Product Details

• Actors: Tobias Schenke, Sebastian Urzendowsky, Ulrike Bliefert, Walter Gontermann, Jürgen Christoph Kamcke
• Directors: Kai S. Pieck
• Writers: Kai S. Pieck, Jürgen Bartsch, Paul Moor
• Producers: Andrea Hanke, Bettina Scheuren
• Format: Closed-captioned, Color, DVD, Subtitled, NTSC
• Language: German
• Subtitles: English
• Region: Region 1 (U.S. and Canada only. Read more about DVD formats.)
  
• Aspect Ratio: 1.78:1
• Number of discs: 1
• Rated: Unrated
• Studio: Strand Releasing
• DVD Release Date: January 11, 2005
• Run Time: 86 minutes
• Average Customer Review: 4.0 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (7 customer reviews)
• ASIN: B0006Q9428
• Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #134,588 in Movies & TV (See Top 100 in Movies & TV)
• For more information about "The Child I Never Was" visit the Internet Movie Database (IMDb)

Editorial Reviews

Between 1962 and 1966, four schoolboys were abused, tortured and killed in Germany’s Ruhr District. Their tormentor, Jürgen Bartsch, was fifteen at the time of his first crime; nineteen when he was caught. His mesmerizing confession, which frames the re-enactment of his crimes and the circumstances through which they came about, forms the heart of this journey into the dark reaches of a troubled mind.

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16 of 16 people found the following review helpful:

4.0 out of 5 stars An Excellent Examination of the Darkness of Madness, January 21, 2005

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Grady Harp (Los Angeles, CA United States) - See all my reviews
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This review is from: The Child I Never Was (DVD)

Kai S. Peck is one courageous Director! He has created a very substantial and quite disturbing film about an actual bizarre serial killer and through the statements and letters of his subject and a book by Paul Moor and his astute directing he has been able to step over the sensationalism of his subject and open the door into the mind of a very ill person.

THE CHILD I NEVER WAS (originally titled EIN LEBEN LANG KURZE HOSEN TRAGEN) is frighteningly based on fact. From 1962 through 1966 a fifteen-year-old boy named Jurgen Bartsch tortured, murdered, and then sexually molested four young German boys. This infamous serial killer is first introduced in a black and white sequence of Jurgen as a 20 year old (Tobias Schenke) in prison for his crimes. He frankly talks about his crimes, acknowledging their evil, but at the same time seeks to uncover his own motivations for having performed such deeds. Through a series of flashbacks we see Jurgen as a child and as a 15 year old (Sebastian Urgendowsky) and discover he was adopted by a couple who are bipolar parents - Gertrud (Ulrike Bliefert) and Gerhard (Walter Gontermann) Bartsch. Their parenting is brutally bounced from feigned kindness to flailing mistreatments. They do not allow Jurgen to have friends, to socialize, to have any interests. When Jurgen begins to get in touch with his sexuality, they foster care him and seek professional advice for his sickness of homosexuality.

Young Jurgen is unable to relate to anyone and he yearns for friends. He discovers a cave where he can escape form his ugly world and fantasize about many things, including sexual fantasies about boys 'ages 8 through 14'. Gradually he gives in to his compulsion to seduce boys into his cave where he tortures them, eviscerates them, and once they are dead he has sexual acting out with them. At one point he seeks a priest's (Jürgen Christoph Kamcke) confession booth seeking absolution, but the priest only tells him that he must confess to the police and devote his life to charity. Eventually during his fourth episode of his serial madness he leaves his victim bound, disturbed that this boy actually seems to return Jurgen's bizarre sexual advances, and when he returns to the cave the boy has escaped. Jurgen is captured and imprisoned.

The way in which the film resolves is actually touching in that from surprise confessions we grow to understand these serial murders on a certain level. To reveal these facts would hamper the suspense of the film. Suffice it to say that here is a sophisticated film unafraid to enter the darkest regions of a young man's mind and in doing so heightens our awareness of the fine line between response to personal abuse and madness. The cast is extraordinarily fine. Grady Harp, January 2005

12 of 12 people found the following review helpful:

4.0 out of 5 stars Chilling True Story of a Troubled Teen Killer, February 4, 2005

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interested_observer "interested_observer" (San Francisco, CA USA) - See all my reviews

This review is from: The Child I Never Was (DVD)

I agree with the earlier review of this film by Grady Harp (who writes many fine reviews). I would like to add a few points.

The main character, Juergen Bartsch, is not allowed to have friends, to build social skills, to explore his sexuality, or to grow up. His mother screens out the outside world, his father seldom speaks to him. His mother is still giving him his baths when he is in his late teens. When the parents separate, Juergen is sent to a Catholic boys' home where the masters will knock over his food tray if he is seen eating too frequently with the same boys. Juergen is in Germany while Paragraph 175 is still in effect and, as a member of the Church, finds himself subject to stern teachings on homosexuality and to a sexually agressive priest. He has a negative self-image and can scarcely believe anyone would want him, except through a bribe or threat. Only if his partner is absolutely passive or dead can he feel safe or accepted. It gets even worse from here.

The scripts, acting, and atmosphere are excellent. There is no frontal nudity, and the most shocking aspects of the murders are told as narrative by the older, institutionalized Juergen.

The most astonishing thing was that at the end, he found someone who would marry him after undergoing surgical castration. That's another movie.

It's a harrowing film, not entered into lightly, but it's a very insightful and true one as well. Recommended for the stout of heart.

7 of 8 people found the following review helpful:

3.0 out of 5 stars Interesting, albeit emotionally detached film about German child killer, September 29, 2005

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Get What We Give (Georgia) - See all my reviews
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This review is from: The Child I Never Was (DVD)

Jurgen Bartsch is the subject of this film about a teen aged boy who murdered other boys during the early to mid 1960's in Germany.

The film is told through a series of confessions (ostensibly to an unseen journalist) as an adult and flashbacks to the actual events in Bartsch's life. The subject matter is grim but the delivery in the film doesn't really capture the true horror that must have befell these child victims.

I don't think that we should be subjected to the sheer brutality or the sexual aspects of Bartsch's crimes, but since Bartsch confessed to the crimes, it would be well within reason to expect the filmmakers to take a more harsh stance against his crimes. Instead the delivery seems almost to attempt to justify his crimes as a result of his upbringing. Because of this, the viewer isn't able to truly empathize with any of the victims, but rather with Bartsch.

The young Bartsch is played quite well by a talented actor, but the older Bartsch as he confesses seems a bit uncommitted to his role. One could infer that the actor/filmmaker's intent is to show a young man who is indifferent to his crimes; instead the portrayal comes off a bit muddled.

If you are a fan of true crime, then you will enjoy this film for its factual aspects. However, it isn't as emotionally charged as it could have been.