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  • Age Range: 12 and up
  • Grade Level: 7 and up
  • Paperback: 256 pages
  • Publisher: Multnomah Books; 1st Thus. edition (August 10, 2000)
  • Language: English
  • ISBN-10: 1576737357
  • ISBN-13: 978-1576737354
  • Product Dimensions: 5.1 x 0.7 x 8.2 inches
  • Shipping Weight: 9.6 ounces (View shipping rates and policies)
  • Average Customer Review: 4.7 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (101 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #292,604 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)

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Melody Carlson is the bestselling author of more than seventy books for teens, women, and children with total sales over 1 million. She has two grown sons and enjoys an active lifestyle of hiking, skiing, and biking. She lives in the beautiful Oregon Cascade Mountains with her husband and Labrador retriever.

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Chapter One
Monday, January 1 (a rather uneventful new year, so far anyway)
I heard somewhere that when you write in a diary you should pretend that you’re writing a letter to a really good friend, someone you trust completely, and you know will never laugh at you. So that’s what I’m telling myself, because to tell the truth I feel kind of silly writing about my life in this dorky little book. And it’s funny because I’ve actually had this diary for several years now, and suddenly it hits me—like hey, I’m sixteen! According to some people this should be one of the most memorable eras of my whole life. Well, I’m not too sure I even want to remember everything about being sixteen, but on the other hand, things seem to be looking up lately, and it might actually be fun to track how the rest of my junior year goes. Especially considering the first few months have been pretty dull so far.
But first of all, let me say this: Being sixteen is not really that sweet. And furthermore, it’s not terribly exciting either—at least not for me (although I’m certain that some kids my age are having a really great time). Take last night, for instance, I wanted to go to a New Year’s Eve party with my friend, Beanie Jacobs. But do you think I got to go? Yeah, right! To protest, I stayed up in my room most of the night, until my mom literally begged me (using her famous it’s-a-holiday guilt trip combined with the promise of double-dutch brownies) to “come join the family.” And then we watched this really lame video about a bunch of stupid kids who got lost in the woods. And then we stayed up until midnight and watched our neighbors shooting off (what are supposed to be illegal) fireworks. Well, big whoopdee-doo!
But back to being sixteen and how it’s not so sweet. What some people don’t realize is that sixteen comes with its own set of problems. Like, take driving for instance. I was all excited when I got my license the end of last summer (on my birthday, no less!), and I thought for sure my parents would want to get me a car now. Naturally, I
didn’t expect a new car (although I wouldn’t mind having one of those cool VW Bugs with the little flower vases on the dashboard—maybe in yellow or blue), but I would have settled for almost any old thing with four wheels, as long as it ran decently. But do you think I could get them to spring for a car (even though I patiently explained how they’d never have to haul me around everywhere, and how I would even give my little brother rides to his stupid ball games not to mention run an endless amount of errands for them)? Well, think again! “You don’t want to deal with that kind of responsibility yet, Caitlin Renee,” Mommy says ever so sweetly. (I’m pretty sure she even patted me on the head!)
Honestly, sometimes my parents treat me like I’m still ten years old! And, of course, they say it’s because they love me, but I think the truth is they don’t really trust me. They probably think if they give me just the tiniest taste of freedom that I’ll run hog-wild, get a tattoo, and start smoking dope or something equally disgusting! Why
can’t they believe in me—just a little? I mean, I’ve never given them a single reason not to trust me (at least nothing of any real significance). It’s just not fair. About the only thing they willingly let me do is to go to our church’s high school youth group functions—and, man, let me tell you, there are some kids in there who are pretty bad
news. Not exactly a great “influence” as my dad likes to call any teenage kid he doesn’t quite get (take my best friend, Beanie, for instance, but I’ll get to her later). Anyway, the thing is, I don’t even tell my parents about the kids in youth group who smoke and drink and God only knows what else—or I’d never get to go anywhere until I turned twenty-one!
Now I’ll try to say something nice about my parents (just in case they’re reading this). And if they are—I will take back every single word of it, and never, ever speak to the old snoops again! Okay, for the most part, my parents are pretty cool (and not the kind of people to read other people’s diaries!). For one thing, they’ve managed to
stay married to each other for almost twenty years (a pretty big deal when everyone else’s parents seem to be splitting up); and my dad has a pretty interesting job at an advertising firm downtown, while my mom teaches first grade. I guess I could’ve done worse as far as parents go. Like my best friend, Beanie Jacobs, her dad was a cocaine addict who left her mom with nothing but overdue bills when Beanie was still in diapers. On top of that, her mom’s kind of freaky and irresponsible, plus she drinks too much and forgets to pay her bills. I know she got married really young, but it’s kind of like she never grew up. But she actually makes Beanie act like the parent
most of the time, which is pretty weird, if you ask me.
Of course, the one good thing about that whole Beanie situation is that she gets to do whatever she wants whenever she wants. And I kind of envy that. Oh, sure, I know it has its down side too. Let me tell you, Lynn Jacobs (Beanie’s mom) can be pretty scary sometimes, and I’ve seen her tear into Beanie like she’s a dog or something less than human. As a consequence I try to never get on that woman’s bad side (which lately seems to be every side). Anyway, Beanie’s been my best friend since sixth grade (when we both discovered we were totally hopeless on the violin). I could tell right off she was really smart, and she had this really dry sense of humor. Plus, I liked that she wasn’t afraid to speak up and say how she felt (at least around anyone but her mom).
Now, I’ll be the first to admit that Beanie Baby (she goes absolutely nuts when I call her that, which I rarely do, except if I’m ticked at her about something) tends to dress, well, shall I say, outlandishly (I’ve been reading Jane Austen books lately and sometimes I wish we still talked like that)? But back to Beanie and how she has this rather interesting sense of style (you see, her mom never gives her any money for clothes, so she has to come up with all these creative ways of dressing—and she actually shops at Goodwill, and then she even sews some of her weird stuff together). And sometimes she even dyes her hair some pretty wild colors like magenta or midnight blue. Normally it’s almost black and very curly which she says is because her dad was Jewish, although she doesn’t practice his religion.
But Beanie’s pretty fun to hang with, and I’m glad she’s my friend. My parents didn’t like her at all at first. But then I got her going to youth group with me. And now they think she’s okay but strange, and I don’t think they quite trust her. Beanie’s actually very pretty (in a sultry kind of way) and one time my mom (trying to be helpful) wanted to give her a complete makeover—but that’s another story. Let’s just suffice it to say that when Mom was done, Beanie looked like a Mary Kay poster child. Poor Beanie. Well, I guess that’s enough for one night. So, now, you can see how my life is just so terribly exciting. Like, wow, maybe they’ll make this book into a movie some day! Not!
Wednesday, January 3 (back to school)

