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Drawing Blood Hardcover – December 1, 2015
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Art was my dearest friend.
To draw was trouble and safety, adventure and freedom.
In that four-cornered kingdom of paper, I lived as I pleased.
This is the story of a girl and her sketchbook.
In language that is fresh, visceral, and deeply moving—and illustrations that are irreverent and gorgeous—here is a memoir that will change the way you think about art, sex, politics, and survival in our times.
From a young age, Molly Crabapple had the eye of an artist and the spirit of a radical. After a restless childhood on New York's Long Island, she left America to see Europe and the Near East, a young artist plunging into unfamiliar cultures, notebook always in hand, drawing what she observed.
Returning to New York City after 9/11 to study art, she posed nude for sketch artists and sketchy photographers, danced burlesque, and modeled for the world famous Suicide Girls. Frustrated with the academy and the conventional art world, she eventually landed a post as house artist at Simon Hammerstein's legendary nightclub The Box, the epicenter of decadent Manhattan nightlife before the financial crisis of 2008. There she had a ringside seat for the pitched battle between the bankers of Wall Street and the entertainers who walked among them—a scandalous, drug-fueled circus of mutual exploitation that she captured in her tart and knowing illustrations. Then, after the crash, a wave of protest movements—from student demonstrations in London to Occupy Wall Street in her own backyard—led Molly to turn her talents to a new form of witness journalism, reporting from places such as Guantanamo, Syria, Rikers Island, and the labor camps of Abu Dhabi. Using both words and artwork to shed light on the darker corners of American empire, she has swiftly become one of the most original and galvanizing voices on the cultural stage.
Now, with the same blend of honesty, fierce insight, and indelible imagery that is her signature, Molly offers her own story: an unforgettable memoir of artistic exploration, political awakening, and personal transformation.
- Print length352 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherHarper
- Publication dateDecember 1, 2015
- Dimensions6.13 x 1.06 x 8.5 inches
- ISBN-100062323644
- ISBN-13978-0062323644
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“Crabapple is smart and wicked and wicked smart, a master of imagery and perception, and so her art always works on multiple levels. So too the book. She’s not afraid to provide contradictory thoughts and feelings. Drawing Blood might be the sexiest thing you read this year.” (Daily Beast)
“This beautiful book, generously graced with so many illustrations, is artfully designed and fun to browse for the images alone…But Crabapple’s tight, vibrant, jabbing prose, and prescient asides are the reason to buy this work. Her narrative is well-crafted, expertly told, and completely compelling.” (Seattle Times Book Review)
“The book reads like a notebook of New York, a cultural history of a certain set. Filtered through her eyes, we see 9/11, the aftermath of the crash, Occupy Wall Street, Hurricane Sandy and onward... [Crabapple is] a new model for this century’s young woman. (New York Times Book Review)
“Celebrated New York journalist Crabapple is also one of America’s best, most original artists. Her memoir tells the story of her remarkable life, from her days modeling for Suicide Girls to her groundbreaking Dr. Sketchy’s Anti-Art School and her work with Occupy Wall Street.” (Men’s Journal)
“Hers is a story of art as liberation…Molly detects the bright and beautiful as well as she does the dark and fearful in the world not just because her eye is keen, but also because her eyes are so wide open.” (Alana Massey, Buzzfeed Books)
“Among the book’s delights are the frequent examples of her work, from jittery sketches to lush, colorful paintings — both words and images are the product of a keen eye and devastating pen.” (Boston Globe)
“Jaw dropping, awe inspiring, and not afraid to shock, Crabapple is a punk Joan Didion, a young Patti Smith with paint on her hands, a twenty-first century Sylvia Plath. There’s no one else like her; prepare to be blown away by both the words and pictures.” (Booklist (starred review))
“Lavishly illustrated, the book offers a candid portrayal of an artist’s journey to self-knowledge and fulfillment.” (Kirkus Reviews)
