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In the months after his father's suicide, it's been tough for sixteen-year-old Aaron Soto to find happiness again—but he's still gunning for it. With the support of his girlfriend Genevieve and his overworked mom, he's slowly remembering what that might feel like. But grief and the smile-shaped scar on his wrist prevent him from forgetting completely.
When Genevieve leaves for a couple of weeks, Aaron spends all his time hanging out with this new guy, Thomas. Aaron's crew notices, and they're not exactly thrilled. But Aaron can't deny the happiness Thomas brings or how Thomas makes him feel safe from himself, despite the tensions their friendship is stirring with his girlfriend and friends. Since Aaron can't stay away from Thomas or turn off his newfound feelings for him, he considers turning to the Leteo Institute's revolutionary memory-alteration procedure to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he truly is.
Why does happiness have to be so hard?
“Silvera managed to leave me smiling after totally breaking my heart. Unforgettable.”
—Becky Albertalli, author of Simon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda
"Adam Silvera explores the inner workings of a painful world and he delivers this with heartfelt honesty and a courageous, confident hand . . . A mesmerizing, unforgettable tour de force."
—John Corey Whaley, National Book Award finalist and author of Where Things Come Back and Noggin
- Print length336 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherSoho Teen
- Publication dateApril 26, 2016
- Grade level9 - 12
- Reading age14 years and up
- Dimensions5.5 x 0.9 x 8.2 inches
- ISBN-101616956771
- ISBN-13978-1616956776
- Lexile measure850
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"A beautiful debut novel [that] manages a delicate knitting of class politics through an ambitious narrative about sexual identity and connection that considers the heavy weight and constructive value of traumatic memory . . . Aaron's Bronx universe [is captured] with a precision that feels at once dreamy and casually reportorial . . . Mandatory reading."
—The New York Times Book Review
“Adam Silvera’s debut novel takes on the delicate balancing act of covering some of life’s weightiest of topics: suicide, coming out, trauma, grief and urban poverty . . . Fully in control of the ambition of its plot, Silvera’s best seller marries the page-turning elements of a sci-fi narrative with incisive commentary on sexuality.”
—Time
“Silvera is a master of creating terrifying near futures that feature technology that's both intriguing and troubling.”
—Shondaland
"Inventive and daring, Silvera's gritty debut kept me turning pages until 2 A.M. His writing crackles with challenging questions, searing and timely."
—Aaron Hartzler, author of Rapture Practice
“Aaron is one of the most interesting, authentic teen narrators I’ve met, and his story is told with incredible courage and unflinching honesty. Silvera managed to leave me smiling after totally breaking my heart. Unforgettable.”
—Becky Albertalli, National Book Award nominee and author of Simon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda
"Adam Silvera explores the inner workings of a painful world and he delivers this with heartfelt honesty and a courageous, confident hand. Combine these with a one-of-a-kind voice and a genius idea, and what you have is a mesmerizing, unforgettable tour de force."
—John Corey Whaley, National Book Award finalist and author of Where Things Come Back and Noggin
“Adam Silvera is a voice missing in YA fiction. The honesty of his words and his ability to tell a story make you realize that we’ve been waiting for him. I’m blown away.”
—Holly Goldberg Sloan, author of Counting by 7s and I'll Be There
"[Silvera] throws in a hugely rewarding, whiplash-worthy twist in the last third of the novel. A bold, inventive, raw look at male sexuality in an irresistible sci-fi package."
—The Globe and Mail
"[An] important addition to speculative fiction for young adults . . . Silvera's tale combines the best features of science fiction with social justice in this engaging read, as Aaron finds a place where he belongs."
—Los Angeles Times
"Heartfelt . . . The futuristic twist, with its poignant repercussions, drives home a memorable, thoroughly contemporary theme: who you are inside is not something that can or should be erased . . . Lose your memories, lose your pain, lose yourself."
—Chicago Tribune
"A gut-wrenching story telling of race and sexuality."
—The Guardian
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—Latina Magazine
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—Good Housekeeping
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"Silvera, like [Benjamin Alire Sáenz], is a beautiful writer. Aaron’s story is heart-wrenching, funny, inspirational, and eye-opening. This is a really special novel from an extremely gifted new writer."
