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When I was five years old, I told Toren Grace I was going to marry him when I grew up. When I turned eighteen, I made it clear I still felt the same. The problem? He's fifteen years older than me, and he's my father's best friend.

Toren Grace. My father's best friend. My pseudo-uncle.
He's always been my rock. The one I should never, ever want.
But I do want him, and I love him.
I always have.

Tor's one of the good guys. Loving. Devoted. A strong moral compass. One kiss between us rocked him clear off his axis. Now, we can't forget how that kiss felt, and what it changed. Nothing will ever be the same between us. I'm not a little girl anymore, and he's everything I want.

I know he's struggling, but I'm determined. With a last name of Valentine, I've got cupid in my veins. The heart wants what the heart wants, and it doesn't care about age or how we met. My father cares, though. And he's the one person neither one of us can stand to hurt.

We're all being torn apart, and I don't know how to make everyone see that the wrongs are actually right.

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"This book is so enchanting! I could not get enough of it! I basically read nonstop until there was nothing left to read!"

"Carian Cole is an exceptional author. Her books are intense, beautiful, heartbreaking, hilarious, and timeless. Every books is woven together in such a way that you can't help but feel like you are a part of their world. There is a little bit of fantasy gilding the reality that she portrays, and everything is made all the more breathtaking by her eloquence. She bleeds life into the women and men that grace the pages of her books. These are not popcorn romances, quick reads to giggle over and move on. They have an impact and depth that resonate beyond the page. Don't get me wrong, there is sex. And it is hot. Like...wow. But there is so much more than just amazing sex when it comes to life, and that is what Carian captures."

"This was one of the most touching, heartfelt stories I have ever read."

"The writing is outstanding. I've read this book numerous times and always love every sentence of it. Highly recommend."

"If you are looking for a romance, this book is the definition. It's a sweet, thoughtful read about two people who grew up together and loved each other with all of the nuances that growth and maturity bring."

"This book had me full of emotions. I felt the butterflies with Toren! It was one of those books that traps you and YOU CANNOT LET GO!"

"I fell completely in love with this story and the connection of Tor and Kenzie. This is a love story of two adults. This is a beautiful love story. A beautiful connection between souls. It is the dream to experience such a love and connection with someone. I loved the writing and the flashbacks. I felt every heartbeat of love through the entire book. I love happily ever after books like this. Bonus, there isn't a cliffhanger - it's a complete story with a beautiful epilogue. One of the most beautiful books to be lost in."

"This book - GAH, the feelings and emotions just oozed from every page and burrowed there way straight into my heart. Carian Cole's writing is just perfect and raw and deep and swoon worthy in every way possible. EVERYONE READ THIS BOOK!"

"If you are thinking about reading this book - do so it is beyond sensational!"

"All I can say is that this was a coming of age novel, a story about best friends and a moving and lovely story about love, in all of its various guises. I've already read this book twice since I bought it."

"This is a story of a once in your life type of love that will capture your heart and take it on an emotional roller coaster ride till the end."

About the Author

Carian Cole is the author of the Ashes & Embers series, which includes the novels Storm, Vandal, Lukas, and Talon. Born and raised in New Jersey, she now lives in New Hampshire with her husband and a multitude of pets. Visit her at cariancolewrites.com.

Noelle Bridges began her theater career in Seattle, Washington, before moving to Los Angeles to study theater and music. She is now a working actress and voice-over artist and has been featured in numerous animated series, video games, and national commercials.

Mason Lloyd is an audiobook narrator from Portland, Oregon. With his deep and warm voice, he's found a niche in the romance and erotic fiction genres and loves every minute of it. --This text refers to the audioCD edition.

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Publication Date : August 28, 2016
File Size : 3069 KB
Word Wise : Enabled
Print Length : 436 pages
ASIN : B01L7NNS5W
Language: : English
Enhanced Typesetting : Enabled
X-Ray : Enabled
Simultaneous Device Usage : Unlimited
Text-to-Speech : Not enabled
Lending : Enabled

Best Sellers Rank: #1,730 in Kindle Store (See Top 100 in Kindle Store)
- #188 in New Adult & College Romance (Books)
- #341 in Romance (Kindle Store)
- #405 in Contemporary Romance (Kindle Store)

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K. Friend (The Romantic Rush)

The pinnacle of age gap stories

Reviewed in the United States on April 12, 2020

Oh man, I love a good taboo age gap story, and this one was quite a large gap- a man who had practically helped raised this girl and her father's best friend.

