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Torn [Perfect Paperback]

Amber Lehman
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Book Description

July 15, 2009
It was different this time; we weren t acting on a dare. I knew our motive; we were practicing the act, hoping to impress the right boy when it came time. But then something happened in the mix of the moment, in the mix of the alcohol. It wasn t planned, but somehow our kissing experiment turned into something else. Things went further . . . and once they had, once I returned to earth from the euphoria . . . I wrestled with my feelings at that frank realization, questioning whether our said objective was entirely true.
When fourteen-year old Krista McKinley transfers from Catholic school in Ohio to California s public Crestmount High, she discovers she has a lot to learn. Luckily, she is befriended by Carrie and Brandon and things start to look up. But when a simple dare tests Krista s values, it sends her entire world spiraling into a confusing series of events that leaves her questioning her identity as well as the people around her.

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WINNER - 2010 Next Generation Indie Book Awards - GLBT category, If a bisexual coming-of-age novel like Torn had been written when I was coming of age in the mid-1970s, it would have gone a long way toward helping me feel sane. In fact, if I could have read this book when I was 14 (the age at which we meet the book s protagonist, Krista McKinley), I probably would have become addicted to this book and carried it with me wherever I went; bisexuals let alone teenaged bisexuals get very few reliable toeholds in our society even today. Torn is a brave and memorable achievement in teen fiction. It is unflinching in its accurate depiction of the curious lust for experience that is basically synonymous with being a teenager. The characters delve into drugs, drinking, and sex just as zealously and carelessly as teenagers do in real life, and they careen into the wall of consequences just as hard. Krista and her friends Carrie, Brandon, Ryan, Nick, and Aeleise (in varying combinations throughout the book) have access to plenty of booze when they want it; they try cocaine and ecstasy; they play football, they re cheerleaders, they attend the homecoming dance as well as bible study groups; some are victims of incest and rape, while others carefully choose when they will lose their virginity and to whom; they have co-ed sleepovers where they kiss and sometimes have sex with each other; they shop a lot and, since this is Southern California, they also go surfing. However, when the characters err in judgment, they get caught and are forced to examine their actions along with their motivations and must somehow make amends. Perhaps most importantly, Torn tackles that complicated identity question of am I bisexual, or [gay or lesbian], or just experimenting? with a huge heart and an honest appraisal, and best yet for bisexuals the answer resounds with hope for teenagers who find themselves genuinely attracted to both sexes. The characters in Torn may seem torrid on the surface, yet Lehman has crafted her characters with such kindness and with such attention to realistic detail that they are easy to become addicted to, even as an adult reader. These are insecure gay, lesbian, and bisexual characters who are fiercely devoted to each other, who hold one another accountable for everything. The few parents depicted in Torn are rich, ineffectual and self-involved. The other parents are curiously absent, with two families being overseen by older brothers. This helps create a world where the teenagers take center stage and are forced to look out for one another. The older brothers (Krista s brother Marc, a doctor; and Aeleise s brother Daemon, a pilot, a devout Christian and a thirty-year-old virgin) are so well-grounded in morals and discipline that they wind up being more effective and more respected than most real-life parents . . . Torn is a page-turner whose ending might possibly astound you. This is a terrific first novel that deserves an open-minded read. You ll make fast friends with the teenagers in this book and if you re already an adult you ll perhaps find yourself feeling friendlier toward the questioning teenager you once were. ----Marilyn Jaye Lewis, Lambda Literary Foundation

A radical shift in environment changes one's world. Torn is the story of Krista McKinley, a Catholic school student who is sent to a public high school by her family. As she finds new friends, her world and her values will still be roughly tested. Torn is an intriguing coming of age story that many teenagers will relate to. ----Midwest Book Review

One of the most difficult periods in a person's life is spent in high school, and TORN, through its excellent character portrayals reinforce just how difficult those few years can be. As a new student, Krista McKinley is deluged with easy opportunities to experiment with alcohol, drugs and sex. This fourteen year old protagonist faces them head on and makes adult decisions much earlier than she should have to. She emerges knowing a lot more than she did in the beginning: that being true to be true to yourself may not please all of the people all of the time. I was reminded of the TV series My So Called Life, which was a big hit, as I fully expect this book to be. ----E. Elkinson, Wise Owl Book Review