—Bustle
"A compassionate read that you'll want to pass on to everyone you know."
—Metro US
"One of the most heartrending YA reads you’ll ever pick up. And despite the slight sci-fi twist, everything in the novel feels so very real. More Happy Than Not will leave you shaken for days, if not weeks."
—Paste Magazine
“Offers a sci-fi take on ‘conversion therapy,’ and faces the worst of anti-gay bigotry and violence head on.”
—Vulture
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—PopCrush.com
"[Silvera] explores the possibilities of a world where death, and life, can be forgotten, roles rewritten and broken hearts mended. This is a story not just of a young man coming out, but a dramatic and heart-wrenching story of first loves, first heartbreaks, grief and the quest for happiness."
—Shelf Awareness, Starred Review
"For its explorations of sexuality, poverty, and race in the Bronx along with its subversion of the traditional hero’s journey, More Happy Than Not is one of this summer’s most anticipated YA debuts. And if you’re hesitant about its 'YA' distinction, the novel is also an absorbing, thought-provoking, and timely read for people of all ages—perfect for a day on the beach."
—NEXT Magazine
"[A story] of love and expectation and self-discovery, and of declaring yourself to a world that will never give you a soft landing."
—B&N Teen Blog
"A dark and deeply affecting book, More Happy than Not asks young readers to reflect courageously on the value of memory and self."
—The Monitor
"Throughout the story, the reader will find herself wanting to hug Aaron, shake him, and ultimately her heart will break for him. This reporter finished the book as though Aaron’s life depended on it."
—Planet Jackson Hole
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—Bucks County Courier Times
"A mind-blowing story . . . A story about love, and acceptance that will absolutely break your heart."
—PopCrush.com
"This is not like any story you've ever read about self-discovery and acceptance. This is the story about self-discovery and acceptance."
—YA Books Central
"Revolutionary . . . strikingly poignant . . . It is a stunning examination of why we make the choices we make."
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"On top of the fact that More Happy Than Not is a great young adult novel and a great debut novel, this is just a good book. It's heartbreaking, funny and hopeful, and I don't think I'll be able to forget it."
—The Spencer Daily Reporter
"Many readers will identify with Aaron, whether or not they are dealing with issues of orientation . . . Silvera draws wonderfully complex characters and deftly portrays the relationships among them. The true beauty of this book is the way Silvera subtly reveals the plot—readers find Aaron coming out to them in a gradual way."
—VOYA
"Vividly written and intricately plotted: a well-executed twist will cause readers to reassess what they thought knew about Aaron's life . . . Beyond gritty . . . Silvera pulls no punches."
—Publishers Weekly, Starred Review
"A fresh spin on what begins as a fairly standard, if well executed, story of a teen experiencing firsts—first love, first sex, first loss—and struggling with his identity and sexuality . . . Prejudice is illustrated with gut-wrenching brutality and its effects are scarring, but Silvera tempers it with the genuine love and acceptance Aaron receives from a few important friends and family members . . . Ingenious."
—Booklist, Starred Review
"Places a straightforward concept—what if you could erase unwanted memories?—squarely within an honest depiction of the pains of navigating the teen years and upends all expectations for a plot resolution . . . A multifaceted look at some of the more unsettling aspects of human relationships. A brilliantly conceived page-turner."
—Kirkus Reviews, Starred Review
"A gripping read—Silvera skillfully weaves together many divergent young adult themes within an engrossing, intense narrative."
—School Library Journal, Starred Review
"The novel takes an unexpected, complex turn . . . In the end, readers are left with a gripping story about one memorable teen, and if it also leaves them pondering how his life might have been different if various elements had been improved, that is likely the exact takeaway intended."
—The Bulletin of the Center for Children's Books
"[Silvera is] a phenomenal talent and is destined to be a star."
—James Dawson, author of This Book Is Gay
"Raw, emotional, and genuine."
—Nerds and Beyond
"An important new voice in YA literature, in More Happy Than Not Adam Silvera has created a passionate, searing narrative with characters who feel unique and totally familiar. I found myself rooting for Aaron Soto and his family from page one. More Happy Than Not is an unforgettable read."
