I love questions. For me, a good question should lead to a good answer that in turn leads to even better questions. I'm not scared of questions, not afraid to question, and appreciate the way a good question can get after the truth in specific and meaningful ways. Along comes this book, and from the opening pages I am reminded of my love for questions, my understanding of Jesus' questions, and ... wait a minute. A twist? A book that uses my questions against me?!?
"Jesus' questions probed the soul, and they were not easily ignored. He posed one question to a grieving sister emptied of hope. He directed one toward a friend who couldn't muster up the courage to trust, and another toward the ears of a band of piously religious hypocrites.... These Jesus-questions refuse to stay put in dusty Palestine.... We discover that Jesus' questions - first tossed in their direction - become our own disorienting, gracious queries. this soul work, this asking of true heart-deep questions, is an art we learn from Jesus.... [But] if our questions become the goal, we are no longer being honest but merely using our questions to hide. This will never do." (from chapter one)
Collier crafts new questions and new responses to age old questions popping up in the gospels around Christ and the Disciples, while still remaining true to the text. And he turns our ideas of safety and security upside down when we think of Jesus and the way He responded to His followers.
"Jesus did little to provide calm. Rather, He tugged at His followers' fears, prodded and provoked them. Following Jesus meant surrendering any assured solace in the most basic human acts.... Perhaps God wants to move us to a deeper peace than we know, a deeper joy and rest than we have experienced - but perhaps we have to move through our insatiable fears of losing control to get there." (from chapter three)
And that's where I think he has meddled with me - in a good way. Questions are tools of control, and I've been guilty of being small, of hiding behind my faux depth. Jesus' questions, framed in His life and continued interaction with us, are deeper and more curious than I've been following. But I'm encouraged to keep asking, to keep resting, to allow those questions their place in me, in my journey, in my own growth in him.
Curiouser and curiouser.