recommend it.
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37 of 43 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars "One Day I Might Want to Know" December 9, 2009
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Melanie Benjamin's "Alice I Have Been" is a delightful book for all kinds of readers, those who are members of "Alice in Wonderland" fan clubs as well as those who like a historical novel, especially one set in Victorian England.

"Alice I Have Been," narrated by Alice Liddell Hargreaves, begins with the eighty-year old Alice coming to America to be feted as the little girl from Wonderland. American audiences are shocked to see an old woman, when they are expecting a little girl in a pinafore. It seems that no one wants Alice to grow up, especially Charles Dodgson, the author himself (aka Lewis Carroll), who lived near the Liddells on the Oxford campus where he taught mathematics and was rumored to be a boring, ineffectual teacher.

Alice remembers her youthful years, the golden days of stories and tea parties, row boats and picnics. Dodgson's presence at the Liddell house was a constant of her young life. Around the little girls, Dodgson is free to employ his dreamy imagination, telling nonsense tales. Alice feels special in his gaze, giving her something to lord over her older sister, Ina, and her younger sister, Edith. Though there were ten Liddell children, the trio of girls is the focus of Dodgson as well as of Alice herself, well into adulthood.

The photographs Dodgson left behind, of girls in costume, girls scantily clad, posing on grass or hillsides, are one of the issues Benjamin examines through fictitious scenes with Alice and Dodgson (the book carrries reproductions of the famous "gypsy" Alice photo). This book is FICTION; it is not biography or literary criticism. Benjamin uses the freedom of fiction to allow readers to see what might have been. Benjamin is extremely apt in setting scenes, using textures and scents, weather, and above all, Victorian dress. The layers of clothing that impede the children with every step and movement, the constant provoking to "stay clean" are motifs of the Victorian sentiments to keep children in an idyllic state of innocence.

After a disastrous day between Dodgson and Alice, witnessed by Ina, Alice moves on without him in her life by order of her imperious, society-obsessed mother. Then, Alice is smitten with love for Prince Leopold. Will her love be returned? How can it be when others at Oxford know all too well that Alice and Dodgson may have acted inappropriately in her youth? But that was such a long, long time ago, and she is no longer THAT Alice.

Or is she?

The novel closes with the Great War, its devastation on families and the economy of England. Alice has married, borne three sons, all of whom march off to war. Which if any will survive? How does Alice feel about no longer being the famous Alice? Should she step forward to claim her place in literary history?

Benjamin's book pulls the reader into the dream of another time, another place, with strong characterizations of the sisters; of the quiet, odd, stuttering man, Charles Dodgson; of his friend, Duckworth; of the strict nanny, Miss Pritchett; of the hemophiliac and poetic Prince Leopold; and of Alice's mother, Mrs. Liddell.

If you love "Alice in Wonderland," you will find a wealth of interesting allusions: to the garden and the keys and the Queen of Hearts (and more). If you love historical fiction, get ready to settle in for a journey through the classrooms, households, celebrations, and desperations of Victoriana. "Alice Have I Been"
enriches readers and amuses them too.
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4.0 out of 5 stars Interesting
I've discovered a new author and look forward to reading more of her books. I like to be entertained & educated at the same time.
Published 4 hours ago by Lisa
5.0 out of 5 stars I am a new fan of Benjamin.
I read all three of Benjamin's books this month. One right after the other, and could have read a half dozen more! Read more
Published 13 hours ago by Sharon L. Scott
4.0 out of 5 stars Based on the main character of a favorite childhood book....
..this was a good story. I kept wondering if I had missed the "truth" of the imagined story, but all was answered in the end. Read more
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4.0 out of 5 stars Wonder of characters
This book was a wonder of characters. Alice is so well drawn and deeply known to the reader by the end. Read more
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5.0 out of 5 stars Alice
I gave the book as a gift to my daughter-in-law. it is a book she requested and I have not heard back whether she enjoyed it or not but I got the book in great condition and... Read more
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4.0 out of 5 stars Captivating story
Enjoyed the book immensely. Rather interesting psychological depiction of a prominent young girl growing up In Victorian time.. Read more
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5.0 out of 5 stars Alzheimer's is a cruekl disease
From the first chapter to the last, you accompany Alice and her family through the declining deteriations of Alzheimer's disease. It's a frightening and revealing journey. Read more
Published 2 months ago by gwen
4.0 out of 5 stars good background story
This was a very interesting story about the real Alice from "Alice in Wonderland", who I had no idea was a real person. Read more
Published 2 months ago by Susan W. Calkins
5.0 out of 5 stars Alice I HAVE BEEN IS A FUN READ
I found this book a very enjoyable read, a fascinating story. I guess I was never aware of the gossip around the author of Alice in wonderland. Read more
Published 3 months ago by pennie davis
5.0 out of 5 stars Could not put it down!
This wonderful, beautifully written, addiction of a book, grabbed me from the first chapter and would not let me go. Read more
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