I have NOT read the stories prior to this (so I didn't know the back story of the father or the other couples), but I didn't need to in order to enjoy this tale. This was so good- tender and romantic yet taboo and bittersweet at times.

These two characters had fire chemistry and the unfolding of their love kept me up all night reading, just hoping that things worked out for them in the end. Loved it!

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Mind blowing!!!

Reviewed in the United States on October 25, 2017

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Oh my heavens mercy!!! This book completely destroyed me in such a good way!!! It exceeded all my exceptions!!! I am so mad at myself for taking so freakin long to read it being that I’ve had it for a while. Oh my lord I cannot stop thinking about it!!! I want to re-read it already and I am one of those people that simply can’t reread a book no matter how good it is. But when it comes to this book I am fairly certain that I will be doing just that!!! This book is so enchanting!!! It was as if I was under a spell!!! I could not get enough of it!!! I basically read nonstop until there was nothing left to read!!!
I looove Tor and Keniz's story!!! I find it to be totally and utterly amazing!!! And completely realistic. I don’t find it gross or unethical as some may. I can’t stand that somewhere in history someone decided who we can be with and who we can’t. No one has the right to tell us who we can and cannot love. In my opinion you simply can’t help who you love. As it is so often said the heart wants what it wants. And further more whose business is it anyway??? Nobody’s except the people involved in the relationship. Anyway Tor and Keniz’s relationship is one in the making. Slowly growing from the day Kenzi was born and feelings involved change based on Keniz’s age. There is no inappropriateness of any kind. They have a bond that is strong and by the time Kenzi is old enough their bond has grown to epic proportions. Their desires grow slowly but as where Tor struggles with his feelings Kenzi embraces them. In fact she was the one that relentlessly pursued him!!! It’s not that Tor doesn’t want it it’s just the circumstances that surround them he struggles with. But thankfully he finally embraces it and they end up having a relationship that most can only dream about.

“she’s kidnapping me into her world, and I’m slowly surrendering, a willing hostage”

Yes Kenzi may be fifteen years younger that doesn’t mean she doesn’t know what she wants and that her feeling aren’t real. They simply complete each other.

“Young love first love is so innocent. So pure and trusting. So all encompassing. I shouldn't be on the receiving end of that love from her at my age but no honesty she's my first love to.”

I love how the day played out when they went on a ride and spent all day together. The setting made me feel as if I was on the sidelines watching and about to feel the feelings surrounding them. I think it was perfectly fitting that its that day when they take their relationship to the most intimate level. The feelings were real and so raw that they were palpable. The love they share is earth shattering.

“I want crazy f****** love. I want someone that’ll never let me go. I want to wake up to my best friend every day”

This book is Kenzi and Tor's journey about how they become who they are and what an phenomenal journey it is!!! If you are thinking about reading this book do so it is beyond sensational!!!

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NOT your usual older man younger girl story. A must read.

Reviewed in the United States on August 30, 2017

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This is a story of a once in your life type of love that will capture your heart and take it on an emotional roller coaster ride till the end.
Toren is tough, tender, quiet, protective, loyal, loving, with emotions that run deep. He can beat an abuser within an inch of his life, then tenderly hold a rescued kitten close to his heart. He is Asher and Ember’s best friend and godfather to their daughter Kenzi.

Kenzi has had him wrapped around her little finger since the day she was born, and he has been her everything. When she was happy, sad, or needed a friend to talk to Tor has been there. He has dried her tears, cared for her and been with her through all the ups and downs in her life. At 18 she knows he is the one person she loves and wants. She wants him to be her first, her last and her only. But what do you do when the person you love is 15 yrs older and your Dad’s best friend?

All Toren has ever wanted in his life is a wife who loves him for who he is and a family of his own. Kenzi is the one that could always bring him to his senses and got him to straighten out his life when he messed up. As she grows into a beautiful woman his feelings for her start to change. She is all he has ever wanted but he knows she is off limits in so many ways.

