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- Publisher: One Publishing, Inc. (January 13, 2004)
- Publication Date: January 13, 2004
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- Language: English
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Confessions of a God Seeker: A Journey to Higher Consciousness Kindle Edition
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I cannot tell you how much we loved your book. I thank you for being so brave, pure at heart. -- B.P., Ontario, Canada, June 2003, Review Letter to Publisher
I wholeheartedly recommend "Confessions." It provides lessons for all and is of utmost importance to those reclaiming their personal "power." -- Mary Voaden, Ph.D., England, may 2003, Review Letter to Publisher
If after this book you hold to Eckankar, you deserve it. But as truth-seeker, let this book set you free. -- D.J., Washington DC, Review Letter to Publisher
One of the best books ever written about crossing the brain/mind portal and applying higher energy to manifest your goal[s]. -- Mindquest Book Review, by Lightword Publishing
This book is a must read for everyone. Learning about Eckankar deception hurt, but I'm happier after finding truth out. -- Amazon.com, May 2003
[M]y own research supports [Johnson's] conclusions [on Eckankar.] You will find a multitude of issues you may never have considered. -- James Davis, author: --This text refers to the hardcover edition.
From the Inside Flap
One of the most important messages conveyed in Confessions is the daily reading and meditation on the following contemplation seed.
THE HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS CONTEMPLATION OF LIFE (I)
I am one with ALL THAT IS. I surrender to my higher self, God-soul that is me. In the eternity of now, I rise above time and space Into infinite spirit.
In this creative center Of pure consciousness, Where all things exist, I accept into my life That which I choose For my wellbeing and spiritual unfoldment.
I think neither good nor bad Of events in my life, For they are without form. Neither good nor bad, Either good or bad, My choice Makes it my own.
Outcomes flow from What I think, and What I deem is true. For how I act, And what I accept, Steers the course That will ensue.
I focus on my higher self, God-soul that is free. A spark of GOD, part of the whole That watches over me. It meets my needs, And steers my course, On my journey home, to THEE.
I center On my love for GOD, And GODs boundless love for me, A love that provides, protects And guides my way, To know the ONE In me.
ALL THAT IS, is All there is. And I as part of THEE, Claim freedom Joy, success As mine, GODs endless gift to me.
HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS AFFIRMATION
DIVINE ONE I AM NOW WITH THEE. FOR THOU ART ME, AND I AM THEE BOUND BY LOVE AS ONE. --This text refers to the hardcover edition.
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In order to help the reader understand where I'm coming from, I am an active higher initiate in Eckankar who has been on the path since the mid-80's. I first read this book over a decade ago because I knew Ford as an acquaintance and I respected him as a dedicated leader in Eck. I'd heard rumors about why he left but I wanted to see for myself. Prior to reading this I was familiar with the anti-Eck memes as expressed by David Lane, a very bright person who dedicated much of his life to being against something that is precious to a lot of people. Lane's three-pronged attack was that Paul Twitchell, the founder of Eckanar, 1) lied about his age; 2) plagiarized extensively; and 3) fabricated much of the history and lineage of Eckankar. Johnson took Lane's work, giving it his own twist.
The above accusations appear to have some legitimacy. However Doug Marman, another higher initiate wrote an outstanding antithesis that countered each argument and came much closer to the truth. I am certainly not going to repeat Doug's arguments here. I only seek to offer my own take on this. Reading anti-Eck material such as this book has the potential to shatter one's spiritual foundation. But this never happened to me. I read with a grain of salt and looked for the deeper meaning. I knew there was a deeper meaning because I asked myself the most critical question: Is this path working for me? It certainly was and still is. What evidence do I have that the path is the genuine article? I've had many spiritual experiences. I won't recount any specific ones here, other than that I often hear the music of the spheres, including as I write this.
