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He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not (Deadly Games Thrillers) [Kindle Edition]

Lena Diaz
4.4 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (75 customer reviews)

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Book Description

Four years ago, Amanda Stockton wasforced to play a serial killer’s twisted game ofchance. Since then, she has retreated from the world, bearing the scar from her ordeal and theburden of a terrible secret. But when anotherwoman is found dead, clutching a long-stemmedred rose, Amanda knows she can hide no longer.

If there were any other way, Chief Logan Richards would never ask the only surviving victimfor help. But it’s clear this killer will not bestopped and Amanda is the only link. Torn between catching a madman and winning the trust of thewoman he’s come to love, Logan is caught in adangerous game with Amanda. And there’s noguarantee they’ll come out on top.

Editorial Reviews


"Ms. Diaz is now on my auto-buy list. In fact, I went and ordered more books by this very talented author. This book will appeal to fans of  Julie Garwood's romantic suspense novels. In fact, she's just as good." ~ Cyndi Delia, Born to Read

“Chilling from the first scene on. Diaz has crafted the kind of tense psychological thriller that’s impossible to put down.” (Eileen Rendahl)

“The characters are well rounded, the romance is spicy, and the mystery is riveting. I highly recommend He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not to fans of romantic suspense.” (Long and Short Romance Reviews (5 Books))

“It’s all there. . .sizzling love scenes and a shivery good thrill ride.” (Margaret Carroll)

From the Author

Chapter One

The sweet music of her screams echoed in his mind as he inhaled the lavender-scented shampoo he'd selected for her. He sat cross-legged on the carpet of pine needles, stroking her hair, his fingers sliding easily through the silky brown mass he had washed and brushed.

Underlying that scent, the metallic aroma of blood teased his senses. He traced his fingers across her naked belly to the sweet center of her. The temptation to linger was strong, but the ritual wasn't complete.

He picked up the blood-red rose and tucked its velvety petals between Kate's pale, generous breasts. Molding her cool fingers around the stem, he pressed her palms together, embedding the single remaining thorn in her flesh. As he stood, her sightless pale blue eyes stared at him accusingly, just like they had in Summerville the first time he gave her a rose.

Let her stare. She couldn't hurt him anymore, not today.

A rhythmic pounding noise echoed through the trees, an early morning jogger trying to beat the impending heat and humidity of another scorching summer day. The sun's first rays were starting to peek through the pine trees, glinting off the rows of swings and slides. 

Thump. Thump. Closer. Closer. A cold sweat broke out on his forehead as he listened to the jogger approach. Was Kate coming for him again, already? No matter how many times he punished her, she always came back. He'd walk around a corner and there she was, condemning him with a haughty look, taunting him with her sinfully alluring long hair.

He risked a quick glance down and let out a shaky, relieved breath. She was still lying on the ground. She hadn't come back to torture him.

Not yet.

After one last, longing glance at her body, he slid between some palmettos and followed his makeshift path through the woods. He emerged at the parking lot of Shadow Falls' only mall, next to a row of dumpsters. Exchanging his soiled clothes for the clean ones he'd hidden in a plastic bag, he quickly dressed. Then he stepped around the dumpsters, pitched the bag into his trunk, and got into the patrol car.

Product Details

  • File Size: 444 KB
  • Print Length: 368 pages
  • Publisher: Avon Impulse (August 9, 2011)
  • Sold by: HarperCollins Publishers
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B005AJY8V8
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  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #10,342 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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14 of 15 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Gripping! September 6, 2011
Format:Mass Market Paperback
He Kills Me, He Kills Me Not is absolutely gripping.

The novel opened with a chilling account of the serial killer positioning the body of his latest victim. Even more distressing, Ms. Diaz hinted that the killer is someone in law enforcement. I love a good mystery and was hooked instantly. I had to discover the killer's identity and how he would be caught. Ms. Diaz created a sense of urgency that had me racing through the pages seeking the answers.

Ms. Diaz certainly knows her way around a good mystery. The list of suspects was small. I was constantly evaluating and reevaluating several of the secondary characters wondering if their pleasant demeanor was merely a mask hiding a killer. Ms. Diaz left tantalizing clues throughout the story, and I was able to piece some of them together. However, I can honestly say I was surprised when the last piece of the puzzle clicked into place.

Amanda is easily one of the strongest heroines I've had the pleasure of reading about. After facing the serial killer years ago, Amanda's physical injuries have healed, but her emotional and mental wounds are still bleeding. I admire the courage it took for her to agree to help the police. As if facing the nemesis of her past wasn't enough, Amanda also finds herself falling in love with Logan. Ms. Diaz did an excellent job of depicting Amanda's desire for Logan as well as her fear of being vulnerable. As Amanda and Logan explore their feelings for each other, it was a pleasure watching Amanda's wounds begin to heal.

Logan is the perfect hero for Amanda. He's strong, caring, protective, and loyal. Despite his tough exterior, Logan has some scars of his own. He made a terrible mistake when he was a rookie cop that still haunts him.
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5 of 5 people found the following review helpful
3.0 out of 5 stars The 80% of the book 4/5 stars, the end 2 stars February 13, 2012
Format:Mass Market Paperback
I so wanted to like this book... in addition it had so much potential on the plot and romance parts. It is evident from the start, the author invested in characterisation development; I found Logan very likeable from the very beginning, one that you could feel immediate kindness. I found Amanda very strong and down to earth, needles to say, a lot of vulnerability and soreness accompanied her throughout the book prior to her horrible experience whilst being a victim of a vicious attack. Here, the author tries to convince the reader of the emotional connection between the two and the reader is adoringly drawn to their love development and she made it believable too.


