A very emotional, heart breaking book. This is the first of the three books of my life growing up half deaf with 8 brothers, six sisters and a single mother, going though a kidnapping, rape and left on side of road to die, a shootout that took 6 brothers and 5 sisters lives, including my baby brother, age 11 who died in my arms. And also this is written to help others deal and help with drug addiction, teenage alcoholism, revenge, deaths, and many things that I dealt with in my first 18 years of my life. I hope that it will help many overcome whatever they may be dealing with. It deals with hope, tragedies, wishes, joy, sadness, abuses, drugs, fighting, and death. It is my hopes that through this, people can see hope and get help because you are a survivor, not a victim.