Lane and Johnson used the three-pronged anti-Eck evidence to form a very unflattering characterization of Paul. For example, he lied about his age to acquire a younger wife; he unethically stole the work of others; and he created a false path simply to build for himself wealth and power. But this does not jibe with the man people knew. Anyone who knew Paul Twitchell personally knew that above all else he was kind. I doubt that a selfish person could muster the energy, commitment and dedication that he displayed in seeking truth. He traveled the world seeking those who had truth... who had broken through to a broader dance with life... and he read whole libraries of books gathering nuggets of truth here or there. Once one develops a framework of spiritual understanding, one becomes capable of recognizing truth when he sees it, and is deeply inspired by it. And I believe what drove Paul to the ends of the earth seeking truth was not merely selfish gain, but a wonderful burning desire to help everyone to a deeper understanding of life.
Thus I see the plagiarism not as an attempt to steal the work of others for personal profit, but as noble effort to collect the very best for enrichment and enlightenment, and then seeking to share what he found with others. The most vexing problem in all of this is the claim that he fabricated the history of the path. This would lead one to question whether the many past masters were authentic human beings who once walked this earth. If not, then how do Eckists resolve that with the fact that we have had very real inner experiences with them?
There is no doubt that there are beings who are highly advanced spiritually. They work with anyone who is open and ready to receive them, not just Eckists, and they may often appear in a form that will be of comfort to us while at the same time indicating to us that they are someone capable of helping us grow spiritually. What this boils down to is this. Is it more important that a given master's biography be historically accurate... or that an entity who appears as that given master can actually help us? Are we willing to accept help if that help appears to come from the realm of legend and myth, in the earthly sense? Of course when an entity appears in our dreams or contemplation we do have to test it to be sure it is at least there to help us and not take advantage of us. But once satisfied that the entity is there to help us, I think the other concerns fade to the background.
I have found this path to bring a lot of these inner experiences in which higher beings, including the inner master who is obviously a genuine soul on this earth, come to teach and inspire us. Is some of this success attributable to what we might call a spiritual placebo effect. Some of the Eck writings make fantastic claims that the path of Eckankar is "all that". I've always had a little skepticism in this regard, but my natural skepticism has always been mitigated by the fact that this path has helped me immensely. As Sri Harold Klemp remarked very early in his tenure, "there is light and love in this path, such as I have never seen in any other." Although I have not tried very many other paths, I am convinced that this is true. I also believe that it is of great spiritual benefit to me that I believe that my path is the best and there is none higher. Ford Johnson may feel he has found a greater truth outside of Eck and I wish him the best. But as for me, why would I go looking elsewhere when it works for me?
The question of Paul's date of birth never bothered me. I chalked it up to his enjoyment of cloaking himself in a bit of mystery.
I try to classify my knowledge into 3 categories: 1) those things in which I have direct experience; 2) those things which are intuitively right for me, and 3) those things I don't know for sure, even if from an authoritative source.
It was helpful to understand there are many things about Eckankar which fall into category 3. For instance,
* I have not observed the passing of a Rod of power. I don't' know if it happens as described or if it happens at all
* There are many Eck masters with whom I have not had personal experience. I don't' know if they exist. I have no idea if there has been an unbroken line of 973 masters
* Has Eckankar been the basis of all religions as is claimed?
* and so on for dozens of other examples
The book challenged me in exactly the way Ford wanted to make me think: if parts are made up or untrue, then is the entire religion made up to enhance Paul Twitchells ego?
I've been in Eckankar for nearly 30 years. I have gained immensely from this path. Has it all been false? Have I been duped? I wondered for a while.
