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About Siola Retsam
I grew up in the Midwest in the 70's and 80's. At twelve I started stealing my parents' Hustlers, Penthouses, and adult-themed books. This is where I truly learned about sexuality in all its colors and shades.
Occasionally BDSM themes or situations would arise. Someone would get tied up, spanked, or humiliated. It didn't matter to me if the dom or sub was male or female. I didn't care if it was one-on-one or a group setting. And I didn't care if it was hetero, bi, or homosexual. I was hooked.
In high school I experimented a little with BDSM. I had no sense of limits or how to secure trust. I just knew that I was a dom and a sadist who also enjoyed a loving and romantic side. It was hard to reconsile being a fun-loving and respectful lover and also an inflictor of pain.
I joined the military and traveled the world. I saw women in Thailand pop live eels and birds out of themselves while performing on stage. I saw live sex shows and experienced a different view of sex than what the American Midwest had to offer.
I got married after Desert Storm mostly out of fear. I loved my wife, and we had sex I still dream about. But I was never meant to be with just one partner, and I wasn't meant to have only plain vanilla sex. After having three children the marriage fell apart.
After my divorce I went back to exploring alternative forms of sexual expression. My fantasies and experiences began to build into a spiritual code. I continued to grapple with the themes of respect and BDSM. The benefit of age has been that I can now embrace the idea that some people want pain and some people want to give it to them. Healthy people will respect a person's right to act in conformity with their nature, so long as that person doesn't express their nature in ways destructive to themselves or others.
As vague as that sounds, I can sum it up like this--live and let live. I like to inflict pain as much as I like romantic sex. I'm a dominant male, and I set the tone. However, I'm not a misogynist. I respect my partner. What matters is compatibility.
My fictional world can't just be about creating a masturbatory experience for the reader. The sex is a device to move the story along. Sex is a huge part of life. It is integral to our intimate relationships, so I wanted to write about how we all work through our inner conflicts, explore our curiosities, and progress in our relationships.
The world we live in is complex, and dynamics are largely about maintaining the status quo. But not everyone wants to be a stay-at-home mother or a career-driven patriarch. I wanted to write about people courageous enough to accept themselves as they were. The philosophy of The Life provides a framework for discussion on misogyny vs feminism or the unorthodox vs the traditional.
I believe that erotica can be deep and spiritual. It can touch on our rights to self-expression through alternative means. It can offer a message of self-acceptance while embracing acceptance for the other side of the coin. Can a woman be a submissive to a dominant male and still be a feminist? Is it automatic that he's a misogynist?
I also think it's important that erotica not pigeonhole BDSM or other forms of kink. These are vibrant and diversified dynamics and our writing shouldn't reflect the shallow view of these relationships that people in the general public have. I try to highlight the importance of a dom's job in knowing their sub's needs. A sub is trying to live out their nature to its fullest. A dom has a high responsibility to develop sessions around the sub's growth. Shallow relationships exist, to be certain, but they aren't interesting. I can't write mere smut for smut's sake.
Stories From The Life is a series based on the adherents to a BDSM philosophy known as The Life. In this series, The Life, as a philosophy, was created by a Polish BDSM enthusiast named Pavel Bór and his closest disciples. It's a business. Master Bór inherited his South Polish castle complex from a line of sex slave trainers. During World War II, his grandfather was a Nazi collaborator who trained sex slaves for high ranking German officials until the Russians drove the Nazis out. Grandfather Bór was then enlisted to engage his talents for the USSR. Master Bór's father took over the family business and aided the USSR and other nefarious groups in the sex slave industry in an attempt to keep the ancestral lands from confiscation.
Right before the fall of Communism, Pavel took over. He saw that the world had changed greatly. The sexual slave trade was being prosecuted in courts around the world. In an attempt to protect the family business he transformed the training of sex slaves into a legitimate business. He utilized his family's talents and reputation to reinvent his services.
Master Phil, her cruel companion, watches in silence with cold eyes as she, his no-limits sub, willingly accepts the imaginative evils that no less than five Masters and Mistresses visit upon her. During the ordeal, Sally discovers the limits of her endurance under the rigors of the paddle, flog, and penetrative machine.
