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High On Arrival [Kindle Edition]

Mackenzie Phillips
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Book Description

Not long before her fiftieth birthday,Mackenzie Phillips walked into Los Angeles International Airport. She was on her way to a reunion for One Day at a Time, the hugely popular 70s sitcom on which she once starred as the lovable rebel Julie Cooper. Within minutes of entering the security checkpoint, Mackenzie was in handcuffs, arrested for possession of cocaine and heroin.

Born into rock and roll royalty, flying in Learjets to the Virgin Islands at five, making pot brownies with her father's friends at eleven, Mackenzie grew up in an all-access kingdom of hippie freedom and heroin cool. It was a kingdom over which her father, the legendary John Phillips of The Mamas & the Papas, presided, often in absentia, as a spellbinding, visionary phantom.

When Mackenzie was a teenager, Hollywood and the world took notice of the charming, talented, precocious child actor after her star-making turn in American Graffiti. As a young woman she joinedthe nonstop party in the hedonistic pleasure dome her father created for himself and his fellow revelers, and a rapt TV audience watched as Julie Cooper wasted away before their eyes. By the time Mackenzie discovered how deep and dark her father's trip was going, it was too late. And as an adult, she has paid dearly for a lifetime of excess, working tirelessly to reconcile a wonderful, terrible past in which she succumbed to the power of addiction and the pull of her magnetic father.

As her astounding, outrageous, and often tender life story unfolds, the actor-musician-mother shares her lifelong battle with personal demons and near-fatal addictions. She overcomes seemingly impossible obstacles again and again and journeys toward redemption and peace. By exposing the shadows and secrets of the past to the light of day, the star who turned up High on Arrival has finally come back down to earth -- to stay.

Editorial Reviews


"I felt many things while reading this book -- which I did in one overnight sitting -- but when I reached the last page I felt only one: a tremendous respect for its author and a deep appreciation of just exactly how courageous she is to publish this book.
This is no celebrity addiction memoir. And it is no 'former child star falls from grace' saga, either. It is the heart-wrenching and perilous story that thousands and thousands of perfectly ordinary women and men lived themselves, silently, numbly, and with obedience and love. By making her search for redemption public -- despite the inevitable backlash -- Mackenzie Phillips may very well help others find it for themselves.
Rich with compassion, forgiveness, and wisdom, this is a brave memoir executed with an unwavering loyalty and commitment to truth." -- Augusten Burroughs

About the Author

Mackenzie Phillips is the daughter of John Phillips and stepdaughter of Michelle Phillips, both lead singers of the 60s band The Mamas and The Papas. She starred as Julie Cooper Horvath on the sitcom One Day at a Time alongside Valerie Bertinelli.

Product Details

  • File Size: 2327 KB
  • Print Length: 316 pages
  • Page Numbers Source ISBN: 143915385X
  • Publisher: Gallery Books (September 19, 2009)
  • Sold by: Simon and Schuster Digital Sales Inc
  • Language: English
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  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #67,651 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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5.0 out of 5 stars "Absolutely Shocking" September 23, 2009
Not since Christina Crawford wrote her tell-all story "Mommie Dearest" about the physical and mental abuse she endured at the hands of her famous mother Joan Crawford, has a book about famous people rocked Hollywood. Mackenzie Phillips has written an honest and brave account of her life with Mamas and the Papas frontman John Phillips who was her father. In the book Mackenzie discusses candidly her drug problem that has plagued her most of her life and how her father introduced her to cocaine when she was ten. She eventually started smoking pot and drinking heavily and ultimately became very promiscuous often having sex with many of her dad's friends including Mick Jagger. Mackenzie also recounts her eventual childhood stardom on the CBS sitcom "One Day At A Time" and how her drug use led her to being fired from the show as she would often show up stoned to film scenes. The most harrowing part of the book is her allegation of her father raping her one night while she was passed out cold from doing too many drugs. She reveals waking up after being "out" only to find her father having sex with her. Her drug problem became so severe that she actually allowed her father to have sex with her for over ten years until she found herself pregnant. She didn't know if the father was her fiance or her dad so she had the pregnancy terminated. The greatest part of the book is that she accepts her faults and mistakes herself and doesn't blame anyone for her shortcomings. She was even able to forgive her father for all the harm he inflicted upon her before he died in 2001. Rather than be a book that seeks revenge on someone "High On Arrival" is a book about facing one's past, dealing with their mistakes, and starting over fresh. Read more ›
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127 of 134 people found the following review helpful
You can't have paid any attention to the internet or TV for the last few days without hearing the revelations Mackenzie Phillips has made about her relationship with her father. Based on this, people have made decisions on whether or not they find her to be truthful. Having read the book I believe Mackenzie to be self-aware and compelling. Nobody knows for sure, only Mackenzie and only her dad, but her story, read in the context of the whole book, reads as truth.

