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When graduate student Martha Becks son Adam was born with Down syndrome, she and her husband left the chilly halls of Harvard for Utah and the warm, accepting embrace of the Mormon community. Determined to assimilate back into her childhood faith after years of atheism, Becks disenchantment resurfaced when censorship from the church heavily influenced the curriculum at Brigham Young University where she taught part-time. More disturbing was Becks eventual belief that her father, a virtual celebrity in the Mormon Church, had sexually molested her as a child.
Beck frames her narrative around a conversation with her aged father, dipping in and out of stories of her childhood, marriage, third pregnancy, and teaching. She contrasts her perceptions of the leadership of the institutional church as controlling and patriarchal with stories of the warmth and generosity of her Mormon community. Beck unfolds her search for identity, forgiveness, and a personal faith in competent prose, punctuated with surprising dark humor and glimpses into her anorexia, suicidal obsessions, and alleged abuse. Although she leaves readers with many unanswered questions after the last page is turned, one thing is clear: Beck believes that "no matter how difficult and painful it may be, nothing sounds as good to the soul as the truth." --Cindy Crosby --This text refers to an out of print or unavailable edition of this title.
Beck follows her bestselling spiritual memoir Expecting Adam with this shocking accusation of sexual abuse and betrayal. The book is full of Beck's laugh-out-loud hyperbolic wit and exquisitely written insights, but it also has a hard, angry edge. She asserts that after returning to Utah in the early 1990s, she began to recall horrific memories of childhood sexual abuse at the hands of her father, well-known Mormon intellectual Hugh Nibley. Although all her immediate family members vehemently deny her claims (and one has already published the positive full-length biography Hugh Nibley: A Consecrated Life), some readers will find that Beck builds a compelling case. She questions the legitimacy of Nibley's prolific apologetic writing and attributes his abuse in part to the pressures he was under to defend the faith even at the expense of truthful scholarship. Although marred by shallow, formulaic anti-Mormon criticisms and an exaggerated description of the LDS Church that will sound foreign to Mormons outside the insular culture of Utah, the book also describes how institutionalized religion can do terrible wrong to some adherents while still being a force of good for others. It will devastate faithful Mormons, satisfy disenchanted ex-Mormons and offer hope to those who believe they have suffered from ecclesiastical abuse. (Mar.)
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This story resonates with me on so many levels. From the lunacy of the year and a half I lived in Utah and the things I experienced there, to the grappling with the hypocrisy of my... Read morePublished 10 days ago by Ginny
This book started well but deteriorated and overall was a disappointment.Published 1 month ago by Larry Langlois
If I could give it no stars? I would. Perhaps she could funny in real life, I don't know, but she is not funny in this book, she only thinks she is. Read morePublished 3 months ago by Suzanne
Beautiful writing about a subject that I found difficult to read about - triggering, perhaps. Ultimately hopeful and quite loving. Laughed out loud at some parts. Read morePublished 4 months ago by Mary Going
Martha dares to expose the faith of her father and family, but more so, her own past and "apostasy." She describes the struggle to break away from the shared secrets and lies - the... Read morePublished 5 months ago by Barbara A. Collins
This is an amazing book! As a recovering Mormon who was treated badly by the church and its members, I could not put the book down. Read morePublished 5 months ago by Das Englisch von Königin