Can this big, beautiful woman take both the physical and mental strain as each cruel dom and dominatrix threaten everything from prolonged pain, to death, and worse? She is guided by her nature and motivated by her love for her Master, but will it be enough to prove she belongs with the elite?
This exciting follow up to The Torment of Sally the Sow will thrill both fans of the original story and new readers alike. You don't have to have read the first book to understand this one, but read it if you want to see how Sally first went from just a poor, local woman to willing plaything of the Palm Springs elite.
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But she would have to. Master Philip demanded it, and she has sworn to do anything he asked, no matter how humiliating.
Sally is no stranger to pain and humiliation—the life of a lonely fat woman is tough. So when Phillip introduces her to a new world of public degradation, food-based kink, and mind-warping pain, she relishes her master's torment as he stretches and uses her in every way. She welcomes the opportunity to be his good little piggy—even if it costs her everything she has left…
Inspiration strikes one morning, and Ben designs a competition for his two live-in companions--three events, pitting one against the other, for rewards, and marks of honor.
But when Master Ben puts these close friends and lovers into this adversarial position, the usually demure and submissive women become aggressive opponents ready to win their Master's favor. They stop at nothing, for they know Ben's cruelty knows no limits, and will do anything to avoid the terrible punishment he inflicts upon the loser.
Ben already had one live-in sub who met nearly all his needs, except one. One sub simply wasn't enough for him, even if she was naked and at his beck-and-call 24/7, but when Dee joins their household in an attempt to prove she can handle all the rigors of Ben's dominance, Ben's tests of her submission push her to the brink. But Ben has to know—does Dee have what it takes to be his… new sub?
Sonny's sub, wanting to make amends, agrees to let Master G.T. and his hot, skinny sub, Bonny, use and abuse her fat, BBW body any way they may desire.
They take her back to their hotel room and begin to school her as well, just in a far more hands-on fashion!
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Matty can't get enough of her Master's attention. Driven by her passion to be used by him, she begs to live at his feet. What she didn't expect was that she would be practically ignored to the point of painful neglect. The limits of her endurance are tested as she spends long hours confined in sensory deprivation where she discovers just how bad she wants to live under her Master's heel.
A LONG WALK IN THE MALL
This submissive wants to discover the depths of her soul through the arts of pain and pleasure. Frank has taken her there so many times, but she wants it more often. To prove she can handle a life lived with her Dom, he puts her through a rigorous walk in the mall. Diapered, her bladder and bottom under heavy pressure, she rides the heights of ecstasy through humiliation and pain.
A DAY AT THE OFFICE
If high paid attorney Andrew wants to live with his dominatrix, he'll have to prove he can handle her cruelty—even at the office. Diapered, he is denied the basic human comforts of a toilet. And when his diapers are full, he must endure her dehumanizing changing just so he can go back to work.
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She loved sex so much that the idea of being with just one person was unthinkable, but she hated the way society would judge her for that. She began to search for her own type of people--people for whom sex was a way to bond with each other and who held no jealousy or required so-called “fidelity.”
Kim’s journey took a twist when she found her ideal mate in Robert, and at first she was torn between her need for multiple partners and the need to have him in her life. While they were sorting this out, though, they had a lot of fun because, though Rob's day job is being a tough, streetwise cop, he secretly enjoys medically-induced humiliation, degradation, and pain. Kim learned that she's also a dominatrix!
Their love for each other and passion for “playing doctor” was infectious, so infectious that Kim’s friend, Dr. Jessica, decided she simply must join in the fun. While vacationing together in the tropical paradise of Hawaii, they treat Robert to a double-dose of doctor punishment.
But there’s trouble brewing in the tropics too. A psychopath is terrorizing the local prostitutes, who happen to be Kim and Jessica’s patients. Can Robert protect his doctors from a madman bent on his evil scheme to brutalize?
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She pushes the limit with more than just lots of liaisons–she also experiments with pain as a tool for heightened release. Once a week she steps out of her safe world of parties and plain vanilla fun and visits a dom to learn just where the line is between pain and pleasure. The only older man in her life, her dom, the sadist, Master Allen, is more than happy to teach her, but in each session he extracts a heavier and heavier price.
