From the Author
This is a memoir about my healing journey: a decade of my experiments and experiences as I struggled to come to terms with sexual trauma from my childhood, depression, and suicidal behavior. The documenting of the journey was part of the healing; part of breaking silence, and the resulting work includes some critical writing, some memoir, some journal excerpts and some letters. I had the opportunity to share parts of it in a presentation; it was life-changing: fifty-some odd people in a packed room, listening to my voice, my story...my secrets that I kept for so long that I'd finally come to terms with and healed, and moved into sharing.
And then I came home put that body of writing on the shelf; left it hidden away, where no one could read it except for a few close friends I'd offered it to. But something happened - I got a letter from one of those friends. She'd devoured the whole thing in 3 days, and wrote to thank me for sharing it with her. She said "I am forever changed."
Reading that had a huge impact on me. It took me back to my original motivation for writing the memoir - in part, yes, it was for my own healing. But it was also in part for others...for anyone else on a journey of healing and wholeness. And I hid it away, instead of offering it out to the world, in deference to the old habits of silence and perfectionism.
I kept silence for so many years; the breaking of it is one of my life-long journeys. It seems as if I'm always finding new levels of what "breaking silence" can mean. And one of the habits I developed to protect my silence is my intense perfectionism - if I'm not 100% sure it's flawless, then it's not ready to share, and I can rationalize staying silent a bit longer.
But my life is, among other things, an experiment in radical vulnerability. And I decided a long time ago that I wasn't going to live in silence anymore. And so I'm offering this book, called "Metanoia: Reweaving Psyche in a Tantric Web of Story," to the world. I'm sending it out with grace and love and a sprinkle of magic, and I believe that if my writing can touch even one life, it will be worth the risk of sharing it.
About the Author
Sana Lynn is a writer, artist, mystic, cook and process facilitator who believes deeply in the power of embodiment. She lives in upstate NY with a three-legged cat named Sattva, and spends a lot of time staring at trees, thinking about the nature of the universe, and dancing to music only she can hear. She is passionate about weaving extraordinary consciousness into ordinary moments in the pursuit of full aliveness, and is determined not to take herself - or anyone else - too seriously.