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In her quickly gentrifying rural lake town Jade sees recent events only her encyclopedic knowledge of horror films could have prepared her for in this latest chilling novel that “will give you nightmares. The good kind, of course” (BuzzFeed) from the Jordan Peele of horror literature, Stephen Graham Jones.
“Some girls just don’t know how to die…”
Shirley Jackson meets Friday the 13th in My Heart Is a Chainsaw, written by the New York Times bestselling author of The Only Good Indians Stephen Graham Jones, called “a literary master” by National Book Award winner Tananarive Due and “one of our most talented living writers” by Tommy Orange.
Alma Katsu calls My Heart Is a Chainsaw “a homage to slasher films that also manages to defy and transcend genre.” On the surface is a story of murder in small-town America. But beneath is its beating heart: a biting critique of American colonialism, Indigenous displacement, and gentrification, and a heartbreaking portrait of a broken young girl who uses horror movies to cope with the horror of her own life.
Jade Daniels is an angry, half-Indian outcast with an abusive father, an absent mother, and an entire town that wants nothing to do with her. She lives in her own world, a world in which protection comes from an unusual source: horror movies…especially the ones where a masked killer seeks revenge on a world that wronged them. And Jade narrates the quirky history of Proofrock as if it is one of those movies. But when blood actually starts to spill into the waters of Indian Lake, she pulls us into her dizzying, encyclopedic mind of blood and masked murderers, and predicts exactly how the plot will unfold.
Yet, even as Jade drags us into her dark fever dream, a surprising and intimate portrait emerges…a portrait of the scared and traumatized little girl beneath the Jason Voorhees mask: angry, yes, but also a girl who easily cries, fiercely loves, and desperately wants a home. A girl whose feelings are too big for her body. My Heart Is a Chainsaw is her story, her homage to horror and revenge and triumph.
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- PublisherGallery / Saga Press
- Publication dateAugust 31, 2021
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* “This extraordinary novel is an essential purchase.”—Kirkus, Starred Review
"A homage to slasher films that also manages to defy and transcend genre. You don't have to be a slasher fan to read My Heart is a Chainsaw, but I guarantee that you will be after you read it."—Alma Katsu, author of The Deep and The Hunger
"Brutal, beautiful, and unforgettable, My Heart Is a Chainsaw is a visceral ride from start to finish. A bloody love letter to slasher fans, it's everything I never knew I needed in a horror novel."—Gwendolyn Kiste, Bram Stoker Award-winning author of The Rust Maidens
"Stephen Graham Jones can't miss. My Heart Is A Chainsaw is a painful drama about trauma, mental health, and the heartache of yearning to belong...twisted into a DNA helix with encyclopedic Slasher movie obsession and a frantic, gory whodunnit mystery, with an ending both savage and shocking. Don't say I didn't warn you!” —Christopher Golden, New York Times bestselling author of Ararat and Red Hands
“An easy contender for Best of the Year. A love letter to (and an examination of) both the horror genre and the American West, it left me stunned and applauding.”—Brian Keene, World Horror Grandmaster Award and two Bram Stoker Award-winning author of The Rising and The Damned Highway
“Stephen Graham Jones masterfully navigates the shadowy paths between mystery and horror. An epic entry in the slasher canon." —Laird Barron, author of Swift to Chase
“Fans of Stephen King's It and Peter Straub's Ghost Story should find plenty to love in this tale of friends who are haunted by a supernatural entity they first encountered in their youth.” —Silvia Moreno-Garcia, bestselling author of Mexican Gothic
“Jones boldly and bravely incorporates both the difficult and the beautiful parts of contemporary Indian life into his story, never once falling into stereotypes or easy answers but also not shying away from the horrors caused by cycles of violence.”—Rebecca Roanhorse, bestselling author of Trail of Lightning and Black Sun
"The Only Good Indian is equal parts revenge thriller, monster movie, and meditation on the inescapable undertow of the past. A gripping, deeply unsettling novel."—Carmen Maria Machado, National Book Award finalist and Guggenheim Fellow and author of Her Body and Other Parties
"The best yet from one of the best in the business. An emotional depth that staggers, built on guilt, identity, one's place in the world, what's right and what's wrong. The Only Good Indians has it all: style, elevation, reality, the unreal, revenge, warmth, freezing cold, and even some slashing. In other words, the book is made up of everything Stephen Graham Jones seemingly explores and, in turn, everything the rest of us want to explore with him." —Josh Malerman, New York Times bestselling author of Bird Box and A House at the Bottom of a Lake.
