A brutally honest and vivid account of my 20 year battle with mental and physical illnesses, focusing on anorexia and bulimia. My book provides never-before disclosed insight into the true destruction of the mind and body at the hands of these fatal diseases. The tale begins with a childhood diagnosis of Graves disease, and reveals how feelings of shame and self-disgust, along with obsessive/compulsiveness, contributed to my becoming a victimof both date rape and domestic violence. I give inside detail into my miraculous survival and continual healing through faith and love.
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... not only an autobiography; [it's] a narrative of the tragedies and triumphs of a person wrestling with a life-threatening compulsion. -- Mark A. Ehman, Ph.D.
A story of desperation, depression and anguish that finally leads to triumph. This is a real modern-day miracle. -- Jeanne Henshaw, R.N.
Every day [Lauren] combats this disease and is sharing her story to help others through the same struggle and survival. -- Robert B. Maggiano, D.O., A.B.F.P.
A story of desperation, depression and anguish that finally leads to triumph. This is a real modern-day miracle. -- Jeanne Henshaw, R.N.
Every day [Lauren] combats this disease and is sharing her story to help others through the same struggle and survival. -- Robert B. Maggiano, D.O., A.B.F.P.
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I want to tell how thyroid disease, date rape, and domestic violence have stemmed from the devastation of my eating disorders. I am anorexic and bulimic, and have carried both to extremes. When I had my CAT scan, the technician said to me, "So, you just don't want to eat? Don't you like food?" I wanted to stand up and scream, "Do you have any idea what it is like to live with this disease? Can you feel my pain? The pain felt when all eyes stare at you during a meal, so curious to see what the skinny girl will eat. Will she swallow her food, or spit it out in a napkin? Even more disgusting, will she immediately run to the bathroom and make herself throw-up? How about the pain felt by an emaciated woman who is acutely aware of the stares and whispers of others as she shops at the grocery store? The woman who watched as a small child tugged on her mother's dress and loudly proclaimed, "Mom, that girl is so thin. What's wrong with her?" The honesty of a little child, or the pain resulting from the loss of a good friend, who just cannot understand what is wrong with you, and why you are isolating yourself. Don't you know that I sit in my room at night and cry because I want to be with my friends? But I can't eat the way they do, because I am abnormal.
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By La Vella Kraft (Verona, KY United States) - See all my reviews
This review is from: But I'm Not a Bad Person (Paperback)
Because eating disorders are often part of a very secretive lifestyle, many of us are clueless to the reality of the stuggles involved in dealing with the disease. Most of us know someone, perhaps someone we love, and have not truly understood. This book is a detailed transcript often so troubling to read that I put it down only to absorb what I read and then so captivated by Lauren's struggle I had to continue. Although difficult for her to do, it is obvious she was inspired by her relatonship with the Lord to write this account of her illness. I applaud her courage and obedience and thank her for giving us the information she shared to help us help the victims of this tragedy in our paths. It is a book I have already passed on and recommended to several people. One young lady found hope in her struggle. That's what it's all about.God uses us in our weakness and even our illness to bring others to Him. This book is honestly written and a true account of the need for a relationship with Jesus Christ. I highly recommend it.
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But I'm Not A Bad Person,
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This review is from: But I'm Not a Bad Person (Paperback)
One of my best friends has suffered from Graves disease and anorexia, and I never understood what she was going through until I read this book. I thought that when the thyroid was removed, she would immediately be better, and did not realize that it takes a long time and requires yearly blood tests and sometimes medication adjustments. I was judgemental, angry, and easily frustrated, and I regret it. Thank you, Lauren, for opening my eyes and heart so that I can be a better friend.
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anorexia/bulimia,
By A Customer
This review is from: But I'm Not a Bad Person (Paperback)
I was very pleased with this books content on anorexia and bulimia. The author gives very vivid descriptions of her disease that are sure to hit home with anyone-not just the sufferers themselves but women everywhere with body issues, as well as friends, family and loved ones. I recomend this book to anyone struggling with an eating disorder, and for those who havn't.
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