“Artist, writer, and activist Crabapple was compelled from a young age by the need to draw because it gives her a sense of self worth. Her struggles as an impoverished artist are rendered here in raw, vivid prose, accompanied by her arresting illustrations.” (Publishers Weekly)
“Using illustrations to bolster the written material, Drawing Blood, out now, is a more intimate memoir than we’re used to seeing, one that is blazingly honest and unafraid to offer up something real to chew on.” (Paper Magazine)
“Artist Molly Crabapple delivers a violently felt and intimately revealing memoir.” (Book Riot)
“Hands down, the best book I’ve read all year…an incredible book that has everyone talking… This raw, unrepentant memoir sheds light on Molly Crabapple’s early career, her first forays into reporting, and her tireless quest to improve as an artist. The lavish illustrations are just the icing on the cake.” (Heavy.com)
“Molly Crabapple’s pen is a scalpel, and she’s not afraid to turn the blade on herself. Beautifully excruciating.” (Patton Oswalt)
“Molly Crabapple could be this generation’s Charles Bukowski. She’s a great artist whose life is also a work of art.” (Matt Taibbi)
“In a few short years, Molly Crabapple has proved to be one of the most determined and effective political artists working in these sorry times. I wish there were a hundred or even two or three like her.” (Joe Sacco)
“Molly writes like she draws: the spare lines have a reporter’s keen accuracy, but can barely contain the boisterous, messy, soulful life splashing about within. Inspiring, intimate, and just a bit intimidating, this book is a must.” (Joss Whedon, creator of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and writer-director of The Avengers)
“Molly Crabapple is turn by turn irreverent, respectful, enraged and then trembling with awe, and all of this is a tender meditation on the power of art to transform a singular life into one that can be emblematic for us all: powerful and magical.” (Chris Abani, author of The Secret History of Las Vegas and GraceLand)
“Molly Crabapple writes that her ‘pen is a lockpick,’ and with it she has revealed truths about life, culture, and politics in America that are compelling, artistic, and memorable-as is this revealing new memoir. An engaging read by one of the nation’s most gifted activists.” (Bryan Stevenson, author of Just Mercy)
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“Molly Crabapple could be this generation’s Charles Bukowski. She’s a great artist whose life is also a work of art.”—Matt Taibbi
In language that is fresh, visceral, and deeply moving—and with illustrations that are irreverent and gorgeous—here is a memoir that will change the way you think about art, sex, politics, and survival in our times.
From a young age, Molly Crabapple had the eye of an artist and the spirit of a radical. After a restless childhood on New York’s Long Island, she left America to see Europe and the Near East, a young artist plunging into unfamiliar cultures, notebook always in hand, drawing what she observed.
Returning to New York City just before 9/11 to study art, she posed nude for sketch artists and sketchy photographers, danced burlesque, and modeled for the world-famous Suicide Girls. Frustrated with the academy and the conventional art world, she eventually landed a post as house artist at Simon Hammerstein’s legendary nightclub the Box, the epicenter of decadent Manhattan nightlife before the financial crisis of 2008. There she had a ringside seat for the pitched battle between the bankers of Wall Street and the entertainers who walked among them—a scandalous, drug-fueled circus of mutual exploitation that she captured in her tart and knowing illustrations. Then, after the crash, a wave of protest movements—from student demonstrations in London to Occupy Wall Street in her own backyard—led Molly to turn her talents to a new form of witness journalism, reporting from places such as Guantánamo, Syria, Rikers Island, and the labor camps of Abu Dhabi. Using both words and artwork to shed light on the darker corners of the American empire, she has swiftly become one of the most original and galvanizing voices on the cultural stage.
Now, with the same blend of honesty, fierce insight, and indelible imagery that is her signature, Molly offers her own story: an unforgettable memoir of artistic exploration, political awakening, and personal transformation.
About the Author
Molly Crabapple is an artist and writer. She is a contributing editor for Vice and has written for the New York Times, the Paris Review, and the Guardian, among other publications. Her work is in the permanent collection of the Museum of Modern Art. She lives in New York City.
