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If You Loved Me [Kindle Edition]

Vanessa Grant
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Book Description

When Seattle surgeon Emma Garrett's son disappears on an adventurous kayaking trip, Emma desperately needs the help of an expert who knows the territory.

Nobody knows the Pacific Ocean’s north coast wilderness like Gray McKenzie, but when Emma arrives on Gray’s remote doorstep unannounced and determined to enlist his aid in the search for her son, she soon realizes that reawakening her past may cost far more than she’d imagined.

Together, they will journey through the wilderness that Emma finds so frightening, desperate to find Emma's missing son. - but can a city surgeon dedicated to rebuilding damaged children's bodies, and a man who lives and breathes wilderness, ever build a life together that includes both their worlds?


I've always been fascinated by the power of certain settings to wield control over so much of our lives. When the universal themes of survival, love, and the dreams that drive human men and women interact with extreme environments, lives can be transformed in unexpected ways.

When the setting is remote - like the northern waters where Emma's son Chris and his friend have disappeared - and isolated, and men and women are stressed by life and death issues, there's not a lot of room for pretence or hesitation.

And when people go missing in the remote, largely unpopulated coastal forests of the North Pacific shores, everyone knows it's a matter of life and death.

The waters, the islands, the incredible beauty and the challenges of life on the North Coast are all very real. Emma and Gray are also very real to me - the woman who has always afraid of the wilderness, and the man with a wild heart he refuses to risk.

I hope you enjoy If You Loved Me as much as I enjoyed writing it, and preparing it for this new release. It's a story that has a very special place in my heart.

Vanessa Grant

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About the Author

"I love writing fiction - it's the perfect occupation for someone who can't decide what they want to be when they grow up. With each new story, I get to explore a new world." Vanessa Grant's love affair with writing fiction began during a protracted illness at the age of 12 when she decided to write a novel of her own, sitting up in bed using the typewriter she'd been given for her birthday. Not a computer, not an electric typewriter, but a then-state-of-the-art manual typewriter. The story ground to a halt on page 50 but Vanessa never forgot the excitement of bringing her own characters to life. In 1985 Vanessa's novel Pacific Disturbance was published in hardcover by Mills and Boon. She now has over 10 million books sold and has been translated into 15 languages. She also has written what one critic described as, "by far the best writing book I've ever read." Writing Romance, published by Self Counsel Press, won the Under the Covers Best Writing Book Award, and is currently in its third edition. Over the years her love of storytelling and curiosity about people led Vanessa to study psychology, volunteer on a crisis line, complete individual and relationship counselor training, volunteer as a peer counselor for a family life organization, and tell stories about life, love, and secrets. Vanessa is also a university professor, a publisher of educational materials and eBooks, and has given workshops to writers' groups in Australia, New Zealand, the USA and Canada. Vanessa and her husband live on Vancouver Island in the Pacific Northwest with their two Australian Shepherd dogs.

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  • File Size: 1131 KB
  • Print Length: 336 pages
  • Simultaneous Device Usage: Unlimited
  • Publisher: Muse Creations Inc (January 19, 2012)
  • Sold by: Amazon Digital Services, Inc.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B007134FD2
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Lending: Enabled
  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #538,835 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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4 of 4 people found the following review helpful
3.0 out of 5 stars I loved it somewhat.. November 27, 2012
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Emma Garrett had turned down her first and greatest love, wildlife photographer Gray McKenzie, in order to follow her dream of becoming a doctor, Gray offered Emma an idyllic life in the wilderness, but she wanted to become a doctor and was not willing to give up her dreams. Now widowed, and with her son missing on a kayaking trip, Emma needs Gray's help. Together, they will have to find find Emma's son and his friend as well as find their way back to the passion they once shared.

While I was reading I was hoping that the author would deliver a romance filled with passion and more depth. I found it lacking in those areas but the plot is pretty good and this book is a good read.
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4.0 out of 5 stars Love like this.... April 28, 2014
By Sofia
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**Free ebook in exchange for an honest review**

Be aware: my opinions may contain veiled spoilers, so read at your own risk

I have to say, this was a love story like I haven't read in years!
I'm a bit sick of all the sex and drama that it's been used in romance books lately. Is like, if there isn't a huge trauma from the past and a super hot tattoed hunk or a Mr. Sexy Money on the plot, the story won't work. I mean, come on!!

