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  • Paperback: 368 pages
  • Publisher: Simon Pulse (May 24, 2011)
  • Language: English
  • ISBN-10: 1442406992
  • ISBN-13: 978-1442406995
  • Product Dimensions: 7.3 x 6.6 x 1 inches
  • Shipping Weight: 8.8 ounces (View shipping rates and policies)
  • Average Customer Review: 4.7 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (13 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #745,110 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)

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rules

Hit the ground.

Curl into a ball.

Cover your head.

Don’t cry. Ever.

All this I know. It is instinct, as automatic as any breath, any blink, any beat of the heart. I repeat eighteen years’ worth of these hard-learned lessons over and over in my head, waiting for the hail of blows to stop.

I worry it won’t be enough.

Over the war cries and laughs from above, I hear a whimper. It’s Davis. He’s nearby and while I can’t see him, I know he’s gone fetal, mirroring my position on the ground. I’m still, silent. I offer no sport. But Davis just made a mistake. His groan earns him the undivided attention of our attackers. I venture one impossibly short glance out between my elbows. Four different pairs of feet launch into a vicious, steel-toed assault on my best friend.

“You got something to say, faggot?”

Pete Isaacson, of course. I dare another look and see five of them total. The usual suspects. Pete’s mob from the wrestling team: the troglodytes. Pete lords over them all in his trademark bowling shoes, burnished emerald and ochre. Two glints of gun-metal silver, dog tags on a chain around his neck, shoot the sun’s reflection like a laser. He’s grinning. “Come on, faggot. Lemme hear you howl.”

When Davis doesn’t answer, Pete stomps on Davis’s hip, eliciting a scream. I’m too sore to take in a breath. I can only send silent pleas to Davis: Shut up, shut up, shut up. Davis sobs. The savage blows pitch his short, skinny body this way and that.

Don’t cry. Ever.

I’ve never cried during a beating. I used to think that I didn’t want to give them the satisfaction of knowing they’d hurt me. The real reason? Crying solves nothing. I only do things that make a difference. Like now. When I summon the strength to cough.

The effect is instantaneous. Three of the trogs break off and renew their assault on me. One of them falls to his knees, pummeling the side of my head and my right arm with his fists. A year and a half ago, Kenny Dugan broke that arm when he slammed me into a locker. That might be him now, trying to recapture the glory. So, I do all I can do. I take a diversion.

LOCAL TEEN DEAD IN
GAY-BASHING INCIDENT


Madison, Wis.—Authorities are questioning five local wrestlers in the death of Evan Weiss, a senior at Monona High School. Just one day before all six were set to graduate, the students are facing charges of first-degree murder in what authorities are describing as a clear case of gay bashing.

Weiss and his best friend, Davis Grayson, were walking home after the last day of school when the suspects allegedly jumped the pair in a field behind the school and beat them.

Grayson remains hospitalized in critical care.

Perhaps most tragic is that Weiss died mere blocks from the state capitol, where Governor Doyle Petersen is days away from signing major hate-crime legislation into law.

When asked to comment on the incident, Governor Petersen said, “It’s difficult to comment without all the facts. But once these boys are found guilty, I plan to lobby for the death penalty and see those little fuckers fry.”

My self-inflicted fantasy does the trick and carries me away into unconsciousness. I don’t know how much later it is when I feel someone gently prodding my chest. I move and my body explodes. A discharge of pain from my shoulder leaves my right arm flaccid. I wail and pull it to my chest.

I look up at Davis. His left eye is swollen; it’ll be completely shut by morning. His sandy blond hair juts out in every direction, decorated with grass clippings. Dark streaks crisscross his face like war paint and, with the sun disappearing behind trees and houses, shadow and blood fuse into one.

“A car drove by and they freaked.” His whisper is like grinding glass. “You were out. I didn’t know what to do.”

He holds out his hand to help me up but I shrink away, keeping my right arm against my chest. He sees this.

“Is it broken?”

I vividly remember what it felt like when Kenny broke it—a river of knives flowing up to my shoulder—and this does not feel like that. I shake my head and, using my good arm, push off the ground. We stand facing each other for a moment, each fading into a silhouette. We limp back to my house.

