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I Will Find You: A Reporter Investigates the Life of the Man Who Raped Her Kindle Edition
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PublisherAtlantic Monthly Press
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Publication dateApril 5, 2016
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Editorial Reviews
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“Is it possible to call the story of a violent rape and its haunting aftermath a thing of beauty? In the hands of Joanna Connors, this lucid, powerful memoir becomes its own form of redemption, as a seasoned reporter turns her gaze on her own life and that of her rapist’s. I found this to be a profoundly moving, important, and, yes, beautiful book.” —Dani Shapiro, author of Still Writing
“It’s heavy stuff. But with emotional honesty and profound questioning Connors deftly turns her victimization into a considered meditation on how we treat others.” —Cosmopolitan
“A searing narrative that plumbs both emotional and political depths . . . Connors’s forthright exploration of race and poverty enlarges her personal story, turning it into a richer, more complex and ultimately more harrowing account of interwoven traumas . . . What’s miraculous about this memoir is Connors’s ability to identify, in clean, lucid prose, evidence of hope—and even beauty—amid such an abundance of misery . . . [it is] powerful evidence of our society’s failure to address the causes and consequences of sexual violence.” —New York Times Book Review
“Raw and unnerving . . . If a reader is looking for the most candid, most powerful true book about rape, let Connors’ be the one.” —Booklist (starred review)
“[Connors] has an everywoman quality: she could be you . . . [she] illustrates how inextricably our lives—and those of our children—are entwined with the lives of others.” —Guardian
“A terrific book . . . [Connors is] a beautiful writer and often manages to be wry, funny and transcendent as she deals with an immensely serious topic.” —The New York Times
“It’s heavy stuff. But with emotional honesty and profound questioning Connors deftly turns her victimization into a considered meditation on how we treat others.” —Cosmopolitan
“A searing narrative that plumbs both emotional and political depths . . . Connors’s forthright exploration of race and poverty enlarges her personal story, turning it into a richer, more complex and ultimately more harrowing account of interwoven traumas . . . What’s miraculous about this memoir is Connors’s ability to identify, in clean, lucid prose, evidence of hope—and even beauty—amid such an abundance of misery . . . [it is] powerful evidence of our society’s failure to address the causes and consequences of sexual violence.” —New York Times Book Review
“Raw and unnerving . . . If a reader is looking for the most candid, most powerful true book about rape, let Connors’ be the one.” —Booklist (starred review)
“[Connors] has an everywoman quality: she could be you . . . [she] illustrates how inextricably our lives—and those of our children—are entwined with the lives of others.” —Guardian
“A terrific book . . . [Connors is] a beautiful writer and often manages to be wry, funny and transcendent as she deals with an immensely serious topic.” —The New York Times
About the Author
Joanna Connors is a reporter for the Cleveland Plain Dealer.
--This text refers to the hardcover edition.
Product details
- ASIN : B01AGZ8LPY
- Publisher : Atlantic Monthly Press (April 5, 2016)
- Publication date : April 5, 2016
- Language : English
- File size : 1247 KB
- Text-to-Speech : Enabled
- Screen Reader : Supported
- Enhanced typesetting : Enabled
- X-Ray : Not Enabled
- Word Wise : Enabled
- Print length : 272 pages
- Lending : Enabled
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#717,759 in Kindle Store (See Top 100 in Kindle Store)
- #79 in Sexual Assault Biographies & Memoirs
- #503 in Sociology of Abuse
- #768 in Violence in Society (Kindle Store)
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Reviewed in the United States on November 9, 2018
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After reading Ms. Connors’ compelling story (in National Geographic) about a face transplant, I ordered her book and am so glad I did! The five star reviews have already expressed the compassion, dignity, insight and intelligence that she brings to her story. I particularly loved her quotes from James Baldwin - a writer whose works should be mandatory reading. This story is not just about a rape - rather it encompasses social and moral issues. Beautifully written.
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Reviewed in the United States on April 17, 2016
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“Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced.”... (James Baldwin)
In 1984, Joanna Connors a journalist/reporter for the largest newspaper in the state of Ohio "The Plain Dealer": was one of the 3,734 people who reported a forcible rape that year. It wasn’t until the following year the Cleveland Police Department would open an investigative unit that handled the large increase of rapes, which years later with improved DNA testing indicated the presence of serial rapists. Using court documents and official reports and records, her own journals, Connors skillfully recalled the the intensity of difficulties, complexities of coping with and surviving the aftermath following a violent crime in: “I Will Find You”.