I need to say that I read back over my first entry in this diary and had to laugh. I mean, I sound like such a blabbermouth. And in real life I’m not even like that. In fact, some people think I’m rather quiet and reserved. My grandma says that’s a good thing because there’s a Proverb that says something like “even a total fool can appear wise if she keeps her mouth shut.” Anyway, I guess the way we express ourselves in writing isn’t always the way we express ourselves in real life (and I notice I use a lot of parentheses too). But that’s okay—I think writing is fun. Now back to my life…
Okay, today I’m thinking about the pros and cons of popularity (well, mostly the pros). And believe me, I realize (as much as any sixteen-year-old possibly can) that popularity is highly overrated and it’s not like it’s ever been my primary goal in life. But I guess I never wanted to be a total geek either! And it’s not like I am. Not really anyway. Okay, I’m not popular, but I’m not such a loser. I guess I’m just not much of anything. I mean I’m not in any particular group in school—not a geek or a freak, not exactly an academic, and certainly not a jock! Mostly I just hang with Beanie, and sometimes with some of the kids from youth group (but then they can act pretty geeky    at times, and we don’t always like being connected with them, not that anyone would really care since we are basically nobodies anyway).
But just because we’re “nobodies” doesn’t mean that kids who think they are “somebody” should put us down. Does it? I mean, I don’t think I put other kids down (even if I think they’re total geeks), but I suppose if I was being really honest (which was my original goal in this diary, so I better stick to it)…well, I suppose I might act just a little superior sometimes. I mean, it’s not like I really think I’m better than anyone else or anything—but I suppose I might act a little bit snooty, especially when I’m afraid that someone else is going to put me down anyway. I know
that’s not very nice, but it’s the truth.
So, back to the question of popularity. I have to admit that when I was a little kid I used to think it’d be so cool to be the most popular girl in the whole school. Like my Aunt Stephie—she’s my mom’s baby sister, but so much younger she could almost be my big sister. Anyway, I remember how Grandma used to complain that the phone
“rang night and day” for Aunt Stephie. She was a cheerleader and had this really cool boyfriend who looked just like Tom Cruise (Tom was more popular back then,
although I still think he’s pretty cool).
Anyway, all that popularity stuff seemed pretty great to an eight-year-old kid, and I remember thinking that when I was in high school, I wanted to be exactly like Aunt Stephie. Not that her life has turned out all that great as a grownup, at least not according to my grandma (she’s always on poor Stephie’s case) and I’d have to admit Steph does have some fairly serious problems (like a baby and no husband plus she freeloads baby-sitting from Grandma). So I guess, in some ways, all that popularity didn’t do her a whole lot of good in the long run. But just the same, I still sometimes wish that I was one the coolest girls in high school. Now, how’s that for honest?
At the same time, I’d like to think that I’m more mature than that, and I’ll admit that Beanie and I sometimes make fun of the “popular” kids (behind their backs, of course!). And like I said, it’s not like I’m a complete loser either—in fact, I got my braces off last fall and my skin is almost completely clear now. I got my hair cut in this really cool style during Christmas break, so that it kind of swings back and forth when I walk. And Aunt Stephie said I look just like Gwyneth Paltrow (of course, she wanted me to baby-sit Oliver at the time, and she might’ve said anything to seal the deal). I’ve got a magazine with Gwyneth’s photo on it, and I studied my face in the mirror, and I do think there is a slight resemblance. And since I got my haircut, it suddenly seems like other people are looking at me differently. Perhaps even some pretty cool people are actually looking my way (unless it’s my imagination). But even so, it feels kind of good. I mean all these years before I just felt kind of invisible (which wasn’t so bad; I mean, it was better than sticking out in a crowd).
Now I know I must be sounding all lame and desperate to go on like this (not to mention totally shallow); like all I care about is getting some airhead approval from a bunch of kids who aren’t all that nice in the first place. And, like I said, it’s not like I don’t already have any friends. I mean there’s always Beanie. There’s a few others too. Okay, I admit it, they’re mostly from the youth group! But at least I know they’d stick by me through the very worst. I think some of the nicer ones would. I seriously
doubt if those popular kids would be like that. Not that
I’ll ever have a chance to find out. But on the other hand, I guess I’d be willing to find out, if I had the chance.
Okay, is that so terribly wrong? Is it so wrong to want some different friends for a change? To want life to change and become more exciting? Last week our youth group leader said that if we don’t have something that we really think we need, we should pray for it. I wonder if it would be wrong to pray to become popular. I guess the worst that could happen is that God could say no. It might be worth a try. I don’t know why God wouldn’t want me to have more friends; we’re always being told to “reach out” to those around us. Hey, I’m willing to do some reaching here.
Well, all this wondering is probably just a big, stupid waste of time, because I’m sure the popular kids don’t want to hang with me anyway. I’ve heard them make fun of the geeks and nerds and freaks before—as if we’re all deaf and can’t even hear them. Or maybe they think we have absolutely no feelings at all. In fact, now that I think about it, I can’t even believe that I’ve sat here and actually considered hanging with kids like that in the first place. But I’m supposed to be honest here. And the truth is, I would hang with them if only they would let me. But, I ask you, is that so terribly

