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An Exact Replica of a Figment of My Imagination: A Memoir [Kindle Edition]

Elizabeth McCracken
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Book Description

"This is the happiest story in the world with the saddest ending," writes Elizabeth McCracken in her powerful, inspiring memoir. A prize-winning, successful novelist in her 30s, McCracken was happy to be an itinerant writer and self-proclaimed spinster. But suddenly she fell in love, got married, and two years ago was living in a remote part of France, working on her novel, and waiting for the birth of her first child.
This book is about what happened next. In her ninth month of pregnancy, she learned that her baby boy had died. How do you deal with and recover from this kind of loss? Of course you don't--but you go on. And if you have ever experienced loss or love someone who has, the company of this remarkable book will help you go on.
With humor and warmth and unfailing generosity, McCracken considers the nature of love and grief. She opens her heart and leaves all of ours the richer for it.

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From Publishers Weekly

Starred Review. McCracken tells her own story in this touching and often unexpectedly funny memoir about her life before and after losing her first child in the ninth month of pregnancy. As difficult as it must have been to read aloud, McCrackens delivery is courageous and never self-pitying. McCracken is forthright about the tragedy, telling the listener early on that a baby dies in this book, but that another one is born. McCrackens reading is enthralling and deeply moving, as if she is relating this intimate journey directly to each listener individually from a dark, candle-lit room, in an unforgettable performance. A Little, Brown hardcover (reviewed online). (Sept.)
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From Bookmarks Magazine

In Elizabeth McCracken’s heartrending memoir—a love letter to the child she lost and the devoted husband who suffered alongside her—McCracken displays her many talents. Her warmth, candor, crystalline prose, lovely imagery, and attention to detail bring her painful story to life. McCracken’s dark sense of humor ensnares unwitting readers, belying the sadness with which she writes, and she shows very little patience for self-pity and sentimentality. Critics praised her clear-eyed account in a genre replete with syrupy, self-aggrandizing books, though some expressed doubts that its subject matter would have wide appeal. “I’m not ready for my first child to fade into history,” explains McCracken. With this heartbreaking account of his life, there’s little chance of that.
Copyright 2008 Bookmarks Publishing LLC

Product Details

  • File Size: 327 KB
  • Print Length: 192 pages
  • Publisher: Little, Brown and Company; 1 edition (September 10, 2008)
  • Sold by: Hachette Book Group
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B001DR7K02
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  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #120,354 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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41 of 42 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Honest, Heartfelt Story about Loss and Love September 21, 2008
As the mother of four children, two of whom died hours after they were born, I just knew I had to read Elizabeth McCracken's story after reading a magazine review. The story is honest and straight from the heart. Reading her journey of Pudding's life during her pregnancy and subsequent death, I took comfort from her words, knowing that there's no right or wrong way to handle yourself & your grief after the loss of a child. As she asked herself "What if..." I found myself remembering those exact same questions, knowing deep down that there really was nothing that could have changed the sad outcome. I respect and admire the strength and courage it took for her to share her story and am grateful for being given the chance to relive my children's short lives and subsequent deaths with sadness and a hint of joy. They are, after all, a part of our family and Pudding will always be Elizabeth's "first born." As she questioned herself that first Mother's Day, I nodded my head and said aloud "Yes -- you are a Mother and deserve to celebrate this day with Mothers everywhere."

The story is beautifully written with words the flow gently, accurately describing the pain and sorrow and hope she & her husband felt that entire year after Pudding's death. I felt as if I knew Elizabeth personally and shared in her happiness after the birth of Gus. I am certain he will come to know his big brother "Pudding" and will be grateful for the role he played in bringing Gus into this world.

Thank you for sharing your story Elizabeth. You are an inspiration to mother's everywhere, especially those of us who have gone through similar situations and for those who may not have the courage to share their story.
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31 of 33 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Powerful yet beautiful September 12, 2008
This is one of the most powerful books I've read in quite some time. It is easily read in a day. Once you start, you won't want to put it down. There is a huge amount of emotional vulnerability and honesty in this short memoir, which makes for an extraordinarily engaging read.

From the beginning, the reader knows about the tragic and heartbreaking ending of McCracken's first pregnancy. We know what happened, but we're not quite sure about the details leading up to the point where she received the news that her unborn baby had died. McCracken makes you feel that you need to know. You need to understand exactly what happened. But she takes her time, giving you the background first.

McCracken goes back and forth between past and present. How she met her husband (who is surely an angel, by the way), how they lived in various countries on various continents, how they ended up living in France at the time of her pregnancy. She is all over the place in terms of the timeline of events, which might be distracting, EXCEPT for the fact that all the jumping around somehow seemed appropriate given the subject matter of this book. Because this book is about grief, and let's face it: grief is messy.

