My Ladybird Story: The growing pains of a Transgender Paperback – September 11, 2015
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This story is fiction but depicts the process of realization, identification and transition to the real self through gender reassignment with so much empathy and understanding as if the author experienced that change first hand. It is a story about feelings and internal conversations: “ I want to wake up and be myself”: transformed. Those are the sensations of John, wanting to become the real person meant to be.
The process of transition has many facets: biological, social, psychological and personal. One has to make peace with it and embrace yourself when sharp shards of pain is experienced when bullied and challenged to be “ dragged out of yourself – into a whole new person, and have a new beginning, identity, without a label that breeds of prejudice.
Falling in love, forgiving and forgetting the hurt, hate, aversion, envy and sorrow felt, you pick up all the broken pieces, to give way to a transitioning life. You want a clean slate and letting go of relationships and confusion, you search for options, have secretive feelings, sometimes misplaced.
Sometimes you pretended to be free and happy but most of the time, you want closeness that is so hard to get. You cannot shut yourself in a box and run the risk of not being able to unlock the box again. You take a chance to become the real you and if fate plays your lucky card ” slowly pieces formed, coming together around the core like filings to a magnet.”
This book is valuable for persons, family and friends of a transitioning individual. The process is clearly described in the first person and gives credibility to real facts, especially the big role supporting family and loved ones play. As outsider I gained much knowledge and found love is much more, free from a gender classification which puts a person in a box.
In such a self- discovery process, you experience many unknown emotions to the real self, all at the same time. At first John couldn’t separate one from the other. “This, his heart cried out, this is wrong. It’s all wrong. Everything’s wrong. This body wasn’t his— why did he care who the hell saw it? It didn’t belong to him. Why should things be this way? It was all so unfair. When he thought of the way Aureus moved , the way she looked so completely comfortable in herself, in her body, her half nudity, he wanted to cry... He did cry . Hot tears streamed down his face. What was he going to do? He couldn’t live like this. He couldn’t keep pretending. It was all too much, too heavy. He needed something, needed help, but didn’t know who he was supposed to ask or what anyone could do. He hated himself.”
John suffered deep discontent, dark days” when he couldn’t open his door to the world.” Why live a lie? “If he could be born again..... start over in a new body,” and start a new life.
The feelings of endless fragility, shame, guilt, anxiety, looking for answers to the question: ”Who am I ?” while suffocating under the testosterone in his fight to hide his “freakyness”, is heartfelt.
In his head, in his heart, in his soul, he was not a man. John was sure his body was absolutely wrong. With assistance, he had to work on the process to find the genuine person he instinctively was. The reader becomes determined to support John in his quest to make himself visible and to come out of his shell with calmness, comfort and peace. A soul touching book well written.
11 January 2016
This is a story about a friendship, about self-discovery, and about love. I was completely engrossed in John’s story. One of the things I appreciated most is the way the author treated the subject and the characters with dignity and respect. There is no condemnation here of anybody’s lifestyle. I especially appreciated how the author handled the response of John’s parents to his revelation. John was able to give his parents the space and time they needed to wrap their heads around this dramatic change. Overall, this is a great story, about a hard subject that is presented with great care and grace.
Who is this book appropriate for?: Anyone who has an interest in transgender issues would enjoy this one. I also think that this would be a good choice for a reader who would like to gain some understanding of the issue.
What ages is this book appropriate for?: I wouldn’t go younger than a mature teenager with this one due to the adult theme.
Alinefromabook’s recommendation: THUMBS-UP! Issues aside, this is a great story!
Top international reviews
The story is based around John who doesn't fit in at all and discovers over time that it's because he was born in the wrong body and there the journey begins in his transformation into Joyce, with the help of his best friend Aureus and very understanding brother.
The story follows the ups and downs of John and Joyce's life and their quest to find happiness and love.
This is a truely lovely book and I felt I knew the characters well and was drawn into johns plight but ultimately this is a love story that I felt definately delivered.