“Stephen Graham Jones is a literary master who happens to write horror, and you've never read a book quite like The Only Good Indians.”—Tananarive Due, National Book Award winner, author of The Good House
“The Only Good Indians is scary good. Stephen Graham Jones is one of our most talented and prolific living writers. The book is full of humor and bone chilling images. It’s got love and revenge, blood and basketball. More than I could have asked for in a novel. It also both reveals and subverts ideas about contemporary Native life and identity. Novels can do some much to render actual and possible lives lived. Stephen Graham Jones truly knows how to do this, and how to move us through a story at breakneck (literally) speed. I’ll never see an elk or hunting, or what a horror novel can do the same way again.”—Tommy Orange, Pulitzer Prize finalist of There There
“The Only Good Indians is the most American horror novel I've ever read.”—Grady Hendrix, New York Times bestselling author of The Southern Book Club’s Guide to Slaying Vampires
“A heartbreakingly beautiful story about hope and survival, grappling with themes of cultural identity, family, and traditions.”—Library Journal, STARRED REVIEW
“Subtly funny and wry at turns, this novel will give you nightmares. The good kind, of course.”—Buzzfeed
“This novel works both as a terrifying chiller and as biting commentary on the existential crisis of indigenous peoples adapting to a culture that is bent on eradicating theirs.” —Publishers Weekly, STARRED REVIEW
"I like stories where nobody escapes their pasts because it's what I fear most."—Terese Marie Mailhot, New York Times bestselling author of Heart Berries
"Stephen Graham Jones is one of our greatest treasures. His prose here pops and sings, hard-boiled poetry conspiring with heartbreakingly-alive characters." —Sam J. Miller, Nebula-Award-Winning author of Blackfish City
“Gritty and gorgeous” —The New York Times
"How long must we pay for our mistakes, for our sins? Does a thoughtless act doom us for eternity? This is a novel of profound insight and horror, rich with humor and intelligence. The Only Good Indians is a triumph; somehow it’s a great story and also a meditation on stories. I've wondered who would write a worthy heir to Peter Straub's Ghost Story. Now I know the answer: Stephen Graham Jones."—Victor LaValle, author of The Ballad of Black Tom and The Changeling
"THE ONLY GOOD INDIANS is a masterpiece. Intimate, devastating, brutal, terrifying, yet warm and heartbreaking in the best way, Stephen Graham Jones has written a horror novel about injustice and, ultimately, about hope. Not a false, sentimental hope, but the real one, the one that some of us survive and keeps the rest of us going. And it gives me hope that this book exists and is now in your hands."—Paul Tremblay, author of A Head Full of Ghosts and The Cabin at the End of the World
“Jones hits his stride with a smart story of social commentary—it’s scary good.”—Kirkus Reviews, STARRED REVIEW
“Jones... has written a masterpiece. The book is… as instinctive and essential as it is harsh. Despite the blood and bleakness, The Only Good Indians is ultimately also about hope and the promise of the future...Read it.” (Locus Magazine)
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An easy contender for Best of the Year. A love letter to (and an examination of) both the horror genre and the American West, it left me stunned and applauding.
-- "Brian Keene, World Horror Grandmaster Award- and two-time Bram Stoker Award-winning author"Horror fans [will] be blown away by this audacious extravaganza.
-- "Publishers Weekly (starred review)" --This text refers to the audioCD edition.Excerpt. © Reprinted by permission. All rights reserved.
NIGHT SCHOOL
On the battered paper map that’s carried the two of them across they’re not sure how many of the American states now, this is Proofrock, Idaho, and the dark body of water before them is Indian Lake, and it kind of goes forever out into the night.
“Does that mean there’s Indians in the lake, or does it mean that Indians made it?” Lotte asks, a gleam of excitement to her eyes.
“Everything here’s named after Indians,” Sven says back, whispering because there’s something solemn about being awake when everyone’s asleep.
Their rental car is ticking down behind them from the six-hour push from Casper, the doors open because they just wanted to look, to see, to soak all this in before going back to the Netherlands at the end of the week.
Lotte shines her phone’s light down onto the fluttering map and looks up from it and across the water, like trying to connect what she’s seeing in lines and grids to what she’s actually standing in.
“Wat?” Sven says.
“In American,” Lotte tells him for the two-hundredth time. If they want partial course credit for immersion, they have to actually immerse.
“What?” Sven repeats, the word belligerent in English, like trying to make elbow room for itself.
“That should be the national forest on the other side,” Lotte says, chinning across the water because her hands are struggling to get the map shut.
“Everything’s a national forest,” Sven grumbles, angling his head as if to peer deeper into the darkness at all these black trees.
“But you can’t do that in the king’s forest, can you?” Lotte asks, finally getting the map folded in one of the six different ways it’s possible to fold it.
Sven follows her eyes across Indian Lake. There’s little floating pinpoints of light over there that only really come into focus when you look into the darkness right beside them.