From the Publisher

WINNER - 2010 Next Generation Indie Book Awards - GLBT category,

2010 Lambda Literary Finalist - Bisexual Fiction


Product Details

  • Perfect Paperback: 404 pages
  • Publisher: Closet Case Press; First edition (July 15, 2009)
  • Language: English
  • ISBN-10: 0979593360
  • ISBN-13: 978-0979593369
  • Product Dimensions: 8.7 x 6 x 1 inches
  • Shipping Weight: 1.4 pounds (View shipping rates and policies)
  • Average Customer Review: 4.7 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (23 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #511,527 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)

More About the Author

Amber Lehman was born in sunny southern California and has lived there all her life. She has been reading and writing stories since she can remember. She loved book projects at school and this inspired her to continue making them at home. Her early stories were fun and fanciful and full of fairies. As she grew older, more serious subjects began to steal her interest. TORN reflects the time period between high school and Amber's early twenties. A work of fiction, TORN also drew upon experiences from Amber's life as she observed her friends and past relationships. TORN is a Young Adult novel written for older teens (17+) and deals with high school students who are coping with issues of sexual orientation and finding themselves. Amber is currently working on a sequel to TORN as well as other books in different genres.

Customer Reviews

4.7 out of 5 stars
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4.7 out of 5 stars
Some of the characters are well drawn, and you feel invested in their life and the goings-on. Lauri C. Coates  |  7 reviewers made a similar statement
I was ready to know what happened to them in life like I would about someone I've grown to know and love. Shalonda "Treasure" Williams  |  2 reviewers made a similar statement
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
12 of 12 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Outstanding Novel! Trackle Amber Lehman! September 11, 2009
Format:Perfect Paperback
"The world is a difficult place for children. Thank God we turn out as well as we do."

In addition to loving to read, I appreciate books that have been obviously created with care. Amber Lehman, in Torn, gives credit to Jill Ronsley. Kudos to both of you for creating a truly beautiful book. Torn is a young adult novel (17+) based upon true stories gathered by the author during her own life. Readers will recognize the love and concern with which she heard and remembered those individuals and their lives, by reading the above beginning note from the author.

I quickly point out that this novel is erotic/sexy--a dramatized story of a young girl named Krista. It is an exciting adventure that many teens will enjoy and learn from through Lehman's subtle but excellent approach.

It may be a difficult book for parents to read; but, in my opinion, you must. Amber Lehman provides a well-written, truly realistic story of the lives of various teens at a local high school. It could be the school your children attend. It could be the lives your children are leading. It could be you, the absent parent(s). With proper guidance and discussions, if I had younger teens, I would also share this book with those mid-teens that are the true characters in this book!

Krista is 14 when her family moves from Ohio to Southern California. Throughout her early years of school she attended a private religious school for girls. Krista would be attending public school for the first time. Her mother is gone for a year, on a church mission in Nicaragua. During her absence, her older half-brother, Marc, a pediatrician, is living at home with Krista and her other half-brother Josh--both with whom she has had little experience in relating/living. Krista dreads starting school.

Krista is artistic, and in choosing a dance class, she finds she's also part of the cheerleaders. There she met Carrie, who became her best friend, and others. Through Carrie she met Brandon, or rather, she saw Brandon with Carrie as they were making out in the corridors near their lockers. Brandon had pulled back from Carrie, licked his lips at Krista, as if Carrie was no longer there! Quite a first impression about him!

It was only later that Krista learned that Brandon was gay.

Krista had never been kissed. Now she was meeting new boys all around her. So in sharing her fear with Carrie, they decided to learn by kissing each other. That first experiment led to many other sex-related encounters as Krista tries to become comfortable in this new world. All of the girls surrounding her were always talking about boys and what they could do to get their attention--even her brother Josh!

One of her friends then invited her to join a Bible study group at her home, taught by her brother, Daemon, who was twice Krista's age. He was Aeliese's guardian while their parents, who were also missionaries, were away from home. Krista also attended their church and found it quite different--where were the statues, the confession booth, the majesty of the priests in long robes? So much was so different! Krista had nowhere to turn to discuss all of these strange and new experiences, except older brothers and friends. And then Krista began to have other ideas about Aeliese's older brother.