Then I went back to my direct experiences with Eckankar:
* When I first read Eckankar: Key to Secret Worlds I was overjoyed. I had spent until 34 years old looking for truth in religion after religion. In this one book, I found more truth than I had encountered in total in my life. I knew I was home
* I have had literally hundreds of spiritual experiences with Eck masters, from the sublime to the mundane. These are as real to me as this outward world--more real, in many ways
* Eckankar works as advertised in my experience. You need to train yourself to connect with spirit. That's what all religions are about, whatever you call the technique
* Before I even knew what it was, I had the darshan, the inner meeting with the Mahanta, Living Eck Master, just prior to attending my first Eckankar seminar. Since then, the Mahanta has been with my consciousness, advising me directly, just as we all have spirit guides
I have had many experiences with Ford Johnson. As he describes in his book, he was constantly on stage, speaking about Eckankar. My impressions then were interesting; I was greatly impressed with his talks, they were so eloquent and full of wisdom. Yet when I tried afterwards to remember anything he said, I simply could not remember. Nothing registered with me, in spite of having such a positive impression.
In his book, Ford chides the Living Eck Master, Harold Klemp, for giving such simple stories. I agree that there are many times when I wish he would give a more intellectually satisfying talk. Yet I seem to retain all his stories, and remember them when I am in certain situations.
The other impression I had of Ford is one of having a vast ego. This is not a criticism, but an observation. (As a newcomer to Eckankar, I had no way to judge what the culture and expected behaviors should be.) Ford was almost the antithesis of Harold Klemp, who was so humble as to be almost hidden. I felt that Ford must be very impatient with Harold, as Ford was outwardly educated, lived in an expensive and lovely home, had his own business, and was very successful. I wondered, even in the 80's, if Ford was going to be the next Eck Master.
The entire situation with Graham and his experiences with the light and sound were uniquely for Graham, and ultimately for Ford, I believe. For Ford I think this was a test. When he found evidence to support the idea that someone was greater in the spiritual hierarchy than Harold Klemp, how would he react? Was this the very thing he was looking for, to find that Graham, as his proxy, was blessed to be a higher consciousness than the current Living Eck Master?
This is my own takeaway from Ford's book. When he was asked to step down from his position, and realign with the Eck, his ego couldn't stand being disciplined by one who was not as advanced a soul as he considered himself to be. Thus began his undertaking to destroy Eckankar as a religion, and put himself as a leader of another religion.
I have had my own tests by the Eck Masters where I have been told directly certain things were true. In these tests I have rejected what I was told because in the core of me this was not true. As a Master-in-Training, I think we will be tested in this way, and see if we can, of ourselves, be our own truth.
You may ask, "Isn't this exactly what Ford has done? Found his own truth?"
I would say, based on my understanding of the book, that Ford's ego rejected all the evidence that he had found as Soul to support Eckankar as his chosen path. His own direct experiences demonstrated the reality of the religion to him. Indeed he was a well-developed soul, we could all tell that. But I think he let his ego convince him that all he knew to be Truth as he discovered in Eckankar, was an inconvenient truth.
I share this book review with the current and future readership of Confessions of a God Seeker, as it may be helpful to balance some of the other reviews, which seem not to understand Paul Twitchell's great achievement.
Would it have been helpful for me, when first reading The Key to Secret Worlds for Paul to have written it as a scholarly, footnoted volume? It simply would not have had the impact it did. There's truth and facts, and they may not be exactly the same in these physical worlds. I know what I know, and it's based on countless incarnations, lifetimes of learning.
Followers of Islam often tell me how much Muhammad was able to accomplish during his years on earth. Paul had only 6 years as the Mahanta, Living Eck Master. However he put the religion of Eckankar together, whatever shortcuts he took, I am very grateful.
Do yourself a great favor and read this book and stay as far away as possible from Eckankar. You'll be grateful if you do.
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I'm missing there the love and the true humanity in these groups, and I got even serious corporal disfunctions after all.
As Mr. Harold Klemp recently wrote in his new HI book "Wisdom from the Master on Spiritual Leadership, Book 2, Page 233: 
"When someone asks to leave ECK, we comply with the request. We respect one's freedom to change path."
It is and it was my free will to leave Eckankar. As Soul, you have the God-knowlege within you!
This book by Ford Johnson gave me some information conc. my important decision too.
You must decide for yourself (=> Self-realization).
My future will be in Christianity.
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