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- Publisher : Harper (December 1, 2015)
- Language : English
- Hardcover : 352 pages
- ISBN-10 : 0062323644
- ISBN-13 : 978-0062323644
- Item Weight : 1.45 pounds
- Dimensions : 6.13 x 1.06 x 8.5 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #3,009,522 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
- #584 in Individual Artist Essays
- #2,435 in Individual Artists' Books
- #5,544 in Biographies of Artists, Architects & Photographers (Books)
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Molly Crabapple is an artist and writer in New York. Her memoir, Drawing Blood, was published by HarperCollins in 2015. Brothers of the Gun, her illustrated collaboration with Syrian war journalist Marwan Hisham, will be published by One World/Penguin Random House in May 2018. Her reportage has been published in the New York Times, New York Review of Books, The Paris Review, Vanity Fair, The Guardian, VICE, and elsewhere. She has been the recipient of a Yale Poynter Fellowship, a Front Page Award, and a Gold Rush Award, and shortlisted for a Frontline Print Journalism Award. She is often asked to discuss her work chronicling the conflicts of the 21st Century, and has appeared on All In with Chris Hayes, Amanpour, NPR, BBC News, PRI, and more. The New Yorker described her 2017 mural "The Bore of Babylon" as "a terrifying amalgam of Hieronymus Bosch, Honoré Daumier, and Monty Python’s Flying Circus.” Her art is in the permanent collections of the Museum of Modern Art, the Rubin Museum of Art and the New York Historical Society.
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Customers praise the beautiful writing and illustrations in the book, describing them as vivid and unapologetic, with one customer noting the artist's commitment to her craft.
"...This may not be an art catalogue but it’s probably the most beautifully illustrated memoir I’ve ever read...." Read more
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Customers find the book engaging and a must-read, with one describing it as a compelling autobiography.
"...Drawing Blood is such an engaging read that I couldn’t put the book down until I had devoured all of its contents and yet, there were so many lines..." Read more
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- Reviewed in the United States on December 5, 2015“Art was a stranger making eyes through the smoke of a foreign dive bar”
Drawing Blood is such an engaging read that I couldn’t put the book down until I had devoured all of its contents and yet, there were so many lines and passages to savor and to reread, so many artworks by Molly to let your eyes linger over. This may not be an art catalogue but it’s probably the most beautifully illustrated memoir I’ve ever read. Some passages I had read in the reviews or articles by Molly over the past week but they were even more enjoyable the second time around placed in context and elaborated on more fully.
I came to Molly’s work after she was both writing and creating visual works of art. She seemed so established, so sure by the time I encountered both her writing and her artworks that it was good to get the backstory on her journey as an artist and a writer. I’ve never had the privilege of meeting Molly or attending an exhibition of her work but she and many of the characters in her book seem so familiar as part of my mental landscape that in some ways reading the book was like visiting distant friends and filling in all the gaps of what they’ve been up to between the various stories they’ve told you, you heard about, or read in their Facebook posts.
“Fear is a doorway…”
Drawing Blood is a book that by the time you finish you’ve already thought of ten or twenty friends that you’d recommend the book to: young nieces and nephews to encourage them to dream of travel to distant lands; artist, writers, and poet friends who are toiling away in oblivion because it is either they must write, they must make art, or they will die inside; friends who are politically active in fighting against the status quo, against the establishment; friends who’ve grown cynical from the endless stream of headlines that make this feel like the darkest of times growing darker; to friends who compulsively color outside the lines; to women young and old who are fighting the patriarchy; and to friends who enjoy reading a good memoir.
“I began to find the art that came from my flaws as well as my virtues-that art as intrinsic and unfakeable as handwriting”
In reading Molly’s journey of becoming an artist and a writer I thought of William Blakes lines, “Improvement makes strait roads, but the crooked roads without Improvement, are roads of Genius”. Molly didn’t follow anyone else's prescribed path on her journey. She tested herself constantly and expanded herself by walking through the doors opened by facing her fears. She followed her curiosity wherever it led her. She never let anyone else define what it is to be a woman, to be an artist, or to simply be human though she took in a wide net of counsel.
“Come back tomorrow, gorgeous. We’ve always wanted our own Toulouse-Lautrec.”
I really had no clue about many of the scenes of the playgrounds of the wealthy (why would I) Molly describes but wow is it delicious to see them through her critical eyes. I’d want to time travel to these scenes just to see the art in the context for which they were created. Molly though does a wonderful job of recreating this for the reader. However, Molly’s never some court artist. She’s moved equally well in rural villages in Turkey as in the wild excesses of The Box.
Sometimes the muse “shows up at your doorway wearing black stockings & ties you to the bed.”
