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At Hell's Gate: A Soldier's Journey [Hardcover]

Claude Anshin Thomas (Author)
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September 14, 2004
In this raw and moving memoir, Claude Thomas tells the dramatic story of his service in Vietnam, his subsequent emotional collapse, and how he was ultimately able to find healing and peace. Thomas went to Vietnam at the age of eighteen, where he served as a crew chief on assault helicopters. By the end of his tour, he had been awarded numerous medals, including the Purple Heart. He had also killed many people, witnessed horrifying cruelty, and narrowly escaped death on a number of occasions.

When Thomas returned home he found that he continued to live in a state of war. He was overwhelmed by feelings of guilt, fear, anger, and despair, all of which were intensified by the rejection he experienced as a Vietnam veteran. For years, Thomas struggled with post-traumatic stress, drug and alcohol addiction, isolation, and even homelessness.

A turning point came when he attended a meditation retreat for Vietnam veterans led by the renowned Zen monk Thich Nhat Hanh. Here he encountered the Buddhist teachings on meditation and mindfulness, which helped him to stop running from his past and instead confront the pain of his war experiences directly and compassionately. Thomas was eventually ordained as a Zen monk and teacher, and he began making pilgrimages to promote peace and nonviolence in war-scarred places around the world including Bosnia, Auschwitz, Afghanistan, Vietnam, and the Middle East.

At Hell's Gate is Thomas's dramatic coming-of-age story and a spiritual travelogue from the horrors of combat to discovering a spiritual approach to healing violence and ending war from the inside out. In simple and direct language, Thomas shares timeless teachings on healing emotional suffering and offers us practical guidance in using mindfulness and compassion to transform our lives.


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Thomas offers a raw and poignant memoir of his nightmarish Vietnam experience, postwar depression and ultimate discovery of peace through Buddhism. He spares no anguish in describing his tour of duty in Vietnam in 1967-68, where he had to dehumanize the enemy and himself in order to be a good soldier. Upon his return, he hoped for a hero’s welcome but was instead greeted by a young woman in the Newark Airport who spat in his face. Tormented by the memories of killing and of seeing his fellow soldiers killed, Thomas suffered from addiction, suicidal tendencies and post-traumatic stress syndrome. In 1990, after more than 20 years of misery, he attended a meditation retreat for Vietnam vets led by the Vietnamese Zen Buddhist master Thich Nhat Hanh, and it changed his life. Through Buddhism, he learned that healing could never come through the avoidance of more suffering. After spending years trying to sleepwalk through life, he experienced joy in becoming what the Buddha called "awake"—mindful of the gift of the present moment. Now a monk himself, Thomas leads retreats and talks with other victims of violence all over the world.
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"Written with relentless courage and utter compassion, this account of violence and transformation is one of the most amazing and wonderful stories I've ever read."—Michael Herr, author of Dispatches

"This is a book of great power. Thomas's pilgrimage to find living peace in a world full of terror and war gives us a wonderfully practical lesson in how to lift ourselves out of the insanity of fear, hatred, violence, and trauma. His singularly courageous story has the power to heal, to inspire, to teach."—John Laurence, former CBS News correspondent and author of The Cat from Hue: A Vietnam War Story

"A powerful, wise, and genuinely profound spiritual odyssey from the insanity of violence (in the world, within ourselves, and in the assumptions of American culture) to the peace and compassion of mindfulness practice. Thomas beautifully models Zen teachings in his daily life, and by doing so he enlightens and liberates us all."—Charles Johnson, winner of the National Book Award for Middle Passage

"Claude Anshin Thomas has been an inspiration to me. Our world urgently needs to listen to him tell of his life in war and then in peace."—Maxine Hong Kingston, author of The Woman Warrior

"Thomas's journey from the killing fields of Vietnam to the path of peace and pilgrimage testifies to his—and our—powerful urge to awaken. At the same time, this is not a pretty story. Anshin Thomas has lived in hell, knows its smell and taste, and continues to confront it every day of his life. Yet he remains undeterred in his work to make peace in himself and the world at large."—Bernie Glassman, author of Instructions to the Cook and Bearing Witness

Product Details

  • Hardcover: 144 pages
  • Publisher: Shambhala; Stated First Edition edition (September 14, 2004)
  • Language: English
  • ISBN-10: 159030134X
  • ISBN-13: 978-1590301340
  • Product Dimensions: 5.7 x 0.8 x 8.7 inches
  • Shipping Weight: 8 ounces
  • Average Customer Review: 4.9 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (16 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #874,964 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)

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19 of 19 people found the following review helpful:
5.0 out of 5 stars Vital and necessary reading, September 3, 2004
This review is from: At Hell's Gate: A Soldier's Journey (Hardcover)
This is a deeply inspiring and relevant book. It is part memoir, part social and spiritual commentary, and part instruction manual. It is a tonic we can all benefit from.

With courage, unblinking honesty and clarity, Claude AnShin Thomas shares with us the story of his life. Abused childhood, intensive combat in the Vietnam War, social dysfunction, alcohol and drug addiction, homelessness, failed relationships -- and eventually his path to waking up, to living out a commitment to be awake and to live in mindfulness. Thomas chose to become a Buddhist monk as his expression of that commitment, but his story is universal. Non-Buddhists can benefit as much from this book as Buddhists can.

This book is about violence and war, the causes of violence and war inside of all of us, what it means to stop that war, and how vital it is to take that step. Thomas draws the very real parallels between our internal emotional experience and our external reality. If we are at war inside ourselves, if we condone violence in ourselves and in our lives, then violence will inevitably arise in the world around us, and war will inevitably arise as one expression of that violence. Thomas writes, with clarity and conviction borne of experience, that stopping the war can only happen when we stop hiding from our suffering and anguish, when we completely and fully own who we are in our greatest insights and our worst delusions. Once we take this step of not hiding, we can then make real choices and chose to live differently. We can chose not to support violence in our lives and in the lives of others. Our lives can become more vital, more real, and then, as Thomas shows us, real joy is possible.