Connors rapist was apprehended, and she was able to identify, testify in court leading to prosecution of the man responsible: David Francis. He had just been released from prison, was free on parole, he pled not guilty to charges of rape and assault claiming he was unable to have sex due to a cancer diagnosis. After receiving the maximum sentencing allowed by law, he coldly stared her down and made threatening remarks, which Connors reviewed years later while examining court transcripts.
As her children David and Zoe finished high school and prepared for college, Connors after years of therapy, wanted to share the truth of the impact of rape on various aspects of their lives, Zoe was greatly distressed, David avoided the subject. In the aftermath and the study of root causes associated with rape, Connors turned her attention to the life of David Francis. What she discovered was his terrible past, Francis chilling connection as a youth to the Lyman School for boys (est.1886-1971) which was the first reform school in the nation located in West-borough, MA. Also, the lock-up Bridgewater State Hospital for the criminally insane, both facilities admitted Albert DeSalvo (1931-1973) charged in 1967, known as the Boston Strangler.
David Francis was one of eight children born to Millie and T.C. Francis. Millie was killed in a mysterious house fire, an older brother was murdered according to his sister Charlene. The entire family was linked either to petty or serious criminal activity and/or alcohol and substance abuse, none escaping the terrible magnitude of neglect and abuse perpetrated by T.C. Francis; his children grew to both fear and hate him. When Connors shared with his siblings what their brother had done to her, they were unaware of the truths related to his crime. Additional information was revealed of his life and death from cancer while incarcerated, and further details of their own tragic torturous family history, as Connors bravely and courageously illustrated her story beginning with a protective disassociation, then years later, discovering another connection/link to emotional wellness and stability. ~ With thanks to the Seattle Public Library.
In 1984, Joanna Connors a journalist/reporter for the largest newspaper in the state of Ohio "The Plain Dealer": was one of the 3,734 people who reported a forcible rape that year. It wasn’t until the following year the Cleveland Police Department would open an investigative unit that handled the large increase of rapes, which years later with improved DNA testing indicated the presence of serial rapists. Using court documents and official reports and records, her own journals, Connors skillfully recalled the the intensity of difficulties, complexities of coping with and surviving the aftermath following a violent crime in: “I Will Find You”.
Connors rapist was apprehended, and she was able to identify, testify in court leading to prosecution of the man responsible: David Francis. He had just been released from prison, was free on parole, he pled not guilty to charges of rape and assault claiming he was unable to have sex due to a cancer diagnosis. After receiving the maximum sentencing allowed by law, he coldly stared her down and made threatening remarks, which Connors reviewed years later while examining court transcripts.
As her children David and Zoe finished high school and prepared for college, Connors after years of therapy, wanted to share the truth of the impact of rape on various aspects of their lives, Zoe was greatly distressed, David avoided the subject. In the aftermath and the study of root causes associated with rape, Connors turned her attention to the life of David Francis. What she discovered was his terrible past, Francis chilling connection as a youth to the Lyman School for boys (est.1886-1971) which was the first reform school in the nation located in West-borough, MA. Also, the lock-up Bridgewater State Hospital for the criminally insane, both facilities admitted Albert DeSalvo (1931-1973) charged in 1967, known as the Boston Strangler.
David Francis was one of eight children born to Millie and T.C. Francis. Millie was killed in a mysterious house fire, an older brother was murdered according to his sister Charlene. The entire family was linked either to petty or serious criminal activity and/or alcohol and substance abuse, none escaping the terrible magnitude of neglect and abuse perpetrated by T.C. Francis; his children grew to both fear and hate him. When Connors shared with his siblings what their brother had done to her, they were unaware of the truths related to his crime. Additional information was revealed of his life and death from cancer while incarcerated, and further details of their own tragic torturous family history, as Connors bravely and courageously illustrated her story beginning with a protective disassociation, then years later, discovering another connection/link to emotional wellness and stability. ~ With thanks to the Seattle Public Library.
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Reviewed in the United States on April 24, 2020
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I was left confused as to why the victim chose to invest so much of her time and emotional energy tracking down anyone who could share insight into the thug who raped her? Its like trying to find and get answers from an owner of a rabid animal which had bit you yearrrrs back. Wasnt the answer obvious when her attacker was caught.. and when she got hold of his files? He was a common, street thug with fangs and this is what thugs typically do.
Reviewed in the United States on May 22, 2020
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I would recommend this book to anyone who has been in a violent situation and has tried to make sense of the experience. It is a journey that the author takes and we find ourselves in the healing journey with her.
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Reviewed in the United States on February 27, 2017
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Normally, I don't post book reviews.