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I liked how in the book it related to real life really well.
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I wanted something to read one day, and my daughter had this book (and the others in the series)laying I read them all.
Like I said I am a teenager and it made a huge impact on me.
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50 of 51 people found the following review helpful By Anita on January 19, 2003
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I wanted something to read one day, and my daughter had this book (and the others in the series)laying I read them all. This is a WONDERFUL series! The books seem to be "light" reading. My daughter doesn't read a whole lot..but she did read this series and enjoyed each book. The subject matter is just about everything a teenager (or their friends)will experience. Caitlin and her friends don't always make the right choices and there isn't always happy endings. (I don't want to give away any story lines or endings!) My daughter felt the story lines were fairly true to real life...and gave her an "insight" how to deal with different circumstances. As a mother, it gave me the insight as to what a teenager is thinking, feeling, and possibly experiencing.
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21 of 22 people found the following review helpful By Jessica Hall on November 26, 2003
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At least, it was for me. Last summer (2002), I became a CHristan. Not just going to church every SUnday kind of Christian. I mean, a full out want to know all I can Christian. I had never felt like that before. And I owe it all to this book. I read this book that life-altering summer and couldn't put it down. I spent the whole day reading it. Cailin's struggles were like mine -- I could relate to the character, which compelled me even more. The way the book touched me is indescribable. But I thank Melody Carlson for writing such a memorable, life-touching novel for teenagers. It changed my life, my way of thinking.
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10 of 10 people found the following review helpful By linzie d on December 16, 2002
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Caitlin O' Conner was a regular girl not popular and not unpopular. She had one best friend and all she needed was one. She didn't see why you had to alot of friends when all you needed was one true friend. Her best friends name was Beanie. She had one religion, as a Christian, her family got along with each other fine, no relationships, one crush.