“Hunh,” he says, Lotte coming up behind him to rest her chin on his shoulder, hold his waist in her hands.
Sven breathes in deep with wonder when the lights rearrange themselves, suggesting great yellow necks in the inky blackness: strange and massive animals, piecing the world together one lakeshore at a time. Then, a ways down the shore, a ball of flickering light arcs up into the velvety sky and hangs, hangs.
“Mooi,” Lotte says right next to his ear, and Sven repeats it in American: “Beautiful.”
“We shouldn’t,” Lotte says, which of course means the exact opposite.
Sven looks back to the car, shrugs sure, what the hell. It’s not like they’re going to be here again, right? It’s not like they’re going to get another chance to be twenty years old in America, a whole lake at their feet like it bubbled up just for them to dip their toes into—and maybe more.
They leave their clothes on the hood, the antenna, draped over the open doors.
The mountain air is crisp and thin, their skin pale and bare.
“The water will be—” Sven starts to say, but Lotte finishes for him, “Perfect,” and with that they’re running the way naked barefoot people do across gravel, which is delicately, hugging themselves against the chill but laughing too, just to be doing this.
Behind them Proofrock, Idaho, is dark. Before them a long wooden pier is reaching out over the water, pointing them across the lake.
To get their nerve up for how cold this is going to be, once their feet find those wooden planks, Lotte and Sven stretch out and really run, not worried about the chance of nails or splinters or falling. Sven howls up into the vast open space all around them and Lotte snaps a blurry picture of him with her phone.
“You brought that?” he says, turning around to jog backwards.
“Document, document,” she says, her arms drawn in like a boxer’s now that Sven’s looking back.
He raises an imaginary camera, takes his own picture of her.
Lotte is looking past him now, though, her eyes not as sure as they just were, her strides shortening, slowing, her hands and elbows going into strategic-coverage mode.
There’s a much closer light flickering at what’s got to be the end of the pier, and it looks for all the world like a fisherman in dark rain gear, holding an old-style lantern up at face level. No, not a fisherman: a lighthouse keeper who hasn’t seen another soul for three years. A lighthouse keeper who thinks that holding his lantern close to his own eyes will improve his vision.
And then the light’s gone.
Sven’s hand finds Lotte’s and they slow to a shuffle, the sky yawning empty and deep above them. All around them.
“Wat?” Lotte says.
“In American,” Sven chides, forcing his smile.
“I don’t anymore think we should—” Lotte starts, but doesn’t finish because Sven, walking now instead of running, is jumping on his left foot, his right splintered or nailed or stubbed, something sudden and unpleasant.
The light at the end of the pier comes on, curious.
“Look,” Lotte says to Sven.
When he stops hopping and grabbing at the sole of his foot, the light goes back off.
He nods, getting it, then stomps his hurt right foot down with authority.
The light glows on.
“Try it,” he says to Lotte.
Hesitant, she does, stomping, getting no response. But then she jumps with both feet, comes down hard enough to jangle whatever bad connection is happening down there.
“Gloeilamp isn’t screwed enough,” Sven diagnoses, pulling her ahead.
“Screwed in enough,” Lotte fixes, traipsing behind.
When they get there, step into that puddle of wavering light, Sven licks the pads of his fingers and reaches up under the rusty cowl to tighten the bulb, the light losing its thready flicker immediately, shining an unwavering cone of warmth down onto their pale thighs now, their shadows stark behind them, bleeding off into the darkness.
“We’re gonna fix this place up right,” Sven says, meaning all of America.
Lotte darts in to kiss him on the cheek, then, her eyes locked on Sven’s the whole while, and still holding his fingertips until she can’t, she steps over the end of the pier as easy as anything.
Sven turns his head against the splash, smiling and cringing both, but the splash doesn’t come.
“Lotte?” he says, stepping forward, shielding his face from the water he knows has to be coming.
She’s in a dark green canoe that’s rocking back and forth—she must have spotted it while he was fiddling with the lightbulb. Sven raises his hands, snaps another make-believe picture of her, says, “Cover up, this one’s for the grandchildrens. I want them to see how amazing their grootmoeder was when I first was knowing her.”
Lotte purses her lips, unable to hide her smile, and Sven steps down with her, arms wide so as not to roll them.
“This isn’t stealing,” he says, reaching up to unhook the canoe’s rope. “It was just floating here—out there, I mean. We had to swim out even to get it, to save it.”
“We’re gonna fix this place up!” Lotte says as loud as she can around Sven, leaning on the shaky little left-behind cooler to push them away from the pier. She trails her hands in the water and, drifting out from the pier now, can just see their rental car. It looks like a laundry bomb exploded over it. No: it looks like two kids from the Netherlands fizzed away from pure joy, disappeared into nothing, leaving only their clothes behind.
