- File Size: 687 KB
- Print Length: 278 pages
- Page Numbers Source ISBN: 146810621X
- Publication Date: January 17, 2013
- Sold by: Amazon Digital Services LLC
- Language: English
- ASIN: B003CN6LF0
- Text-to-Speech: Enabled
- Word Wise: Enabled
- Lending: Enabled
- Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #899,212 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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I wrote down just five words: "I want to be happy."
She told me that I obviously didn't understand the assignment. I told her that she certainly couldn't understand life.
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Sounds pretty melodramatic, eh?
Enter David Steele, born into a traditional American household in Salt Lake City, Utah. At an early age, he is told NO he is not to behave that way, boys don't wear dresses and look pretty -- and so begins David/Cindi's odyssey, trying repeatedly to cure/quit/give up this sinful compulsion. He is aided by his inner muse, Squirrel, who helps him plan how to get away with obtaining and hiding girls' clothes so he doesn't get caught.
After high School and 'Mission' he marries his childhood sweetheart, secretly hoping this will cure him of the wish to be female. But the urges and Squirrel return, and he begins getting caught by his bride. The church finds out, and they submit him to various 'therapies' to cure him. Finally David is has no choice but to accept and embrace this need and transform into Cindi.
She tells her tale with candor and conviction. The events are all true, and the real people in Cindi's life will recognise themselves in these pages even though their names are changed. But this book isn't about one woman's transsexuality -- it is a book about life, as she overcomes many obstacles before during and after her transition. About half of these obstacles have nothing to do with her transsexuality, occuring before transition to David, or after to Cindi, who now 'passes' completely as female.
This book may answer for some what it's like to be a transsexual who transitions. But it is also about the human spirit.
Cindi has presented her story in a brutally honest fashion. She makes it clear that her case is not due to some sexual perversion but a deep seated and horrifying secret she felt from her earliest memories.
Cindi grew up in Utah and was a devoted member of the Mormon faith. Her conflict was always at odds with her conservative beliefs. And as she worked to resolve her "condition", she was faced with an onslaught of opposition from her church, family, and management where she worked.
She details how she was counseled to get married and be faithful to her beliefs by church authorities. Her counsel did not deal with her deep seated problems. They made them worse. She endured persecution from all that she loved. Feeling completely isolated, she proceded with her transition at great personal cost. After her transition, Cindi slipped back into society where she has lived a normal life as a woman for several years. Cindi has held true to her strong personal values and has won back the love and support of her family.
Cindi's writing style is sometimes whimsical, often blunt, and totally engrossing. Her discussions with her muse, Squirrel, work effectively in showing how she came to terms with her internal conflict. Her story is not so much about her sex change as is with that conflict she recognizes and resolves. I believe this book is a must read for anyone who needs help understanding and helping a loved one with any unusual personal problem.
Her struggles with gender incongruence and her determination to match her body to her soul teach us a powerful lesson of survival in a world where gender identity is often misunderstood and shadowed by bigotry.
One of my greatest strengths is the ability to be non-judgemental in all situations. One of my greatest weaknesses is the harsh judgement of myself. I was truly touched to read about Cindi's struggle to accept and love herself. Although I am comfortable with my gender, I can relate to Cindi's story for many other reasons.
I firmly believe that every single one of us has a Squirrel. The personality of each person's Squirrel widely varies. Some are easy to hide. Others, like Cindi's, are on display for the world to see and judge. Many people try to silence their Squirrel through the use of drugs, alcohol, food, and a myriad of other vices or addictions. The lucky ones, in my opinion, are like Cindi - they work at understanding their Squirrel until they are happy with the results.
If you have a Squirrel (admit it, you do!), read this book. It will open your eyes to a whole new world.
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A deeply personal and brutally honest look at gender dysphoria. If you've ever wondered how someone could yearn to change their genetic gender enough to expose themselves to all... Read morePublished 20 days ago by James Hollomon
I read a lot of Memoirs and just happened to read this one shortly after Bruce Jenner made his public appearance on national TV. Read morePublished 9 months ago by Reads4fun
After reading this I have a greater understanding of Gender dismorphia,and also of the Mormons, written in an informative,touching and occasionally,humorous way.Published 10 months ago by amber
The writing is at times atrocious. "Jones" makes use of a silly extended metaphor, some inner character that amplifies the slow pace and repitition. Read morePublished 11 months ago by Amazon Customer
Very affecting personal memoir, but this book desperately needs an editor and proofreader.Published 11 months ago by R. Tasha Martin
I picked up this read in order to better understand someone undergoing gender change. Before reading this book, the only person I had personally read about was tennis player Renee... Read morePublished 13 months ago by Sandra J Barnes
To be honest, I downloaded this book out of sheer curiosity. I know several people of the Mormon faith and couldn't help but wonder how someone with gender dysphoria could continue... Read morePublished 17 months ago by Ally
I just read your book. So very proud you lived your life for you. I'm so sorry you weren't able to connect closely with your children. Read morePublished 20 months ago by Amazon Customer
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