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Product Details

  • Paperback: 342 pages
  • Publisher: Holy Crack Publishing; 1 edition (May 23, 2014)
  • Language: English
  • ISBN-10: 0692215174
  • ISBN-13: 978-0692215173
  • Product Dimensions: 5 x 0.8 x 8 inches
  • Shipping Weight: 15.7 ounces (View shipping rates and policies)
  • Average Customer Review: 5.0 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (8 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #1,647,390 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)

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In *Holy Candy*, Yolande Brener achieves what all memoirs strive for: to reveal strange worlds with mesmerizing insight and lyricism, and to locate the known within them. We may not all have been seduced by cults, but we have all craved the sweet and transcendent. Brener's book offers the mirror of true memoir: a portal through which we find ourselves.

Melissa Febos, author of the critically acclaimed memoir *Whip Smart*

Get ready for an adventure like no other. Though wildly provocative, *Holy Candy* is also immediately identifiable due to Yolande Brener's honest, graceful narration. This is a beautiful memoir, compelling in every way.

Stephanie Elizondo Griest, award-winning author of *Around the Bloc **and** Mexican Enough*

About the Author

Yolande Brener has worked as an actress, filmmaker, singer in an all-girl band and disciple of an alleged Messiah. Her essays
 have been published in New York Press, nerve.com, Anthem Journal, Strange Angels, Harlem World, and the anthology, Beyond Belief. She grew up in England, and now lives in New York with her two children.

More About the Author

I am an English writer living in New York, author of the memoir, Holy Candy, about why I joined the Unification Church and married a stranger, and ultimately why I left the Church. I have worked as an actress, filmmaker, singer in an all-girl band and disciple of an alleged Messiah. Above all, I am a seeker and a lover of the arts. My search for love and meaning has led me to unexpected places; my blog here will cover some of my adventures into the realms of relationships and spirituality.

My essays
 have been published in New York Press, nerve.com, Anthem Journal and Harlem World. My short story, The Swan Sister, is in the anthology, Beyond Belief. My film
 scripts have been funded by the British Film Institute and the Arts
 Council of Great Britain. I won the 2010 NYC Parks Department Poems 
in the Park competition. I still enjoy asking life's big questions.

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Yolande's writing style is just beautiful.
wendymm
What I found so compelling was how she opened up her life and experiences to the reader.
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I'm just half way through the book and I can't put it down.
Mary Borrelli

Most Helpful Customer Reviews

4 of 4 people found the following review helpful By wendymm on June 14, 2014
Format: Kindle Edition
I couldn't put this book down from start to finish. I wanted to maintain my connection with Yolande through all of her identities, ordeals and associated thought processes. I also wanted to get to the end to see how Yolande concludes the story in the hope I might see my own conclusion - but, rightly so, I know there is more to come. That is life. But I felt hope at the end as Yolande clearly explained the breakthroughs she made that are going to set off the next stage of her story. Through this book I came to understand myself more and stop beating myself up because of all the mental ups and downs and anguish I go through having left the same group Yolande did. It was actually exciting to read about events I also attended and to find someone else was going through the same mental conflict as me at the time. If only I'd known, the path might have been less lonely. I don't feel alone anymore and I feel hope. Yolande's writing style is just beautiful. So descriptive and emotive - I truly hope she keeps writing as she has a gift. And I hope that people like Yolande and I can find the love we've been looking for, and inner peace. I appreciate that this book, while clearly exposing the mental processes people go through in idealistic closed religions, or in fact any group where you are encouraged to believe it is THE ONLY TRUTH, thereby limiting your exposure to other ideas that could erode the group's belief stronghold, Yolande does still see the positives gained on her path. while letting go of the crap. This book is an enlightening expose of the power of the human mind and also the weakness of the human mind. Plus the power of the human spirit and soul to constantly strive for freedom and evolution. It will truly get you thinking about where your beliefs and values come from and if it is time for a mental overhaul.
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4 of 4 people found the following review helpful By Owen Callahan on June 9, 2014
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Yolande takes us along with her on a very personal journey deep inside the mystery of her own heart. She boldly retraces her steps into the controversial world of Sun Myung Moon's Unification Movement. With the promise of meeting the living divinity and healing the broken world, Yolande dives heart first into a non-traditional faith that nearly drowns her. We are fortunate that she resurfaces to tell her story.
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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful By Gordon Neufeld on July 6, 2014
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Brener's memoir recounts with great honesty the desperate idealism that led her to join Moon's Unification Church at a time when the group was about to be torn apart by internal scandals, some of which she witnessed herself. I was also a member of Moon's cult, but I left that group in 1986. Brener joined in 1990 and witnessed the cult as it was transformed from a group that required its members to go for years without having relations with the opposite sex, because only by so doing could one be cleansed of Original Sin, to a group that believed that a person could be unknowingly "Blessed" merely by eating a candy proffered by a church member. Brener also witnessed the mercurial eldest son of Sun Myung Moon, Hyo Jin, in action, just as his womanizing and drug use (all completely contrary to Moon's teachings) were about to be exposed by his former wife, Nansook Hong. Through all of these remarkable changes, Brener gives an honest account of her own earnest desire to change the world and save her schizophrenic brother, and how this led her into a loveless marriage and a sojourn in Ecuador. When, finally, she finds her way out again, it is with a complex understanding of how sad it was to dream such a fine dream and to see it crumble away. I also once felt this way, when I remembered the Ideal World I had once dreamed I was creating (but which Moon was incapable of bringing into being). Fortunately, Brener finds her way out again, with wisdom and without bitterness.

Heartbreak and Rage: Ten Years Under Sun Myung Moon
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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful By Mary Borrelli on June 22, 2014
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I'm just half way through the book and I can't put it down. Yolande, was in deep. A cult within the cult. I find myself literally laughing out loud at the way she describes some of her experiences and her thought process. Perhaps because I had some of those same thoughts and experiences. It's funny now looking from the outside in that we ever believed that crap. But while wrapped up in it, it was serious stuff. . . Yolande describes this perfectly.
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