Finally. I have needed a book like this for about 5 years now, and Jason Boyett has delivered with O Me of Little Faith. It is a book written by a life-long Christian (like I am) who is immersed in the Christian culture (like I am), is very active in his local church (like I am), and has written several books and magazine articles about Christian/religious topics (like I would like to do), yet he struggles with spiritual doubt (like I do).
First let me say a big "Thank You!" to Jason for being courageous enough to admit to the world that he wrestles with some intellectual issues in his faith. In the introduction Jason writes, "I am a Christian. I have been a Christian for most of my life. But there are times - a growing number of times, to be honest - when I'm not entirely sure I believe in God."
Wow. I love that honesty. And (following Jason's lead) I admit that I have uttered those same words! In fact, Jason mentions 22 questions that have rocked his faith and I have wrestled with all of those and more.
The thing that I appreciated most about reading Jason's book is that I felt like he has given me (and many others) permission to own our doubt. Many of us doubters feel like we can't be honest about our doubts because that will show that we are weak. In fact, the tagline of Jason's book is "True Confessions of a Spiritual Weakling." But Jason not only talks about his doubt, he also shares why doubt is not necessarily a negative thing, and there are ways to still live faithfully as a follower of Jesus while still having doubt.
Let me share a few of my favorite moments from the book. Notice the journey Jason takes us on throughout the book:
*My entire spiritual self rests on the belief that God exists...That's why the question of God's existence is the biggest question of my life and yours. What if everything rests on the back of a turtle whose existence is impossible to prove?
*The more I struggle with my own faith, the less impressed I am with rational arguments - whether for or against the existence of God.
*God is hard to prove. God is hard to disprove. The existence or nonexistence of God is unprovable.
*It's hard to believe in an unprovable, mysterious God. But, mostly, I do. Maybe a better way to put it is that I have chosen to believe.
*Am I a bad Christian because explaining every detail as "God at work in my life" seems like religious narcissism instead of profound faith?
*When it comes to matters of faith, I find more common ground among atheists and agnostics than I do with doubt-free Christians. But I still believe. I choose faith, despite my doubts.
*How in the world do you begin to pray when you don't understand prayer, barely tolerate prayer, and can't find the discipline to get beyond your prayer hang-ups?
*Liturgy taught me to pray again.
*I accept my doubt for what it is. I embrace my humanity and the stumbling faith and limited understanding that come with it. I keep walking despite my limp.
*There are few things that turn me off more than people who speak with absolute certitude about complex issues (like eschatology or the Bible) or deep mysteries (like God or the saving work of Christ).
*Doubt is an essential part of faith. They are companions.
*Faith is action - action taken right in the middle of your doubts.
*Don't let your doubts stop you from living in faith.
*When it comes to following the teachings of Jesus and the traditions of Christianity, I have decided not to let my doubt paralyze me.
I have read several amazing books so far this year, including A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Donald Miller, The Year of Living Biblically and AJ Jacobs, and Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell, but if I could only read one, I would have chosen this one for me. It is what I needed, and if you have struggles with doubt, then you need to get this book.