This story is sexy, because the children in the story are surrounded by experiences that include sexuality--drinking, drugs, and what can happen under their influence; sexual orientation experimentation; early experiences of abuse; but, more importantly, the sharing and caring, and, yes, love, that grows between young teens when they have few, if any, adults with whom to relate and discuss such important issues. Torn by decisions that they must make each day.

Step into the lives of the teens you know and love! Read Torn by Amber Lehman. Reality awaits you in this inspiring, frank and, yet, sensitive love story. Meet Krista and her friends now!

G. A. Bixler
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11 of 11 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A Definite Must-Read April 1, 2010
By J. Knox
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Torn is a quick read, but it's not an easy read. I found the subject-matter compelling, and more so given that Amber Lehman doesn't hold back details or sugar-coat her characters' experiences.

In a note from the author, Lehman says "I have never ceased to be amazed at the gentle intimacy that we humans can have for each other, and on the contrary, have never ceased to be shocked at the tendency for brutal inhumanity."

This short reflection is truly sums up the over-arching theme of the story that follows. Torn is centered on Krista, a fourteen-year-old girl who just moved to California from the Midwest and her struggles to find a sense of identity and value in her new community. Our protagonist does what teenagers--like it or not--do: she experiments. She embarks on a familiar but nuanced story of sexual awakening as she faces an abundance of temptation, while trying to figure out her personal sense of what is right and wrong as well as a clear definition of her sense-of-self.

Lehman recounts very realistic scenes with vivid intimacy and candor, scenes that are not uncommon to those "coming-of-age" years and should not be ignored for the courtesy of fragile ears. I recommend this book highly. It is a well-written story with the edge of real life.
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A radical shift in environment changes one's world. "Torn" is the story of Krista McKinley, a Catholic school student who is sent to a public high school by her family. As she finds new friends, her world and her values will still be roughly tested. "Torn" is an intriguing coming of age story that many teenagers will relate to.
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5.0 out of 5 stars I was completely blown away!
Going out there and saying that this was one of my all time fave books. I was completely blown away! For the first time I actually wrote notes besides my kindle clippings. Read more
Published 5 months ago by Reading Renee
4.0 out of 5 stars Excellent coming of age read for older teens
[This review originally appeared on Andi's Book Reviews.]

Torn by Amber Lehman is the story of fourteen year-old Krista McKinley, who has transferred from Catholic... Read more
Published 9 months ago by Andrea Coventry
5.0 out of 5 stars Loved it!!
I enjoyed every minute that I spent reading "Torn"! It was very gripping- there were moments where I was so surprised as I read on from one line to the next, and those moments gave... Read more
Published on January 29, 2011 by Leslie
3.0 out of 5 stars Torn
There's nothing like a coming of age novel to remind me how great it is to be past high school! Amber Lehman's first novel, a 2010 Next Generation Indie Book Award winner, tells... Read more
Published on December 12, 2010 by sara-t
5.0 out of 5 stars Growing up is hard to do...
I was a little taken aback when I opened the box which contained "Torn." The first thing I saw was a sticker saying "Winner, Next Generation Indie Book Awards" and then I saw that... Read more
Published on August 8, 2010 by Philip Nork
5.0 out of 5 stars A Delicious Read!
As the author of "The Misadventures of Ka-Ron the Knight" I found this book a fantastic adventure into the human heart. Read more
Published on July 24, 2010 by Donald Allen Kirch
4.0 out of 5 stars Courtesy of Teens Read Too
14-year-old Krista is in for some major changes. After attending a private Catholic school in Ohio, her family moves to sunny California, and Krista is thrust into the completely... Read more
Published on May 17, 2010 by TeensReadToo
5.0 out of 5 stars Eye opening novel from a talented, thought provoking, writer
I'm not usually one for reading novels about teens falling in love and same sex relationships but I gave it a try after a friend recommended it to me. Read more
Published on April 8, 2010 by Robert J.
4.0 out of 5 stars Compelling. A 2010 GREAT for Me
Torn is an amazing, thought provoking novel about growing up and trusting your instincts. I was invested in the story from page one. Read more
Published on April 7, 2010 by KMG
5.0 out of 5 stars Fitting in takes a lot out of you
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Published on March 2, 2010 by E. Elkinson
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