At twenty-three, recent engineering grad that I was, I had read
virtually nothing. But there was hope: I was living four out of every six weeks
in the Sumatran jungle. On leave in Singapore, I loaded up on books to take
back to the seismic crew. This was serious business. If the books ran out
before the four weeks did, I would be reduced to reading the same 1979
Playboy
over and over, and/or watching hours of wayang theater
on the bunkhouse television. Occasionally one of our island contractors would
bring porn, which often involved animals. We were obliged to watch, and be
grateful, then discuss the details of certain scenes with him. This contractor
had once locked a fever-struck employee in a shed, where he died. This
contractor was also supposedly magically protected from all attacks on his
person. He had so far survived three shootings and a hatchet attack, which was
why he was, wittily, called Hatchet.
My understanding of literature at this time was: Great Writing was Hard
Reading. If written properly, you could barely understand it. Often, a scene I
was imagining indoors suddenly sprouted stars and a riverfront. At a fictional
dinner party where I had understood there to be three people present, six were
suddenly required, based on the sudden appearance of three unfamiliar names. In
terms of language, Great Writing was done in a language that had nothing to do
with the one you spoke. The words were similar, but arranged more cleverly,
less directly. A good literary sentence was like a floor with a hole hidden in
it. You got to the end and thought: "Why'd he say it that way? He must really
be a great writer." Plain American language was a degraded thing, good only for
getting around your dopey miniature world, cashing checks and finding
restaurants and talking about television and so on.
Then, on one of my Singapore jaunts, I picked up Kurt Vonnegut's
Slaughterhouse
Five. I knew, vaguely, that this was a Classic. I knew it had to
do with World War II, that the author had been present at the firebombing of
Dresden. This sounded promising. At this time I also believed, courtesy of my
hero Ernest Hemingway, that Good Writing required a Terrible Event One Had
Witnessed. With luck, one had been Wounded during the Terrible Event, although
not too badly. If not a physically Wound, a mental Wound was fine. The Terrible
Event was, in fact, what I was in Asia seeking. I had been to the Cambodian
border seeking it, been to the Khyber pass seeking it, but everywhere I went, I
was too cautious to be blown up or see anything horrific. Given the chance to
really go somewhere dangerous, I would think: Jeez, that sounds dangerous, and
retreat to my reasonably priced hotel, and read Hemingway.
But here was Vonnegut, a guy who had been through a Terrible Event. I
was very excited to see what he had done with it. I hoped he had not wasted it.
I hoped had done something like Hem had done with it. I hoped he had come out
of it sobered and sullen, broken by his Terrible Event, but also that he had
taken lots of notes, so his book would be filled with pages of lush
descriptions that showed that, though Wounded, he still appreciated a good
adobe archway or wind-ruffled stand of oak trees, through which the river
flowed pleasantly.
"Reading Vonnegut, a sudden understanding of what 'genius'
might actually mean, in our time, swept over me. Here was an author courageous
enough to concede all expected literary treasures ... for small potent drops of
real truth. Here was an author who had been, perhaps, so deeply saddened by
what he had seen, that he had dropped, in his sadness, all falseness." --George
Saunders
But this guy, I soon found, was funny. Funny? Hem wasn't funny. Only
people I knew, like my beloved father and beloved uncles, were funny. How
Wounded could he be, if he was so funny? Also, he used the vernacular. I was
offended. This guy who had been in the belly of the beast, wrote as if he was
still, like me, a regular person from the Midwest. He wrote, in other words, as
if there was a continuum of consciousness between himself Before and himself
After his Terrible Event. I preferred someone to be forever changed.
Furthermore, he did not seem to be saying, as I understood Hem to be saying,
that this Terrible Event had forever exempted him from the usual human
obligations: being kind, attempting to understand, behaving decently. On the
contrary, Vonnegut was using his Terrible Event to explore ways of continuing
to remain kind in spite of Terrible Events. Also, he was almost totally
skipping the lush physical detals he had presumably put himself into so much
danger to obtain. He was assuming these physical details; that is, he was
assuming that I was supplying them. A forest was a forest, he seemed to be
saying, let's not get all flaky about it. You've seen forests, I've seen
forests, can we get on to bigger things--the human heart as it actually is, the
tragic way time passes, the way actual cowardice and inadequacy looks and
feels? And then, horror of horrors, in the midst of the march towards Dresden,
here came a damn spaceship! That did not belong in Literature. That belonged in
movies. Movies, I liked, I liked spaceships in movies, but I did not want them
in my Literature. What I wanted in my Literature, was some slowly described
forests, free from spaceships, and some noble earnest words, with a somber
bullfight breaking out now and then. This was all very confusing.