—Alex London, author ofProxyandGuardian
"A debut as deft as it is sharp, as honest as it is assured, and, above all, extremely moving. Silvera pulls his punches with an energy, daring, and intensity that left me spellbound—and reminded me why I love to read."
—Adele Griffin, author of The Unfinished Life of Addison Stone
“Adam Silvera’s More Happy Than Not is a fantastic magic trick I haven't stopped thinking about since I finished reading and suspect will stay with me for some time to come.”
—Jasmine Warga, author of My Heart and Other Black Holes
"Adam Silvera harnesses a certain reckless energy and unleashes it through the voice of Aaron Soto. Aaron Soto is astounding, full of heart, wit, youthful energy, and a deep desire to be honest about who he is in the world. He sinks into your skin so you can't stop thinking about him even when you aren't reading. High on story, character, and some perfectly executed twists, I loved this book."
—David Arnold, author of Mosquitoland
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The first time I saw a poster on the subway promoting the institute that could make you forget things, I thought it was a marketing campaign for some new science fiction movie. And when I saw the headline “Here Today, Gone Tomorrow!” on the cover of a newspaper, I mistook it as something boring, like the cure for some new flu—I didn’t think they were talking about memories. It rained that weekend, so I hung out with my friends at the Laundromat, chilling in front of the security guard’s old TV. Every single news station was interviewing different representatives of the Leteo Institute to find out more about the “revolutionary science of memory alteration and suppression.”
I called bullshit at the end of each one.
Except now we know the procedure is 100 percent real and 0 percent bullshit because one of our own has gone through it.
That’s what Brendan, my sort of best friend, tells me at least. I know him as much for his honesty as I know Baby Freddy’s mother for her dedication to confirming the gossip that comes her way. (Rumor has it she’s learning basic French because her neighbor down the hall may be having an affair with the married superintendent, and the language barrier is a bit of a block. But, well, that’s gossip too.)
“So Leteo is legit?” I sit down by the sandbox no one plays in because of ringworm.
Brendan paces back and forth, dribbling our friend Deon’s basketball between his legs. “That’s why Kyle and his family bounced,” he says. “Fresh start.”
I don’t even have to ask what he forgot. Kyle’s identical twin brother, Kenneth, was gunned down last December for sleeping with this guy Jordan’s younger sister. Kyle was the one who actually slept with her, though. I know grief just fine, but I can’t imagine living day by day with that—knowing the brother I shared a face and secret language with was ripped out of my life when the bullets were meant for me.
“Well, good luck to him, right?”
“Yeah, sure,” Brendan says.
The usual suspects are outside today. Skinny-Dave and Fat-Dave—who are unrelated, just both named Dave—come out of our local bodega, Good Food’s Store, where I’ve been working part-time for the past couple of months. They’re throwing back quarter juices and potato chips. Baby Freddy glides on by with his new steel orange bike, and I remember when we used to give him shit years ago for still needing training wheels—but the joke is on me since my father never got a chance to teach me to ride at all. Me-Crazy is sitting on the ground, having a conversation with the wall; and everyone else, the adults mainly, are preparing for this weekend’s community event of the year.
Family Day.
This will be the first time we’re celebrating Family Day without Kenneth and Kyle, or Brendan’s parents, or my dad. It’s not like Dad and I were gonna have father–son wheelbarrow races or father–son basketball games; besides, Dad always paired up with my brother, Eric. But father–son anything would’ve been better than this. I can’t imagine it’s any easier for Brendan, even though his parents are both alive. It might be worse, since they’re just out of reach in boxy jail cells for separate crimes: his mother for armed robbery, his father for assaulting a police officer after he was caught dealing meth. Now he lives with his grandfather who is thugging it out at eighty-eight.
“Everyone’s going to expect smiles from us,” I say.
“Everyone can go suck it,” Brendan replies. He pockets his hands, and I bet there’s weed in there; dealing pot has been his way of growing up faster, even though it’s pretty much what landed his dad in prison eight months ago. He checks his watch, struggling to read what the hands are saying. “I have to go meet someone.” He doesn’t even wait for me to respond before he walks off.
He’s a guy of few words, which is why he’s only my sort of best friend. A real best friend would use a lot of words to make you feel somewhat good about your life when you’re thinking about ending it. Like I tried to. Instead, he distanced himself from me because he felt as if he had a duty to hang with the other black kids—which I thought and still think is bullshit.
