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Serena just wants to fly under the radar at her new school. But Serena is deaf, and she can read lips really well-even across the busy cafeteria. So when the popular girls discover her talent, there's no turning back.
From skater chick to cookie-cutter prep, Serena's identity has done a 180...almost. She still wants to date Miller, the school rebel, and she's not ready to trade her hoodies for pink tees just yet. But she is rising through the ranks in the school's most exclusive clique.
With each new secret she uncovers, Serena feels pressure to find out more. Reading lips has always been her greatest talent, but now Serena just feels like a gigantic snoop...
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What the heck?
I stared at the small person waving her arms like a referee.
A quick look at my schedule confirmed that this was indeed American history taught by Ms. Fisher. So who was the little umpire? The teacher? I glanced at the other students for help, but their open mouths and blank faces mirrored my own confusion. It must be Ms. Fisher.
The woman flashed me an encouraging smile and again waved her hands in a wild arc. What was she doing? Swatting a fly? Modern dance?
The answer slammed into my stomach like a stray curveball, and a mortifying heat flooded my cheeks.
If the teacher had bothered to read the bloody file, she'd have known better.
Another quick look at the class showed they were snickering. I'd rather have them laugh with me than at me. I dropped my backpack and winked at the other kids. Letting my arms and fingers fly, I waved them around in an arc and slapped them together a couple times, mimicking the teacher perfectly. Then I looked at her expectantly.
The teacher frowned. She leaned forward and started to wave her arms about again.
I finally reached out and grabbed her hands. "I don't know sign language," I said, though the teacher's efforts hardly resembled the sign I'd learned, and forgotten, as a child. "I just talk. It's easier."
The class laughed. The teacher pulled her hands out of mine and flushed a dull brick red. "My apologies. I just assumed you'd know sign."
Recovering quickly, she then put her hand on my shoulder and faced the class. "Class, this is Serena Nelson and she moved here from Portland," she said, raising her voice. "She's deaf, so you'll have to look at her when you speak so she can read your lips. Though, from what I understand, you can hear some through your hearing aids, correct?"
I nodded. My turn to be mortified. Why did teachers always have to introduce me as the deaf girl? That was the thing about teachers. Their ability to humiliate was far superior to our ability to make them nuts.
The teacher beamed. "Isn't technology wonderful?"
Released, I snatched up my backpack and slunk over to the desk Ms. Fisher indicated. At least she'd placed me at the front of the class so I could see her face better. I ignored the curious stares. So much for slipping in unnoticed.
I whisked a covert glance around the room. Because the 'rents had moved me to the ends of the earth, I wanted to check out what kind of kids I'd be dealing with. Like being in tenth grade wasn't bad enough. Doing it in a new school was torture.
These kids looked exactly like the ones in my first two classes. I sighed. Not a skater or punk in sight. Most of the guys wore jeans and T-shirts. A little less baggy here than in the city, but typical guy wear. The girls resembled cookie cutouts. Expensive, trendy cookies. Designer jeans. Thin little Ts layered like pastel flower petals. Etnies or Nikes on their feet. I felt as if I'd wandered into Prepsville instead of a normal high school.
I glanced at my own clothes, chosen for comfort and invisibility. Vans. Dark jeans. Dark hoodie. Practically a uniform at the old school. Here I felt as invisible as a punked-out unicorn.
I noticed a guy in the corner staring at me, his eyes dark and unwavering. Unlike the other guys, he wore a plaid shirt with his jeans and black army boots instead of tennis shoes. I met his gaze and almost flinched at the electrical current that leaped between us. Yowza! What the hell was that? Turning away, I tried to focus on the teacher writing on the chalkboard, but my eyes flew back to the guy, who flashed me a slow, lazy grin. I returned the smile and ducked my head.
What was that about? It wasn't like me to be embarrassed around a guy. Guys were easy. First you teased 'em like they had a chance to get in your pants. Then you showed them up on the skateboard, and that turned them into normal people. Like friends. Friends you had to be careful around in case they tried to grab a handful when you weren't looking, but friends nonetheless. Better than being alone.
I looked back over at the guy sitting there all casual, as if he hadn't just burned me with a thousand-watt smile.
I tried to concentrate on what the teacher was saying but couldn't focus. The teachers were supposed to give me notes of all the lectures, so with those and the textbooks, I should be able to keep up. Hopefully. In my old school I had an actual captioner. She was an older woman whose rapid typing kept me informed of everything said in the classroom. Sometimes she'd actually give me the answers.