I’m of the school of thought that artist should be questioning the status quo, they should be pushing the boundaries of what society deems acceptable, for by doing so they expand the space we all live in. Vicarious as it may be it was good to journey with Molly as she pushed herself, as she put herself in situations where she wasn’t entirely comfortable and often not entirely safe.
“To see my art held on the streets meant more to me than to see it hanging in any gallery”
Molly has been identified as the Occupied movement’s most prominent artist. Drawing Blood helps put that label into flesh and blood context. It’’s not a label Molly gives herself and she pushes back where she’s being given credit that is due to others. Even so, she’s fully engaged with all her being in the times we live in and doesn’t shy away from confronting the monsters and the hypocrisy rather she finds that inside herself or on the street.
I found so much to enjoy in Drawing Blood that I’ll be getting a second copy that I can mark up an annotate on a second reading but I do want to keep one first edition spotless so that I can go back from time to time and look at the art and remember the inspiring day I spent with Molly reading Drawing Blood from cover to cover. In these dark times Drawing Blood is a ray of hope, though it’s far from pollyannish.
- Reviewed in the United States on July 27, 2024Fascinating memoir, slice of crucial social history, brilliant drawings. Her voracious account of The Box night club is for the ages--her camera-eye capturing without judgment the ruling class at its decadent peak. And much more. A historical eyewitness for sure.
I read it in one day because I couldn't stop, with more lined up. Molly is a role model for young women trying to live fully amid chaos, and for the rest of us to marvel at.
Love you Molly!
- Reviewed in the United States on February 28, 2016I have an on/off love affair with the book reviews in "The Economist". Sometimes I love the books they recommend and sometimes I loathe them. Drawing Blood falls into the "it's great" category. Drawing Blood is Molly's personal memoir of her career so far, her struggles to be recognised as an artist, the people she's met and her political world view. It's unusual for a young artist (b. 1983) to write a memoir so young but her life has been crammed with experiences that make this a meaningful, thought provoking book. Some people will undoubtedly be horrified that Molly chose to work in the adult indiustry to fund her early career but in noughties NYC that was, perhaps, the only way a struggling, working class, female artist could maker her way without a wealthy patron.
Molly gives vivid descriptions of strip clubs, burlesque dancers, artists, protests, and a lifestyle that many can only imagine. The characters leap off the page illustrated by a vivid written style that draws in words as well as Molly makes art. The book has been described as an unflattering mirror held up to conventional middle-class lives. This is a true but harsh description. I don't sense that Molly regrets her life. Life is to be enjoyed, struggles are to be overcome. If you have self-belief and talent Molly shows you can succeed.
Is this a feminist tract? No! The point is made that it is harder for women to succeed in the art world just as it is in many other endeavours. It is also too easy to sneer at the routes someone has to take before they reach a point of success. The book starts out with an angry tone. It mellows towards the end but is increasingly cynical about conventional political society. The book is lavishly illustrated and the drawings show an evolving artistic style that remains lush and vivid.
Here's to raising an absinthe to Molly Crabapple and her art and future success.
- Reviewed in the United States on September 23, 2016I am not a person who likes going to art museums in general, but I do like art in some way. I collect rave/party-flyers for over 20 years because of their art, and I really like Molly's drawing style. I knew some stories about Molly's life but when I read that she was going to write her memoir I was very interested. This book is 'that memoir' and it is definitely worth a read if you want to learn more about Molly. I am sure you didn't knew everything that she writes about herself in this book. She is very open and honest and I love the artwork of the book as well of course. I personally like her for being so honest and not closing her mouth when others would because of e.g. shame. She is intelligent and interested in many parts of society and people in general. She doesn't close her eyes for black people, Syria, etc. She knows what is really happening in the world and she tries to tell it as much people in the world who are open to see it as well, by a.o. making great art of the different situations she encountered.
- Reviewed in the United States on September 3, 2023I am an aspiring artist but I don't want to live in New York City like the real artists do. Molly c
Crabapple lives in New York City because she's a real artist and I enjoyed reading about her interesting life and some of the things she did on her way there.
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SkiamakhosReviewed in the United Kingdom on January 9, 20165.0 out of 5 stars Well worth reading.
