Suzanne Clores gives voice to all the Christian expatriates who find themselves hungering for God and yet cannot find a satisfying meal no matter what religion or spiritual community they break bread with. We first meet Clores when she's an adolescent Catholic girl turned rebel and deserter. By the time she reaches her 20s, though, Clores is beginning to feel the hole in her life where God usually dwells. And so she takes on a familiar quest of the '90s, that of sifting through different beliefs in order to find spirit. At first she explores Wicca, then it's shamanism, then Voodoo, Yoga, Sufism, and Buddhism.
This may sound like a flighty journey, with the narrator drifting from one fad to another. Yet, Clores's honesty makes this read like a respectable quest. In every encounter she finds a souvenir of wisdom. Wicca teaches her to hold up a mirror when searching for God. In yoga Clores learns about the deeper implications of pushing limits. From Buddhism she discovers that mediation is "like love without the grief." In the end, there is no tidy package tied up with strings, no tear-wrenching return to Christianity. Rather, this is a mature memoir that speaks to a common dilemma--how to claim and develop one's spirituality outside of a religious container. --Gail Hudson
Several years ago Clores, a young woman with a fast-track New York life, found herself on the edge of an abyss. Not literally, for the city continued to buzz around her, although she felt as though she were about to career off into nothingness. That moment inaugurated her spiritual crisis and her quest. Since leaving institutional Christianity, after discovering its body- and woman-hating doctrines, she had lived an unquestioning, secular life. But her spirit called out to be nurtured, and finally, she attended to it. Her engaging memoir describes encounters with wicca,
Buddhism, yoga, shamanism, vodun, and Sufism, each of which offered her wisdom and the company of other young female seekers. She ultimately determined that her own path is one of questioning all authority rather than resting in any tradition, but she writes with respect and clarity about the various paths she has followed. Her book will speak to many of her generation and to others as well. Patricia MonaghanCopyright © American Library Association. All rights reserved