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Redemption: A Story of Sisterhood, Survival, and Finding Freedom Behind Bars [Kindle Edition]

Stacey Lannert , Kristen Kemp
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"When I decided to look, I found more love and compassion than I ever imagined existed. Most significantly, I found forgiveness. I might even call it redemption."
On July 4, 1990, eighteen-year-old Stacey Lannert shot and killed her father, who had been sexually abusing her since she was eight. Missouri state law, a disbelieving prosecutor, and Stacey’s own fragile psyche conspired against her: She was found guilty of first-degree murder and sentenced to life without parole. 
   Redemption is Stacey’s candid memoir of her harrowing childhood and the pain and protective love of her sister that led her to that horrifying night. It is also an extraordinary portrait of what happened after she found herself in prison and how she grew determined to live positively, even triumphantly, despite her circumstances. Ultimately, and most profoundly, she learned the healing power of forgiveness. 
   After spending as many years in prison as she had out of it, on January 10, 2009, outgoing Missouri governor Matt Blunt commuted Stacey’s life sentence. Six days later she walked out of the gates a free woman.
   Redemption is the story of how Stacey learned to be free while living behind bars. It is a coming-of-age story set in a parallel universe of a maximum-security prison. And, it is a story of sisterhood, courage, and justice finally served.


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A Conversation with Authors Stacey Lannert and Kristen Kemp

Stacey to Kristen: What compelled you to write about my story and get to know me? Was I what you had expected?
My father was a police officer when I was little, so I was interested in writing about criminal justice, and about women who were tangled up in legal matters. At the time, Glamour magazine was looking for stories for its news section. So I jumped at the chance to try to bring awareness to a woman’s cause. I started searching the Internet for article ideas. Your website at the time immediately moved me into action. You were a young woman in a critical situation. I could not fathom how a young woman could be locked up in prison after she had suffered so much as a child. Glamour agreed with me and assigned the story. I felt drawn to you because we were the same age and from similar Midwestern backgrounds. I had to find out what really happened for myself. When I called to request an interview with you, I was incredibly nervous. Who was I to barge into your life to write your story? What would you think of me? Luckily, you were gentle and patient. I realized that you might have been a little nervous, too. But you were calm, patient, and self-assured as you answered every one of my questions with incredible poise. I thought you were soft-spoken but strong. You were extremely smart--and a true inspiration.

Kristen to Stacey: Were you always comfortable telling your story? Why have you decided to share it?
I have never been comfortable telling my story, and I sincerely doubt if I ever will be. I tell my story because I want others to be able to tell theirs. Healing begins when wounds are exposed. I believe we can end sexual abuse by being open about the trauma and devastation it creates.

Stacey to Kristen: Did you ever think of backing out? Was my story ever too much for you to handle? Has this experience changed you in any way?
I never thought of backing out. The story had to be told, and I wanted to help do it. Honestly, the process of learning the details and writing them out was sometimes overwhelming. I had days when I had to stop and process all of the information you told me. I internalized the sadness at times, and I think that was necessary so I could properly convey your feelings and thoughts into your book. You, on the other hand, could tell when I was sad, and you would change gears. You’d share a funny story to lighten things up. Or you’d say something inspiring, often reminding me that we can’t always choose our life’s path because our path chooses us. I would come out feeling inspired once more, and I would continue to write the pages, sometimes at a feverish pace. I am forever changed by the experience. I am more in touch with a full spectrum of emotions in myself and in others. I am more protective of myself and the people I care about. I have become fiercely protective of my children. I am acutely aware of the destruction that occurs in the aftermath of sexual abuse--and of the awakening and strength that comes out of survival.

Kristen to Stacey: Did you ever think of backing out?
I thought of backing out during every second of the writing process--and even now. But I want the world to change how it views sexual abuse. It is not just a “family problem,” it is our problem as a society. We can be the voices of the silent. We can be strong for the helpless. We can stand up for the children and send a message to offenders that sexual abuse will not be tolerated by a slap on the wrist, but with lengthy jail terms, counseling, and accountability.

Kristen to Stacey: What was the hardest part of sharing your story? Were there times when you wanted me to slow down our writing process?
The hardest part of sharing my story was remembering the good times, and remembering the love. It was hard not to let self-pity creep in and wonder why we couldn’t always be happy. Why me? Why our family? The entire book was hard. Issues I thought I had made peace with resurfaced, nightmares began again, and withdrawal occurred. I wanted to slow down the writing process; I wanted to quit. But I didn’t. We pushed through, and I feel so free. I feel whole. I feel complete.