"Drawing Blood" by Molly Crabapple is a memoir documenting Molly's early career, beginning with her childhood in New York's Lower East Side, & her obsession with art, inherited from her Jewish art teacher mother, and her early exposure to Marxist theory from her Puerto Rican dad. It tells of her teenage adventures in Europe & North Africa, her time as a nude model & burlesque dancer, & her involvement in the New York City nightlife, as resident artist at The Box, then on to the Occupy movement & her travels around the world documenting protests & struggle, like a photojournalist but with sketchpads & pens.
I found the early part quite inspiring - I love how Molly as a young girl invented herself, making herself into a chimera of her favourite characters: "an artist/Folies Bergeres dancer/spy". From early on she set herself targets & role models, inventing them if need be. I found her easy to identify with - it turns out she & I hung out on similar Usenet newsgroups in the '90s - her on alt.gothic.fashion, me on alt.gothic & uk.people.gothic.
The chapters about the Box and about Suicide Girls made me angry for her & a little disgusted. Molly did what she had to to pay the bills, sure, and The Box was certainly a way to do that - it paid a LOT more than stripping in dive bars, being essentially a large scale upmarket clip joint shearing the bankers of their money, but ugh... it seems to me so exploitative, the very worst of capitalist "culture". But yeah, given the wage differential between that & working dive bars or private sessions with creepy Guys With Cameras, it looks like the best gig in town seen that way. I share some of the rage with which Molly painted that scene, her "pen flicking over the page like a razor".
I've been reading the book next to my PC, looking up the artists & acts she refers to in this & the period immediately after The Box - if you google YouTube for "I Have Your Heart" you'll find the short animation Molly took 2 years to create. It's worth a watch.
From here on in we're into territory which I remember - I've been a fan of Molly's art and writing since her famous "Week In Hell" session, where she covered the walls of an hotel room in paper & then filled the space with her art, drawing the performers & artistes who had populated her life for the past few years. I followed this on Tumblr & Facebook & Twitter.
In the chapter on Occupy she asks a friend if the protest would be "the same old white guys with dreads" & then later says it's the crustpunks (what we in the UK used to call crusties) who would be the backbone of Occupy's future. This makes me laugh because back in 1991 I was something of a crustie protesting against the first Gulf War, my mates all playing drums, smoking hashish & leading their doggies on strings, and when you think about it, those 30- and 40-something white guys with dreads were the crusties of the early '90s. They were indeed the future of protest, but they'd also been its past since back when Molly was a wee thing. Ironic, but there you go.
I followed Molly's exploits & adventures with Occupy at the time, via her blog, her twitter & via the writings of like-minded journalists & bloggers, like Laurie Penny, so chapter 27 onward is more reminder to me than revelatory. While they were in New York, I was involved in my own local Occupy, in Birmingham, where some of the locals had taken over an ornamental garden behind the Library. We'd taken over Centenary Square originally but stupidly allowed ourselves to be moved on, to this site where nobody saw & nobody knew. But I kept the camp supplied with water & charcoal for their burner, & came & sat & chatted with them. I remember the initial hope that Occupy brought, and I remember the police brutality when they broke up the bigger camps. While Molly tried to unite the "professionally gazed-at girls like Stoya, and professionally listened-to journalists like Laurie" we briefly formed an anarchist local & talked of SolFed affiliation. The Birmingham anarchist group fell apart, but it looks like Molly's bridge-building has lasted.
I remember Molly's arrest, 2 blocks from her home. I saw it all over Twitter, & participated in the online #FreeMollyCrabapple hashtag protest. It's interesting to read the inside story. I think the moral of that tale has to be, if you're with Laurie Penny & she says "This is about to turn bad," follow her. Get out of Dodge.
We see Molly's experiences during Hurricane Sandy, and her beginning her 9-painting marathon collection "Shell Game", a work where each painting is part of a coherent whole, portraying 2011's protests, revolutions & villains through animal characters - fat cats creating a goddess of bubbles with a vampire squid for a hat, hacker bees buzzing around a network goddess made of CAT-5 cabling, and so on. Each of these is an epic 6 week work, broken up by Molly & Laurie's trip to Greece to cover the Syntagma Square protests for their joint work, Discordia. By this time, Molly is starting to develop her talent as a writer, and finds Laurie's talent threatening but she "forgave her every fight and petty jealousy and moment of competition" because Laurie's words "were so right". For a moment I was thinking "Oh crap, she's going to fall out with her or they'll end up distancing themselves from each other", so I was quite relieved to read that. I'm a fan of both Molly and Laurie & I'm glad they're friends. I think they work well together.