“What?” Sven asks in perfect American.
“We don’t have a paddle,” Lotte says. It’s the funniest thing in the world to her. It’s making this little expedition even more perfect.
“Or pants, or shirts…” Sven adds, taking both sides of the canoe and rocking it back and forth.
“Koude,” Lotte agrees, hugging herself. Then, like a dare, “Warmer in the water.”
“Out where it’s diepere,” Sven says, correcting himself before she can: “Deeper.”
They reach over to paddle with their hands, the water bitter cold, and after about twenty yards of this Sven liberates the white lid off the little cooler. It’s a much better paddle than their hands, and—importantly—it doesn’t care about freezing.
“My hero,” Lotte says in precise English, pressing herself into his back.
“It can be warmer up here too,” Sven says, but doesn’t stop drawing them farther out onto the lake.
Lotte presses the side of her face into his back, her new vantage point giving her an angle into the now-open tiny cooler.
“Hey!” she says, and extracts a clear baggie with a sandwich inside, its peanut butter smearing.
“Ew, pindakaas,” Sven says, and pulls deep with the cooler lid, surging them ahead.
Lotte unceremoniously shakes the sandwich out into the water without touching it, crosses her finger over her lips so Sven will know not to tell on her about this, then drops her phone into the baggie and neatly seals the top, blowing into it at the very end so the phone is in a make-do balloon.
“Your ziplock tas can also be a flotatie device,” she says in her best KLM flight attendant voice.
Sven chuckles, says, “Flotation.”
The phone in the bag is still recording. Lotte angles it away from her, holds it up so it can see ahead of them.
“What do you think they are?” Sven asks, nodding to the lights they don’t seem to be any closer to yet.
“Giant fireflies,” Lotte says with a secret thrill. “American fireflies.”
“Mastodons met—with bioluminescente tusks,” Sven says.
“Air jellyfish,” Lotte says, quieter, like a prayer.
“Isn’t there a tree fungus that’s fosforescerend?” Sven asks. “Being serious, nu.”
“Now,” Lotte corrects, still using her wispy-dreamy voice. “It’s the Indians. They’re painting their faces and their bodies for revolt.”
“Until John Wayne Gacy hears about it,” Sven says with enough confidence that Lotte has to giggle.
“It’s just John Wa—” she starts, doesn’t finish because Sven is jerking back from leaning over the side of the canoe, jerking back and pulling his hands up fast, something long stringing from them. He stands shaking it off, trying to, and the canoe overbalances, starts to roll. Instead of letting it, he dives off the other side, his Netherbits mostly hidden from the phone’s hungry eye.
He slips in almost without a sound, just one gulp and gone.
Alone on the canoe now, Lotte stands unsteadily, the back of her hand coming instantly up to her nose, her mouth—the smell from whatever stringy grossness Sven dragged in over the side.
She dry heaves, falls to her knees from it.
They’ve drifted into… what? A mat of algae? Lake scum? At this altitude, snow still in the ditches?
“Sven!” she calls to the blackness encroaching from all sides now.
She covers herself with her arms, sits on her heels as best she can.
No Sven.
And now she knows what that smell has to be: fish guts. Some men from the town gutted a big haul of them over the side of their boat, the intestines and non-meaty parts adhering together with the congealing blood to make a gooey floating scab.
She coughs again, has to close her eyes to keep from throwing up.
Or maybe it wasn’t a whole net of fish—they can’t do that here in inland America, can they?—but one or two of the really big fish, pulled up from the very bottom of the lake. Sturgeon, pike, catfish?
Sven will know. His uncle is a fisherman.
“Sven!” she calls again, not liking this game.
Not necessarily in response to her call, probably more to do with his lung capacity, Sven surfaces maybe twenty feet to Lotte’s left.
“Gevonden—got it!” he’s yelling.
What he’s waving over his head is the bright white lid of the little cooler.
“Come back!” Lotte calls to him. “I don’t want to see the giant fireflies anymore!”
“Mastodons!” Sven yells back, clapping the lid on the water, the sound almost unbearably loud to Lotte, like drawing attention they don’t want. She looks to the lights on the far shore to see if they’re all turning this way.
She gathers her phone-balloon, shakes the camera so it’s facing her, and says into it in perfect English, “I hate you, Sven. I’m cold and scared and when you’re asking yourself what you did wrong, why you didn’t get any in the big state of Idaho, you can play this and you can know.”
Then she wedges the phone backwards half under the canoe’s bow deck, up against the stem—the pointy hidden corner at the front where you can stuff a ziplock baggie you’ve blown up and hidden a phone inside.