Stacey to Kristen: Which parts of the book were most inspiring for you?
Stacey’s low points during her prison stay inspired me the most. Stacey felt unimaginable loneliness and despair, but she never stopped caring about others, and she always gave of herself. Stacey is the kind of person who volunteered to help at-risk teenagers and survivors of sexual abuse who came to the prison as part of outreach programs. She became the president of the women’s prison association. She trained service dogs that she would send off into the world to help other people gain their independence. She accomplished incredible things despite her highs and lows--and despite the fact that she was serving a life sentence.

Kristen to Stacey: So much has changed since we first met. Besides your freedom, what has been the biggest change in your life? What has stayed the same? Is freedom what you imagined it would be?
The biggest change in my life has been creating vulnerability with others. My life had been about self-preservation, so it has been extremely difficult to let other people in, to open myself up to the vulnerability of understanding, friendship, and love.

Asking for help with new technology has been difficult and humbling. Every time I upgrade my phone, I accidentally hang up on people for the first two weeks. I just traded up to an iPhone. I was finally ready for it (after two years being home). Public bathrooms were a bit overwhelming. Most are automated now, but there is no uniformity, and each one has different mechanisms. There should be instructions on the back of the door when you first walk into one. I once had to ask a teenager how to work the automatic hand-towel dispenser in the bathroom.

Not much has stayed the same. My world is constantly evolving. The only aspect of my life that has not changed is my desire to change the world. I hope to help end sexual abuse as we know it so that children can feel safe in their own homes, in their own beds. We are adults, and it is our job to create a world of possibility for children, not a world of nightmares.

Freedom is not what I imagined it would be. It was hard to let myself daydream about something I was never sure would come true. But, of course, those slim moments of hope would shine through. I could never begin to imagine the awesome sense of responsibility that comes with freedom. It is a bit overwhelming at times, and takes many forms. For example, am I doing the right thing by writing this book? Will it help more people than it will harm? Can I make my insurance payment this month? Should I take this job? Who do I want to be when I grow up? It was difficult entering the world like a newborn for the first time in a thirty-six-year-old body. I sort of felt like Tom Hanks in the movie Big, but at least I knew enough not to nibble on the baby corn.

Review

"This real-life tale, as dramatic as any movie, of Stacey Lannert and her struggle to survive violent sexual assault and the devastating aftermath raises intense issues of crime, culpability and the nature of violence and families. It's a devastating and important subject, beautifully told."--Naomi Wolf


From the Hardcover edition.

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  • File Size: 1391 KB
  • Print Length: 336 pages
  • Publisher: Crown (March 8, 2011)
  • Sold by: Random House LLC
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B004G60AV8
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20 of 23 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Riveting January 27, 2011
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This was one of the rare books that's hooked me so deeply that I couldn't wait to finish whatever I was doing so I could get back to reading it.

The bulk of the book is about her childhood and the abuse, which is different from what the book title and description seem to convey. But that didn't bother me. The pacing was very good, the writing was excellent (appears to be a perfect match between Stacey Lannert and her co-author, Kristen Kemp), and the insights are eye-opening. The level of detail about the abuse is intense and difficult to read. (Particularly before bed... I did have nightmares.) I'm giving a definite "trigger warning" for those who've been through sexual trauma. It's not gratuitous, however; even though it made me feel very uncomfortable, I was also grateful for that-- because how else is society supposed to understand things like this if we continue to pretend things like this don't happen, or if we sweep them aside because we choose not to think about exactly *how* horrible sexual abuse can be?

There were a few places where I wished for more insight, though I don't know if the author had the answers I was hoping for inside her. For instance, I wanted to understand why she denied to her mother what was happening even when directly questioned. Despite that her mother came across as very uncaring and self-centered, I don't understand why Stacey didn't say something, even in a burst of rage (she had plenty of angry blow-ups at her mom... considering how angry she was that she thought her mom knew and didn't do anything, why would she not have confronted her about it?).

I was also left with the impression that Christy's role in the murder was probably more than what Stacey implicitly wrote.
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8 of 10 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Inspirational Memoir About Incest, Murder, and Survival January 24, 2011
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For over a decade, Stacey Lannert was molested by her father, and believed him when he said he kill her, or her little sister, if anyone ever found out. She tolerated the frequent violations, as if it were the normal part of any girls upbringing, until the day her father raped Lannerts younger sister Christy. On that day, Stacey Lannert picked up her fathers loaded shotgun and killed him.

Redemption is a survivors story. It's the tale of an out-of-control alcoholic who violated his daughter on a regular basis for a decade. It's a no-holds-barred, and in-your-face drama about what happens when the daughter has finally had enough, and takes charge of her and her sisters life,and kills the abuser.

Stacey Lannert only began living after she was convicted of first degree murder and sentenced to life in prison without possibility of parole. In prison, the author could get a good nights sleep, without having to worry about her father coming to violate her again.

Once in prison, the author began to heal herself. Never blaming her abuser, her absent mother or any other number of adults who could have prevented this tragic string of events from happening, Stacey worked on healing herself and eventually began telling her story. After 18 years behind bars, her sentence was commuted, and Lannert was a free woman for the first time in her life.