Molly points out something important before her trip to Guantanamo Bay's Camp X-Ray:
"Art is hope against cynicism, creation against entropy. To make art is an act of both love and defiance.Though I'm a cynic, I believe these things are all we have."
At Guantanamo, Molly covers the case of an artist like herself, a chap who'd already been cleared for release 5 years previously, and who despite having once been a great artist, no longer draws. She rounds off the book by saying what her art means to her - how it's taken her beyond the edge of burnout, "it's burned in". While she has evidently developed a world-class talent as a writer, her artist's eye giving her a descriptive prose style that is rich in detail & colour, she remains primarily a visual artist, greedily devouring sketchbook after sketchbook, and this is good.
Molly's memoir here is not just her memoir but a chronicle of the last 20-odd years, a description of a scene that I & many of my friends recognise, and protest movements that characterised the last decade & which have in many ways changed the world, even if not in the ways they'd initially hoped. Even if you're not one of Molly's fans, this is a book well worth reading.
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BordsteinprosaReviewed in Germany on December 4, 20155.0 out of 5 stars How to draw protest from the buttom of the heart // Wie man mit Herzblut zeichnend die Welt in Angriff nimmt
My eyes are eating the 352 pages of the book Drawing Blood by Molly Crabapple that was published on December 1st. The maliciously loving and clear and honest style of narrating the story is full of passion for the author's work. It is a story about keeping self-worth, strength, idealism and perception. Her words are leaving a constant tension while reading, as well as a breeze of magic that comes with the paintings of her intellectual world. These are the memoirs of a young Lady who listens to the unmistakable Sound in her to draw. Fortunately Molly has parents whose characters are so strong and well-grounded that she is always encouraged to go for her inner drive. She is not only a talented girl, knowing how to use a pen. Molly is living for drawing itself as her biggest passion. Drawing gives her self-esteem to brake down her own collision with the outside world. Furthermore drawing becomes Molly's exchange between inside and outside of her cosmos and reflects her existence.
Social exclusion and the nearing edge of the community she lives in, Molly abandons her childhood and splits her thoughts from the body. Though she manages the distance of adaptation, pride and respect towards herself. She starts travelling around the world at a young age, to make her impressions and thoughts about it last. While travelling she develops a sensitive view for details, expression and interpretation of the stories she lives through. The confrontation between vulnerability, making decisions and keeping her creativity, is a static undertone of the book. Steadily the author keeps the focus on the work that fulfils her. Not even in dark times of having no financial perspective, falling into the shadow world of sex work, and deciding to have an abortion. She makes honest decisions to herself and stands for them. The way she goes is an inspiring and frightening example, how hard it is for artists, activists or free thinker, to settle in our world. The power of money, the profit out of connections to high society and its abyss are a part of finding oneself. Dead end streets, Bubbles and periods of disappointment are forming her fighting spirit without turning fanatic.
Molly's head is constantly clear, she becomes a good entrepreneur and develops sensitiveness for the capitalistic world she lives in. Molly Crabapple has an exact understanding of how to wander between two universes when you are a three thinker. In her late twenties she makes a living out of her art and realises that her work got stuck. It has become reproductive and the character of their drawings is too static. Through her journalist friend from London, Molly becomes a part of the upcoming occupation culture in these days. Political changes and the upcoming transformation of society are firing her wish to be an active part of the protest. So the content of her work becomes political and do not only lead to an arrest and frustration about the happenings but also to some enormous energy to go on. From now on she writes articles and draws scenes from the real and outside world to make a statement. Out of an angry black owl who never accepted her own failure, became an angry phoenix whose wings are strong enough to create a storm that encourages other people. Molly Crabapple is inspiring other by constantly working against grievance and not giving in to people who doubt about her.
This book is full of the inner drive to stand for what inside us, wanting to be lived. Molly is a synonym for creativity, idealism and passion for art as a language that is very much underrated. Her story is a great journey through and to herself and a steady process of learning. Molly's narrative style is authentic, shocking and enforces to rethink our way of acting. The story may be just a small one out of thousand that are written in this world each day but it leaves the reader stronger than he was before. I wish a lot more people would try to make a statement out of the ordinary, of what they are able to create in their own language. Wherever verbal communication and language itself are ending, music and art are building bridges of understanding. Molly Crabapple is one of those bridges of the East River and I really hope she will resist the floods and the weather for a long time.