In this session, Cynthia is led deep into her inner darkness and discovers a capacity for service to her dom she never knew was possible. In the icy hell of Master Allen’s dungeon, Cynthia must decide if she will abandon her life, just as it’s getting started, to live at her Master’s feet, or continue only as his occasional plaything.
Cynthia’s Icy Day In Hell is the next installment of sessions from inside the ultra secretive elite society known as “The Life,” by the Master of Darkness, Siola Retsam. It is sure to awaken something dark inside any reader.
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For Vickie, being born into wealth and privilege was a curse. The cold, loveless New York penthouse her parents raised her in left the physically awkward, but highly competitive Vickie focused on receiving what her father's money could never provide her—his love and affection.
Driven to get her father's approval, the skinny, plain-faced Vickie rejects her artistic ambitions to follow in her father's footsteps in the cutthroat world of international business. But her art isn't the only thing she'd rejected, and once she's away at college her "father issues" lead her to her professor's bed, where he gives her an adult education. Vickie, the avid student, quickly learns the ways of sexuality through pleasure, pain, humiliation... and the heartbreak of infidelity.
When the heartbroken Vickie enters a competitive intern pool, she soon finds out that this men's club is no place for a woman—unless you're the talented and beautiful Mimi. Driven to succeed and prove her value to her father, Vickie befriends Mimi to learn the secret to her success.
But when Mimi agrees to teach Vickie how to find her inner specialness, she's shocked to find out that Mimi is an adherent of The Life, and a dominatrix. Soon, Mimi helps Vickie confront her inner demons through her special brand of "therapy," comprised of feminine sensuality, pleasure, pain, and submission.
But will Vickie obtain the inner strength she needs to handle the painful truth about her father?
You don't have to have read the Mistress Mimi Chronicles to enjoy this prequel, but you'll surely be hooked on Mimi once you read this latest installment from the Master of Domination and submission.
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Just what is it about Big, Beautiful Women? Here are three letters from members of the kink community, each one about two submissive BBW's having their very first lesbian experience under the guidance of their Master.
Each dom has his own ideas of fun ways to humiliate or make his subs squeal in pleasure, like rolly-polly oil-wrestling, spanking, and clamping. There will be plenty of dildos, slapping of fat behinds, jiggling, and wiggling! One guy even uses buckets of water and tubing with a douche attachment for a crazy endurance contest.
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When Good Wrestlers Go Bad
Jeff’s a big, muscular guy who loves to control the action in the bedroom. Inspired by an erotic story, he gets two of his BBW friends to wrestle for rewards. See how crazy things get When two big women have their first oily love session.
Jasper takes his inspired reading to a new level when he puts two BBW's against each other in three sporting events. But, when the rewards encourage experimentation, these women begin a new journey into the realm of feminine intimacy.
Filled, Fondled, and Spanked
Jake has found two big, beautiful women in his new hometown of Paris, France. But when he devises a little competitive water-sports for these hefty submissives, experimentation turns luscious. You won’t believe how far things can get twisted when this dominant male entices these curious pleasure-seekers to engage in some harmless fun in the City of Lights.
The Pleasure of Pressure
Jenny and her boyfriend love to play doctor, but one day, he gets a little too creative and devises a special "test" for her which involves a lot of water going where the sun don't shine. Can she take the pressure and pass the test?
Something to Prove
This fun-loving couple takes turns as dom and sub, inventing new and exciting ways to spice things up. When its her turn, she devises a medical probe that takes things to the next level. Her idea is so intriguing it even draws in another woman who simply must see how things turn out.
When You Gotta Go
Jim and Sarah met Mistress Jasmine in a "novelty" bookstore, and their relationship hasn't been the same since. Every week they wait, barely able to contain themselves, so they can submit to her new and exciting session ideas.
But "containing themselves" takes on a whole new meaning when they explore one of nature's universal calls for relief. Enthusiasm turns to urgency as this couple explores like they never have before.