Introduction
In September 1996, my husband Dan and I were diagnosed with AIDS and HIV, respectively. In March 1997, I became a young widow. Watching the television show Survivor made me start thinking about how I am surviving being a young widow with HIV.
The underlying themes of the TV show became the titles to this book. The show inspired me to journal. I wanted to express my thoughts and feelings in an easy, and hopefully entertaining, format.
I desire others to know what Ive gone through in the hopes that it will wake them up to the fact that HIV and AIDS know no discrimination.
Before we were diagnosed, I was uninformed and uneducated about this disease. I believed it was a life- style choice. When I went to my ten-year high school reunion, there was a bulletin board that had names of former classmates who had passed away. Two of them were gay men who had died of complications of AIDS.
Back in the 80s, I remember my hateful remarks about the three brothers who had contacted HIV through a blood transfusion given to them because they had hemophilia. People were in an uproar about them attending public school. I remember telling Danny, If I had a kid, I wouldnt want my child playing with them; kids play rough and they bleed. When I met their mother a couple of years ago, I was able to apologize for my prejudice and blind fear.
As publicity grew about those in the public eye with HIV, I could not understand how someone like Magic Johnson, a heterosexual and a married man, could get the disease. It was such a let-down when Tommy Morrison (John Waynes nephew), the boxer who had also starred in a Rocky movie, had to resign from boxing. He was known as the Great White Hope to become a heavyweight champion. How could this happen to a straight guy?
The last recollection I have of my blind prejudice is when I was watching the 1996 National Republican Convention. At the podium was a beautiful blond woman, Mary Fisher. She was very articulate and compelling. While addressing the Republican Party about funding for AIDS, she acknowledged that she herself had HIV. I was shocked! My mind was spinning. I thought to myself, This is a liberal issue! Let the liberals handle this. Lady, youve got guts to be up there! Dont you know nobody will want to touch you? Get off the stage!
Then, not even a year later, my own journey began.......