Drawing Blood is more than only a recommendable book about how to draw as a way of protest, from the button of the heart.
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Ab der ersten Seite zieht einen der liebevoll boshafte und ungeschönt ehrliche Erzählstil voller Passion für ihre Arbeit, mit in die Geschichte. Eine Geschichte über Aufrechterhaltung des Selbstwerts, Berufung, Charakterstärke, Idealismus und Erkenntnis. Ihre Worte hinterlassen eine kontinuierliche Spannung beim Lesen und einen Hauch von Magie, der durch das Zeichnen ihrer Gedankenwelt entsteht. Es sind die Memoiren einer jungen Frau, die von Kindesbeinen an diesen alles übertönenden Drang in sich versprüt, zu zeichnen. Dabei hat sie Eltern, deren starke Charaktere und Sicht der Welt sie ermutigen, niemals aufzugeben. Molly Crabapple ist nicht einfach ein begabtes Mädchen, das mit Stiften umgehen kann. Nein, sie lebt für ihre Zeichnungen, die ihrem Dasein Selbstwert verleihen und ihre Kollision mit der Außenwelt abbremsen. Zeichnen ist ihr Austausch zwischen ihrem eigenen Innen und Außen und reflektiert dabei unweigerlich und beständig ihr Dasein.
Frühe Ausgrenzung, soziale Isolation und der nahende Rand der Gesellschaft sind ihr dadurch oft näher, als die Erinnerungen an die verhasste Kindheit und ihr eigener Körper. Und doch schafft sie immer den Spagat zwischen Funktion, Anpassung an die Situation, Stolz und Respekt sich gegenüber. Das gesamte Buch über verliert sie sich nie in ihren Grundsätzen, verkauft nie ihre Seele für den Erfolg. Molly Crabapple reist schon früh um die Welt, um sie in ihrer bunten Handschrift zu verewigen, ihre Essenz einzufangen. Sie trifft dabei auf Menschen und deren Geschichten, entwickelt ein außerordentliches Gespür für Details, Ausdruck und Bedeutung der Geschichten, die sie zeichnet. Die Konfrontation mit der eigenen Verletzlichkeit, Entscheidungsfindung und Erfindergeist, sind ständig präsente Themen des Buches. Die Autorin schafft es fortwährend, den Fokus auf ihre Arbeit und ihre Berufung des Zeichnens nicht zu verlieren. Auch nicht, als sie aus Mangel an finanziellen Perspektiven, in die Schattenwelt des körperlichen Ausverkaufs gerät und unter anderem für sich die schwierige Entscheidung trifft, eine Abtreibung vornehmen zu lassen. Molly Crabapple trifft ehrliche Entscheidungen und steht für diese ein. Der Weg den sie geht, beschreibt auf erstaunlich beflügelnde und erschreckende Weise eine Gesellschaft, in der Querdenker, Künstler und Gedankengutvisionäre ohne Vitamin B nur schwer Fuß fassen können. Die Macht des Geldes, der profitablen Beziehungen zur Oberschicht und deren Abgründen, sind Teil ihres Findungsprozesses. Sackgassen, Seifenblasen und Phasen voller Enttäuschung formen ihren Kampfgeist, ohne dabei fanatistisch zu werden.
