Amazon.com Review
To an outsider, Buddhist meditation can appear self-indulgent, time frittered away buttressing an intransigent ego. To an insider, such as Sandy Boucher, the dividends of meditation can come at unforeseen times, under extreme circumstances, such as facing down malignant cancer. Boucher, a counterculture patchwork of pursuits and causes, sews together a memoir of suffering to rival any proof of the Buddha's first noble truth. Although her surgery is a success, like so many other cancer victims Boucher's battle with chemotherapy causes the most damage. Having lost her home, her lover, and her health, Boucher collapses into the spiritual arms of her longtime meditation teacher Ruth Denison. Parallel to the drama of the cancer, we are treated to a minibiography of Denison, who proves to be an oasis of sanity in the desert of Boucher's life. Honest, occasionally compelling, and often unusual, Boucher's story contains glimmers of Buddhism's light amid many shadows of human frailty.
--Brian Bruya
In 1995 Boucher, a feminist and, for some 20 years, a Buddhist, was diagnosed with stage three colon cancer. Her book is an unflinching, poignant, inspiring account of the subsequent year-long battle with the disease and the near-fatal joust with the grim reaper, which consumed every element of her life. Her faith gave her solace. With much difficulty and grave determination, she learned to live in the moment, to be fully present. The reader follows her through the nerve-racking early testing and waiting, the devastating diagnosis, the harrowing surgery, the interminable chemotherapy sessions, the long recovery process, and also, sadly, the unraveling of a serious relationship. Finally, Boucher appears compassionate yet flawed, terrified by the uncertain road ahead yet determined to follow it to the end. Anyone who has been touched by a serious illness or a death in the family will probably identify with Boucher's touching story, and admire her courage and perseverance in bringing it to public attention. And such readers may be left in tears.
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