I miss the time when we took full advantage of summer nights, ignoring curfew so we could lie down on the black mat of the jungle gym and talk about girls and futures too big for us—which always seemed like it might be okay, as long we were stuck here with each other. Now we come outside because of routine, not brotherhood.
It’s just one more thing I have to pretend I’m okay with.
Home is a one-bedroom apartment for the four of us. I mean, three of us. Three.
I share the living room with Eric, who should be home any minute now from his shift at the used video game store on Third Avenue. He’ll power on one of his two gaming consoles, chat with his online friends through a headset, and play until his team bows out around 4 a.m. I bet Mom will try and get him to apply to some colleges. I don’t plan on sticking around for the argument.
There are stacks of unread comics on my side of the room. I bought a lot of them for cheap, like between seventy-five cents and two dollars at my favorite comic shop, without any real intention to read them from start to finish. I just like having a collection to show off whenever one of my more well-off friends comes over. I subscribed to one series, The Dark Alternates, when everyone got into it at school last year, but so far I’ve only gotten around to flipping through them to see if the artists have done anything interesting.
Whenever I really get into a book, I draw my favorite scenes inside them: in World War Z, I drew the Battle of Yonkers where zombies dominated; in The Legend of Sleepy Hollow, I drew the moment we meet the Headless Horseman because that was when I suddenly cared about an otherwise so-so ghost story; and, in Scorpius Hawthorne and the Convict of Abbadon—the third book in my favorite fantasy series about a demonic boy wizard—I drew the monstrous Abbadon being split into two from Scorpius’s Sever Charm.
I haven’t been drawing very much lately.
The shower always takes a few minutes to heat up so I turn it on and go check on my mom. I knock on her bedroom door, and she doesn’t answer. The TV is on, though. When your only living parent isn’t responding, you can’t help but think of that time when your father was found dead in the bathtub—and the possibility that beyond your home’s only bedroom door life as an orphan awaits you. So I go inside.
She’s just waking up from her second nap of the day to an episode of Law & Order. “You okay, Mom?”
“I’m fine, my son.” She rarely calls me Aaron or “my baby” anymore, and while I was never a fan of the latter, especially whenever my friends were around, at least it showed that there was life inside of her. Now she’s just wiped.
Beside her is a half-eaten slice of pizza she asked me to get her from Yolanda’s Pizzeria, the empty cup of coffee I brought her back from Joey’s, and a couple of Leteo pamphlets she picked up on her own. She’s always believed in the procedure, but that means nothing to me since she also believes in Santeria. She puts on her glasses, which conveniently hide the sunken lines around her eyes from her crazy work hours. She’s a social worker at Washington Hospital five days a week, and spends four evenings handling meat at the supermarket for extra cash to keep this tiny roof over our heads.
“You didn’t like the pizza? I can get you something else.”
Mom ignores this. She gets out of bed, tugging at the collar of her sister’s hand-me-down shirt she recently lost enough weight to fit into because of her “Poverty Diet,” and hugs me harder than she has since Dad died. “I wish there was something else we could’ve done.”
“Uh . . .” I hug her back, never knowing what to say when she cries about what Dad did and what I tried to do. I just look at the Leteo pamphlets again. There is something else we could’ve done for him—we just never would’ve been able to afford it. “I should probably shower before the water gets cold again. Sorry.”
She lets me go. “It’s okay, my son.”
I pretend everything is okay as I rush to the bathroom where steam has fogged up the mirror. I quickly undress. But I stop before stepping in because the tub—finally clean after lots of bleach—remains the spot where he took his life. His memories sucker punch my brother and me at every turn: the pen marks on the wall where he measured our height; the king-sized bed where he would flip us while watching the news; the stove where he cooked empanadas for our birthdays. We can’t exactly just
escape these things by moving into a different, bigger apartment. No, we’re stuck here in this place where we have to shake mouse shit out of our shoes and inspect our glasses of soda before drinking in case roaches dived in while our backs were turned.
Our hot water doesn’t run hot for very long so I jump in before I miss my chance.
