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A CENSORED view of Kurt's personal life.
on March 1, 2012
Yes, you're getting a look at Kurt's personal thoughts and feelings - SOME of them.
We all know that Courtney Love did not let them publish his thoughts about their relationship, his actual feelings towards her, or anything else that she thought would damage her reputation. To be fair, it's understandable that she didn't want people to see what Kurt really thought of her, since she's tried in the past, like when working with Charles R. Cross on the "Heavier Than Heaven" project, to make their relationship seem less damaged than it actually was. Obviously she has lied because of her insecurities and not wanting to seem like Kurt actually DID dislike her as some people close to them claimed he did, in the end at least.
Regardless, it is totally unfair to censor these journals. If you're going to publish them, publish them fully even if they won't say the most flattering things about you, since it's pretty obvious to fans of Cobain that he had to have written more about Courtney (and Frances) than what we're lead to believe. I saw the Journals after borrowing a copy from a friend and I was disgusted because it's obvious a lot of things were left out. I thought the entire time, why am I not hearing more about Courtney? Kurt liked to write about everything important to him, especially things bothering him... so it was a mystery - though an easy one to solve! - as to why there weren't more entires about her. (There were barely a few, if my memory serves me correctly.)
Also, if you're a real fan of Cobain you'll definitely feel kind of sad, guilty and maybe even weird when reading these entires. They show us what Kurt was actually like, but to be honest it isn't always a nice picture. He didn't have a high opinion of himself. There is a lot of raw pain and regret, dislike for himself and others here. Many of the entires are borderline hypomanic in their attack on the people in his life he rightfully disliked, like journalists who unfairly picked his band apart. (And I'm not trying to say that his writings were crazy or illogical - his train of thought can just be difficult to follow at times since his entires are so intense and personal.)
You can really identify with a lot of his darker feelings. He uses great word play throughout the journals and his poetic writing is both interesting and morbid, and subtly genius. But for me personally it felt wrong to be looking through his journals. He was a person who valued privacy above all else and invading his privacy made me feel terrible.