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What I Loved: The International Bestseller Paperback – Import, January 1, 2003
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- Print length384 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherSceptre
- Publication dateJanuary 1, 2003
- Dimensions5.04 x 1.18 x 7.72 inches
- ISBN-100340682388
- ISBN-13978-0340682388
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- Publisher : Sceptre
- Publication date : January 1, 2003
- Edition : New edition
- Language : English
- Print length : 384 pages
- ISBN-10 : 0340682388
- ISBN-13 : 978-0340682388
- Item Weight : 2.31 pounds
- Dimensions : 5.04 x 1.18 x 7.72 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #10,609,998 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
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Siri Hustvedt's first novel, The Blindfold, was published by Sceptre in 1993. Since then she has published The Enchantment of Lily Dahl, What I Loved, The Sorrows of an American, The Summer Without Men and The Blazing World, which was longlisted for the Man Booker Prize in 2014. She is also the author of the poetry collection Reading To You, and five collections of essays: Yonder, Mysteries of the Rectangle: Essays on Painting, A Plea for Eros, Living, Thinking, Looking, and A Woman Looking at Men Looking at Women: Essays on Art, Sex, and the Mind. She is also the author of The Shaking Woman: A History of My Nerves.
Born in Minnesota, Siri Hustvedt now lives in Brooklyn, New York. She has a PhD in English from Columbia University and in 2012 was awarded the International Gabarron Prize for Thought and Humanities.
www.sirihustvedt.net
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- Reviewed in the United States on February 27, 2010This is a magnificent book, perhaps a great one. Maybe not in terms of its total achievement, but certainly for what it has to say about the nature of artistic exploration, and absolutely for at least two of the astounding skills that Siri Hustvedt brings to her art as a novelist.
First of all, she is one of the most sensitive painters of love, desire, friendship, and human decency now writing. At the core of her story are two families living in New York. Leo Hertzberg, the narrator, is an art historian teaching at Columbia married to an English professor at Rutgers. Leo buys an enigmatic painting of a young woman and gets to know the artist, Bill Wechsler. Shortly after this, Bill and his wife Lucille (a rather arid poet) move in as neighbors, and both couple have sons, Matthew and Mark. A little later, however, Bill leaves Lucille and marries the model for Leo's painting, Violet Blom, a sociologist researching aspects of mental illness. The book is by no means as dry as these facts would suggest; although its first third contains very few events, it is alive with the emotional cross-currents of half a dozen people getting to know themselves and one another. Hustvedt has an extraordinary ability to write through the eyes and libido of a male character, yet with a woman's sensibility. The chapters in the middle of the book, after an unexpected tragedy puts an unendurable strain on their love, are as true and heartbreaking a portrayal of coming to terms with grief as anything I have ever read, exceeding even Joseph O'Neill's NETHERLAND and Anne Michaels' THE WINTER VAULT, both of which affected me in similar ways.
Secondly, Hustvedt, who has also published essays on art, writes more convincingly of art and artists than any fiction author I have ever read, period. She at least matches the achievement of Chaim Potok in MY NAME IS ASHER LEV in convincing the reader that her artist character is indeed a person of unique vision, and I think she exceeds the other author whom I have recently praised in this regard, (Sarah Hall in HOW TO PAINT A DEAD MAN) because she uses art as an integral means of telling the story. Over the course of his career, Bill Wechsler moves away from flat painting into constructions (rather like Joseph Cornell's boxes, but on a larger scale) that combine elements of painting, sculpture, found objects, and the written word, to explore themes both relevant to his personal life and with archetypal implications. Hustvedt is totally persuasive in tracing Wechsler's evolution, but she also uses her descriptions of art to take the novel into a psychological territory that cannot be contained by straight narrative and rational description. It links directly to a persistent subtheme of the novel, that of mental illness.
Bill Wechsler's last unfinished work was to be a video project called ICARUS. In myth, Icarus was the son of the artist and engineer Daedalus, who made wings with which he could escape with his son from the island of Crete. The title will have a more literal relevance in the novel, but it is also important as a symbol of what the artist does -- invent new ways of reaching places inaccessible by other means. With Wechsler, the process is clear. It is also something that Hustvedt does herself, turning to art, or descriptions of art, where narrative will no longer suffice -- but not just art. When the book opens, Leo Hertzberg has almost gone blind, and works now with his memories, objects that he can feel, and with words. Hustvedt does something similar in the latter part of the book, moving the story out of the quietly realistic into something more melodramatic, more fanciful, rather like what her husband Paul Auster does in works like ORACLE NIGHT. But I have to remember that the novel itself is not real life, but a set of artificial wings built to escape from some personal prison. One can only guess what this is for Hustvedt, but anyone who has been in contact with mental illness will recognize its power to elude rational handling. Hence the art, hence the melodrama. Is it a success? Not entirely, but as with Daedalus, the attempt is more magnificent than any failure.