I rest my head against the wall, the water sliding through my hair and down my back, and I think about all the memories I would want Leteo to bury. They all have to do with living in a post-Dad world. I flip over my wrist and stare at my scar. I can’t believe I was once that guy who carved a smile into his wrist because he couldn’t find happiness, that guy who thought he would find it in death. No matter what drove my dad to kill himself—his tough upbringing in a home with eight older brothers, or his job at the infamous post office up the block, or any one of a million reasons—I have to push ahead with the people who don’t take the easy way out, who love me enough to stay alive even when life sucks.
I trace the smiling scar, left to right and right to left, happy to have it as a reminder not to be such a dumbass again.
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- Publisher : Soho Teen; Reprint edition (April 26, 2016)
- Language : English
- Paperback : 336 pages
- ISBN-10 : 1616956771
- ISBN-13 : 978-1616956776
- Reading age : 14 years and up
- Lexile measure : 850
- Grade level : 9 - 12
- Item Weight : 11.2 ounces
- Dimensions : 5.5 x 0.9 x 8.2 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #761,843 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
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Adam Silvera is the #1 New York Times bestselling author of THEY BOTH DIE AT THE END, MORE HAPPY THAN NOT, HISTORY IS ALL YOU LEFT ME, INFINITY SON and INFINITY REAPER. He has also co-written WHAT IF IT'S US and HERE'S TO US with Becky Albertalli. He was born and raised in the Bronx and now lives in Los Angeles. He is tall for no reason.
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It started out innocuous enough following Aaron Soto as he navigated his day to day life in the Bronx after losing his father to suicide. It was definitely already sad because of that but not devastatingly so. The story followed Aaron as his summer began and he met a new friend. Their blossoming relationship led to him beginning to have feelings for said friend, which upends his relationships with his girlfriend and his group of friends. He decided that using a new procedure to remove memories of that part of him would solve his problems and allow him to live a 'normal' straight life. Then the twist happened and my heart absolutely shattered. The rest of the book just twisted the knife over and over again, and the original ending left me speechless. The supplemental ending was a nice touch that provided an update on the main characters and left things on a slightly happier note.
The characters and environment were both brilliantly executed. It felt like I was dropped on the streets of the Bronx, and all of the main characters behaved like I would imagine real teens would act in a similar situation. Many of the characters exhibited the identity confusion so common in this age range, and I particularly enjoyed reading about how Thomas approached this iconic conflict of adolescence. The somewhat sci fi element of the memory-altering procedure was also interesting and added an intriguing mechanism by which to explore some deep themes. However, the author was able to use it skillfully without needing to include drawn out technical explanations, which I appreciated as I think it would have just distracted from the overall narrative.
So many interesting themes and ideas were explored in this book, it will be impossible to go over them all here. Ultimately, it was a book about learning to accept oneself despite the opinions of others and the necessity of finding happiness within the bad things that may happen in life. One of the key takeaways of this book was the message that bad things will inevitably happen to every single person but how we respond to them is the determining factor in our happiness. It also illustrated that attempting to erase, change, or bury who we are or the bad things that happen to us does nothing to help us move forward but instead keeps us trapped in the past. Furthermore, this story pointed out the healing power of acceptance, friendship, and love while also demonstrating the devastating psychological impacts of toxic masculinity, homophobia, and poverty.
More Happy Than Not was a book that broke my heart but also gave me a great deal of hope. If the main character could not only survive his ordeals but find happiness within them, there is no reason I, or anyone else, cannot do the same. I recommend it for everyone as it teaches an important lesson, but I think anyone who has trouble reading about death, suicide, or extreme homophobia should approach this book with caution. The impact of this book on me is hard to put into words, but I can't think of another book that made me feel so much in such a short period of time. It was a book I will never be able to forget, and I foresee reading it again multiple times in the future. Therefore, I rate this book 5 out of 5 stars.
“Here Today, Gone Tomorrow! Suffering from unwanted memories? Call the Leteo Institute at 1-800--I-Forget to learn more about our cutting-edge memory-relief procedure!”