Tor: “I feel sick. I feel tortured. I feel unhinged with want for her. I feel a deep ache in my heart that only she can soothe. I feel like I'm stabbing a dagger straight through my best friend’s back. The scales are tipping, though, and it's scaring the shit out of me.”

Carian Cole gives you a true emotional connection with the characters. I could feel their pain.

Kenzi: “I love you the most forever”

Tor: “My love, walk in the rain with me. Kiss me in the misty fog. Let me hold you all night under the hush of the wind. I’m waiting for you. Always for you. Come back to me. I’ll fight for you. I’ll fight for us. Wish for me, too… and I’ll make it come true.”

Their story has captured my heart and stayed.

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Andrew James

This popped up onto my newsfeed on facebook after a very good friend of mine liked and commented on a post ...

Reviewed in the United Kingdom on August 31, 2016

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If you haven't yet read this book then STOP RIGHT HERE AS THERE ARE SPOILERS AHEAD!!

This popped up onto my newsfeed on facebook after a very good friend of mine liked and commented on a post by the author. I read the synopsis and I was intrigued. I have to be honest, a part of me was worried because of the sensitive subject matter but I needn't have worried at all. I think that there was a very fine line to walk with this book but Carian Cole seems to have negotiated it beautifully, tastefully and more importantly, realistically.

Not once throughout the telling of this story did I cringe or feel uncomfortable, in fact, it was quite the opposite. I fell in love with both characters from the very start and I was routing for them the whole way through. Tor is an absolute dream, what a guy! His battles within himself when he began to fall for Kenzi were written with such sensitivity and such raw pain that it takes you on a rollercoaster of emotions with him, but not only him, the fact that it was told from both Tor and Kenzi's point of view was brilliance, and the way the author did this was to create two very strong, very different characters with two different writing styles. You can absolutely believe that this was written from the points of view of two different people rather than the one author.

This is the first book I have read of Carian's but it will NOT be the last. I will absolutely be purchasing every one of the Ashes and Embers series and I will wait on tenterhooks for the next installment from the Devil Wolves. The way she writes even the background characters enthralls you, it makes you hungry to know more about each and every one of them! I personally can't wait for Tyler's story! That is going to be one hell of a ride, I can feel it already.

If I had to complain about anything (and it would be small, teeny weeny ones) it would be this...I felt cheated out of a proposal. So much attention had been brought to this family tradition of the big glass bottle, saving for the engagement ring, and then Tor having an accident as he was picking the ring up, I really would have liked to have seen the proposal. Did Tor go and ask Asher for Kenzi's hand?? How did he do it? Where did he do it? Did Kenzi love the ring he chose ARGHHHHH (I'll just have to let my imagination run wild with that one.) The only other small point would be Embers waking up. It was thrown in there at the very end with little to no information on what was happening, how she had woken up, what was now happening with her and Ash. I'm hoping (AND PRAYING!!!) that this was intentional because Carian intends to write a book on Asher's story which will encompass all of this and answer all our burning questions.

So to summarise...YOU HAVE TO READ THIS!! Beautifully written, emotive story that you will not be able to put down. Be ready for a late night with this one!

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donna wright

Brilliant read

Reviewed in the United Kingdom on September 23, 2020

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Wow! What a book. I wasnt entirely sure whether I was gonna like this book. I was just a little worried about the taboo that surrounded the romance in this book. I for one am no prude at all but this was a hesitant subject for me. However I had nothing to worry about as it wasn't at all taboo. Not for me anyway.

The relationship that evolved throughout these pages was beautiful and touching. It didn't feel wrong or forbidden at all. It was just circumstances that changed as Kenzi grew. Torin Grace was in her life from the day she was born. But it wasn't until she was in her 18th year that it all changed. What made this book better was the dual timelines that appear throughout this book.

The angst and the push and pull throughout was heartbreaking at times. The battle that Torin went through to deny his feeling was horrible to read. But it was hard to fight against what I feel was fate. What I you can see was always in the making. Not in a twisted way. It was just that these two were soul mates and when the time was right for it happen it just did. I don't believe nothing could have stopped it.