Finally the time frame: Leo was born in Berlin in 1930; his narrative ends sometime in 2001. I find it touching that a book that is largely about living with loss should be bracketed by the Holocaust at one end and by 9/11 at the other. Though I am sure deliberate, these references are extremely subtle -- but then a quiet grace in the face of sorrows of such resonance remains the distinguishing feature of this entire book.
- Reviewed in the United States on July 6, 2015This is a story in three parts defined, in large measure, by various forms/stages of love and loss. It would tell too much to lay out the plot points of each part. The story is narrated by Leo, an art historian. Leo discovers a painting by Bill and the two become close friends...actually, those two words fail to encompass the deep connection and affection between the pair. Leo is married to Erica and there are two women in Bill's life, Lucille and Violet. These four characters and the families they form are the backbone of the story.
Although a few other key players do emerge, these four are all intensely/intimately connected and all are also, in various forms, artists. Art is, in fact, probably another main character and there are discussions about real artists and about fictional artistic works "by" the main characters. There's a good deal of discussion about art more broadly including the role of women & women's bodies* in art, the dichotomy of seeing & being seen, and the interplay between how art defines us & how we define art. Ultimately, however, while art matters deeply, this is a story about relationships and, more specifically, love. To use more paired descriptions, it is about what love does to us & what we do for it and also about what love cannot do & what love cannot save.
Overall -- I very much enjoyed the first two parts. I truly disliked the third part. this book is very literary and very concerned with what some might call "academic" matters. In truth, calling this book pretentious may understate the case; somehow, though, this didn't really turn me off, perhaps because it fit the characters. Overall, the language is quite beautiful. I'm torn between three-and-a-half and four stars and suppose this time I'm lucky many review sites don't allow for half-stars. The rating reflects the fact that my enjoyment of the language overall. Ultimately, it also reflect the fact that my interest in parts one & two overshadow my dislike for part three, especially since I've had a little time to remove myself from the immediacy of the concluding section.
Honestly, I can't tell you how long this one has been sitting on my "to read" shelf...well, I couldn't until I checked Amazon and saw I bought a used copy for a penny ($4 with shipping) on 12/7/11. I'm glad it finally surfaced. It calls for a reader who will admit to enjoying the literary and artistic. This reader is probably comfortable admitting to enjoying the pursuit of learning, a philosopher in the true sense of one who loves wisdom (and talking, or at least reading about it!)....okay, the ideal reader is used to hearing terms like "dork" and "nerd." It is, as I say above, pretentious and you need to accept that about the book and about the characters.
*Random Aside (more a personal experience given context by the book than a reaction to the text itself, though the word "reaction" is quite on point)...the review is done so feel free to stop, but leaving the rest (from my blog) for anyone who might be interested -- The book mentions women who used their bodies as art, "drawing" on their skin by scratching it lightly to make red marks appear. This caught the narrator off-guard a bit and sent me on a bit of a search. I remember many a doctor over the years running a dull edge along my skin and noticing that a red mark arose a few moments later. I can't recall any ever mentioning it though until this year when my dermatologist was looking at an intense allergic reaction. I didn't catch the word she used but offered to demonstrate on her own since she didn't want to irritate me further and as soon as she mentioned scratching her skin I responded by saying "and a red line appears."
Anyway, apparently the term is dermographism. Honestly, I don't know if there are degrees of severity, but it is nothing I've ever found really troublesome. But it surprised me to learn that only 4-5% of people have it. I knew it wasn't something that happened to everyone, but it was always my normal so I guess I assumed it was pretty common. It does explain a bit though....whenever something has been itching and I've inevitably given in and scratched. the area becomes very red and angry. Again, normal to me (and I assume anyone could irritate an already itchy area by scratching, but probably not to this extent) but sometimes concerned onlooker and I never understood why until I dug into it because of the book.
It is a really interesting condition and there are indeed people who've turned it into art. There are also a lot of people who go online looking for a cure (there isn't one though antihistamines can help) but it isn't something I feel any need to treat given other maladies. It has also made me think a lot about e we construct our concept of "normal" and how intensely personal that term truly is.
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Mingo BingoReviewed in the United Kingdom on August 15, 20105.0 out of 5 stars Heartbreaking, beautiful and ambititious
What I Loved is an epic novel that covers 30 years of an artist's life, seen through the eyes of his best friend.
The story is narrated by Leo Hertzberg, an art critic, as he tries to compile a book on the work of his closest friend Bill Weschler. Leo's eye sight is fading as he works and the sense is he is trying to put in words the beauty of Bill's art before his vision finally goes.
