In order to escape the harsh reality of a world without her son, the author starts spending a lot of time at the casinos, gambling at the slot machines. Her addiction to gambling begins slowly at first, but she quickly becomes obsessed, with a powerful compulsion to gamble. She recounts some of the ways she obtained the means to gamble, risking her family and harming relationships with those who love her. After years of gambling, she finally admits defeat and says: "I'm Rose, and yes, I am a compulsive gambler."
Rose finds recovery through the Twelve Steps of the Gamblers Anonymous program. She finds her lost spirit, her family, and her Savior Jesus Christ, coming through it all with a much deeper love for her family and a better understanding about her addiction to gambling.