One of the aspects of this book that stands out the most in my mind is the author's feelings about the reactions of her friends and family. What expressions of sympathy gave her strength and courage, and what left her cold? This memoir was written a little over a year after her first baby died in utero, and shortly after the birth of her second child. McCracken is painfully honest about who responded how.
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42 of 48 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars devastatingly beautiful August 28, 2008
By Michele
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I read an excerpt of this memoir in Oprah magazine - the author is a favorite of mine, but I was unaware of this part of her personal story. I immediately pre-purchased the book on Amazon. Today it arrived and I found myself opening it and standing in the kitchen reading it while listening to two beautiful boys in the next room playing with each other. I read half the book just standing there - alternately smiling and tearing up...and just knowing, knowing what she was writing about. I feel apologetic (emotionally, not logically) for relating so well when my first pregnancy was (just) a miscarriage, and not a stillbirth - I can only imagine they must feel different as experiences, but in my heart they don't. Elizabeth McCracken has written such a moving, beautiful memoir. It's not so much a tribute to her son, but just a concrete picture of his realness and the realness of everything that was before and after. I'm so glad she wrote this book.
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16 of 18 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Heartbreaking story with a happy ending September 10, 2008
An Exact Replica of a Figment of My Imagination is a memoir written by Elizabeth McCracken and published by Hachette Book Group.

Elizabeth McCracken was happy in her life as a single woman until she met and fell in love with Edward Harvey. They married and since they are both writers, they lived a migratory life. In 2006, Elizabeth and Edward were living in France and expecting a baby. The pregnancy was uncomplicated, but they were still cautious - not naming the baby or preparing for it too soon. Late in the pregnancy, Elizabeth realized that the baby wasn't moving as much as he once did, so they visited their midwife. After and examination, the midwife said "I wish he would respond more, but it is not serious." Later that day, their baby died, and Elizabeth had to go through an agonizing stillborn delivery. They left France and eventually moved to America, where they had a healthy baby boy (Gus) a year and three days after the stillbirth.

"When I was pregnant with Gus, toward the end especially, there was nothing in my life that was not bittersweet. Every piece of hope was tinged with sadness; every moment of relief was lit on the edges with worry. But now that Gus is Stateside, my love for him is just plain love, just plain sweet."

Elizabeth says, "This is the happiest story in the world with the saddest ending", but I think it's just the opposite. It's a sad story, but Elizabeth doesn't wallow in self pity, and it has a wonderfully happy ending. Through her vivid descriptions, I felt the pain and suffering they went through. This is an emotional book that is full of hope. I admire the incredible strength, courage and love that Elizabeth and Edward possess. I learned that it is better to say the wrong thing than nothing at all to the grieving, and that grieving goes on much longer than sympathy does. This book moved me to tears, but by the end of the book, my sorrow had turned to joy.
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5.0 out of 5 stars It's like that
When I dealt with the stillbirth of my daughter, I found I lacked the words to explain all the confusion and conflicting emotions and heartache. Read more
Published 2 months ago by Amazon Customer
5.0 out of 5 stars Beautifully written and heartbreaking
This book was read first by my daughter and then myself during a very dark time. It was comforting in an almost eerie way to me. Read more
Published 2 months ago by brenda s
5.0 out of 5 stars A treasure for the bereaved mom expecting a new baby
It seems like most of the 4 star reviews are written by people who have not lost a baby themselves.

My experience is not exactly the same as the author's, but so many of... Read more
Published 2 months ago by Jennifer McMillen
5.0 out of 5 stars Recommended
I experienced a similar type of loss (twins in the sixth month of pregnancy) and I really identified with her feelings. I like the way she tells her story. I read it in two days. Read more
Published 4 months ago by Joolie
5.0 out of 5 stars Five Stars
beautiful and wrenching account of the loss of her first baby while still in utero.
Published 5 months ago by Kristin Louise Duncombe
4.0 out of 5 stars Wonderful inspiring and almost funny
I am a pediatrician and learned so much from reading this beautiful book..... thank you, keep writing please, I can't wait for the next book .

Published 6 months ago by michele c. mcintosh.
5.0 out of 5 stars Resonant and comforting after a stillbirth
I read this in the weeks after my daughter, our first child, was stillborn. It resonated with me and was of huge comfort. Read more
Published 7 months ago by Ajbwashdc
5.0 out of 5 stars This book is beautifully written. It helped me through a very...
This book is beautifully written. It helped me through a very difficult period and I am thankful that I found it.
Published 7 months ago by Beth Tyszkiewicz Nesbit
5.0 out of 5 stars A happy story, a sad ending
This book about a still born child is both heart- breaking and life-affirming. McCracken writes movingly about the reality that one does not get over the death of a child. Read more
Published 8 months ago by Vivian Gosey
5.0 out of 5 stars Well-Written and Riveting
I bought this memoir to take on a trip, with the intention of leaving it behind as I finished it. But it was so well-written, I packed it up and brought it back home with me. Read more
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