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The Road Home: A Light in the Darkness Paperback – July 31, 2015
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The Road Home: A Light In The Darkness is a gift that was given to me. An odd way, perhaps, to talk about the book I have been working on (or not) for the last twenty years. It is the story of my personal journey from Darkness into Light, from being absolutely no one in particular--a lonely, depressed single mother with a history of abuse--to becomingexactly the same person but reborn into a different consciousness of not only myself but also the Universe. In one sense this book is the story of my personal deliverance out of suffering and desolation. But that is not the heart of my book.
On December 10, 1994, I had a remarkable experience. I was in therapy, deep in the darkness of terrible memories from childhood. I was as far from any sense of the Divine as I would have thought possible, when suddenly a delicate, rhythmic, otherworldly vibration of light began to pulsate in my forehead. Love and life-giving energy vibrated down my throat and into my heart. Golden light filled me. Then the vibration enveloped me from the outside, rippling in huge waves around my entire body. I heard this message,
"There is a God. This is God and this is how you know God." The same voice said,
"Surrender totally. Surrender everything-- your pain, your practice, your children, your preconceptions of how things should be and what should happen.Surrender your life. Give it to God." Golden light shone down from a point inside the top of my head. Then "Nothing is yours. This is how you find happiness. I'm showing you the Way. In this moment, it is golden and completely unobstructed. You will carve the Way out of the stones and dirt of real life experience. It will not always look golden, but remember this. Don't ever look at life the same way again. Make Surrender your practice.
God spoke to me. Although I had prayed for God's help, I was totally unprepared to have that prayer answered. I believed in the God within, but I never actually thought I would find it. On that day, my personal journey unexpectedly became the doorway into another realm. Three months later this voice of God returned and wrote through my hand as I was writing in my journal. After that, all I had to do was ask a question and God and Soul would be there immediately with answers that blew open my "educated" East Coast mind and the limited pictures of "healing" I had hoped to achieve. "They" had something to say that went way beyond my personal trials and challenges. They had something to say to all of us human beings about what we are doing here in human form, what the Soul purpose is behind all our struggles, and how we can participate in Return to Oneness through the transformation of the exact challenges we face.
As miraculous as it was to hear messages from a Divine Source, it was also very frightening. The fear was that I would be seen as either self-aggrandizing or a little nuts. Who does she think she is? How presumptuous! All I can tell you is that everything in this book is much larger and more universal than anything Phyllis Leavitt is capable of, much more Divinely Loving and Wise than anything Phyllis Leavitt could or would ever want to take credit for herself.
I was 47 at the time the writing began. I had lived all my life with an unidentifiable pain that would not let me go. I could be sitting in your living room, smiling and having a respectable conversation, but just under my sipping-coffee-with-you
God's Light did not "rescue" me from anything lying in my path, but even so, I was changed forever. I was set on a road. I call it the Road Home.
It was an unusual miracle. My Light not only lit up the Darkness I was living in, it wanted to tell me about it. It walked me through the very same landscape I had been clawing my way through in the dark AGAIN, but this time with the consciousness of my Soul as a loving guide. I had already done many years of therapy. I thought I had gone as far as I could go into the underworld of myself, but I was taken down once more while the Light was held steadily for me, even when I lost my faith, again and again.
God wanted me to understand the nature of what we call Darkness from its Divine point of view. Darkness was not considered an obstacle to Light or that which man has created in defiance of God. God did not judge the Darkness or anything it revealed as evil, stupid or sinful, any more than you would call the rock you stumbled over in the dark a sign of your unworthiness, failure or a fall from grace. Rather, I was very lovingly shown that the trials we face as we strive to answer our deepest callings are the exact raw materialsneeded for the Road Home to Oneness, that what we consider Darkness can be experienced as the doorway to Light. I was shown that the very pain we try so hard to deny, judge or "fix" is the FOOD we eat for the journey, that our greatest difficulties are exactly what we came here, AT OUR OWN SOUL'S BIDDING, to transform into Light.
I don't live in that darkness anymore but it's not because I'm special or more worthy or because I have "arrived." My journey, you will see, has been unbearably imperfect, achingly human, and still is. I am a student of what was shared with me, not a master in any way. And that may be one of the greatest blessings of all. The needs for perfection, self-denial, strict adherence to dogma or beliefs of any kind, are not requirements on the road I took. They are actually obstacles.
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“Surrender totally. Surrender everything-- your pain, your practice, your children, your preconceptions of how things should be and what should happen
Pain is the signal that Love is needed. It is as simple as that. Pain calls you to love. Embrace every experience. Every experience is sent to you for a reason. Every reason ends with Love. “
“To be both an “individual entity” and not individual in the same moment? The individual entity needs love. The not individual is a part of love and needs nothing except to open and open. The rest is done for you, through you, and with you as you allow it.”
“The essential nature of all aspects of the ego is to be at war with itself. In your unconsciousness, you are caught in that trap over and over again. You feel something and don’t want to feel it, know something and don’t want to know it, see something and don’t want to see it,.”
“We are a state of consciousness. You are a state of consciousness. This is very difficult to understand because you have learned to think concretely in this type of lifetime. We are saying that concrete thinking is only one very small aspect of what the human brain is capable of. Try to see this so that you can begin to work with your brain to perform other functions..”
“Therefore, you are to no longer see Love as the other side of Hate. There is no other side of LOVE. Love, which brought this world into being and which will, in time, take it out of being, is beyond the reach of Hate. Hate is one half of a Duality in ego consciousness, a condition of the Horizontal Plane, a force to be contended with. LOVE IS GOD. THIS IS THE BIG PICTURE. YOU MUST KEEP THIS WITH YOU AS YOU WORK on the small picture”
“ Dying is a Divine process; Death is a Divine state of being. Death, more exactly, is only a moment in the unending cycle of Creation of the Divine. Birth and Death are One. Dying truly is a cause for celebration. It is the celebration of the end of something that no longer needs to be. So little understood yet so profound.”