I opened my history book to the page the teacher had instructed and started on the assignment, though I'd rather have had my fingernails yanked out one by one. History sucked. So did English, creative writing, and any other effing class that depended on language to teach. Math was my thing. Numbers lined up and marched in nice, orderly rows, while slippery words could mean a million things.
I looked at my watch. Twenty minutes to go. Next came lunch. Maybe I could hang out at the library. Check out their manga collection. Disappear for a bit. Relax.
At my old school, lunch was for sneaking a cigarette and doing a little skating with the guys. Randy, Greg, and Chaz were the closest things I had to friends. I missed them.
I jabbed my pencil into my notebook. I wouldn't be here at all if my parents hadn't decided to move closer to family. And where was that precious family we'd moved five hundred miles to be close to? On vacation! Some family. I liked my aunt and uncle okay, but they'd had a couple of babies. Now I'd have snotnosed little cousins to deal with. They'd probably want me to babysit all the time. Plus they'd taken in a teenage boy -- probably some loser. Aunt Shirley has a serious save-the-world complex.
A note flew over my shoulder and landed onto the desk. What the hell? I picked it up and opened it.
You want to sit with me at lunch?
My stomach clenched. I turned to look at the girl sitting behind me. Soft gold hair all flipped up at the ends. Glowing skin. Lips curving into a sweet smile showing orthodontist-perfect teeth.
I turned back to the note, remembering all the do-gooders in my life who'd treated me like a charity case but would never admit it.
I added a line to the note. Why? U feel sorry for me?
I folded the note before flipping it back over my shoulder. I waited.
It came sailing back a moment later.
Well...yeah.
I laughed out loud before clapping a hand over my mouth. The teacher glanced up but didn't say anything.
Okay. Cool, I wrote and sent the note back. That was a first. Girls like that usually don't have a sense of humor.
A tap on my shoulder a few minutes later told me the bell must have rung. If I'm listening, I can usually hear it, but I can miss a bell if I'm concentrating on something else. I shoved my books into my backpack and turned to the girl waiting behind me.
"My name is Rachel."
Not even my high-powered hearing aids could pick up Rachel's soft voice. At least she wasn't yelling like some people did.
"If you lower the tone of your voice and talk a bit louder, I could probably hear you better," I told her as we headed out of the classroom for the cafeteria.
Another girl from history class sidled up to us. Her eyes barely flickered over me as Rachel introduced us. The girl, whose name was Kayla, gave me a tight smile.
"Rach, can I talk to you? Alone?"
Rachel frowned and glanced at me.
"Go ahead, I'll wait."
She walked a little bit away from me and Kayla grabbed her arm. They were both blondes, but Rachel had the princess thing going while Kayla looked like a streaky-blond beach bimbo.
"Do you think this is a good idea?" I read Kayla's lips as easily as if she had been talking to me.
"What?" Rachel wrinkled her nose like a baffled child. I pretended to study some antismoking posters on the wall. Then I looked back and concentrated on their lips.
Kayla rolled her eyes. "Taking a deaf chick to lunch this close to you know what. They're making out the lists this week."
Rachel shrugged. "Sorry, done deal. I'm just being nice. They can't kick me out because of that."
Kayla didn't look convinced, but Rachel had already turned away and was heading back to me.
I had no idea what they were talking about. Kicked out of what? Who cared? I was both thankful that Rachel was as nice as she seemed and pissed off by it. I hated people feeling sorry for me.
"You ready?" she asked.
Kayla had already headed down the hall.
I nodded and we fell in step toward the cafeteria.
Rachel said something, but she was facing straight ahead and I couldn't catch it.
I cringed. Training new people sucked. Which is why I usually didn't bother. "What?" The worst four-letter word in the English language.
Rachel turned her head so I could read her lips. "I said, how can you be deaf and have hearing aids?"
I sighed. Why did people always want to know so much? Couldn't they get that I'd rather not discuss it?
"Without my hearing aids I can't hear anything. With them I can hear some things. Certain voices and sounds."
"So you read lips to hear what's going on?"
I smiled. "Yeah, you could put it that way." We walked a little bit while I tried to think of something to say. What did you talk about with a girl like Rachel? "So what was Kayla worried about you getting kicked out of?"
Oops. Wrong subject. Rachel's eyes widened and her footsteps faltered. "How did you...? Oh. The lipreading thing. Um, nothing really...just a school thing."
Something wasn't right. Rachel's eyes slid away from mine and her shoulders tensed up. Definitely not a girl who liked lying, and she was so lying. Reading body language was a specialty of mine. Came with trying to figure out what people meant all the time. So why the need to lie?
The scents of overboiled hot dogs and Thousand Island dressing assaulted me as we entered the...