Along with Caitlin's normal life she was turning 16 and along with that came troubles. on her 16th birthday she had started to become apart of the popular crowd, and from ten on things went wrong, her friendship with Beanie, her religion, her family life, and BIG problems with boys, girls were getting pregnant, and she didn't know if she was going to have sex or not she was scared that it would effect her religion, friends and family.

The diary of a teenage girl was the absolute best book that I have ever read. This book had a huge impact on how I see the world, or at least the part I see everyday.

The book changed my thoughts because I saw things a little bit different. Maybe it was because I am a teenager myself, and I can understand some of the problems she had.

I would highly recomend this book and especially if you are a teenager. I guarantee you will see thingd in your enviroment differently. Like I said I am a teenager and it made a huge impact on me.
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11 of 11 people found the following review helpful By Amazon Customer on December 17, 2003
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One of my friends gave me this book telling me to read it. After I finished I had to buy all the others in the series. Caitlin was my role-model and she will be yours too when you read this amazing book. Her faith in Christ helps her in any situation. A great book for any teenage girl.
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31 of 38 people found the following review helpful By mindy on March 6, 2003
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dairy of a teenage girl by melody carlson is based on a teenager trying to get through the obstacles and issues which many teens face. she will do anthing to fit into her high school community and be popular. what i liked esspecailly about this book was how it dealt with many of the things teenagers go through such as wanting to fit in, choosing from right and wrong, parental problems; to more extreme things like teen pregnance. i liked how this book was about a normal teenager instead of some perfct person who was nothing wrong in their life. i didnt like how a lot of it was about God and her praying. i found there was no need to end each chapter by her praying and whenever something went wrong she would say something to god like "God help me to get through this"on page 53.
i believe the message that the author is trying to get across is that sometimes when you make mistakes some are permenant; and you just wan to be careful of what you do. something not as severe that happened was when caitlin meet the most popular girl in the school and a popular guy started to liked her and she just forgot all beanie her best friend but beanie forgave her.
i would recomend Diary of a Teenage Girl to spiritual people. this book is a lot about religous beliefs. there are a lot of insitful thoughts shared in this story about an average girl trying to make it through her hectec teenage life.
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6 of 6 people found the following review helpful By Lorraine Kratz on October 15, 2000
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This book is a must read for any teenage girl. After reading it in less than a day I was thoroughly encouraged in my faith. I can really relate to many situations in this book as can many teenage girls. It pulls you in and helps you to remember what's most important in life. My relationship with God was definitely enriched after reading this book!
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5 of 5 people found the following review helpful By Mid-Praire Teen on December 19, 2006
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Becoming Me is a dairy written by Melody Carlson from a teenager's point of view. The teenager's name is Caitlin O'Conner. She wonders what it would be like to hang out with the popular kids. And pretty soon she is hanging out with the popular kids, but it is different then she thought it would be. She starts running into a lot of problems. Her parent's relationship starts falling apart, and she gets pushed into things she doesn't want to do, like parties and drinking. She goes through many tough situations and in some of them she ends up learning her lesson the hard way. With all these tough situations going on she has no where to turn except God, who leads her through all the hardships of her life. It wasn't always easy. Sometimes she wondered if God was really there. But in the end she realized God worked in mysterious ways and works everything out in some way.

I thought this was a really good book! I think the author Melody Carlson did a great job using the right word choice, and describing the emotions a teenage girl might have. It was very encouraging to me reading how a teen just like me handled everyday problems with the help of God. And it wasn't easy for her all the time. It was a very realistic book, and I'm sure many teens could relate to Caitlin. It is almost like you know Caitlin as you read through her dairy. This book is a page turner and hard to put down. I think a lot of teen girls would enjoy this book. Also girls who want to know more about God should read this. I think overall it is a great book that many teen girls would enjoy and be able to relate to and learn from.
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Melody Carlson has written more than 200 books (with sales around 6.5 million) for teens, women and children. That's a lot of books, but mostly she considers herself a "storyteller." Her novels range from serious issues like schizophrenia (Finding Alice) to lighter topics like house-flipping (A Mile in My Flip-Flops) but most of the inspiration behind her fiction comes right out of real life. Her young adult novels (Diary of a Teenage Girl, TrueColors etc.) appeal to teenage girls around the world. Her annual Christmas novellas become more popular each year. She's won a number of awards (including Romantic Time's Career Achievement Award, the Rita and the Gold Medallion) and some of her books have been optioned for film/TV. Carlson has two grown sons and makes her home in the Pacific Northwest with her husband and yellow Lab dog. To find out more about Melody Carlson, visit her website at

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