“Come to me!” Sven says. “I don’t want to touch that… that hair again!”
“It’s not hair!” Lotte calls back. “It’s fish gut—”
What stops her from finishing is the distinct sense that someone was just standing behind her. Which would be impossible, of course, since behind her there’s only the lake. Still, she whips around to the other end of the boat, certain there was a shadow there, just in her peripheral vision, already gone.
“It is kelp?” Sven’s asking now. “Is that how you say it in Engels?”
“English,” Lotte corrects, losing patience with this.
“Fuck English!” Sven says back. “Het is haar!”
It’s not hair, though.
If it were hair, that would mean that… Lotte doesn’t know: would it mean that a moose or a bear or a cowboy horse had died out here, or floated out here while dead and bloated, then burst in the heat of the day, geysering blood and gore up in a chunky fountain?
The canoe thunking into something where there should be nothing tells her that’s just what it has to be.
She shrieks, can feel sudden tears on her face, her breath the kind of deep she’s about to lose control of.
“Sven!” she screams, holding hard to the side of the canoe, and now, instead of another thunk, what she hears, fast like little footsteps, is a series of… not quite splashes, but some disturbance on the surface of the water. Fish in a line, jumping? A formation of bats snatching insects from the top of the lake? A rock someone skipped in the daytime, still making it across to the other shore?
She pushes away from whatever it is.
“Sven, Sven, Sven!” she’s saying, less loud each time, because it feels like her voice is putting a bullseye on her back.
They never should have come to America. This isn’t some big adventure.
Lotte looks back to the pier, to the light she knows is real, and right when she looks is when it blinks off then on again—no, no, it didn’t go off, something passed between her and it.
Seconds later, a profanely intimate sound squelches across the water to the canoe, like a wet ripping. From where Sven was? Is she even still in the same place in relation to him?
Lotte stands, feels more exposed than she ever has, even though she can’t see her own arms.
She falls back, almost over the side, when Sven starts screaming. In Dutch, in English, in human, except more primal—the way you only ever scream once, Lotte knows.
All Lotte can make out is “Wat is er mis met haar mond?” before his voice gargles down, stops abruptly.
Lotte reaches in to paddle back, away, she’s sorry, Sven, she’s sorry, she’s sorry to America too, they shouldn’t have violated her at night, they should have driven all the way around Idaho, she’ll tell everybody, she’ll warn them all away if she can just—
Her arm is up to the elbow in the mat of hair and rot and guts, it’s stringing off her, draping into the canoe, wrapping around her but she doesn’t care, she’s lying on her stomach now to pull harder for the shore, her fingertips pushing down to where the water’s even colder.
Once, twice, twenty times, and then—her hand connects with something solid? Her head is instantly filled with the slow-motion image of a dead horse floating underwater, the pads of her fingers brushing the white diamond between its eyes, her lightest touch pushing the huge dead body drifting down even deeper.
She pulls back, sits up holding her hand to herself like it’s injured, and then what she touched with that hand bobs past.
The white cooler lid, streaked red.
Lotte shakes her head no, no, no, and then, because what else can she do, she rolls over the other side of the canoe, fights through the tendrils of decay, some even going in her mouth, trying to reach down her throat, and then she’s to open water, swimming hard for the dim lights of Proofrock like only an elementary school swim-meet veteran can.
The phone she left behind in its foggy balloon is just recording the empty aluminum canoe now, and one blurry corner of the little cooler. But it’s listening in its muted way.
What it hears is the front part of Lotte’s scream.
She doesn’t get to finish it.
--This text refers to an out of print or unavailable edition of this title.
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- Publisher : Gallery / Saga Press (August 31, 2021)
- Publication date : August 31, 2021
- Language : English
- File size : 3677 KB
- Text-to-Speech : Enabled
- Screen Reader : Supported
- Enhanced typesetting : Enabled
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- Word Wise : Enabled
- Sticky notes : On Kindle Scribe
- Print length : 412 pages
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- #65 in Native American Literature (Kindle Store)
- #138 in Native American Literature (Books)
- #148 in U.S. Horror Fiction
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Born and raised in Texas. In Boulder, Colorado now. Forty-nine. Blackfeet. Into werewolves and slashers, zombies and vampires, haunted houses and good stories. Would wear pirate shirts a lot if I could find them. And probably carry some kind of sword. More over at http://demontheory.net or http://twitter.com/@SGJ72
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Not a huge slasher fan, though, and this book read like a master’s thesis on slashers combined with an underlying fiction story. Something like Devil in the White City, but with more confusion on what genre it is and absolutely not real life. That’s not a bad thing, but I’m still not sure if the story is meant to be…real? Or was the entire plot a dissociative state? To be honest, dissociation would make way more sense than what actually happened. Maybe it’s the combo of hyper-realistic character portrayals and an absolutely not realistic, truly-a-slasher-movie, series of events that throws me off. I can’t make the literary and slasher genres jive in my head. They’re like oil and water, not blood and water, and it’s like…not bad? Just confusing. I had to look up outlines of what exactly happened, and it turns out I read it correctly. I was following everything. It just never felt like I was. But maybe that shows how well the author puts the reader in the protagonist’s mindset.
