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Too Much to Dream: A Psychedelic American Boyhood Kindle Edition

4.4 4.4 out of 5 stars 8 ratings

Growing up in the suburbs of Boston and raised on secular Judaism, Cocoa Puffs, and Gilligan’s Island, Peter Bebergal was barely in his teens when the ancient desire to finding higher spiritual meaning in the universe struck. Already schooled in mysticism by way of comic books, Dungeons & Dragons, and Carlos Castaneda, he turned to hallucinogens, convinced they would provide a path to illumination.

Was this profound desire for God—a god he believed that could only be apprehended by an extreme state of altered consciousness—simply a side effect of the drugs? Or was it a deeper human longing that was manifesting itself, even on a country club golf course at the edge of a strip mall?

Too Much to Dream places Bebergal’s story within the cultural history of hallucinogens, American fascination with mysticism, and the complex relationship between drug addiction, popular culture, rock ‘n’ roll, occultism, and psychology. With a captivating foreword by Peter Coyote, and interviews with writers, artists, and psychologists such as Dennis McKenna, James Fadima, Arik Roper, Jim Woodring, and Mark Tulin, Bebergal offers a groundbreaking exploration of drugs, religion, and the craving for spirituality entrenched in America’s youth.

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"Bebergal's beautifully nuanced prose and depths of psychological insight make this one of the best memoirs of the decade, one that also offers a uniquely valuable perspective on addiction." —
Booklist

"Bebergal embarks upon a whirlwind coming-of-age journey, consorting with homeless acid-heads, occult-obsessed mall security guards, desperate hardcore punkers and other fringe dwellers. He delves into underground comics, psychedelic rock, Western ceremonial magic and lots and lots of tripping. Along the way, Bebergal presents a primer on the psychedelic era, discussing in extended non-memoir passages the history of LSD, the I-Ching, the Silver Surfer, Pink Floyd and more." —
Metro


"Told with compassion and understanding . . . [Bebergal's] analysis of addictive behavior provides material for thought and discussion. In the end, Bebergal offers hope that his addictive behavior can rest, and that he's discovered the bliss of the everyday." —
Publishers Weekly

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Too Much to Dream makes Catcher in the Rye look like a Boy Scout manual. With honesty and insight, Peter Bebergal, ever hard-up for mystical experience, reveals the underbelly of the countercultural slogan Sex, drugs, and rock ’n’ roll, where festered a deep spiritual quest. Lenny Bruce once said that people were leaving the church and looking for God; Bebergal’s particular journey extends that concept by taking the universe personally but finally surrendering his demons of drug addiction to the ultimate, inconceivable Mystery, while managing to keep one foot in the fantasy world.” —Paul Krassner, author of Who's to Say What's Obscene: Politics, Culture and Comedy in America Today

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Too Much to Dream is at once an examination of American drug culture and a deeply personal journey of self-reflection and addiction. In Bebergal’s search for spiritual enlightenment, he dispels the myths surrounding the use and abuse of psychedelics and other mind-altering substances. This is a wonderfully powerful story that teaches us that transcendence is best found with our feet firmly planted on the ground and our 'eyes toward heaven.'"
—James Brown, author of
The Los Angeles Diaries and This River

About the Author

Peter Bebergal is the co-author of The Faith Between Us. He studied religion at Brandeis and Harvard Divinity School and writes frequently on the intersection of popular culture, religion, and science as well as reviews on science fiction and fantasy. He lives in Cambridge with his wife and son.

An ordained practitioner of Zen Buddhism and a politically engaged actor,
Peter Coyote began his work in street theater and political organizing in San Francisco. In addition to acting in over 140 films, and working with directors such as Martin Ritt, Steven Spielberg and Roman Polanski, Coyote has won an Emmy for narrating the award-winning documentary Pacific Century. He has also narrated The West, The Dust Bowl, Prohibition, and The Roosevelts for Ken Burns. In 1993 he was awarded a Pushcart Prize for "Carla's Story," published in Zyzzyva. He lives in Mill Valley, CA.