Stets behält sie einen klaren Kopf, entwickelt einen guten Unternehmergeist und ein Feingefühl für die kapitalistische Welt, in der sie lebt. Molly Crabapple versteht es, wie man als Freidenker zwischen zwei Abseitswelten umherwandelt und sich dabei auf respektvolle Art all das zunutze macht, das einen weiterbringen kann. Als Molly Ende zwanzig durch ihren Bekanntheitsgrad von Ihren Arbeiten lebt, begreift sie, dass ihre Bilder stagnieren, einen reproduktiven Charakter bekommen haben. Durch den Kontakt zu einer befreundeten Journalistin in England, wird Molly ein Teil einer jungen Protestkultur und realisiert, dass sie in der Lage ist, mit ihrer Arbeit eine geistige Haltung zu repräsentieren. Die politischen Veränderungen und die Wandlung der Gesellschaft zum Kontrollstaat, lösen in ihr den Wunsch nach Partizipation aus. Ihre Arbeiten werden politisch, aktivistisch und führen nicht nur zu Verhaftung und Frustration über die Ereignisse, sondern auch zu einer enormen Energie, diese zu überwinden. Fortan schreibt sie Berichte, Artikel, zeichnet reale Geschehnisse aus persönlicher Überzeugung. Aus der wütenden, kleinen schwarzen Eule, die ihre eigene Unfähigkeit nicht duldet, wird im Verlauf des Buches ein wütender Phoenix, dessen Flügel genug Wind erzeugen, andere mit ihrem Schaffen zu berühren, mitzuziehen und zu inspirieren.
Die Eule hat mich beim Lesen bildlich wie ein Totem von Molly verfolgt. Als ein häufig verwendetes Symbol der Weisheit, sitzt sie mir als Leser stetig auf der Schulter und liest mit.
Hier findet Selbstfindung durch den inneren Trieb zur Kreativität, Idealismus und der Leidenschaft für eine weit unterschätzte Sprache, frei von Akustik statt. Dieses Buch ist eine spannende Reise durch und zu sich selbst, ein fortwährender Lernprozess. Die Autorin ist authentisch und ihre Erzählungen schockieren, beleben und regen zum Nachdenken an. Diese Geschichte vermag im Vergleich zu den großen Werken unserer literarischen Welt eine von vielen sein, die tagtäglich auf dieser Welt erzählt werden, aber sie lässt den Leser stärker zurück, als er es zuvor war. Ich wünschte mehr Menschen würden auf ihre Weise aus dem Alltäglichen die Magie herausholen, die es benötigt, um etwas zu verändern. Ein Mensch, dessen Charakter so stark ist, dass er die Konfrontation als Herausforderung sieht, wird immer die Verbindungen knüpfen die es benötigt, um an sein Ziel zu gelangen. Immer dort, wo die Sprache eine Barriere bildet und Worte nicht mehr greifen, bauen Musik und Kunst Brücken des Verständnisses. Molly Crabapple ist eine von diesen Brücken über dem East River und ich hoffe, sie trotzt noch lange den Fluten und dem Wetter um sich herum.
Drawing Blood ist ein mehr als empfehlenswertes Buch darüber, wie man vor allem mit Herzblut zeichnend, die Welt beeinflussen kann.
Nic FerrierReviewed in the United Kingdom on January 11, 20165.0 out of 5 stars Honest. Beautiful. Wonderful.
Inspirational. Raw. Exciting. Absorbing. Enthralling. Tear producing. Life affirming. Shame inducing. Generation bridging. Completely and utterly brilliant. Just read it.
Evren K.Reviewed in Germany on August 31, 20165.0 out of 5 stars Offers great insights, will push you forward
Molly Crabapple's memoir offers insights into her path to becoming such an artist and a distinctive voice. Her focus and self-discipline in perfecting her craft push me to try harder with my writing. Her drive to get noticed, the business sense she developed to function in New-York City are inspiring to me, a young person living near Geneva, CH. Her search for meaning, purpose and political engagement makes me wonder how I can be more engaged with the world and find purpose for myself.
I love her prose. Her writing flows while also being, at once, precise and concise. She adds the exact amount of feeling and linguistic flourishes to convey her meaning and push the reader forward -- never an ounce more. It is a great read. I recommend it wholeheartedly.
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Ein KundeReviewed in Germany on February 9, 20164.0 out of 5 stars Lebenserfahrung einer New Yorker Künstlerin
Dieses Buch beschreibt kurzweilig den Lebenslauf bis ins mittlere Alter einer New Yorker Künstlerin, wobei auch dann hier und da eine ihrer Zeichnungen auftaucht. Ihre Perspektive ist etwas nach links ausgerichtet und damit manchmal etwas einseitig, was aber den Unterhaltungswert ihrer Erzählung keinesfalls schmälert. Wer schon immer mal wissen wollte, wie man in New York auch leben kann und man(n) im Orient auf eine Amerikanerin reagiert, wird hier dazu so manche erstaunliche Anekdote zu lesen bekommen.