I‘ll chewing on this one for awhile.
The main character, Jade, is a psychologically complicated horror fan who believes she sees the beginnings of the "slasher cycle" in her small town. Told from her point of view, the story allows us to see inside the workings of a slasher story from the perspective of a horror fan well-versed in all the tropes and yet somehow directly involved in the story. Horror fans will find the constant references to slasher movies, new and old, popular and obscure, fascinating and entertaining (though if you're a stickler about spoilers, be warned that the book does give away a few of the endings of said horror movies). But what's even more important is that this format allows us to get a look inside the main character's mind, and she's a fascinatingly complicated person. Deeply flawed (as she admits herself several times throughout the narrative) yet nevertheless likable and often relatable.
The plot has plenty of red herrings and takes plenty of turns, to the point that even a slasher fan like myself (or, indeed, like the main character) can't figure it out until we're meant to, which is a towering accomplishment in a genre that, let's face it, often skews toward the formulaic. Stephen Graham Jones has a talent for exploiting those formulae to subvert our expectations, and it makes this book not only a great horror novel but a thrilling mystery.
It does take a little while for the plot to really get going, but that's not a problem here because the character study that dominates much of the book's length is gripping throughout. However, in an attempt to plug the reader directly into the character's mind, the book is written in a stream of consciousness style that won't be to everyone's taste. I mostly found it stylistically elegant, though even I struggled to keep caught up with a couple of the twists and turns in the main character's inner monologue. Others will likely find the style distracting. Even if you find yourself in that camp, though, you really ought to read the book anyway, because the plot and characters are well worth it.
And the final reveal--or at least part of the final reveal--will send chills down your spine, especially once you start to reflect on some of the earlier passages in light of the new information. This is a psychologically deep (and sometimes devastating) book that belongs in the library of any horror fan.
MY HEART IS A CHAINSAW (2021) is the latest novel by the remarkable Stephen Graham Jones. As he does in his last novel, THE ONLY GOOD INDIANS (2020), Jones brings a beautifully composed, literary style to a novel which is quite dark (with occasional sparkles of humor) and references to Native American life today as well as cultural beliefs with roots in what many would deem to be the supernatural. Lush with vivid description which appeals to one’s various senses, Jones chronicles his story in a leisurely fashion, slowly building suspense and fright, until the latter portion of the novel becomes quite cinematic and frantic in tone and action.
A superb trait of Jones’ writing is his ability to create and animate amazing, diverse characters. Minor characters as well as those principal to the plot are real and believable. Foremost among them is high school senior Jade Daniels, a Blackfeet native. All but alienated from her peers, having taken a leave from school after an attempted suicide, Jade’s closest friends are a history teacher, Mr. Holmes, and the local sheriff, Hardy,—both of whom are ironic choices as friends because Jade is constantly in trouble with both of them—and others as well—until Letha Mondragon appears on the scene, her family planning on moving into one of the mansions across the lake.
Far from being a mere fan, Jade is a walking, talking encyclopedia of slasher film knowledge. She lives and breathes slasher films and wishes she actually was in one. Slasher films are obviously her escape from the grim reality she sees daily. “Horror is [her] religion.” Jade also envisions her new friend, Letha, becoming a “final girl,” the one who nearly always is the last one standing, the survivor in slasher films. As much as she would like to be a “final girl” herself, Jade knows the rules: “Final girls are good, they’re uncomplicated, they have these reserves of courage coiled up inside them, not layer after layer of shame, or guilt.” Jade doesn’t fit the mold. She is far from an innocent much like most “final girls” and Jade also carries within her a dreadful secret.
The papers she writes for Mr. Holmes to receive extra credit so she can still graduate are all devoted to slasher movies. Jones’ omniscient narrator and Jade throughout the novel provide a primer on slasher movies with frequent mention of and discussions about film titles and content. Some of Jones’ references, however, are subtle, but to fans of the genre, they are readily identifiable. However, even dedicated slasher film fans are likely to add titles of films they need to see or re-watch from reading MY HEART IS A CHAINSAW.