If You Loved Me is a great story because is more realistic, because is about two people that loved each other in the past and are reconnected 20 years later --when they're responsible adults-- and all that was between them comes back up like an unstoppable fire. But their lives are so different there's no way a relationship would work for them. They knew that as teenagers and they know it now. Still, there is a force pulling them together that neither of them can control.

There were a couple of things I didn't loved, but is not like there were that bad. I mean, first the whole thing with her son being missing... the part where they find the boys it was a bit too easyly resolved, I think, because after all that tension and fear it only took like two pages to have it all sorted out... I believe it could have been better, but I also understand that the story wasn't really about that, it was about Emma and Gray, so they needed to finish what they'd started.
Second, both of them are very stubborn people that are fixated in the fact there is no way to unify their worlds. But then an explanation coming out of Gray's past is what brings it all to a perfectly round end...
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2 of 2 people found the following review helpful
3.0 out of 5 stars An okay read November 5, 2012
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Thinking about this book, the landscape and environment were more memorable than the characters. But the characters were all right. If you get into intense angsty romances, with ostensibly unresolovable conflicts, you'll probably like it. The heroine is a surgeon, but she never seemed like a surgeon to me.
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4.0 out of 5 stars Love never dies April 23, 2014
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I received this book free from Story Cartel in exchange for an honest review.

I heart warming story about Emma and Gray who haven't seen each other in years but come together to find Emma's son who is lost while kayaking. As they search for him, they both realize that they never really stopped loving each other and now have fallen in love all over again as the people they have become.
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If you like first loves/lost love stories, this is a good one! It is definitely not your typical romance and the plot is really good. Emma and Gray were first loves and then separate as each has a different path they want to take in life. Their breakup is not nice and Emma runs into the arms of her former boyfriend. Fast forward 18 years...Emma, now a single mom, is a pediatric surgeon with a 17 yr old son who is missing from going on a kayaking trip. Gray is a famous outdoor photographer, wildlife expert who she goes to in the hopes that he will help her find her son.

This is a really good story. What I liked about it is, that unlike most romance stories, this is very realistic. It shows the honest struggles between 2 people who did/do love each other but have completely different lifestyles. I liked both Emma and Gray although it took me awhile to like Gray. He is simply a tough, outdoor guy who is somewhat mean/rude to Emma and it's hard to understand at first. As the book unfolds and you get some insight to him, I definitely wanted Gray to get his happen ending.

I did feel that the sideline story of her lost son was anti-climatic but again, that really wasn't what this book was about. Although, I guess I expected and would have liked a bit more drama over that. The author does a great job of describing the outdoors and you feel like you can see it.

This is the second book I have read by this author. The other was Seeing Stars and I absolutely loved that book. In both of these books, I really liked the fact that the H/h are older (late 30s), established, educated career people who are basically happy in their lives when they find each other.
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5.0 out of 5 stars Beautiful May 31, 2014
By Kiera
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This was so heartwarming. Made my heart skip at some points or just rode out my feelings with Emma or Gray. Made me feel the pain and I honestly enjoyed this book a bunch. Made me even shed a tear at one point. But that's the beauty of it. I would recommend this to anyone that loves to feel emotions of a story. One of thee best!
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"Writing fiction is a perfect life choice for someone like Vanessa Grant who can't make up her mind what she wants to do when she grows up!"

There are so many choices and I want to do them all. In real life I've taken a lot of roads: I've studied psychology, volunteered on a crisis line and as a peer counselor for a family life organization, worked as an accountant and a software developer, more recently taught accounting and fraud investigation at a university, and best of all-told stories about life, love, and secrets. In my stories, my heroes and heroines have lived many of the lives I'm fascinated by.

I live with my wonderful husband and two aging-but-energetic Australian Shepherds on Vancouver Island ... and every so often we indulge in wanderlust and leave the island to go exploring.

In addition to publication in print, most of my novels have now been released as eBooks for Kindle, Sony, Apple and Kobo as well as other formats. Free samples are available for all my eBook editions.

I love discussing storytelling, books, and the creative process, so don't hesitate to post a comment on my blog or one of my pages here on the site, or contact me through my Web site at, or on Twitter @Vanessa_Grant

For book listings and links to my books at online retailers, visit

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