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The Answer to the Riddle Is Me: A Memoir of Amnesia Kindle Edition

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While studying in India on a Fulbright scholarship in 2002, Ohio native MacLean abruptly lost consciousness and came to his senses in a Hyderabad train station minus any memories of his name or reasons for being there. Luckily, a kindly station attendant took pity on the presumably drug-addled foreigner and found him refuge in a well-run mental hospital where he hallucinated his way back to reality as friends and parents were contacted. So begins this riveting, sad, and funny memoir from PEN literary award-winner MacLean, expanded from an essay featured on the radio show, This American Life. Contrary to the station agent’s assumption, however, MacLean’s amnesia was triggered by an allergic reaction to Lariam, a common antimalaria agent that receives a scathing critique here. In addition to short-circuiting his memories, the drug’s aftermath forced MacLean to get reacquainted with his parents, a girlfriend, and his rationale for coming to India in the first place. His work is both a sharply written autobiography and an insightful meditation on how much our memories define our identities. --Carl Hays

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''MacLean fearlessly explores his journey to the edge of madness and his subsequent return to sanity in an unsettling, sometimes riotous, memoir . . . The uneasy peace he attains grows stronger by the end of the book, when it's oddly cheering to read 'everyday crazy is something I can handle.' '' --Publishers Weekly

''Both a sharply written autobiography and an insightful meditation on how much our memories define our identities.'' --Booklist

''Much of the memoir's power comes from MacLean's intense descriptions of the altered states he endured as he tried to rediscover his identity . . . A mesmerizing debut. MacLean spares no detail in tracing his formidable reconstruction.'' --Kirkus Reviews (starred review)

''A gripping medical mystery, a heartwarming personal journey, and a chilling indictment of the commonly prescribed drug that upended MacLean's life--but left his superb literary skills intact.'' --Rebecca Skloot, New York Times bestselling author of The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks

''A mesmerizing, unsettling memoir about the ever-echoing nature of identity--written in vivid, blooming detail.'' --Gillian Flynn, New York Times bestselling author of Gone Girl

''Brilliant and painful and hilarious.'' --Antonya Nelson, New York Times bestselling author

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  • File Size: 6914 KB
  • Print Length: 305 pages
  • Publisher: Mariner Books; Reprint edition (January 14, 2014)
  • Publication Date: January 14, 2014
  • Sold by: Houghton Mifflin Harcourt
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B00AXS6BCA
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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On October 17, 2002, David MacLean woke up on a train platform in Hyderabad, India. He had no idea where he was or why he was there. Not only that, but he didn't even know WHO he was. Mr. MacLean hadn't been sleeping -- he was standing when he came to -- and he hadn't been drinking or taking drugs. Illegal drugs, that is. He had been taking an anti-malarial medicine, Lariam (mefloquine). In time, he discovers he suffered a mental break and total amnesia as a result of taking that drug while living in India on a Fulbright scholarship.

Through the proverbial kindness of strangers, Mr. MacLean is passed along to a dizzying succession of good Samaritans, some with their own theories of his problem. "There, there," says a police officer at the train station. "You foreigners come to my country and do your drugs and get confused. It will be all right, my friend."

And, eventually, it seems that everything is all right. It's eleven years down the road, and Mr. MacLean has written this eloquent account of his ordeal. But his recovery has been a long, agonizing one that has severed the person he used to be from the person he is now. In many ways, the divide levels him with shame-inducing guilt and regret. He learns, for example, that he might once have been a self-involved narcissist who didn't have a lot of respect for other people.

Not only is Mr. MacLean's story fascinating, but his prose is arresting and deeply affecting. Here's how he writes -- newly introspective and grateful -- about the human urge to help others: "In the chaos of this world, where we carom and collide in that everyday turbulence, there's something about the specific gravity of the helpless individual, the lost and the fractured, that draws kindness from us, like venom from a wound.
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David Maclean a budding writer on a grant in India suddenly wakes up at a train station with no ID. He has no idea of who he is. Rather than a secret agent story of uncovered clues and flashes of realization, he has completely lost who he was, even after his family and identity are known to him. He realizes he’s not that man any more.

I found this book fascinating on many levels. One as an entertaining read: David Maclean is a great writer and the book flows. Sometimes it flows from one psychotic incident to another and other times it is the day to day things that he stumbles on.

I found it interesting how he pieced together that his emotional state at the time of losing his memory was responsible for his feeling emotions of regret, shame and apologetic when he became aware that he had no idea who he was. He had no action to recall these emotions to, so was struggling to put an action to a reaction.

His discussion of emotions and how he perceived things in his less than sane states was very well done. He captures how he perceived different people and situations that makes you feel like you are right with him. Granted I’m sure this was pieced together by all sorts of notes over many years, but there is an immediacy to the way he writes about it.

It had to seem odd looking at pictures of your former self and to talk to people in many ways in the 3rd person. I often wonder if he felt envious of himself or less than who he used to be, a sort of peculiar jealousy. It seemed that way at times. He also seemed not to like the old him very much either. Funny how much your memory of past events affect how you act now. Erase those events, influences, you have less data to work on on how to act.

There were a few moments where I laughed out-loud.
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This book is extremely disturbing. It was not at all what I was expecting. I was expecting a book dealing with someone getting amnesia, and then trying to remember things he couldn't remember, and interacting with people from his life that he also could not remember. Instead, this book was on the very horrifying and disturbing things that happened to a man who was given the antimalarial drug Lariam. This was very hard for me to read about and even think about. It reminds me STRONGLY of the book Bitter Pills (by Stephen Fried), where his wife's life was devastated by the innocent taking of fluoroquinolones for a minor urinary tract infection.

The author was given Lariam in 2002, and it sounds like he is probably STILL having issues from this. I checked the latest on this drug, and it apparently now has a black box label. I don't understand why the FDA has not pulled this drug. According to the book, 25 percent of people use this drug have problems (though of course they downplay it by saying that not NEAR that many have SEVERE reactions). That sounds like an AWFULLY high percentage of people to have problems and keep this drug available. Apparently this was the drug related to the military base killings and suicides in Fort Benning years ago. I am really wondering if this could be one of the reasons behind all the present military suicides we have been having. I very strongly resent the military forcing drugs like this on people who are fighting for our country and our land. It is totally obscene.

This book was a very hard read. To see what all happened to this man who innocently took legally given drugs which pretty nearly destroyed and could have easily ended his life. Delusions, hallucinations, amnesia, illness.
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