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Squirrel Cage [Kindle Edition]

Cindi Jones
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Book Description

What happens when you hold a secret your whole life that can never be shared? What happens when your faith abandons you to pray your problem away? What happens when you destroy a complete generation of your family? This is the story of David, born into the Mormon faith who faces the insurmountable to become Cindi. Her life crumbles before her as she is pushed into an untenable position. Her family is destroyed as well as her career. She manages to pull herself through these agonizing events to rebuild her life and reconnect with her family.

"In this autobiography, at times whimsical and at times serious, Cindi continues to hold strong to her principles in the face of so much rejection from those around her: family, faith, friends. I believe this story can be a source of inspiration for others facing similar difficulties, by showing that acceptance from others must start with self-acceptance." .. Andrea James

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  • File Size: 687 KB
  • Print Length: 278 pages
  • Page Numbers Source ISBN: 146810621X
  • Sold by: Amazon Digital Services, Inc.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B003CN6LF0
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15 of 15 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars The Human Experience from a transgendered perspective September 11, 2006
By Karen
Most people are afraid of transsexuals, pre-transsexuals included. We all want to belong, to conform, to fit in. Change your gender? You would become a freak! Yet, resisting the NEED to change almost always causes those so afflicted great emotional pain. Pain from hiding their secret shame, and pretending every minute of every day to be something they don't feel.

Sounds pretty melodramatic, eh?

Enter David Steele, born into a traditional American household in Salt Lake City, Utah. At an early age, he is told NO he is not to behave that way, boys don't wear dresses and look pretty -- and so begins David/Cindi's odyssey, trying repeatedly to cure/quit/give up this sinful compulsion. He is aided by his inner muse, Squirrel, who helps him plan how to get away with obtaining and hiding girls' clothes so he doesn't get caught.

After high School and 'Mission' he marries his childhood sweetheart, secretly hoping this will cure him of the wish to be female. But the urges and Squirrel return, and he begins getting caught by his bride. The church finds out, and they submit him to various 'therapies' to cure him. Finally David is has no choice but to accept and embrace this need and transform into Cindi.

She tells her tale with candor and conviction. The events are all true, and the real people in Cindi's life will recognise themselves in these pages even though their names are changed. But this book isn't about one woman's transsexuality -- it is a book about life, as she overcomes many obstacles before during and after her transition. About half of these obstacles have nothing to do with her transsexuality, occuring before transition to David, or after to Cindi, who now 'passes' completely as female.

This book may answer for some what it's like to be a transsexual who transitions. But it is also about the human spirit.
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9 of 9 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A story of great conflict and love September 12, 2006
Some people believe that transsexualism is an extreme sexual fettish. After all, that's pretty much all we get to see about them on the tube. This book clearly dispells those beliefs.

Cindi has presented her story in a brutally honest fashion. She makes it clear that her case is not due to some sexual perversion but a deep seated and horrifying secret she felt from her earliest memories.

Cindi grew up in Utah and was a devoted member of the Mormon faith. Her conflict was always at odds with her conservative beliefs. And as she worked to resolve her "condition", she was faced with an onslaught of opposition from her church, family, and management where she worked.

She details how she was counseled to get married and be faithful to her beliefs by church authorities. Her counsel did not deal with her deep seated problems. They made them worse. She endured persecution from all that she loved. Feeling completely isolated, she proceded with her transition at great personal cost. After her transition, Cindi slipped back into society where she has lived a normal life as a woman for several years. Cindi has held true to her strong personal values and has won back the love and support of her family.