And then the striking point came at the end of the story, when Logan abandoned Amanda at the hospital whilst she was fighting for her life and the reader is rather left with unpleasant feeling and disbelief quite contrary to the idea of Logan loving her profoundly and always putting her safety at his first priority. Additionally, I felt emotionally disturbed of how could he leave her without his support by way of justifying his guilt of blaming himself for her injuries and death of his colleague officer. She declared her love to him and he perfectly new that she had been trough a hell and needed support, but here his guild and pride over blind him and he acted cowardly by leaving her a letter with lies (because he was to scared revealing his feelings to her), quite shock to what I was led to believe by the author. That led me to ultimate disappointment of him, as Amanda did not deserved to be abandon in such circumstances, she could have died at this hospital alone, and even when she recovered, he did not even come to her once... where was his love??? I could not be that easily convinced on that account.

What a shame, as this is the only disappointing part, but the rest is sweet.
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3 of 3 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Yes, it really is worth all those stars! January 22, 2012
Format:Kindle Edition|Verified Purchase
It's been a while since I read a book that kept me up into the early hours of the morning because I didn't want to put it down. This book is a terrific combo of romance, mystery, thriller, and action. The author is smart in her writing, dropping hints that make you think you've figured out who the killer is, until a new twist makes you second guess your answers. The hero and heroine don't fall into bed right away. Instead the relationship develops and keeps you anticipating through the first half of the book as a real affection grows between the couple. The wait is more than worthwhile. By the time they give in to their attractions, sparks are flying like wildfire.
I look forward to this author's future works. I'll be watching for more!
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5 of 6 people found the following review helpful
1.0 out of 5 stars Guilt and misunderstanding July 20, 2012
By Scout
Format:Kindle Edition|Verified Purchase
I also dragged myself through this book so I could write a review. Obviously other reviewers liked this style of writing. I don't. I want to give a heads up to folks that go into this book knowing Logan and Amanda carry the guilt of the world on their shoulders. If there were a hurricane in the story, one of the two would figure out how it is their fault and continue to remind the reader that all bad things are their fault. It was exhausting to read the story built solely on guilt and wrong assumptions. The romance just happened. I was surprised when Logan suddenly asked, in the middle of an serious investigation, "ask me anything. I'll tell you about me." Amanda asks about his "rookie" mistake. He immediately regrets wanting to answer it. And not to be outdone, Amanda regrets asking the question...oh and runs away...again.

The bad guy. Easy to pick out once it was clear how the author writes.
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Most Recent Customer Reviews
1.0 out of 5 stars DON'T BOTHER
Silly! I wanted a good mystery and all I got was the poor Amanda and poor Logan trying to out whine one another, even though Logan did seem pretty hot! Read more
Published 6 days ago by Lucia
4.0 out of 5 stars Love the author ...
Enjoyed the read, great storyline! Nice character development. If you like romantic thrillers you'll enjoy Author Lena Diaz. Read more
Published 1 month ago by Raymond B.
3.0 out of 5 stars Ok
It was a decent read, not hurry up turn the page by any means and sometimes the story line was repetitive.
Published 1 month ago by Cynthia D Cole
3.0 out of 5 stars A SUSPENSEFUL READ!
Published 1 month ago by CHARLES GODINO
5.0 out of 5 stars AWESOME BOOK!
I gave this book 5 stars because once I started reading it I could not stop.I read this book in one sitting! it was very well written!An excellent read!!!!!!
Published 2 months ago by Billy Sheene
5.0 out of 5 stars Fantastic reading
This is my first Lena Diaz book but I'm already ordering more of her books to read and enjoy. This book was great, edge of you seat suspense and the romance was mmmmmmm! Read more
Published 2 months ago by bjfont
5.0 out of 5 stars He kills me, he kills me not
This book has interesting plot twists, lots of suspense, great characters, and just enough romance. Fast read, thoroughly enjoyed it.
Published 2 months ago by Patricia Barker
4.0 out of 5 stars Fantastic
A very good goosebumps read. Such a good good book. I hope she bring s these character s back in another book.
Published 2 months ago by Virginia R. Clevenger
5.0 out of 5 stars New favorite author
I loved every second of this book! I couldn't wait to find out who the killer was and I wasn't disappointed.
Published 2 months ago by natasha smith
5.0 out of 5 stars Love the plot
A great read!!! I like the twist and turns of the story. Great romance and thriller mixed in one book.
Published 2 months ago by Ivette Rivera
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More About the Author

Originally from Kentucky, romantic suspense author Lena Diaz also lived in California and Louisiana before settling in northeast Florida with her husband, two children, and a Shetland Sheepdog named Sparky. A former Romance Writers of America Golden Heart® finalist, she won the prestigious Daphne du Maurier award for excellence in mystery and suspense and has been a finalist in the National Excellence in Romance Fiction Awards. She loves to watch action movies, garden, and hike in the beautiful Tennessee Smoky Mountains. You can contact Lena through her website,

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