© 2011 Brian Farrey

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6 of 6 people found the following review helpful By Tara Gonzalez on July 1, 2011
Format: Paperback
With or Without You is an amazing, depressingly realistic portrayal of the misconceptions many people still hold regarding HIV and AIDS, even decades after it became a widely known issue. But apart from the big issue of With or Without You, it's also the story of a high school senior trying to figure out who he is and how to make his own decisions.

There are a lot of books with gay protagonists where the focus is that he's gay. But in With or Without You - that's not an issue. It causes several beatings from high school bullies, but for the most part, it's known and accepted by the people who surround the protagonist, Evan. So that's definitely one refreshing change about With or Without You.

I loved the characters in general - I loved Evan and his passion for art. The things that he was described as created with the glass sounded absolutely stunning. I loved the internal battle between his love for his boyfriend, Erik, and his loyalty to his best friend, Davis. I loved Davis and felt for him, despite the stupid decisions he made throughout the book. And Erik - sweet, caring, Erik. Seriously, Erik has to be one of the best boyfriends I've ever encountered in the literary world.

The storyline broke my heart. Like any good story should, it started out with the simple questions of where to go to college, when to tell my parents about my boyfriend, etc. and quickly escalated to the point of all hell breaking lose.

With or Without You held my attention and broke my heart, and ended beautifully.
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5 of 5 people found the following review helpful By Amazon Customer on July 22, 2011
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Eighteen-year-old Evan Weiss paints on windows. Like most artists, he doubts his work and feels like a complete imposter. The truth is he's very good, in a copycat sort of way. He studies famous artists, carefully learning their strokes and strategies. He sees the balance in their work and envies them.

Evan has already come out to his family. He gathered all the courage he could muster and said the words. Only they didn't believe him. Earth-shattering news like that should actually shatter the world. But sometimes change is harder than that. So he retreats into hiding. After all, if the people closest to him won't accept who he is, he'll be himself in secret.

Which is why he doesn't tell anyone about his sexy boyfriend Erik. That fated painting day at the volleyball courts is the best and scariest event of his life. Erik accepts him. Is fascinated by him. Believes in him. Even, loves him. With Erik, he's found a place to belong. Someone to belong with.

The only other person who comes close is Evan's best friend Davis. He knows he's found something special when, even after they find out they'll never be boyfriends, the friendship is worth keeping. It's how they survived the constant ridicule and gay bashings at school. How they make it all the way to graduation day.

With a summer of freedom ahead of them, they hear about a new movement called the Chasers. "Learn what it means to be gay! Stop being a doormat!" the handwritten flier dares. And Evan has felt powerless so long, told so many lies for so long -- to his family, his boyfriend, his best friend -- that this sounds like might be his answer. The right opportunity at the perfect time.

He couldn't be more wrong.
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6 of 7 people found the following review helpful By cynthia (A Blog about Nothing) on May 26, 2011
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There was a lot of stuff going on in With or Without you, it wasn't just one simple plot with a perfect ending and that's it, there were a few little layers of plots that were all connected to our main character Evan. Evan is torn between his best friend Davis who's gotten into a group call the Chasers, a group that's suppose to support and instilled pride in being gay but it's nothing but bad news and their main focus is to feel free and have sex with whoever they want. He also has his perfect boyfriend Erik, the one he's been hiding from everyone, even his best friend for about a year but now wants him to move to San Diego with him. Evan is a talented painter and wishes to pursue it as a career which were his plans for years, but now he is troubled because he feels a lot of responsibility for Davis who has no one else that cares about him and is getting deeper into a group that will ruin his life forever, but he also has his love life with Erik, someone caring and wonderful, someone that he can really feel comfortable and be himself with.

I felt pretty awful for Evan, his life was never easy, his parents never really paid much attention to him and he only had Davis as a friend his whole life, they helped each other through all those years that they were bullied and getting beaten up at school, so all along you know that he can't just leave him but you're also hoping that he won't leave Erik either. I felt pretty torn just like Evan. The story and intensity increase dramatically as the story goes along, Evan's life spins out of control and everything starts going wrong when he finally finds out the Chaser's shocking goal and initiation rituals.
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