This a novel, I couldn't put down! even after several days of not reading, the novel lingered in my mind. how brave a woman can be to overcome a tragedy. instead of completely ignoring what had happened. she went looking for it.
she wanted to find out , why people become the way they do. what happened to them as children, that would make them into monsters? made them doing horrible things to people.
while I don't know her on a personal level. she is one the strongest people out there. to face up to tragedy. to ask questions. to not judge someone. instead of saying, " why me?" she asked " why, them? what happened?"
I hope she continues to write!
This a novel, I couldn't put down! even after several days of not reading, the novel lingered in my mind. how brave a woman can be to overcome a tragedy. instead of completely ignoring what had happened. she went looking for it.
she wanted to find out , why people become the way they do. what happened to them as children, that would make them into monsters? made them doing horrible things to people.
while I don't know her on a personal level. she is one the strongest people out there. to face up to tragedy. to ask questions. to not judge someone. instead of saying, " why me?" she asked " why, them? what happened?"
I hope she continues to write!
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Reviewed in the United States on April 8, 2016
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What a penetrating look at the personal trauma and survival of rape in America. The book is well researched and gains its authority by the very honesty of approach. Joanna Connors spreads her life before us, first as someone forced to dissociate from the rape trauma, then progressively as someone who faces and integrates that trauma into her existence. The book seems to divide itself between her personal story of being raped on a college campus in 1985 and then an investigative journalism of the perpetrator and his family tragedy. But Connors is able to integrate the two worlds as one as she faces down the haunting places and faces of her trauma. There is no doubt it is a personal story, but it becomes the story of so many women and men who face this terrible assault. Her style is cutting and clear, much as her reviews as film and book critic were for years at the Cleveland Plain Dealer. This story can only help others to heal as we witness it helping the author.
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Reviewed in the United States on July 14, 2016
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Thank you Ms Connors for writing this. She is spot on. A must for anyone who has been raped, or their family members. I myself was raped and Ms Connors has it all right. This is a no joke book, it delves deep into the feelings of the victim and their family. It's an easy read and there were times I just couldn't put it down. It's real and honest and I appreciate her writing this and putting it all down, I know it must have been difficult. I say thank you again.
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Reviewed in the United States on November 2, 2017
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Startling, insightful, and honest. Ms. Connors does a wonderful job of telling of her painful journey while revealing injustices happening daily to the forgotten and poor. A very fast read.
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Unique and compelling. Nearly stabbing...
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on July 29, 2016Verified Purchase
I have to advise you that the book is utterly heavy and disturbing. It's difficult to go through it unaffected. As far as I know it's the only complete and deep account of an actual rape and it's consequences on the victim first-hand. It has been possible because of the victim spectacular dissociation abilities and a quite a few other things that "didn't go wrong". She admits quite honestly she's been lucky in many ways. It's a truly remarkable "trip into hell" because she take us on a tour from her rape, to the trial, to her difficult life afterward until when she decided to study the life of her assaulter. It's easy to understand that this meant for her to constantly recall very bad memories and there is no "happy ending" or "triumph of justice". Then, why read it? Because it's the only real account about something no woman will ever tell you, especially if you are a man.
The most interesting thing is that she tried to overcome the dire consequences of what happened to her by means of an Orpheus-like "descent to hell" (recalling all that happened and interviewing the rapist 's relatives and friends) and, as Orpheus, failing to get back her previous serenity.
Thus, what she did it's of great importance for her and for everybody who has the courage to read her book. But, please, don't read it if you don't want to know how really dangerous your world could be.
The most interesting thing is that she tried to overcome the dire consequences of what happened to her by means of an Orpheus-like "descent to hell" (recalling all that happened and interviewing the rapist 's relatives and friends) and, as Orpheus, failing to get back her previous serenity.
Thus, what she did it's of great importance for her and for everybody who has the courage to read her book. But, please, don't read it if you don't want to know how really dangerous your world could be.
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SHOCKING
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on March 1, 2017Verified Purchase
Joanna brings her horrific tale of rape to the public arena. I can only feel sympathy and shock at what she experienced all those years ago. She is a very brave and honest woman with great inner strength to have attempted to find her rapist. A very interesting, intriguing and shocking story. Well done Joanna for making it through this trauma and I wish you a happy healthy and successful life - you deserve it!

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Four Stars
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on August 16, 2017Verified Purchase
Good page turner

Mrs Karen Denton
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Really good
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on July 23, 2017Verified Purchase
Really enjoyed this book and style of writing. Would recommend.

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Four Stars
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on March 13, 2017Verified Purchase
A great read. Moving. Interesting.
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