With the deaths of Sven and Lotte along with an ever-growing list of victims, Jade has the confirmation she has long perceived—Proofrock is about to become front and center in a real-life slasher film with grisly horrors fast approaching. Adding further validation to Jade’s theory and worse of all—what could be better timing and a more ideal setting for a slasher attack than a Fourth of July celebration in which the entire town participates. It is an annual Proofrock celebration and fast approaching.
As Jade attempts to “train” Letha to become a “final girl,” the two are plunged deeper into a world of terror and personal peril which Jones masterfully relates. The author deftly builds suspense in MY HEART IS A CHAINSAW and if possible, the novel takes on a darker and darker tone, growing deadlier teeth, as it becomes more and macabre. Amazingly, with all of the nightmarishness, Jones utilizes Jade and her at times flippant attitude to add touches of sardonic humor throughout. Jones also makes sure his readers never lose sight of the humanity involved as well as the motivation behind the ever-growing number of deaths in his story. His messages regarding American life today and poverty never become intrusive or moralizing.
Readers who patiently follow the plot of MY HEART IS A CHAINSAW and its growing intensity with anxiety are treated to a tremendous climax during the town’s Independence Day celebration. Ironically, part of the town’s celebration includes a yearly outdoor showing of the movie JAWS, a film Jade explains earlier is a slasher film at heart. Jones pulls out all of the stops as chaos reigns in the water in the projected movie, just as does blood, killing, and a bountiful supply of gore in Indian Lake itself.
True to the tradition of slasher films, the nerve-wracking bedlam which takes place in Indian Lake is followed by an even more potent, personal show-down between good and evil. The conclusion of MY HEART IS A CHAINSAW is tremendously successful and unforgettable.
Stephen Graham Jones follows the story with a most heart-felt and insightful Acknowledgements in which he gives thanks to numerous people for aiding in the completion of MY HEART IS A CHAINSAW and why. He also informs readers the novel was ten years in the making, having undergone a number of total rewrites until a satisfactory story was given birth. The effort put into MY HEART IS A CHAINSAW is most evident throughout. Readers will be pleased.
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Das ist die erste Hälfte brillant erzählt, bis die Geschichte zu einer Art Wendepunkt zumindest in den Augen der anderen Figuren nimmt. Dann wird es ein wenig repetitiv, ich habe mir ein paar mal gedacht "Spul doch einfach drüber." Das letzte Viertel ist dann ein Schlachtfest, bei dem Tierinnereien, abgetrennte Körperteile, aufgespießte Handlungsträger vorherrschen. Und dann, die große Enthüllung und meine Reaktion darauf: Hääääh? Echt, wirklich? Wie schon ein anderer Rezensent gemeint hat: Das Ende ist des Romans nicht würdig. Ich habe ja nichts gegen irreführende Hinweise, aber ein paar der losen Enden zusammen zu fügen, wäre schon sinnvoll gewesen.
Nicht der beste Roman von Jones, nicht einmal der beste über ein final girl, insofern überraschen mich die Preise, die er eingeheimst hat. Aber es ist jedenfalls lesenswert, sofern man schon einmal bei einem Slasher mit der letzten Überlebenden mitgezittert hat.
Just look at the blurb for My Heart is a Chainsaw:
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Jade is one class away from graduating high-school, but that's one class she keeps failing local history. Dragged down by her past, her father and being an outsider, she's composing her epic essay series to save her high-school diploma.
Jade's topic? The unifying theory of slasher films. In her rapidly gentrifying rural lake town, Jade sees the pattern in recent events that only her encyclopedic knowledge of horror cinema could have prepared her for. And with the arrival of the Final Girl, Letha Mondragon, she's convinced an irreversible sequence of events has been set into motion.
As tourists start to go missing, and the tension grows between her community and the celebrity newcomers building their mansions the other side of the Indian Lake, Jade prepares for the killer to rise. She dives deep into the town's history, the tragic deaths than occurred at camp years ago, the missing tourists no one is even sure exist, and the murders starting to happen, searching for the answer.
As the small and peaceful town heads towards catastrophe, it all must come to a head on 4th July, when the town all gathers on the water, where luxury yachts compete with canoes and inflatables, and the final showdown between rich and poor, past and present, townsfolk and celebrities slasher and Final Girl.
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So, we have all the ingredients of an absolute gem here.
Jade Daniels is something of a social misfit, both at school and within her local community. Her dad’s a deadbeat drunken bum; her mother’s absent; nobody gives a damn about her. And to top it all off, she walks the proverbial tightrope by retreating into a blood-tinted haven in which 1980’s horror movies color her perspective. But that’s how she copes, by viewing the world about her and all its pressures through a lens of grime and gore.
Weird eh?