Thomas more than realizes all these things: he lives them, and what he presents to us in this book is his own life as an example, a great, personal wake-up call. Thomas' life is that of one who "walks the walk". As he shows us his life, Thomas asks us to make our own commitment to wake up, to live differently, to stop the violence.

There are instructions in mindfulness practice here, very practical and simple ones. There are exhortations to live mindfully and wake up. And mostly there is Thomas' story, instructive and inspiring, showing us that all of this is possible. It is possible to own all of who we are and change our lives. If someone with Thomas' background of deep, relentless suffering can do it, we all can.

This book has tremendous relevence to all of us as our country and the world continues in the cycles of war and violence. It should be required reading. Highly recommended
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19 of 20 people found the following review helpful:
5.0 out of 5 stars Let there be peace on Earth and LET IT BEGIN WITH ME., February 26, 2005
This review is from: At Hell's Gate: A Soldier's Journey (Hardcover)
"Let there be peace on Earth and let it begin with me." Buddhist Monk, Claude Anshin Thomas, doesn't mention this song in his book, "At Hell's Gate," but this is the song that went through my mind as I read it and which beautifully sums up Thomas' main message to his readers. Thomas writes, "Ultimately, all responsibility and all action begin with the individual, and so it is here that we must start. In it's simplest form, nonviolence is rooted in the knowledge that we have the capacity to act violently and aggressively and that we make a conscious choice not to do so."

Claude Anshin Thomas knows the evils of violence first hand. "At Hell's Gate" is his story from his personal hells of child abuse, Vietnam combat, and post traumatic stress disorder, to his futile attempts to cope which made his life more of a hell which included drug abuse and alcoholism and which helped lead to chronic unemployment and homeless. His healing began when he attended a meditation retreat for Vietnam War veterans lead by the distinguished Vietnamese Zen Monk, Thich Nhat Hanh. Here he learned tools that truly brought him peace including telling his story, and meditation. Also, he unlearned his war indoctrination where anyone Vietnamese was seen as the enemy. To get the most out of this book, don't just read this as Thomas' story, but use his story as inspiration and guidance for healing your traumas and for changing how we think and act as a citizen.

Thomas points out that everyone has their Vietnam, their war, their hell, their suffering, be it child abuse, domestic violence, street violence, etc. When we don't come to terms with our suffering, we often unconsciously are violent against ourselves and against others. Reflecting on his father abusing him many years before, Thomas realized his father didn't intend to do any harm, but was acting out his suffering. Thomas provides us tools which worked for him on how to come to terms with our suffering, which include specifics on deep listening and mindful speech and meditation. Even Thomas, a Buddhist Monk, still finds it challenging to avoid using foul language and giving a certain finger gesture in traffic, and he provides specifics for calming ourselves in traffic. For this reason alone, everyone should read this book!

Thomas' self-help advice to the reader goes beyond dealing with our individual suffering, but rethinking and changing how we think and act as citizens, which is brilliantly illustrated by a memory from Thomas: When arrived back in the States after the Vietnam War, a beautiful young woman came up to him. Thomas assumed she would hug him or kiss him or perhaps thank him, as was the experience of his father's generation when they returned from World War II. Instead, she spat on him. Thought question: For those of us who espouse peace, are we behaving peacefully? Are we poster children for peaceful behavior? Thomas writes, "We [Vietnam vets] were the scapegoats for an entire country, for an entire culture that didn't want to take responsibility for its actions and decisions."

Wars don't just happen, they're sold to us by our government, by officials we as a group elect (or whom we allow to be elected by others when we don't vote). "Many people continue to believe that in certain circumstances we should kill to prevent further killing."
Thomas points out that "that argument has been used to justify preemptive strikes, to maintain a nuclear arsenal that could destroy the planet a hundred times over, to uphold the death penalty. It is being used as a rationale for the current occupations of Iraq and Afghanistan-and it was also the argument that the Fascists and the Nazis used to justify their agenda in Europe." Thomas writes "my hope is to help people discover what a terribly dangerous argument this is." Part of selling war to our society is the dehumanization and scapegoating of others. Thomas points out that "When we dehumanize others, we lose our own humanity. This doesn't just happen in the military: It happens through television, in the movies, in magazines; it happens on the street, it happens in stores and in the workplace."

Through his informally written yet powerful story and the tools he provides, Thomas invites us to wake up, to work on healing our suffering, to help others heal theirs, and to do our part to create a truly peaceful society within ourselves, our personal relationships, and our nation. "Peace is not the absence of conflict; it's the absence of violence within conflict," says Thomas.
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12 of 12 people found the following review helpful:
5.0 out of 5 stars Amazing Journey from Viet Nam Soldier to Zen Monk, December 11, 2004
This review is from: At Hell's Gate: A Soldier's Journey (Hardcover)
This is one of the most interesting books of personal transformation that I have ever read. The author's odyssey from an abusive childhood, through bloody combat in the Viet Nam War and his subsequent struggles with addiction, followed by his discovery of a path to inner peace is extremely fascinating. I was touched by Mr. Thomas' candor in addressing the damage that had been done to him, as well as the damage that he had inflicted upon others as a soldier. If you have ever wondered if a path of non-violence was possible, this book offers a practical example that a person can hope to emulate on a personal level. I especially enjoyed the accounts of the author's walking journeys across Europe and America that he undertook as Zen pilgrimages.
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