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Forgiving Troy: A True Story of Murder, Mental Illness and Recovery Paperback

ISBN-13: 978-1615394852 ISBN-10: 1615394850

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Product Details

  • Paperback: 288 pages
  • Publisher: Thom Bierdz (May 13, 2009)
  • Language: English
  • ISBN-10: 1615394850
  • ISBN-13: 978-1615394852
  • Product Dimensions: 8.8 x 6 x 0.9 inches
  • Shipping Weight: 11.2 ounces (View shipping rates and policies)
  • Average Customer Review: 5.0 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (43 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #789,146 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)

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"Matricide! Suicide! Paranoid schizophrenia! Sound like elements of a juicy soap opera?  These horrors are part of his true family story. And the actor is going public.."
--Gil Kaan--National Enquirer

". . . The soap sensation who played Phillip Chancellor III on The Young and the Restless has written a terrific, gut-punching memoir that chronicles his triumph over an unspeakable family tragedy . . . Chilling, hopeful, spiritual—you'll never read anything like it."  —Michael Logan, TV Guide

"A true-life tale of love and loss, terror and triumph, that will take your breath away—and play on every single emotion you own."  —Bill Harris, E! Entertainment TV

About the Author

Thom Bierdz is an actor on C.B.S.'s number one rated soap opera The Young and the Restless. After his unspeakable family tragedy, Thom spent the next 5 years painting as therapy. Now hailed as a talented artist, Thom still paints and has raised over $100,000 for charities. He lives in Los Angeles, California.

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Thom Bierdz has been known to millions as Phillip Chancellor III on CBS #1 soap opera, "The Young & The Restless" In 1989, when real life tragedy struck his own family, he penned the best-selling memoir, "Forgiving Troy" and channeled that energy into a successful art career. The author is busy working on the film version of his book, acting projects and art exhibits. The author resides in Los Angeles, California.

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I read this book from start to finish in a single day.
Thom's story was so shocking, so scary and told with utter truth and openness that I could not put the book down.
Jason Crawford
Thom has lived "the life" and survived threatening tragic events to show us all that recovery can be achieved.
A. J. Westbrook

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8 of 8 people found the following review helpful By Debbie Moseley on January 17, 2011
Format: Paperback
I have been an avid reader my entire life. I have read every type of book out there while subconsciously noting my favorites. But then came this book. This real life book of honest family tragedy and recovery took me on an emotional journey with the writer. The bravery and play by play steps of conjuring up courage and forgiveness along a life of tragedy and disappointments is nothing short of amazing. There are so many things written in this book that anyone can take away to use as positive lessons in their own lives. The author wrote with such honest and raw emotions that you want to hug him and thank him for sharing and letting you see inside of what many others would hide and cover up as too private to share. We all have dysfunction in our families and struggle to forgive such minor things at times amongst those we love. BUT THIS.....this book had me doing some major self inventory and lead me on a path to better understanding of what true forgiveness is. It also reminded me that being vulnerable and honest is liberating. Thom Bierdz is a very courageous and honest man with a big heart. You cannot put this book down once you open it so make sure you have a couple days to devote. It's one of those books that when you're finished you want more because you enjoy being in that world of honesty and love. Without question I definitely recommended this book to everyone. There are lessons for all walks of life.
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5 of 5 people found the following review helpful By Grady Harp HALL OF FAMETOP 50 REVIEWERVINE VOICE on August 31, 2010
Format: Paperback
Thom Bierdz walks where few have dared to walk: he has paraded his almost incredible life of a dysfunctional family, airing what most writers would shutter, with an openness of delivery that makes the reader immediately relate to this extraordinary man. Known as a successful actor, artist, and entertainer, Bierdz first shows us that he is unafraid to relate his position as a gay man in the industry that forbids such honesty, and then relates the life of that man who has endured more than most of us could even imagine. The main theme of his memoir is the fact that his schizophrenic brother Troy bludgeoned their mother to death with a baseball bat and was imprisoned - forsaken by his sibling Greg who eventually committed suicide and his sister, Hope, leaving only Thom to tread the path to confrontation and forgiveness of his youngest brother's crime. Through many discussions in prison and in the aftermath of those discussions Thom Bierdz found the inner strength to recover from the life of terror he had witnessed.

This is an intricate examination of familial mental illness and examining Bierdz' writing closely reveals many clues as to how behavior patterns in his entire family (including himself) provide evidence of a widespread illness, though of varying degrees of disturbance. Even Bierdz' own paintings, included throughout the book, show passages from expressionistic art to gentle representational, nearly spiritual art. But the overriding factor in appreciating this book is the utter honesty Thom Bierdz uses in sharing his memoir. He has taken more chances than most, especially given his background as a public celebrity, in sharing a life that would destroy most people's psyches. This is a testament to the resilience of the human nature to survive, heal and share with others so that they may avoid some of the pitfalls by early recognition of signs and symptoms of dysfunction. It is a worthwhile book, deserving of our respect and empathy. Grady Harp, August 10
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10 of 12 people found the following review helpful By Author on October 1, 2008
Format: Paperback
This book had me at page one. There are so many types of genres going on here - celebrity memoir and true crime being only two, - that you would almost think it could be a subplot for a soap opera. Well, Thom Bierdz would know about that. He was one of the more popular actors on The Young & the Restless during its glory years and is fondly remembered by many people who loved him in it. Reading here about what went on behind the scenes may shock some. In fact, the subplot he found himself in within his own life overtook anything the writers could dream up and cast him into a family drama that would take years to resolve. The path to that resolution gave me a sense of respect and compassion for Thom Bierdz. He is a positive person forced to deal with negativity that would put some of us on sedatives.

Thom Bierdz illuminates the childhood fears and phobias so many of us have, and shows us by his own extreme example how to rise above them. You get a sense of Thom as a person. He doesn't hide his faults or try to turn what is essentially a tragic story into a puff piece for his acting career. He is bare-knuckle honest here and I appreciated his candor, his vulnerability, his compassion and his expressiveness.

Five stars. Great Read.
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8 of 10 people found the following review helpful By Jason Crawford on August 30, 2009
Format: Paperback
BEVERLY HILLS--"Forgiving Troy: A True Story of Murder, Mental Illness and Recovery" by Thom Bierdz is perhaps the most shocking yet uplifting story anyone can read. Thom Bierdz, who is a well known soap opera star and acclaimed artist, has received raves from some of the toughest and most respected critics in Hollywood about his book. I can now truly see why. It was a difficult book for me to read. Having known a paranoid schizophrenic and the paranoia involved on a daily basis, knowing that no matter how beloved and trusted you are to the ill person, eventually the disease gives way to paranoia, anger and rage toward the very people who are trying to help that person, was scary for me to delve into.

This book that Thom wrote gives everyone who has either known such an individual as his brother Troy, the opportunity to be brave and confront the disease and symptoms in order to deal with the feelings you may have of fear or resentment toward the person who is suffering from schizophrenia. Thom's story was so shocking, so scary and told with utter truth and openness that I could not put the book down. Once I read it, I had to immediately read it all over again. I've now suggested this book to several medical professionals including Canyon New reader Nurse Lisa Rodgers, who has been touched by Thom's story.

Thom's story in this book deals with divorce, matricide, suicide, paranoia and schizophrenia. These are some of the most depressing subjects one can write about. However, the theme of this book is hope. The path Thom took in order to forgive the brother, Troy whom he loved and had to ultimately forgive for killing their mother. This book is exhausting in emotions. Thom Bierdz has made a fascinating and exciting life for himself as an author, painter and actor.
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