Waiting for God: The Spiritual Explorations of a Reluctant Atheist by Lawrence Bush offers a penetrating analysis of the spiritual journeys of the older baby boomers ("Woodstockers," to Bush), interwoven with his own thoughts and personal experiences as one of that generation.
Although he was a "red diaper baby" whose Communist parents were atheists to the core despite their "cultural" Jewishness, Bush nevertheless found himself swept up in the spiritual struggles of the 60s and 70s, which were, in his opinion, fueled by the nuclear anxiety of the Cold War as well as widespread experimentation with marijuana and hallucinogens. (The influence of the drug culture on much of present-day liberal Judaism, he feels, is a tale that has never been fully told.) Despite the temptations of "cosmic oneness" and feel-good spirituality, however, his ingrained skepticism would not allow him to make the final leap of faith. Nevertheless, as he grew older he developed a deep respect for the principles articulated in Jewish philosophy, and has spent most of his adult life working for Jewish religious institutions despite his continuing status as an unbeliever.
Is it possible to be a "spiritual atheist"? Bush grapples with this question and others, arguing with both the committed secularist and the less traditional forms of religion such as Matthew Fox's "creation-centered" Christianity, Mordecai Kaplan's vision of a "reconstructed" Judaism, and nature-centered religions such as Wicca. Unlike the "New Atheists" such as Richard Dawkins, he attempts to avoid dogmatism and black-and-white thinking, and whatever the reader's beliefs, they are sure to be challenged by this provocative, thoughtful book.