Then, slowly, I began to get it. What kept me trying to get it, was the
deep, undeniable, visceral, pleasure I was getting from the reading. I
literally could not stay away from the book. I was sneaking it into the office
with me, our office out there in the jungle, where I hid it among my seismic
records, sneaking it out now and then, alarming, with my sporadic nosesnorts,
my hungover colleagues, who perhaps mistook this for homesick sobbing.
This was what one did now, I saw, with Tragedy. One went through it
quickly, one eyebrow lifted cynically, as if Tragedy was not one's master. In
the same way that Hemingway had done, but moreso (more brio, more fun, more
confidence) you gave the full measure of Tragedy (and fear, and horror, and
death) by understating it. You telegraphed things that a lazier, more timid
writer would have dwelled on for twenty pages, because that writer was scared
he didn't have anything else, but you, if you were Vonnegut, you rushed through
the things you knew, to get into that vicinity where you didn't know anymore,
because you were not afraid, and were curious.
You could, in other words, use modern means to convey modern experience.
The tools of art, Vonnegut seemed to be saying, do not need to be--in fact
cannot be--any but the ones ready at hand. That everyday language of yours? Use
it. That messy pop-culture bag of referents? We collectively made that for a
reason--reach into it.
The experiences you have had, he seemed to be saying, are the
experiences you have had. They are fine, they are perfect, they are plenty.
What else would you possibly use to make art? Skim over the things you know,
joke about them, avoid directly exploiting them, shroud them in an over-story
about aliens: You know what you know, and that knowledge will not be shaken out
of your literature no matter how breezy, or comic, or minimalistic your mode of
expression is.
"Vonnegut is, in my view, the great, urgent, passionate
American writer of our century..." --George Saunders
I suddenly saw that, for example, my knowledge of Hatchet--his casual
cruelty, his unquestioning belief in his own right to run roughshod over
others--could be used in fiction, without me needing to get bogged down in the
burden of representing Hatchet in slavishly realistic terms. I could riff on
Hatchet, instill his mindset in a totally invented character--I could, in other
words, use that portion of my mind labeled "Hatchet knowledge" in any way I saw
fit.
Reading Vonnegut, a sudden understanding of what "genius" might actually
mean, in our time, swept over me. Here was an author courageous enough to
concede all expected literary treasures (slow description, lush language,
realistic rendering, the miserly cashing-in of one's "wisdom") for small potent
drops of real truth. Here was an author who had been, perhaps, so deeply
saddened by what he had seen, that he had dropped, in his sadness, all
falseness. When I finished the book, and stepped away from it, I was taken
aback by the courage and vision required of its author. He must be, I felt,
supremely confident of what he knows, to write it with such insolence and flair
and bravado. He was like someone who had survived a ten-thousand mile trek on
foot, and when asked to give a lecture on it, approached the podum wearily and
simply said: Hard.
Last summer I did a relaxed bourgeioise version of my Sumatran
seismic-camp reading game: My family and I went to the beach for two weeks, and
I brought along a few books. I chose widely--unread early-century classics,
recent award winners, obscure artsy titles. And just for insurance, I took
along another Vonnegut novel,
Slapstick. I am
happy to report that when the other books had fallen by the wayside (left in
the back of the car with the sand toys, or tossed aside when my Reading Time
coincided with my Slightly Buzzed time and therefore not even small falsenesses
could be tolerated), the Vonnegut prevailed. It spoke to me every time I opened
it. It never felt dated, or bloated, or irrelevant to the moment at hand. It
was insanely compressed, urgent, almost frantic--a lesser writer would have
made four books out of this one--but always, it spoke to me, like a good and
wise friend, and when I went back to life, life always felt bigger than it had
felt before I opened the book.
Vonnegut is, in my view, the great, urgent, passionate American writer
of our century, who offers us, in the intensity of his gaze, the kindness of
his vision, and the width of the possibilties he considers, a model of the kind
of compassionate thinking that might yet save us from ourselves.
God bless you Mr Vonnegut. I thank you, on behalf of everyone.