- Paperback: 220 pages
- Publisher: Cleis Press (July 26, 2002)
- Language: English
- ISBN-10: 1573441562
- ISBN-13: 978-1573441568
- Product Dimensions: 8 x 5.6 x 0.6 inches
- Shipping Weight: 8.8 ounces (View shipping rates and policies)
- Average Customer Review: 109 customer reviews
- Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #1,258,825 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
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I had been Jonathan's slave for about a year when he told me he wanted to sell me at an auction. I wasn't in any condition to respon d when he told me this Desire and depravity run rampant in this sto ry of uncompromising mastery and irrevocable submission. --This text refers to an out of print or unavailable edition of this title.
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The very idea of submission is perhaps puzzling to those of us outside the BDSM world. Carrie explores "why" she is doing what she is doing when she says: "you want to be done to, by a desire that's more selfish and specific than your own. You want that blank, floating moment of release, of submission, of knowing that it's useless to resist."
Her self-doubt is familiar to those of us who have ventured, like a moth to a flame, to situations we aren't proud of. She questions what she is doing: "And even though I'd go home those evenings sore, humiliated, miserable, and vowing never to return, I always did return. Promptly." She may have experienced some cognitive dissonance: "I wanted to resist, I couldn't quite find the moment, or the muscular center, for actually doing so. Instead, some part of me was discovering, as he kept breathing the word, that there was a way to be utterly, terrifyingly "open.""
By submitting totally, Carries discovers that for her, submission to another was in fact freedom, when she says, "open as I was, I had lost a kind of authority, both against the world and my own gleeful, brute body." Being the person "on top" in the relationship was the true challenge, and her master would "make me thank them profusely after whatever they did to me. Sometimes he thanked them as well, explaining how much I needed to be used."
Carrie reaches the transcendent moment when she felt herself "become an object- his object, only better than an object, because I had a consciousness and a will and an intelligence that I would willingly submit to him."
Maybe she explains it best when she says "I didn't so much understand it as feel it, glimpsing a never-ending horizon of pain and challenge, as yet unimagined extremes of experience opening out for me, if I were brave enough to try to encounter them." If you are brave enough to give this book a chance, it may open your eyes, like it did mine, to a totally new experience. As Carrie says, "it is always a stretch, an effort of will and intelligence, to become an object."
Carrie, our first-person narrator, is honest, dryly analytical, and has a great sense of irony. She is a strong, independent person; the choices she makes are very much her own. This does not mean she isn't scared or trepidatious about what will happen next. She is human, after all.
I was riveted by the fictional (or maybe not so fictional) world presented here and each of the characters. I'm so glad I read this book.
But you don't read novels necessarily because you like the subject; you read novels to find out what a certain group could be thinking, without, say, asking them to explain themselves or without, in the case of s&m, being beaten. It doesn't matter how much tracts and tomes of nonfiction on the subject of s&m you read, you'll never find out how people think. It doesn't matter that Pam Rosenthal issues the disclaimer that she's a straight married lady. She presents a good exposition of what drives these people to do what they do. I wouldn't put myself through this, but probably Carrie, or women like her, wouldn't aspire to running the Altar Guild. That's the great thing about America. We have freedom of choice.
The main character - `Carrie' is a graduate student. So apparently the book is supposed to be a more `intellectual' study of the BDSM phenomena. However it does not even explore the most basic question - Why is Carrie allowing people to do this to her body? What is her emotional conflict? Carrie is not a kidnapped woman forced into sex slavery. She is not captivated by some abusive boyfriend who drags her into a BDSM relationship. She does it of her own free will. And the stunning thing is that she gets no orgasms, no real sexual satisfaction from all this pain and degradation.
Carrie's Story is way overpriced at $9.39. There are a number of writers who do a far better job in creating the BDSM synthesis of Pain - Pleasure - Emotional Conflict. `Carrie' seems to have no feelings at all, she just acts as everyone's kicking bag. The reader keeps waiting for some event or character to make it sexually or emotionally worthwhile for Carrie but it never happens, just more depressing abuse.