- File Size: 3410 KB
- Print Length: 318 pages
- Publisher: Carmen Jenner (May 18, 2016)
- Publication Date: May 18, 2016
- Sold by: Amazon.com Services LLC
- Language: English
- ASIN: B01FOQJ780
- Text-to-Speech: Enabled
- Word Wise: Enabled
- Lending: Enabled
- Amazon Best Sellers Rank: #118,273 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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"We need to sort out a way to make all of those beautiful puzzle pieces inside his brain fit together."
Ellie us written so beautifully by Carmen, who give us a beautiful and genuine portral of a mum trying desperately hard to cope with a son who has is on the autism spectrum and has a sensory processing disorder. Everything about these two is so heartfelt and genuine, and their relationship is crucial to the story.
Jake, the ex-Marine, suffers from PTSD and is struggling to function in a world that celebrates soldiers in their return from war and then forgets about them once the fanfare dies down.
"My brain fights me at every turn, and it wins, because how do you fight a battle that only wages within your head?"
I fell in love with Jake and Ellie (and Spencer too!) and having already read The Way Back Home which is Olivia's (Elle's best friend) story, it was so nice to find out more about Paws for Cause and see it working so well with Jake and Nuke.
I could write an essay on my for this book - it was the type of perfection that I'm so used to getting from Carmen. From autism to PTSD, from temper tantrums to nightmares, from love to heartbreak and hope, Carmen treats everything in this story with respect, honesty and authenticity. And I'm looking forward to reading the last few books of hers that are still on my TBR list!
The way Carmen Jenner captures the affects of war veterans is amazing.
"A group of men go to war. They kill, they follow out orders, they sweat, bleed, and hurt, and they lose brothers. No matter how brave or how tough you think you are, every man that ever steps into a war zone comes back different. Some of us with scars you can see and some with scars you can’t."
The daily challenges for an autistic child and their parent is captured in the same amazing style.
"My son is not diseased, it’s not catching, and we’re not looking for a miracle cure or a way to change him. We just need to find a way to work with him. We need to sort out a way to make all of those beautiful puzzle pieces inside his brain fit together."
The lives of Jake and Ellie as they intersect with each other will steal your heart.
Bravo, Carmen Jenner. Thank you for this amazing story. I can't wait to read it a third time. As an animal lover, it overwhelmed my heart the use of dogs in this story. Thank you for that too. I recommend this story to all readers who love romance in real life settings.
Elle's life literally revolved around Spencer and trying to manage his autism. Her mornings, nights and weekends were consumed with trying to manage his environment and attempt to minimize his "meltdowns". Spencer was ostracized at school and when his meltdowns happened in public, Elle had to deal with judgemental onlookers who believed his behavior was her fault and due to a lack of discipline. In short, Spencer's autism was exhausting and all consuming; and while sometimes she wished things were easier, she loved him fiercely and wouldn't trade him for the world.
Jake's life after the military was heartbreaking. His body was ravaged by his injuries and his mind plagued with severe PTSD. The compilation of survivor's guilt, recurring pain, continual flashbacks and nightmares were devastating and debilitating. While not extraordinarily lengthy or too terribly graphic, Jake's flashbacks and nightmares were difficult to read. There was even a point where I considered skipping them. Ultimately, I put on my big girl panties and waded through them. Even though this story and these characters are a work of fiction, I decided that skipping theses scenes would disrespect and dishonor all of the REAL American servicemen and women who've been through h€ll while serving their country. War is ugly, death doesn't discriminate and freedom isn't free; my discomfort pales in comparison to the real suffering of our veterans.
Elle and Jake's love story was by no means instant anything. They exchanged polite nods in public, but only looked and appreciated from afar; never believing anything could ever come of it. That is, of course, until fate intervened. What started as a pseudo friendship developed into A tender but delicate romance fraught with the complications. Elle was the light in Jake's dark world and she loved him scars and all. Theirs was a journey of self discovery. Inevitably, Elle realized she couldn't fix Jake and began to understand that she and Spencer deserved a man they could count on. Jake needed to forgive himself, quit drinking, take his meds and get proper counseling in an effort to become a functional, productive man Elle and Spencer could rely on..
This was a well told emotional story about understanding, forgiveness, worthiness, service to others, and most of all, love.
I realize the author isn't American, but I had one minor complaint; I'm a southerner and over many years I have traveled extensively throughout the south and neither I, nor anyone I know, speak the way these characters do. While it mildly annoyed me, it didn't ruin my enjoyment, or take away from the overall theme. Well worth "all the feels"...............d:)
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<i>"I didn't need last night to show me he struggles with the man he is now. I could tell that just by looking at him, but I can see the light in him too. I know next to nothing about the person he was before he joined the Marines, but I know the man sipping tea on my back porch is a man worth knowing. There's good in him, light, and strength - he just don't know it right now."</i>
I am thankful for whichever force of the universe that helped me find it, because it was definitely not on my radar. I am not a usual romance genre reader, I rather stay in NA ground when it comes to love stories. However, and as a tiny detail you must know about me, I am a sucker for books involving the military. I am one that cries over videos and photos of soldiers/marines being reunited with their loved ones, which has not much to do with this, okay. But I can't help to fall for these characters every time. Every single time. So as soon as I read the blurb of Toward the Sound of Chaos, the decision was already made. (bless you amazon/kindle because I couldn't really wait)
Anyway. Jake Tucker had me at hello. But don't think he was an easy character to love, because he messes up. He messes up big time, and more often than I was expecting. The author doesn't hesitate to send you right into Jake's mind. To struggle with him, and god, does he struggle. It just broke my heart how lost he really was. But I won't lie and say that that didn't make me love him even more, because it did.