Cindi's writing style is sometimes whimsical, often blunt, and totally engrossing. Her discussions with her muse, Squirrel, work effectively in showing how she came to terms with her internal conflict. Her story is not so much about her sex change as is with that conflict she recognizes and resolves. I believe this book is a must read for anyone who needs help understanding and helping a loved one with any unusual personal problem.
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5.0 out of 5 stars The squirrel cage of Cindi Jones September 23, 2006
By Robin
Squirrel Cage is certainly one of the best written pieces I've read regarding the transsexual dilemma. Cindi Jones' choice of words is powerful and illustrate perfectly the unique struggles she experienced in her journey from male to female. As Cindi takes us through her unbelievable odyssey, she confirms once again that being transsexual is neither a lifestyle nor a choice, but a matter of life and death indeed.

Her struggles with gender incongruence and her determination to match her body to her soul teach us a powerful lesson of survival in a world where gender identity is often misunderstood and shadowed by bigotry.
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6 of 6 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Touching and enlightening... June 25, 2012
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What an incredible story! It is labeled as a transgender memoir, but there is so much more to it than that.

One of my greatest strengths is the ability to be non-judgemental in all situations. One of my greatest weaknesses is the harsh judgement of myself. I was truly touched to read about Cindi's struggle to accept and love herself. Although I am comfortable with my gender, I can relate to Cindi's story for many other reasons.

I firmly believe that every single one of us has a Squirrel. The personality of each person's Squirrel widely varies. Some are easy to hide. Others, like Cindi's, are on display for the world to see and judge. Many people try to silence their Squirrel through the use of drugs, alcohol, food, and a myriad of other vices or addictions. The lucky ones, in my opinion, are like Cindi - they work at understanding their Squirrel until they are happy with the results.

If you have a Squirrel (admit it, you do!), read this book. It will open your eyes to a whole new world.
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Most Recent Customer Reviews
4.0 out of 5 stars Interesting Read
I read a lot of Memoirs and just happened to read this one shortly after Bruce Jenner made his public appearance on national TV. Read more
Published 24 days ago by J. Lewis
4.0 out of 5 stars Squirrel Cage
After reading this I have a greater understanding of Gender dismorphia,and also of the Mormons, written in an informative,touching and occasionally,humorous way.
Published 1 month ago by amber
3.0 out of 5 stars bad writing, good story
The writing is at times atrocious. "Jones" makes use of a silly extended metaphor, some inner character that amplifies the slow pace and repitition. Read more
Published 2 months ago by Chris Cennedy
2.0 out of 5 stars Two Stars
Very affecting personal memoir, but this book desperately needs an editor and proofreader.
Published 2 months ago by R. Tasha Martin
4.0 out of 5 stars Eye Opening
I picked up this read in order to better understand someone undergoing gender change. Before reading this book, the only person I had personally read about was tennis player Renee... Read more
Published 4 months ago by Sandra J Barnes
5.0 out of 5 stars Wow! Very courageous!
To be honest, I downloaded this book out of sheer curiosity. I know several people of the Mormon faith and couldn't help but wonder how someone with gender dysphoria could continue... Read more
Published 8 months ago by Ally
5.0 out of 5 stars Touching and emotional
I just read your book. So very proud you lived your life for you. I'm so sorry you weren't able to connect closely with your children. Read more
Published 12 months ago by Amazon Customer
5.0 out of 5 stars thank you for sharing!
I was drawn into your story from the beginning. The human struggle has always been of interest to me and our desire to conform. Read more
Published 12 months ago by Sheryl
5.0 out of 5 stars very moving!
I was amazed at the persecution and problems that David/Cindi faced trying to become the person she felt was the true self. What a strong person it must take to overcome them.
Published 12 months ago by Ann
5.0 out of 5 stars Life and gender dysphoria - this is the book to read
Thanks to Cindi for an enlightening and inspiring story. Honest, informative and easy to read. Has all the elements of a good yarn too, highs and lows of emotions and living; a bit... Read more
Published 14 months ago by Tich
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When I was small, my teacher gave our class an assignment. We were to write a paper. The subject was: What I want to be when I grow up.

I wrote down just five words: "I want to be happy."

She told me that I obviously didn't understand the assignment. I told her that she certainly couldn't understand life.

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