The two friends and their families are entwined, with keys to each other's houses, their wives are friends, their boys play together. They live in tandem with each other, one family creating Art, the other observing.
The book follows them for the majority of their adult lives, as Bill's artistic importance increases; they take lovers, people die, the world changes. 'What I loved' dissects the New York art scene without hyperbole or finger pointing. It talks about Art without being elitist or snobby.
'What I Loved' is partly about Art as a method of representing the world. Tellingly, one of Leo's earlier books was called 'A Brief History of Seeing in Western Painting'. It also talks about memory and the way memory changes events, and about our personal perceptions of things compared to the actuality of them. It is a book of big ideas and Siri Hustvedt weaves them so skillfully into her narrative that they come back to you over the weeks and months after reading it. She never preaches, instead employs deft metaphors which haunt you long afterwards.
She comfortably uses Art as a way of demonstrating the changes in our society, Bill particularly becomes a mirror that is held up to our world; when another artist, Teddy Giles (who has to be modeled on Michael Elig and the Club Kids), takes a piece of Bill's work and destroys it for his own art there is a very real sense of the new world swallowing the old.
Within, as you would expect over such a time scale, there are some moments of extreme tragedy that still upset me if I think about them now, but there are also examples of life affirming warmth.
One of her real skills is an ability to describe visual Art so vividly, and to convey their meaning, not only within the references of the books themes, but within the wider context of our society.
This is a vast story filled with characters that you grow to love. Knowingly clever, but not prohibitively so. And is a hugely accomplished piece of Art in its own right.
Friederike KnabeReviewed in Canada on May 1, 20105.0 out of 5 stars "We remember, and we tell ourselves a story,...
"... but the meanings of what we remember are reconfigured over time. Memory and imagination cannot be separated...." *)
Leo Hertzberg, the narrator of this powerful and deeply affecting novel, could have used this quote to introduce his intimate musings of a life lived and loved. Within the first few pages we are also introduced to Leo's inner circle of friends and lovers: Bill, Violet, Lucille and Erica. Triggered by the large portrait of a young woman (Violet) hanging in his room that he bought twenty five years ago before he knew the artist or the model and that "...has been altered by my failing eyesight" his mind drifts back to the time when he first sought out the artist, William "Bill" Wechsler. From that meeting has developed a deep and lasting friendship between the two men that, in time, has included the other protagonists and more.
While WHAT I LOVED is at one level a chronicle about friendship, love, loss and intricate interpersonal relations and chameleonic changes over time, it is, at a fundamental level, a story about the medium of art, the artist who creates through it an ever changing and complex vision of his world and the observers who can "see" it with more than his eyes alone. The readers are assumed to be as much a part of the artistic process of observing as the art lovers in the story: built into the different paintings, sculptures and other constructs as a shadow or as a "filler" of a gap or hole deliberately left for them to make the vision complete. The search for artistic expression that can reflect and represent the ever more complex realities of modern society is exquisitely evoked by Hustvedt in the personality of William, "Bill" Wechsler.
Initially a canvass painter and seen as a minor artist in the New York collectors' scene, he gains a growing enthusiastic following, especially in Europe, as his increasingly elaborate experiments with three dimensional structures and multi-media collages capture a vision of his inner and outer world that the collectors (and the reader) can connect to their own. Later on, as Bill continually searches for new and different artistic expressions for his life's dramas, a challenger appears, a sort of nemesis, who, at a personal level, is more intimately connected to Bill than he wants to admit to himself. Bill's last name, Wechsler, is without doubt deliberate: meaning "changer" in German, both in terms of "exchanging something for something else" and of "changing places with somebody". Both interpretations are valid as Leo and Bill often speak of changelings, chameleons, double vision where one person seems to be or could be the other.
Seeing the world through Leo's eyes, Hustvedt has achieved to convey very rich and convincing portrayals of Leo and Bill and their lasting friendship. In Leo the reader discovers not only the highly perceptive observer but also the sensitive lover, father and friend. There is a balance inside him of the yin and yang of his male and feminine side. When tragedy is shattering the small community that harmony is, however, seriously tested. Bill tends to express his male side more strongly through his art and withdraws into himself in response to intimacy and tragedy. Bill needs both his friend and, especially Violet, to find some inner peace. Hustvedt is less definite in the characterization of the female protagonists. Erica, Leo's wife, in particular, does not come to life and eventually fades into the background. Violet is thrust into centre stage as the result of tragic events and even then she remains difficult to understand and "see". Not having read anything else by Hustvedt, or her husband Paul Auster, I don't want to chance any deeper interpretation.