This past year hasn’t exactly been easy for Aaron Soto. He is still dealing with the fall out from his father’s suicide and his own suicide attempt that followed it. Things in the neighborhood are changing and it is hard to know where to fit himself in the changing landscape. With his girlfriend, Genevieve, away at art camp for the summer, he might have found himself slipping back into old patterns of unhappiness, but he meets Thomas, who quickly becomes his new best friend, and possibly the answer to where he belongs. That is until Aaron starts to realize there is a side of himself that will make it impossible for him to be truly happy, and he decides he is willing to do anything to scrub that part of him out, even if it means changing who he is.
This is one of those stories where the author tries to make you believe that they are going to tell you one kind of story, and then half-way through you realize they have been telling a totally different kind of story. Of course, if you are used to the device at all, you can tell what is happening before the reveal, but it is still rewarding when it delivers.
And this book has a hell of a one-two gut punch.
Adam Silvera’s near-future rendering of the race, class, and sexual-identity politics of this Bronx neighborhood is a perfect canvas for Aaron Soto’s voyage of heart rending mistakes and consequences. It is a story of love, friendship, and trauma… and of self-discovery at great personal cost.
I became helplessly engrossed in this book. It is one of those books that stays with you for a while, sitting on your chest and weighing on your mind. Do you remember the way you felt the first time you read the last page of Flowers for Algernon? I mean that was probably at least 22 years ago in my case, but I still remember that feeling, and it was the same feeling when I finished this book. (Seriously, I just assume, as a matter of course, that everyone has read and been deeply affected by Flowers for Algernon. If not… spoiler alert: it’s kind of a bummer.)
Aaron is a fascinating character, because he is confused, depressed, and angry, like so many teenagers are… but he is also a pot whose contents have settled to the bottom and Silvera, with a careful hand, is slowly stirring those things back up to the surface, revealing them, not just to the reader, but to Aaron as well.
It is a powerful debut novel.
And, if you can’t tell, I recommend it. I recommend it to Sci-fi fans, because the Leteo plot line is so delicately woven in. I recommend it to Young Adult Fiction fans, because I think it makes an important addition to this genre, particularly in the growing collection of coming out stories now becoming available. I recommend it to introspective fiction fans, who like to be made to think about things long after they finish them… because if you are like me… you will. I think you should read this book.
Okay, ready at last to throw this book onto my Pride-Book-Review-Project Scales.
On the first scale, my Queer Counterculture Visibility Scale, which I invented to quantify how much a book shed light onto less visible parts of the community, I really think this book does well. This book is about intersecting identities, no doubt. Characters are dealing with the cross section of race, class, and sexuality and facing the limitations of community and family when you find that you don’t fit the exact mold of the social group that has always insulated and supported you from the rest of the world. It is also a book that deals head on with depression and the complicated nature of grief. Easily:
4 out of 5 stars
On the second scale, The Genre Expectation Scale, this book also does well. I really like the way Adam Silvera used some classic sci-fi devices to explore themes of identity. And, especially, for a debut novel, I think he had a steady hand in how and when he revealed the machinations of his story. It is a solid Young Adult story and I think it delivered what he offered and then some.
4.5 out of 5 stars
In its Deluxe Edition, Adam Silvera didn’t want to leave his main character, Aaron Soto, broken and in a dark and hopeless place. This edition has much more happy than not ending. Do I like it better? I love calmness, hope, and the promise of a happier life for Aaron in an added chapter, but I also empathized with him in the original version when I cried with him in his dark place of memory loss.
Both versions have their qualities, and it depends on you whether you prefer happy endings over “tragedies.” All I can say is that I relived the whole story one more time, that there were tears in my throat again. Except, this time, there were happy tears too.
In case you didn’t read it, this is my original review. It is also available on my website.
Savagely beautiful and painfully moving. Silvera shows little mercy to his characters and his readers while he guides them on this sad quest for happiness.
How can so much love shed so many tears?
The best debut possible!
I won’t forget you.
Bernard Jan
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I got so sucked into this book and these characters! This was a fantastic story and I couldn't stop telling everyone I knew about it, there came a part in the book where I couldn't believe what I'd just read and I sat for a minute in shock! I love when a book can get you so wrapped up into it, however the end wasn't 100% how I would have loved it to end and the first 50 pages were a little bit hard for me to get into the book hense the 4.5 instead of a full 5 stars but I loved it and recommend it to everyone! A fantastic story about discovering who you are, I went straight ahead and ordered another book by Adam Silvera after finishing this one!