I am glad I read this book as I really didn't want to at first. But it was brilliant and I can honestly say a beautiful love story. One that I recommend completely.

Terri T.

Such a remarkable, beautiful book. Not to be missed !!!

Reviewed in the United Kingdom on January 30, 2019

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One of my favourite genre is taboo of any kind and this book had been sitting on my kindle since last year. I kept skimming past it thinking I WILL read that one day, and then I read No Tomorrow by this author and I was so hooked on her words I started this one the next day. This book - GAH, the feelings and emotions just oozed from every page and burrowed there way straight into my heart. Carian Cole's writing is just perfect and raw and deep and swoon worthy in every way possible. EVERYONE READ THIS BOOK !!!!!

Let me just say I have read lots of taboo books with every possible scenario, this one is of a younger girl and the older man but in no way did this book make me feel uncomfortable in any way. It was so beautifully done, so perfectly executed everything just flowed and fell in place. Kenzi and Tor - oh my what a combination of feelings. Tor is an anomaly of a man, his feelings and thoughts run deep and it was easy to feel this guy's pain which just made me love him all the more. His heart was in the right place though and he stole mine completely; when he hurt so did I, when he was torn so was I, when he loved I felt it right in the depths of my soul. Kenzi is a girl with a mature head on her shoulders, with a kind heart and sensible head she knew exactly what she wanted from life which was impressive. I enjoyed Kenzi immensely, yes there were times she was immature and silly but then that was because she acts so grown up most of the time, you forget that this is what a seventeen year old girl will act like now and then. Also this story revolves around family, yes family is everything in this book, that and close friends which made this book the book it was.

This story is a slow build of anticipation, of expectations but that is what it should be, it is so worth waiting for. Told in duel perspective that flits back in time to deliver memories from the past, this is the best way to get all the feels from a book. I adored it !!

And let me tell you that cover - absolutely perfection for the characters in this book, I love it when an author gets it right, right to the very last detail and she did brilliantly.
Now onto Tied the next book in this series, both can be read as standalone's but with words this awesome why would you not want to delve into both - absolutely awesome work !!!

Planet_Reading

A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.

Reviewed in the United Kingdom on September 30, 2018

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This is not your standard romance novel.
This is not your standard couple.
This is not your standard setting.
I liked the blurb, downloaded a sample, and then I found myself sucked into the story. No escaping!
I love the main characters - Tor and Kenzi. They have known each other all their lives. Tor is Kenzi's parents' best friend. 15 years her senior. Kenzi and Tor have been close and they only got closer over the years. When their friendship turns into love and desire, they are at a loss. Tor fights it - Kenzi doesn't.
The author has a captivating way with words. The way she writes makes emotions come alive. Fear, love, lust, anger, hurt, insecurity, shyness, friendship, family... the whole shebang.
The characters are beyond well developed and the way they fight for their happiness is powerful and raw.
I felt every word.
The only little glitch is the way Kenzi's best friend, Chloe, is acting. She swings between immature, irresponsible, selfish teenager and mature woman, who is able to give deep, insightful advice to her friend. A bit incongruent, but in the big picture of this book it is totally forgivable.
I will definitely be reading more of Carain Cole's books.

Piskiechick

Beautiful

Reviewed in the United Kingdom on February 5, 2017

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This was the first Carian cole book I read but it was not my last. I am addicted to her books.
But this was my beginning and Torn has stayed with me ever since.
Yes its a fine line. Tor is there from Kenzis birth. He looks after her and raises her as much as her father. So it should be wrong. But it just isn't!
Carian writes their story in such a way that you completely believe the innocence of their relationship until it suddenly isn't any more. I felt it just as much as they did when it changed. It's just right. I absolutely believed in their story and my heart broke for them when they realised the repercussions. I cheered for them to be together because they belonged together. I wanted to be kenzi. That's not weird right??
Totally sucked into the story and didn't want to leave. I've since read all the books in the Ashes and Embers series just to stay in their world. I'm an avid reader (1082 books on my kindle currently) and this is one of the handful that I still return to and love.
Just read it!!

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