There are several additional important threads in the novel, that link characters, their experiences and visions. All (adult) protagonists are engaged in various areas of research that allows them to connect at an intellectual as well as a personal level. For example, Violet's research into mental illness and its expression in body behaviour and image, finds its creative interpretation directly in Bill's art. Art historian Leo, can relate his research both to Bill's art and to his wife's work on literature. His comparison between Goya's portrayal of the violence of his time with the "art" of Bill's nemesis, raises important questions about the artist as a chronicler of his society and how time changes the perspective of what we "see" in the artist's work. Many more crossovers are touched on or elaborated, making the novel also fascinating from that angle. These raise questions and encourage debate. A highly worthwhile outcome for a novel. In terms of a novel centred on art, artists, and perception of art, the novels of Canadian author Jane Urquhart come to mind, most recently with A Map of Glass [Friederike Knabe]
*) Siri Hustvedt in a recent article on "Seeing" published on her website
Client d'AmazonReviewed in France on October 9, 20165.0 out of 5 stars INTENSE
Intense and engrossing, What I Loved could also be titled What We'll Do for Love or What Love Will Do To Us for it explores the psychology of friendships, intimate and family relationships and the actions people take for the sake of love.
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Rita Ytterdahl UbelReviewed in Spain on March 21, 20255.0 out of 5 stars What I loved
Recomendable. Buen escrito 👍
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Kritischer BlickReviewed in Germany on October 9, 20135.0 out of 5 stars Mitleben und mitleiden
Auf Siri Hustvedt bin ich ziemlich verspätet gestoßen - "What I Loved" ist nach "Summer Without Men" erst der zweite Roman, den ich von ihr lese. Nachdem ich das Buch beendet habe, wünschte ich, sie hätte noch viel, viel mehr geschrieben!
"What I Loved" gehört für mich zu den Romanen, dessen Figuren einem so nah kommen, dass man lange nach Buchende weiter in ihrer Welt lebt, mit ihren Augen sieht und ihre Sorgen teilt. Die Welt, die Siri Hustvedt hier zeichnet, ist zumindest in der ersten Hälfte des Buches sehr klein, sehr privat: der Ich-Erzähler Leo, seine Frau Erica und der gemeinsame Sohn Matt; dann sein bester Freund, der Maler Bill Wechsler mit seiner Frau Lucille und dem gemeinsamen Sohn Mark. Lucille verschwindet sehr bald aus dem engen Zirkel, als Bill und sie sich trennen. Violet, Bills zweite Frau, tritt an ihre Stelle.
**Achtung, Spoilerwarnung!**
"What I Loved" - was ich liebte, das ist für den Erzähler dieser kleine Kreis von Menschen, untrennbar verbunden mit ihrer jeweiligen Tätigkeit (neben Bills bildender Kunst und Lucilles Gedichten ist das vor allem wissenschaftliche Arbeit) und den Gedanken und Erkenntnissen, die sie miteinander teilen.
Der erste Teil des Romans baut diese kleine Welt auf. Er ist langsam erzählt; trotz der Trennung von Bill und Lucille wirkt das Leben der Figuren im Großen und Ganzen idyllisch. Diese Welt wird im zweiten Teil zerstört: Matt (der Sohn von Leo und Erica) stirbt elfjährig, die Ehe der Eltern zerbricht daran. Leos Erstarrung löst sich erst durch die Hinwendung zu Mark, dem Sohn der Freunde. In diesem Teil des Buches nimmt die Erzählung Fahrt auf, um im dritten Teil dann geradezu rasant zu werden: Mark, der schon als Kind immer mal wieder beim Lügen ertappt wurde, erweist sich als gewissen- und empathieloser Mensch, der durch keine Liebe der Welt "auf den rechten Weg" zurückzubringen ist.
Am Ende des Buches bezeichnet der Titel "What I Loved" nicht nur eine fast zärtliche Erinnerung an die geliebten Menschen, die durch die Wechselfälle des Lebens aus der Welt des Erzählers verschwunden sind, sondern es ist auch eine offene Frage: Was war der Mensch (Mark), den ich geliebt habe?
Der Erzähler, Kunsthistoriker, entdeckt in den Bildern seiner Erinnerung (ähnlich wie in Bills Kunstwerken) Hinweise, Andeutungen auf das, was sich später entwickelt. Aber ein Sinn und eine kohärente Erzählung ist nur im Rückblick möglich.
Man kann das Buch als Familien- und Freundschaftsroman und im letzten Teil auch als Thriller lesen. Man kann es als Reflexion des Sehens und des Erzählens lesen. Wie auch immer: Ich habe den Roman verschlungen, und er wird mich sicher noch eine ganze Weile nicht mehr loslassen.