<i>"It makes me want to cry because his skin is a patchwork of pain. It tells a story of hate and unimaginable cruelty, but there is splendor in it too. There's a tale of courage, survival, immeasurable strength, and beauty in the face of such ugliness. They tried to destroy him, and they failed."</i>
Enters Ellie. If I said I loved Jake's character, well, I adored Ellie's. What a strong, independent and kickass woman. Hardworker and a 100% dedicated to her autistic son, she is the first one who wants to pull Jake out of the darkness. It was heartbreaking to witness how much weight that woman wanted to carry on her back. She was fierce, and I loved that she wouldn't take s*** from anyone. Specially not from Jake, she was there in his darkest moments. And trust me when I say that those moments were dark. Jake shattered my heart more often than not and some situations were not easy to read if I'm being honest.
All in all, Toward the Sound of Chaos is heartbreaking and sweet, sassy and funny at times. And you have to read it if you find the same guilty pleasure as me in the military.
This book blew my away it's probably THE best book I've ever read !!! Jake Tucker has to be one of the most broken and complicated man I've ever read about what that man went through broke my heart it made me really stop and think about what our service men have endured and how their lives are affected long after they return. Carmen wrote this book from the heart with compassion and love.
This book is essentially about people fighting their demons and how is effects those around them.
With each book I read of Carmen's I fall deeper in love with her words and the worlds she weaves !!!
To do a storyline that not only covers one but 3 subjects (autism, PTSD & suicide) that as a society we believe are taboo in itself is unbelievable, but thats explain what Carmen does and pulls it off with truths (full truths not half ones) and pure emotion.... Its not a story for the faint of heart or those that want a fairy tale romance, its hard hitting and grit.
You can't help for fall in love with Jake, Elle and Spencer, you live their struggles with them and feel for them right where it counts...
Its a story that will stay with you as you know its could be based on someone you know and hope to god (if there is one) that never the case, but you know there are so many people out there that live part of this in their everyday life.
This is a must read for any fans of Carmen Jenner, or hard hitting/gut wrenching brutal honest stories
It was refreshing that the characters are both strong and broken at the same time, also refreshing was the utter honesty that came through in the writing...as a reader I felt an understanding in the way issues where presented, the author paid due diligence to the conditions effecting Jake & Spence and did not belittle the impact of it on those around them.
Compelling read and a good way to end it!
This book is a 5* novel, it shows you love, hurt, upset, hardest moments and also darkness of moments.
Ellie is a single mother of a boy who is Autistic, it shows you the hardest points of being a mother to a Autistic child, as hard as times are when Spencer has a episode or a change in his daily routine Ellie is always on top form being the best mother to her child as any mother can be. She falls head over heels for a marine who has saw and been held captive into a darkness no one can imagine without living in his shoe's. She's the stich in the middle holding two life's together, her sons who she loves more then life itself and the man she falls in love with.
Jake is a marine who had watched his fellow war brothers be killed and tortured, he has seen things which haunt him everyday, being captured and tortured to no return Jake survived what was thrown at him, although being tortured and having a darkness haunt him it has cost him part of his life to the point where he can't bare to live in the world he is. When he meets Ellie and Spencer a light in his darkness starts to appear. Although Jake seeing and having things done to him that no one should ever see or have done he isn't the only one with a darkened past Ellie also has one which he learns about. He falls in love with Ellie and wants the best but his past isn't making his future very welcoming. Jake has a service dog called Nuke who is well trained to help him when times come bad.
This novel takes a hold of you from start to finish, it has been one of the best and most favourite novels of 2016, Carmen has beautiful written this novel which grips a hold of you and doesn't want to let go. You'll fall in love with characters, you'll smile, you'll cry and most of all you'll fall in love with the entire novel.
I would highly recommend this novel whether your new to military novels or love them then this is a novel for you
Definitely recommend this book
Carmen covers all the elements needed for a fantastic read, including - good plot, pace and character development. She also uses great imagery to create depth and meaning.
Jake Tucker is an ex-marine with PTSD and severe body scaring, so readers feel empathy for him early on. He doesn't have a lot to give, but he will give 'his all' to Ellie and Spencer. You can't ask more from a person than that. Jake is completely enamoured with Ellie. He also has an Assistance Dog, Nuke, who keeps him in check - just gorgeous.
Ellie Mason is the young mother doing it tough, both financially, and with the primary responsibility of caring for her young autistic son. She's a strong, tough, pragmatic, beautiful and a nurturing woman. She finds room in her heart for Jake, too. She adores him.
Spencer, Ellie's beloved son shows he has strength and purpose. He is endearing and admirable, too (his part in the story had particular meaning for me).
An issue referenced in the book hit home for me - 'judgement' (although the book is not essentially about that.) I choked up with that issue, but I felt Carmen created the scope of emotions needed to address it, and other circumstances, very well.
So, you can see why I thought the narrative was an inspiring story of hope and support.The main message I took away from the book is... everyone needs love, deserves love, can love and can be loved.
Thanks Carmen for weaving these issues through such a well-written narrative.