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Since I Laid My Burden Down Paperback – June 13, 2017
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Whiting Award winner Brontez Purnell’s debut novel is an uninhibited portrait of growing up gay in 1980s Alabama: exploring art and sex with “more layered insight than the page count should allow” (Hanif Abdurraqib, MTV News).
DeShawn lives a high, creative, and promiscuous life in San Francisco. But when he’s called back to his cramped Alabama hometown for his uncle’s funeral, he’s hit by flashbacks of handsome, doomed neighbors and sweltering Sunday services. Amidst prickly reminders of his childhood, DeShawn ponders family, church, and the men in his life, prompting the question: Who deserves love?
A modern American classic, Since I Laid My Burden Down is a raw and searing look into the intersections of memory, Blackness, and queerness.
"An antidote to the rigamarole of gay lit." —Mask Magazine
"Slim yet potently realized, with a lot to ponder." —The Bay Area Reporter
“Since I Laid My Burden Down has a fearless (sometimes reckless) humor as Brontez Purnell interrogates what it means to be black, male, queer; a son, an uncle, a lover; Southern, punk, and human. An emotional tightrope walk of a book and an important American story rarely, if ever, told.” —Michelle Tea, author of Black Wave
- Print length208 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherAmethyst Editions
- Publication dateJune 13, 2017
- Dimensions4.8 x 0.5 x 8 inches
- ISBN-101558614311
- ISBN-13978-1558614314
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"More layered insight than the page count should allow." —MTV News
"A rich tapestry of intense character study." —Art in America magazine
"One of the most unflinching and bone-true things you’ll read all year." —Fiction Advocate
"An antidote to the rigamarole of gay lit." —Mask magazine
"A complex. . .look at one man’s experience of being black, queer, smart, soft, tough, artistic, and constantly in motion between rural and urban cultures." —Kirkus Reviews
"Performance artist Purnell beautifully captures a personality through introspection and memory in this slim novel. . . . a compelling portrait of a particular disaffected kind of gay youth caught between religion, culture, and desire." —Publishers Weekly
“It’s a true novel, chaptered, and bound, that not only holds its own as queer literature, with its unapologetically misanthropic narrative, but also expands upon it.” —San Francisco Chronicle
"Slim yet potently realized, with a lot to ponder." —The Bay Area Reporter
"An artist of many talents, from writing to dance, Purnell shows in his debut novel a strong control of language coupled with a willingness to take risks." —Rain Taxi
"Told like a punk rock Capote, this story of returning home has personality for days."—BKLYN BookMatch: Our 50 Favorite Books from 2017
“This is the book you fall asleep reading and wake up excited to get back to. A Cult Masterpiece with so many memorable characters and phrases you’ll want to grab strangers and read paragraphs to them.” —Kathleen Hanna
“I have always admired Brontez Purnell’s writing, and this novel is his greatest achievement yet. Purnell is never careful, never evasive. He hits you with honesty, passion, painful humor and never stops.” —Mike Albo, author of Hornitio
“Brontez Purnell is foul-mouthed and evil. Be warned: this book will make you cackle out loud like you've got the Devil inside you then it will break your heart. Be careful where you read it. BUT DO READ IT.” —Justin Vivian Bond
“Since I Laid My Burden Down is a dance between grit and eloquence. With epic detail and crude truth, Brontez Purnell reminds us that the lessons of survival and love are learned through life's most fucked-up circumstances. Building bridges between tradition, ancestry, Southern punk, blackness and queerness, Brontez has written a story that helps us laugh, grieve, and breathe." —Cristy C. Road, author of Spit and Passion
“Since I Laid My Burden Down has a fearless (sometimes reckless) humor as Brontez Purnell interrogates what it means to be black, male, queer; a son, an uncle, a lover; Southern, punk, and human. An emotional tightrope walk of a book and an important American story rarely, if ever, told.” —Michelle Tea, author of Black Wave
About the Author
He was a guest curator for the Berkeley Art Museum's L@TE program in 2012, awarded an invitation to the 2012 Radar Lab queer arts summer residency, honored by Out Magazine's 2012 Hot 100 List and 2013 Most Eligible Bachelors List, and most recently won the 2014 SF Bay Guardian's Goldie for Performance/Music. His previous books include one graphic novel (with illustrator Janelle Hessig) The Cruising Diaries (Gimme Action), and a novella Johnny Would You Love Me (if My Dick Were Bigger) (Rudos and Rubes).
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- Publisher : Amethyst Editions (June 13, 2017)
- Language : English
- Paperback : 208 pages
- ISBN-10 : 1558614311
- ISBN-13 : 978-1558614314
- Item Weight : 6.4 ounces
- Dimensions : 4.8 x 0.5 x 8 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #1,341,768 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
- #302 in LGBTQ+ Family Life Fiction (Books)
- #6,315 in Small Town & Rural Fiction (Books)
- #17,321 in Family Life Fiction (Books)
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Deshawn is an artist living in San Francisco. He returns to Alabama for a funeral, and flashes of his life between the two spaces appear. Family and lovers enter the narrative and disappear again. The pace is fast, though there is less emphasis on plot than on character and how these seemingly contradictory identities play out in the central character. The time frame and setting shift mostly between Alabama and San Francisco.
I loved the honesty that imbues Purnell’s writing about queer sexuality. It’s raw, it’s honest, it’s sexy. It doesn’t sanitize or uncomplicate itself for the hetero gaze. Nor does Purnell seem to uncomplicate blackness for a white gaze. I’m sure that others can speak more eloquently to that than I can.
Since I Laid My Burden Down is a highly effective book and one of my favorite books written in the past few years. I highly recommend it.