Well, it would be, except for the fact that Jade is a walking library when it comes to the horror genre. She knows everything. All the twists and turns. All the feints. All the clichés and tropes. So much so, that when the everyday drudgery of life is suddenly jarred by a number of unexpected deaths, Jade becomes convinced she can see the link. There’s a serial killer on the loose. A killer who is no doubt preparing for a grand, July 4th slasher-fest finale.
The thing is, nobody believes her when she tries to tell them what’s coming. So how the hell will she convince the authorities that they have to do something?
Well, as I found out, this is a story of two halves. Or more accurately, a story of 99.5% Awesome and 0.5% What the hell?
Let me explain. . .
Jones’ knowledge of the horror genre is encyclopedic, giving his main character an undeniable depth that makes you just want to dive in and help her. Yes, Jade’s a rebel. She’s an oddball who deliberately tests the boundaries of what’s acceptable. But she also has a heart of gold. She wants to help an unwilling and undeserving community from a fate worthy of the most horrendous bloodbath imaginable, and she goes out of her way to do just that. In doing so, she digs herself an ever deepening hole in which her reputation will remain forever buried.
But she doesn’t care. She wants to do the right thing. . .
And nobody believes her, setting in motion a chainsaw of events that are as morbidly hypnotic as they are inevitable and compelling. Jones sprinkles clues throughout his narrative that point toward an apocalyptic climax. And you can literally feel the tension building as we inevitably head toward that climax, until . . . BAM! The story leaves you floundering.
And not in a good way.
As I mentioned above, 99.5 % of the story is a 5-star blitz of excellence. A blitz that suddenly fizzles to a puff of elusive smoke in the last pages that – how can I say this – takes all the wind out of your sails, and all the pzazz out of the fabric of the story.
In fact, I had to re-read the last chapter in its entirety three times. Yes, three times, just to make sure I hadn’t missed something vital in my haste to witness the grand finale.
You’ll see what I mean if you read this story for yourself.
All that work. All that depth and creativity. All those breadcrumbs and slow, pressure cooker buildup . . . for THAT? There was certainly nothing grand about it. And as for a finale? I’m sorry, I’m still waiting.
I note with interest how many other reviewers thought the book was brilliant. And it is. Except for the ending, which I felt was a horror in itself. A shame, as this could easily been one of the best books I’ve read and reviewed in a long time.
Last year I read his ‘The Only Good Indians’ and just loved it. So I was very excited for this novel, especially on learning that its premise was focused on slasher films.
Jade Daniels is a half-Native American teenager living with her dad in Proofrock, a rapidly gentrifying rural lake town in Idaho. She is just one class away from graduating high school and in order to complete her local history course she is composing an epic essay on a unifying theory of slasher films. In it, she is incorporating local folklore and history including ‘Camp Blood’, an abandoned summer camp where a murderous rampage took place fifty years ago.
When Letha Mondragon arrives at school, Jade identifies her as the Final Girl, a key component in slasher films, and is convinced than an irreversible sequence of events has been set into motion.
As tourists go missing and tensions rise between her local community and the wealthy newcomers building mansions on the other side of Indian Lake, Jade is prepared for the killer to rise. She is convinced that it will all come to a head on the 4th July, when the town gathers on the water to celebrate. Of course, there are people in Jade’s life that question whether she is delusional or compensating for more mundane horrors.
This is the second novel that I have read recently that focuses upon the concept of the ‘Final Girl’, a term that I hadn’t encountered before, even if it makes a great deal of sense as a major trope of the slasher genre.
Following a shocking opening chapter this was more a slow burn character-led novel, which then switched gears for its breathtaking, extremely gory conclusion.
Like Jade’s brain the novel was packed with references to slasher films. I caught quite a few, though by no means all.
This was a great deal of fun, as only well written comic horror can be; though its more than ghost masks and big knives and also integrates themes such as alienation, racism, mental health, abuse, and other social issues including the town’s increasing economic divide.
I enjoyed the time I spent with Jade, in many ways a kindred spirit to my teenage self. I was amused by the description of her fascination with Letha Mondragon’s ‘incredible’ hair at their first meeting. Throughout I admired her wry, snarky views on life and her undeniable courage.
In his acknowledgments Stephen Graham Jones writes about the genesis of the novel and his own appreciation of the slasher genre.
Overall, I found ‘My Heart is a Chainsaw’ very much my kind of horror novel. It is well written, literary, and multilayered: addressing serious issues while continuing to honour the traditions of its genre. It is genuinely frightening yet with dark humour and self-awareness running through it.
Stephen Graham Jones has quickly become one of my ‘must read’ authors and I look forward to exploring his back catalogue as well as news of upcoming projects.
Certainly highly recommended for fans of intelligent horror.















