One of the beautiful things about playing music is the gentle reminder of your own mortality that comes with creating something out of nothing, and knowing that the moment you stop playing, it will cease to exist, says Kevin Kendrick, front man and founder of Brooklyn s A Big Yes and a small no. A record is so-called because it is, literally, a record of that moment; so it doesn t cease to exist. 'Mise En Abyme', (literally placed into abyss ), A Big Yes and a small no s third album is, not surprisingly, VERY existential.
Existentialism seems natural for a songwriter whose destiny in a symphony orchestra (he studied at the famed Interlochen Arts Academy and won a full scholarship to college as a classical percussionist) seemed given until he was kidnapped in Colombia in 1997. Terrifying though it was, it gave him clarity and hastened a move to touring as a hip-hop DJ and a vibraphonist with freak-jazz band Fat Mama. Someone who has survived 7 muggings (one of which required facial reconstruction surgery) and only picked up the pen in his late 20s after finally winning a protracted war (he says, battle sounds too easy ) with heroin WHILE studying composition at the prestigious University of Bristol in the U.K. has thought a lot about existence.
When I first got back from Colombia, after being tied up in the jungle by a psycho named Jesus, everything was just roses. But honeymoons always end. The same thing happened after I finally beat heroin. I was in New York, clean, starting a band, and having the time of my life. You can hear that on the early Big Yes records. They re so manic! This is the album where I learn that there s actually so much to appreciate about being alive beyond just appreciating being alive.
And all of that and more is on 'Mise En Abyme.' One of the album s standout tracks, I m Gonna Die One Time, is a haunting confessional about a heroin relapse he had after he moved to NYC in 2005 and the hit he took spiritually as a result of it: I just need someone to atone with / These thoughts here are a lot to be alone with / It s a short ride, to a fast either/or...then I ll die one time and I ain t gonna die no more.
I made a lot of casual references to my addiction on my previous album, Jesus That Looks Terrible On You , with a little wink and a nod, like it was no big deal. This song was the first time I admitted it WAS a big deal, Kevin confesses. After working so hard to get clean, slipping up was devastating to me emotionally.
Stranger Things, a raucous tune roughed up perfectly by revered drummer Joe Russo (who has played in the band since 2008), reminds us why Blurt Magazine said of A Big Yes and a small no, ...like great pop music from Burt Bacharach or Brian Wilson, the virtuosity is hidden and designed to seem effortless. But unlike the earlier songs where cleverness and tongue-in-cheek lyrics were used as a way of keeping the listener at arm s length, here the lyrics are very personal. A walk with Jesus that wasn t by choice / and so much dope it was killing my voice / some cries for help don t even make noise / when the basement floods and the attic fills with toys.
That song basically tells my life story if you listen closely, he laughs. That's why I was so meticulous; why the album took 5 years to make. If you're going to really talk about yourself, you want to make sure you get it right.