Even if she'd not revealed her incestuous relationship with her dad, this still would be an interesting (5 star) read, a story about a roller coaster life and the pain of addiction. However, all the details together make that detail that every one is gossiping about seem plausible. Mackenzie grew up with a father who never parented, who only got angry at her taking drugs when it was his collectible LSD and not the stuff strewn casually around their home, who only asked that his 13-year-old daughter -- who lived with him -- be home one night a week, and so many more jaw-dropping stories. The relationship was so very inappropriate before it was INAPPROPRIATE that it gives credence to the latter. Her relationship with her father was about lines crossed, non-existent rules, and promises broken.

I don't think anyone could even casually follow her life and not wonder why a woman who was given so much couldn't stay off drugs. After reading this, I think most people will come to an understanding of why she's struggled so hard and how she could sink so low and perhaps, in the end, how she can still say she loves and forgives him -- why she needs this for her own sobriety.

One of the best reads this year. Memorable, with too many anecdotes to share here! Tales of golden days of casual drug use/flower power descending into dark days of self-destruction.

(I wish Mackenzie Phillips the best and hope she will, at last, be healed and that her story will help others.)
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This is story of a privileged young woman who was exposed to sex, drugs, and adult activities at a very young age, who grew up way too fast under irresponsible parents, who suffered abuse from somebody she trusted and loved. Her written words have a LOT OF PAIN behind them. But when you see her tell them to Oprah, it is even more sad, more painful. I found myself tearing up at times, because this woman was so damaged and still in so much emotional turmoil.

As difficult as it is to believe that Papa John would do such things, all you have to do is read her book and watch her interviews on TV to see the result of his abuse.

Hers was a difficult story to tell, and from some reviews, naysayers who state Mackenzie is making this up, trying to get money, attention, whatever. For the doubters, have you read her book? Have you seen her on TV, talking about this book and its contents? You could see how Mackenzie was struggling to let these demons out in public; at times her hands were shaking. And the difficulty she had with her interview with Oprah was revealing in itself: nobody would go out in public and tell such stories if they weren't true. Her book is searingly honest and hard to read, but very brave.

People don't like to hear about their heroes or stars having flaws or doing such awful things behind closed doors. This is true of John Phillips. His image was that of a gentle, peace-loving hippie, talented musician, and founder of The Mamas and The Papas. People cannot rectify that image with that of a drugged-out, irresponsible parent who thought it was ok to carry on an incestuous relationship with his daughter. It was shocking enough to read that John Phillips used drugs in front of his daughter and taught her how to shoot up.
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What happened to $9.99???
Also, the price of the hardcover book is now exactly the same as the kindle version ($14.29.) This doesn't make sense to me.
Sep 24, 2009 by K.B.R. |  See all 11 posts
are you kidding?????????????
Actually, it's a good book. I was cynical about it, too when I heard the hype. I decided to get it after I read the first few pages...Her father was a mess which helped make her a mess...and she may still be messed up, but I think her story is honest & compelling.
Oct 10, 2009 by Larry Underwood |  See all 3 posts
After seeing Mackenzie on the Today Show, I went right to Amazon and ordered the book. I believe she wrote the truth and that the book was a cathersis for her at this point in her life. Read it with an open mind...don't judge her.
Sep 24, 2009 by SpikeysMommy |  See all 103 posts
I think it's the publisher who's doing drugs Be the first to reply
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