I read this book in a matter of hours. It's a must-read for anyone who enjoys reading true-crime, memoirs, or books about self-healing and moving on.
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5 of 6 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Redemption: A survivor's tale February 28, 2011
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The heroine of the memoir "Redemption" does not have a pretty story to tell. Stacey Lannert started being molested by her Father when she was eight. Despite telling people, and trying to stop the abuse, the abuse continued and became more severe. After years of trying to have a normal life despite the horrible physical, sexual and psychological torment, Stacey shoots her Father with his gun while he is sleeping on a couch in his home.

Refusing to plea bargain, she was found guilty of first degree murder and was given life in prison without the possiblity of parole in 1992. Not much evidence was given that Stacey was abused ( she was too traumatized to discuss the bulk of the abuse), and the prosecutors felt that Stacey was minimizing and there was no evidence to support she was abused. She served her time until she was granted clemency in 2009.

Ms. Lannert with the help of her co-author Kristen Kemp discusses her life candidly, with nothing held back. The reasons for her split second decision to kill her Father are openly discussed (and the reader cannot blame her). Prison life in all of its horror is talked about, as well as Ms. Lannert's decision to heal with therapy and with writings from her history of abuse. I felt many times as I read this book that I was on this journey to Hell and back with Ms. Lannert, and I cheered for her at the end as she was released.
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9 of 12 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A powerful story of redemption December 31, 2010
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Stacey Lannert was abused by her father from the age of 8 until she was 18. Until I read this book, I had no idea of the brutality of that word "abuse." It encompasses every evil you can imagine. When she finally, in a moment of madness, picks up a gun and shoots him, I don't see how anyone could blame her.

Ms. Lannert's tale is one of horror compounded by horror. The father who cherishes her becomes a monster, the mother who should have protected her turns a blind eye, the little sister she feels bound to protect escapes from her grasp, becoming fresh prey for her father.

After the murder, she is sentenced to life in prison, and Ms. Lannert's life behind bars -- and the unique education that goes along with that -- begins. She learns, quickly, how to stand up for herself. Her survival depends on it, in the way that disassociating herself -- leaving her body, as she thinks of it -- allowed her to survive the unimaginable abuse.

Redemption is a word usually reserved for religious experiences, and Ms. Lannert does indeed find redeeming grace in newfound faith. But her tale is one of redemption found in many places: in the strange sisterhood of prison life, in the love of the guide dogs she trains while imprisoned, in the hard work she does to fashion a self out of her fractured soul.

At the end of the book, Ms. Lannert says, "I felt like I was in God's hands... and I was going to be okay." May it indeed be so.
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5.0 out of 5 stars Five Stars
Well written believable story of how she survived abuse and flourished in prison before finally being freed.
Published 1 month ago by StewB
5.0 out of 5 stars Honest.
This book was written from the heart with nothing held back. Peace to Stacey and may her words bring healing to all who have been through abuse. Read more
Published 5 months ago by Kindle Customer
4.0 out of 5 stars Guaranteed to Make You Angry
Redemption by Stacey Lannert and Kristen Kemp is the story of Stacey's years of suffering sexual and emotional abuse at the hands of her father until one night she shot him as he... Read more
Published 6 months ago by DRob
5.0 out of 5 stars Should be read by everyone
An extremely well-written book about a horrific life that eventually turned good. It was sometimes difficult to sleep after reading some of Stacey's experiences; I just can't... Read more
Published 8 months ago by Sher
5.0 out of 5 stars should be required reading for every educator
Oh my...I just cannot imagine what Stacey went through. It saddens me that she was never helped by anyone close to her. Read more
Published 8 months ago by kim
5.0 out of 5 stars Great for Educators
First of all, I could not put this book down. Stacey's story is gripping and powerful. As an an educator for almost 20 years, I see how this book can open our eyes to what some... Read more
Published 10 months ago by christian
3.0 out of 5 stars good-very detailed
I think Stacey did really well with this book. I truly love how she says one can be anywhere and still live free- with god.
Published 11 months ago by Stacy E. Bauserman
5.0 out of 5 stars Excellent Book
I read this book in two days. That's how riveting it was. It is truly a very sad story for this mother and two sisters but so glad after so much suffering they pull through it... Read more
Published 13 months ago by Nana of 12
5.0 out of 5 stars Great Book
I really enjoyed this book it was easy to read. I am a huge fan of snapped so this book was right up my alley. Perfect for a summer read.
Published 18 months ago by Edward Walker
5.0 out of 5 stars Awesome
Awesome book. Well worth reading. Written with honesty and integrity. Refreshing look at freedom any Gods love and grace. Thanks for sharing your story
Published 20 months ago by Karen
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