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  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B005OCJBIQ
  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ Soft Skull (October 1, 2011)
  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ October 1, 2011
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • File size ‏ : ‎ 953 KB
  • Text-to-Speech ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Screen Reader ‏ : ‎ Supported
  • Enhanced typesetting ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • X-Ray ‏ : ‎ Not Enabled
  • Word Wise ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 258 pages
  • Page numbers source ISBN ‏ : ‎ 1593763824
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Peter Bebergal is the author of Season of the Witch: How the Occult Saved Rock and Roll, Too Much to Dream: A Psychedelic American Boyhood and The Faith between Us: A Jew and a Catholic Search for the Meaning of God (with Scott Korb), and the forthcoming Strange Frequencies. He writes widely on music and books, with special emphasis on the speculative and slightly fringe. His recent essays and reviews have appeared in The New Yorker online, Slate, The Times Literary Supplement, The Quietus, BoingBoing, and The Believer. Bebergal studied religion and culture at Harvard Divinity School, and lives in Cambridge, Massachusetts.

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  • Reviewed in the United States on October 31, 2011
    This book takes on a lot: in part an engaging memoir of a suburban misfit driven to near self-destruction by his obsessive desire to uncover the Truth behind "behind the veil" of everyday existence; an entertaining look at the post-hippy "me generations'" similar quest - from Leonard Nimoy on "In Search Of", to the explosion of interest in UFOs, tarot, crystals and new forms of spirituality that made up the New Age revolution; a primer on the evolution of psychedelic culture and communication, and how it could be found, if looked for, by simply digging down a layer under the surface of mainstream media (e.g. "comix" as opposed to comic books etc.); and a fascinating look at the history of scientific (and quasi scientific) attempts to understand the significance of psychedelic drugs (or "entheogens", as we learn some researchers call them in an attempt to leave behind some heavy cultural baggage).

    What emerges is very entertaining (I read it in a day) and very informative (I learned, for example, about a roomful of non-drug-taking divinity students in the basement of a nearby university chapel on Good Friday tripping their brains out on psilocybin as part of a research project). Some of the expected players make an appearance (Timothy Leary, Ken Kesey etc.) but, particularly the former, emerge as figures who probably did more harm than good to their ultimate quest of "turning on" America, and bringing up about a deep shift in our collective consciousness. More interesting, to me at least, were some of the lesser-known players - the author in many cases interviewed people at the true heart of things for this book.

    Also fascinating are the descriptions of mini universes of fellow misfits he navigates (from Radio Shack to Boston Common) populated by unusual characters (I think of the man in the park, almost invisible to most passers by, who had the thoughts, calculations and dreams of those who passed by him literally written/drawn on his coat). This is, however, not at all a romanticized vision of a psychedelic quest - the darkness, paranoia, and destructive side of taking powerful drugs, outside of an appropriate "set and setting", are bravely laid bare in a very personal way.

    In a book with as broad a scope as this one - from punks, to D&D to Cagney and Lacey and beyond - there will be elements that are more interesting than others; the careful descriptions of the various post-60s psychedelic bands will interest others more than it interested me. For me the best parts were the shifting back and forth between the personal - days and nights in the harvard square pit, moshing with fellow punks, the ecstatic and intricately described tripping scenes - to the examination of the broader search others had attempted before the author, the often conflicting conclusions they came to, and the attempts of "serious" researchers to get to the bottom of the psychedelic question. If this sounds like your cup of tea, I highly recommend this book.
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  • Reviewed in the United States on January 13, 2015
    To me this book is universal and archetypal. It captures the quest for enlightenment within the context of a suburban/urban existence for people who grew up in the 1980s (but yet it transcends that context as well), whether you were living right outside of Boston or San Francisco. I loved and savored every page of it! His book Season of the Witch kicked my ass as well!
  • Reviewed in the United States on May 17, 2012
    I purchased the book after Peter Bebergal had an excellent appearance in a Gweek (BoingBoing) podcast. The memoir is a self-reflection on addiction; an history of hallucinogens and American mysticism and their relationship to drug addiction, comics, and music of the 60s, 70s, and 80s. An excellent foreword by Peter Coyote (unfortunately, Bebergal is not able to sustain that same high level of writing). The book has moments of fascinating insight but, unfortunately, is burdened with too much boilerplate history and often meandering narrative.
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  • Reviewed in the United States on September 6, 2013
    an excellent look at recovery, the spiritual process of reappraising the past and moving on into the future. Enjoyed the musical context and the solid, realistic message of recovery.
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    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on November 12, 2013
    Any Gen Xer who did psychedlics will really relate to this book except for the mental illness. Most of us got through it without mental issues.The good old days!

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